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Katniss's POV
My hand flies to my mouth and a sob escapes.
The only thing my mind can process is one thing: I killed, Gale.
I killed, Gale! I killed, Gale!
Tears stream down my face and I sob again.
I don't want to go to jail. I didn't mean to kill him!
I run up the stairs of our home, and run into the bedroom. I grab a backpack and fill it up with as many things I can find. I put in pants, long sleeves, make up, sweaters, underwear, bras, and an extra pair of shoes. I grab a fifty from the nightstand and run downstairs. I hear knocking on the front door.
"Mr. Hawthorne, is everything okay in there?" I hear our nosy next door neighbor say. She knows that Gale hits me but she doesn't do anything about it. She thinks I deserve it.
I don't answer and open the fridge silently. I grab five water bottles and silently close the door.
"Mr. Hawthorne?" I hear Mrs. Coin ask.
I open a cupboard and grab as many canned foods as I can. When I hear the sound of the door knob twisting I take off running towards the back door.
I hear Mrs. Coin's yells and I know that she found Gale's lifeless body.
I take out a hoodie and put it on. I put the hood over my head and take off into the woods.
I sob uncontrollably with tears streaming down my face, and trip. I get back up and run faster. I don't stop until I feel like I'm far away enough from the house.
I stop to catch my breathe but just sob. I start to cry really loud so I put a hand over my mouth.
I don't know how long I stay standing there but I can't stop crying. I need to move.
I take off in a sprint and don't stop until I can't run anymore. What feels like half an hour later, I reach the end of the woods. There's a small shop.
Good, I need a disguise.
I make sure the hood is on and I hide my face. I walk in the shop and see that there's a man with a beard behind the counter. He gives me a dirty look and my heart races. He's going to hit me.
You worthless piece of trash.
I look around, wondering where that noise came from. It sounded like Gale's voice.
"Hey, hurry up! Are you going to buy something or what?" The man asks in a angry voice.
"I-I-I'm sorry." I stutter and go down an isle. I see that there's some hair dye. I pick up a box and go back to the counter.
"That's all?" He asks and gives me a disgusted look. I nod slowly and he grunts." 8.25."
I hand him the fifty and he takes it from me. He puts it in a register and hands me my change. He puts the dye in a bag and hands it to me. I grab it from him and take off running. I don't stop until I reach a gas station ten minutes away from the shop. I go into the restroom and lock the door. I take out the dye and read the instructions. I've never dyed my hair before.
When I'm done reading the instructions I start to get the dye ready. When It's done, I put on the gloves. I start to dye my hair. When I'm done, I take off the gloves and throw them away. I put a bag on my head and tie it. I stand and wait for a good hour. It starts to stink in here so I quickly wash my hair in the sink. When I'm done, I dry my hair with one of my sweaters and I look in the mirror. My hair isn't dark anymore, It's blonde. It makes my eyes look blue.
I notice that my bruises stand out more than they used to. I grab some make up and quickly apply some.
When I'm done, I grab my bag and leave the restroom. I take off into the woods, again, and don't stop.
I spend at least a week walking, and sleeping in the woods. My food is almost gone, I have one water bottle left. My feet hurt from walking too much, but I have to deal with it.
Every night I get nightmares of Gale. It's either me killing him, or of him hitting me.
I get up and wipe sweat off my fore head. I start to walk again but my feet give out. I fall to my knees and get back up. I take off into a run and ignore the pain shooting through me. Five minutes later, the woods comes to an end, and I see that I've come across a small town.
It's morning time, so everyone should be up. They can't recognize me, I hope they don't.
I keep my head down and walk as fast as possible. I bump into something and I fall on the floor.
"Get up you worthless whore." his angry voice says.
"I didn't mean to embarrass you." I say and it comes out in a whisper.
"I told you to not be shy! I told you to talk to people!" Gale yells and kicks me in the stomach.
I shudder and I see a hand in front of me.
"Sorry about that," I hear a soft voice.
I instantly remember how I killed Gale. He fell to the floor like I just did.
Tears fill my eyes and I get up. I take off running without looking back.
"Hey! Hey, Wait up!" I hear the male's yells but I don't stop running.
I turn back and see that no one is behind me. I walk until I reach a small, hotel that's falling apart.
I go into the lobby and see a woman in her early fifties behind the counter.
"What may I get you?" She asks.
"One room please." I say in a barely audible tone.
She seems to hear it because she hands me room keys and says," That will be twenty dollars."
I take out a twenty and hand it to her.
"Room twelve," She says and I nod. I head over to the room and open the door. I shut the door behind me and see that there's a small bed, a bathroom, and a T.V.
I don't want to turn on the T.V. Who knows what I'll find.
I take out my stuff and set it on the bed. I take a clean pair of clothes and head to the shower.
I strip down naked and see that I've lost a few pounds. I shake my head and go in the shower. I realize I don't have any shampoo or conditioner. I don't think I'll be able to afford it. I need a job.
I do my best to wash and hop out the shower. There's some towels on the towel rack so I grab it and dry myself. I change into my clothes and begin to braid my hair but I stop. They'll know it's me. I leave my hair down and put it up in a high pony tail. It is kind of hot. I put on some make up, so my black eye won't show, and head out the bathroom.
I relax for a while and get up eventually. I take my keys with me and leave my stuff in the room. I lock my room door and head out.
I walk through the town and see that everything's really calm. I get to a park and see little kids playing. I smile and I feel something hit my back. I turn around and see a Frisbee on the floor. I bend down and pick it up. I see a boy with bronze hair and sea green eyes running over to me.
"Hey pretty lady, you new?" He asks and smirks.
I don't respond. What should I say? I'm not really a social person. I just hand him his Frisbee and stand there awkwardly.
"I'm Finnick. Finnick Odair." He says and he stretches his hand out. I thought he was going to hit me so I flinch.
I walk away from him and start to jog.
"What's your name?" He asks and jogs beside me. I don't respond. I can't tell him my name. Think of anything. " So you don't talk huh."
"Leave me alone." I tell him.
"I was just trying to be friendly." He says. No one has ever been friendly with me. I don't deserve to be treated right. He doesn't know what I did. Is he seriously trying to be friendly with someone who killed someone.
"Well don't." I tell him and walk away.
"It's too hot for sweaters and jeans you know." He calls after me and I ignore him.
I get to a more populated area of the town and I see shops. Someone has to be hiring here.
I walk around and see a now hiring sign outside a bakery. It looks pretty packed inside.
I enter the bakery and see that there's tables. Waitresses are taking orders and I see a girl come up to me.
"Hi. Can I help you?" She asks and shoots me a fake smile.
" I'm looking for a job." I say, trying to talk loud.
"Oh. Ok. right this way." She says and pulls me towards the back. It hurts my wrist a lot because of the many times gale has forcefully grabbed me by the wrist." The boss is bringing in sacks of flour right now, but he wouldn't mind you working here. We have to wear these uniforms."
She hands me a t shirt and some jeans.
"Can I wear my sweater?" I ask.
"It's hot in here, you do realize that?" She asks and raises a brow. I see that she has blonde hair and blue eyes.
"Yes." I say and she shoots me a weird look.
"Ok. I don't see why not." She says." Go change in the restroom, you start in ten minutes."
I nod and head to the restroom. I go into the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I take off my sweater and It reveals the bruises on my arms. They're extremely bad. Some of them took a month to go away.
I change into the uniform and slip on my sweater. I see that a few blonde strands from my hair are out, but you can't really notice it.
I grab my clothes and leave the bathroom. I see the girl waiting for me. She takes my clothes from my hands and puts them in a cupboard.
"We all have one to put our clothes in." She nearly yells over the noise." I just told the boss I hired you. He was cool with it."
"Ok." I say.
"You can start waiting whenever your ready. Just try to be friendly." She tells me.
I nod my head and she hands me a small note book looking thing. She hands me a pen and says," Get to work."
I nod and head over to a table. I see that they're a bunch of fifteen year old girls.
"Hi, can I get your order?" I ask and take out the pen.
"Yeah, we'd like tea." One girl with dark hair and brown eyes says.
"Ok." I say and head to the back. I start to make some tea and go back to their table with five tea cups.
I set them down in front of them and I say," Is that all?"
"That's all." She says. I head over to a different table and do the same. Everything goes great until I see someone turn on the news. A picture of me comes up.
"Twenty three year old Katniss Everdeen. She's currently on the run. There is a thousand dollar reward for anyone with information." The anchor woman says.
I suddenly feel sick. I head over to the girl with blue eyes and blonde hair.
"I'll be back tomorrow. I'm not feeling good." I say.
"It's probably because you have your sweater on." She says.
"No. It's not because of that. I wasn't feeling good at all today." I say and she gives me a suspicious look.
"Ok." She says." I'll see you tomorrow. Don't forget to grab your clothes. Oh, the boss wants to meet you."
"Tomorrow." I say and head to the back. I feel myself wanting to cry but I can't.
"Is everything ok?" I hear a soft voice and I jump. I turn around and see a man with blue eyes and blonde hair. He can't be more than twenty four years old. His eyes are a hypnotizing color of blue.
"Yes." I say and it comes out in a whisper. I grab my clothes and he says," I'm Peeta Mellark, the boss."
"Nice to meet you." I say and turn around.
"Can I at least get your name?" He asks and my heart beat speeds up. What should I say.
"Ka-Jessica." I lie." Jessica wood."
"Nice to meet you Jessica." He smiles and I take off. It's still light out outside, but it's starting to fade away.
Tears stream down my face as I make my way back to the hotel room. I put my hood up and feel sweat coming down my face. Mt stomach growls and I realize I didn't eat a thing. I'll just eat what I have left of canned foods.
"Hey! Pretty lady!" I hear behind me and I keep on walking.
I feel footsteps getting closer and I start to feel sick. A strong arm grabs me force fully and spins me around. I start to cry and I say over and over," I'm sorry."
"What?" the man asks confused. I see it's the guy with bronze hair and sea green eyes.
"I didn't mean to ignore you." I say and a sob escapes my mouth. He gives me a look of sadness and he says," Are you ok?"
"It doesn't matter if I am or not." I try to sound polite. Gale never liked me talking back to him.
"Is anyone bothering you?" He asks and inspects me.
Gale was but I killed him. I'm a murder. Tears stream down my face and I shake my head.
"Don't lie." He says.
"I'm not." I say and It comes out in a whisper." I have to go."
He doesn't follow me. Good. I keep on walking and reach my room. I unlock the door and get in.
I quickly close the door and lock it. I go to my bed and take out the remaining of my canned foods. I only have about three. I have about twenty bucks left, I can probably buy some food tomorrow. I open up the can and start to eat. I down the food with some water.
There's a pounding on my door and my heart beat accelerates. It's them. They found me and are here to arrest me.
"Open the door, I know you're in there." I hear a voice. I need to leave." I'm going to kick this door down if you don't open."
I need to open it. I can barely afford paying for a door that's been knocked down. I slowly shuffle over to the door and open it. I see it's the boy with bronze hair and sea green eyes.
"I know what's wrong with you." He says and my heart beat accelerates. He knows I killed Gale. He recognizes me.
My knees give out and I fall on the floor.
"Get up, now!" Gale yells as I cry.
"It's not real." I mumble to myself and rock back and forth.
"You think you're so smart huh." He says and one of his friend's laughs with him." Thom show this piece of trash what a woman's job is."
"No!" I yell and cry.
I feel two hands help me up and it reminds me of how Thom grabbed me before he- before he raped me.
"Get out." I tell the man.
"No." He says and I push him out.
"Leave me alone." I say and slam the door on his face. I lock the door and slide a crappy desk in front of it. I used to do this when Gale would get drunk.
"I can help you." He says.
"If you want to help, start by leaving me alone. You don't know me well enough." I say as tears continue to stream down my face.
I hear him sigh and he says," I'll come back tomorrow."
I'll be gone.
I slide down the wall and feel myself shaking. Calm down Kat, it's ok. It's ok.
"Thom's going to find you." gale says.
I look around the room and see that it's empty.
"He's going to show you-" he begins.
"Stop." I say and sob. I go into my back pack and see something sharp. I take off my sweater.
"What are you doing?!" I yell in pain when I see gale taking off his belt.
"Teaching you a lesson." He says and slaps me with it.
I need to feel pain to make sure that It's not real. I grab the sharp thing and slide it across my wrist.
The voices and images start to fade away and I relax. Blood slides down my arm. I quickly tie one of my t- shirts on my wrist. I look outside and see that It's dark. Maybe I should try and get some sleep.
I kick off my shoes and let my hair loose. I realize I'm sweating. I walk over to the AC and turn it on. A blast of cold air comes out and I go to bed. I get under the covers and try to imagine myself in a better life. But I can't. I'm ruined for eternity.
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