Hi guys! Thanks for the reviews, i appreciate it and keep it coming please...I decided to just put the titles and not the lyrics anymore. Here it is. I hope you'll enjoy this and the next one is a sequel to this. Oh, and kinda rated M for this. Thanks!

"All too well"

(Taylor Swift)

One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65, you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find…is they are not always with whom we spend our lives. – Anonymous

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Radio Jock: How was working with a brilliant director like Julia Reese?

Piper: It's amazing. She's very particular with some scenes but you could really learn from her. It's great! I am lucky.

Radio Jock: I heard you shoot some scenes on an eerie abandon theater?

Piper: True. It's scary, it really is.

Radio Jock: Yeah?

Piper: Very. You know the kind where there is a place that gives you the creeps even if you're just looking at it? That's it.

Radio Jock: Uhuh, I don't like places like that. You're character played beside Louie Anderson right? How was working with him?

Piper: Yeah. He's funny. All we do between breaks is to laugh about something he said. He's a funny man.

Radio Jock: crazy right? We guest him here before.

Piper: You did?

Radio Jock: Guy's have this amazing sense of humor.

Piper: I know. You'll laugh even if you're just looking at him.

They burst into laughter about the thought.

Radio Jock: So can you tell us more about the movie?

Piper: Well it's about uhm...It's about second chance, so to speak.

Radio Jock: Oh...interesting.

Piper: Yeah.

Radio Jock: So the story revolves around meeting someone in a wrong time? Is that it?

Piper: Uhm...yeah. Something close. You'll have to watch. I won't say anything more.

Radio Jock: Uhuh. Can you relate to it?

Piper: The story?

Radio Jock: Yeah…something remotely close to it.

Piper: I could say.

...

Maybe it's the first time you broke a promise. Maybe it's the time where she forgot to tell you she's coming home late. Perhaps it's when she first demanded a priority in your life. It can be the time when she said she'll call you and didn't. It's possibly the day when you introduce her as nothing more than a friend to people. Possibly, it was on that day she said those destructive words and you spurt equally damaging lines of a long time brewing fight and probably the start of the countless more to come. Somewhere along those times is the beginning of the downfall, of a love that was predestined to end.

You dreamed performing on a stage. You wanted to be a part of something big that people will start obsessing with. Having a degree in theater arts, you went audition after audition. One fine morning after you've gone to the shower, you got an email saying you land into a part of a TV series that although was small, was vital to the story. You were ecstatic and can't wait to tell her. The first person you ever wanted to tell when something happened whether good or bad. You turn and saw her sleeping on her front, hugging a pillow to her side, as she's butt naked at your bed. You walked up to her and sit on top of her and gently rouse her.

"Al wake up!" excitement evident on your voice.

"What the hell…Pipes." Irritation obvious on her tone as her brows furrows intensely when she looks at you. She doesn't like being woken up.

"I made it! I made it!"

"What?"

"The audition…I was casted!" you yell in happiness as you threw yourself at her.

"What!? That's great kid!" she said delighted and you hugged each other tightly as she kisses you firmly. She said she's happy for you and you told her you'd start two days from now. Alex reminded you about the trip you guys planned, to visit her mom.

"Oh…yeah." You said regretfully as your shoulders sagged. You and Diane are close. She treats you so well you felt like a family. Alex felt your torn but she understands. You worked hard enough for this; you had been through so much to just let this pass.

"Hey, it's okay. I'll just tell mom. I'm sure she'll understand." She said as she grabbed her glasses on the bedside table and put it on.

"Are you sure? I mean we promised her."

"Yeah. I'll explain. We can visit next week anyway." She looked around searching for something.

"What?"

"What time is it?"

"Uhm…It's seven."

"Oh, for fucks sake Pipes! You couldn't wait to tell me at least when my senses are active." She said. Her face scrunches and shoved you away but you hold onto her firmly before she can turn on her front again.

"Uh, uh. I want my breakfast." You kissed her on the chest as you look at her, seduction with your eyes. You seated on her hips and removed your robe slowly revealing your naked self as she smirk and fondle on your right breast. As your version of grown-up wrestling starts the promise to her mom forgotten. It's the first defeat.
...

The second round comes three months after you had been signed. Your agent said the projects are coming in, and it is. It's coming on waves, one after the other. Your personal assistant Annie helps you to manage. You barely see Alex as she works shifting hours, bartending at Bricks where her friend Nicky is the manager. Alex didn't come from money. She wasn't able to get a college degree but in spite it, she was well read and has really talented hands. She draws and paints really well. People deemed you on the market, as you were never really seen dating anyone. Alex had a hard time dealing on it because aside from the fact that in two years of dating she never met anyone close to you other than your brother Cal and your spoiled brat friend Polly, she had now to deal with other people paying close attention on you. You weren't ashamed being with her at all, but you were young and scared about the judgment of your edgy parents and worried it will ruin what you and Alex has. Alex never really called you for that. She even calls herself the invisible woman and teases you about it. She understands as long as she's assured that on close doors you're all hers. But on one occasion, behind the teasing and the banters, you saw something else. You're out with her one night having dinner. You haven't seen each other in a week so you made an effort to free a day to be with her.

"I'm happy to see you kid." She said with glitter in her eyes. You smiled.

"Me too. I'm sorry. It's been crazy lately." You told her as your right foot rubs her left ankle under the table. Her eyebrows rise playfully as she smirks. She understands you're in public as you can't really be expressive in the open.

"So…are you hiring a body guard soon?"

"Shut up! I wasn't that famous yet."

"You'll have to eventually…for the crazy obsessive admirers out there."

"Or I could hire you instead."

"Yeah that's a good idea. I will keep you safe, every night." She suggested as you giggle at the double meaning of the statement. Your conversation was interfered when two women approach your table. You've known them in high school as you're parents are friends with theirs. You talked for a bit and mention Alex.

"Uhm, this is Alex." You said. They waited if you're adding more than her name but it didn't came. They didn't probe so you didn't explain. They greeted her.

"Nice to meet you guys." She answers back.

You talked more for a bit as they eventually bid you farewell. They said they watch you and you're really good. You said your gratitude as they waved goodbye to you and Alex. You resume eating but it's quiet. The kind of silence that is uncomfortable, the one you aren't used to, as the silence you shared with Alex is relaxed. She's not looking at you, just absent-mindedly touching her food, and thinking about something. Something's bothering Alex and maybe it's about the earlier introduction and it worries you, so you reach under by your left hand and rubs on circles onto her right knee soothing her. She looks at you surprised. For a second you saw hurt on her eyes but quickly disappears as she smiles at you, not quite reaching her eyes.
...

You noticed, as when each time you went out with Alex she's careful. She guards her action towards you. She's cautious where she puts her hand on you, or by the way she looks at you when other people seemed to be staring. She's conscious about how people would see you together cause she knows this is important to you, you've worked hard to reach where you are now and she didn't want to ruin it, but you didn't like it. The one time where you are walking beside her towards a coffee shop, you were talking but she's taking few steps ahead of you. Few people recognized you, so you stop to sign autographs and for pictures as Alex waits on the side, few feet away from you. You saw some girl approach her and ask for direction. They talked for a while as the girl smiled at her knowingly and waved goodbye. You didn't enjoy it, you've had enough of this, and so after you bid farewell on people, you walk towards her and grabbed her hand. She tried pulling away as she feels people staring, but you're having none of it. You're grip is firm over her hand and before you started walking again, you grabbed her by the jacket using your other hand, and kiss her sweetly. There are spurt of lights as few phones captured the moment you two just shared but you couldn't care less.

"Pipes, there are people here." She said, shock evident on her face.

"I don't care."

"Your parents…"

"I'm done hiding. Fuck all of this! People should know you're with me. You are right?"

"You're an idiot!" as she laughs on your question. You smiled and you wrap your arms on her torso hugging her. You hugged tightly and you buried your nose to her shoulder as you feel her kiss you at the side of your head. You continued walking not caring about anyone in the world. It's a misstep.

...

The third punch came without you noticing. Alex didn't like the attention. She doesn't like being photograph whenever she and you went out together. As you slowly having the time of your life and your dreams are coming to pass, Alex's seemed to take time. Her paintings and drawings haven't gained enough attention for anyone. In order to accompany you on cocktail parties she took overtime or double shifts on Bricks, to buy a dress that will cost an arm and a leg and she would only use once. She isn't thrilled on appearing in parties where she's reminded of a world she didn't feel a part of, to be reminded of the things she didn't have and probably won't ever going to have. The world that you seemed to adapt so well, after all this is the life you're used of having while Alex is an outsider. You had a fight one time when you insist on buying for her dress, as you knew the money is tight on her part but she refuses. Alex doesn't want to be pitied at. You're at your bedroom on your new apartment fixing your things, as you have an interview on a talk show.

"Alex, please just let me."

"I told you I didn't need your money."

"Think of it as a gift. It's no big deal."

"I can buy my own dress Piper."

"I know you can…but I don't like you taking two shifts, it makes you tired and cranky."

"I don't like you feeling sorry for me because I can't adapt to your life." You stopped dead on your tracks and look at her.

"Please don't start, I don't have time for this." You said. There was a knock on the open door and you saw Annie standing there.

"Uhm, guys excuse me…Piper, the car is ready." she said.

"Thanks Annie. I'll be right out." You replied. You walked in front of Alex and wrap your arms on her shoulder and hugged her tight. You exhaled a breath that you're holding. You knew how Alex feels about money. You didn't care about any social status but Alex is different.

"Please babe…at least think about it, okay?" you look at her with your doe eyes; you knew well she couldn't resist.

"Don't look at me like that!" she said and pulls you closer.

"What?"

"You knew what. You knew exactly what you're doing."

"Uh, I'm innocent here." You said teasing. You grabbed her face with both hands and kiss her. You peck her one after the other as you look at her each time.

"Please, think about it okay?" you asked again and kiss her intensely as she kisses back. You're heart is racing as you pulled back and rest your forehead on hers. Annie went back on your door to see what's keeping you.

"You love birds! Piper you'll be late." Annie said teasingly as she leaves you again and wait on the front door.

"I gotta go."

"Okay." Alex replied as she closes the gap on your lips again. She kisses you feverishly. You feel your knees weaken so you pulled back.

"You're ruining my lipstick." You joked as she giggles. She releases you.

"Go now!" she slaps your butt playfully as you started walking to the bedroom door and exits. You forgot something so you dipped your head on the open door.

"Al…I love you." You said and smiled to her.

"I love you too kid." She replies and grinned. You shared a look for a moment before Annie calls you again to leave. You heard Alex's laughter as Annie teases you.
...

You're on taping as you received a phone call from Alex. She's ecstatic on the other line. An artist is interested to showcase her painting in an exhibit tomorrow night.

"That's great babe! I'm happy for you." You told her on the other line. She was in the middle of the story about the encounter when you cut her off.

"Babe, I'm sorry I really need to go. Taping will start now."

"Oh, sure. You're coming tomorrow night right?"

"Tomorrow? I think I can. We probably finish early."

"That's great…I wou…" you cut her off as the director calls for you."

"Alex I need to go okay. Love you." You said and drop the call even before she answers.

"Okay…Love you too." Alex said on the dead air.
...

Tomorrow night arrived. A lot of people came on the exhibit and the artist was proud as people begin to praise Alex and the painting she made. The night deepens and the exhibit will end by 9pm. It's half past 8 but you're still nowhere to be found. You asked Annie to call her instead.

"Hello? Pipes where are you?"

"Hey Alex. It's Annie."

"Is everything okay? Where's Piper?"

"Oh everything's fine. She's just…she's sorry she couldn't come. The show's writers organize a get together for everyone. She was expected to be there. She couldn't call at this time as they wrapped up some scenes."

"Oh, that's uhm…that's fine." She tries to hide the disappointment on her voice.

"She's really sorry Alex." Annie said to console her.

"That's fine. Thanks."

"Okay, bye."

"Bye."
...

After the exhibit the artist gave her a card with his contact as he really liked Alex's work but he lives in Colorado. He was just in New York for a one-time exhibit. He's willing to showcase Alex on his exhibits if she agrees to. Alex is thankful but says she wasn't able to give him an answer yet as she doesn't have any plans on moving. He understands but asks Alex to give him a call if she changes her mind. Alex feels happy but as the same time disappointed as she thought this could be the start of her dreams finally happening. She went to Bricks alone to celebrate, for what she didn't know. Seated at the bar sipping her Jameson with ginger ale, she was spotted by Nicky.

"And what are you sexy thing doing in here?"

"Hey. I'm just hanging out."

"You know if you just want to see me, all you have to do is ask. You don't need to dress this scenic. I thought you have a girlfriend? You're confusing me more than I'm already am." She said jokily. Alex is dressed pleasantly wearing a black-laced cocktail dress that falls three inches above her knee with half sleeve see through lace and three inches black heels. Alex chuckles on her friend.

"Shut up! I came from my art exhibit."

"You had an exhibit? How come I wasn't informed?"

"Well, it's not really a big deal so, it's fine."

"Chapman knows? Where is she?" Nicky looks around.

"She missed it." She says as she drinks on her glass.

"Oh sucks man! She must have been busy."

"She is." Nicky felt her unhappy mood so she accompanies her for a while until she excuse herself as she attends to a customer from another table. Few hours dragged by but Nicky wasn't able to get back to her as the bar gets busy. She was nursing her second drink when she heard a voice.

"Can I have a Manhattan please?" Alex looks up and saw a pretty brunette asking Mike, her co-bartender. She saw Mike swamp with orders so she initiate to make it for the brunette.

"Here you go."

"Wow, you're too hot for a bartender. I mean, no offense."

"You know when people say no offense, it is usually offensive." Alex replied and they smiled to each other.

"You want to join us? Our table was there?" The brunette points at the direction. Before Alex can response, you already answered for her.

"She's with me." They both look at you as you smiled that practice smile you used now. The brunette waved goodbye and left as your eyes never left Alex's face.

"I didn't do anything." She explains.

"I'm not saying anything."

"Don't give me your jealous look."

"I'm not giving you any look. That girl wouldn't even deserve that look. She's too girly for your liking." You said and seated at the stool beside her.

"At least she's here." Alex says. You are stunned because for the first time, she calls on you. You couldn't look in her eyes so you stare ahead. You know that tonight is important for her but you couldn't be there.

Mike recognizes you, as you used to wait for Alex in the bar before. He gave you a lychee mojito even before you ask. You said thanks and Alex smiled at him.

"I feel like I'm squeezing myself to fit in your life." Alex said softly staring at her drinks. You were surprised to her voicing out her feelings, to say anything. Alex never calls on you when it comes to your job; you always thought she'd understand. You feel like crying because you're feeling it too. Suddenly, you need to put an effort to make time for Alex when it used to be effortless. Without notice, she was suddenly in the sidelines waiting and you don't know what to do about it. You both finished your drinks in silence. It's close to 1am when you both decided to leave.

"Where's your car?"

"I ask my driver to just drop me here…I can just call a cab…if you don't want to spend the night." You said unsurely. Alex is being distant and it's hurting you.

"No…let's go home." She said in resigned voice. You reached her apartment and immediately prepared for bed, still being detached to each other. After your evening rituals you proceed to go to bed. You saw her lying on her side, back against you. Minutes after you hear her heavy breathing on the stillness of the night, signaling she's already deep asleep. You decided to voice out what you feel on the darkness.

"I tried Al. I tried leaving early." You feel like crying. You know that's important to her.

"I just want you there kid." You were surprised when she answered, voice thick with emotion. You couldn't help the tears so you face your side of the bed away from her. You're sniffling as you try to keep your emotions at bay but you couldn't help it.

"I'm sorry…tell me what to do." You begged as your voice quivers a little. You felt shuffling on the bed as you felt Alex pulled you to her and wrapped her arms around you. You're crying increases as she hugged you tightly, spooning you and placing passionate kisses on your neck. You took her arms and draped it tightly around you and rest them on your chest as she continued her gentle assault on your neck. The situation is scaring you; you suddenly wanted to feel Alex, to know if she's still with you, if she's still yours. You grabbed her right hand and placed it inside your panties.

"Pipes…" she says softly trying to protest.

"Please…I want you inside." You plead needy. She complies and continues the heated kisses on your neck, as her fingers gently brushed on your folds and play around the opening, gently and melodiously. You lifted your hips as her thumb slowly slips down your panties. You raised your leg and rest it on her right, opening yourself more for her as you tightly grip on her arms. You are getting antsy and started to move your hips, following Alex's fingers. You want to feel her and her love for you. Her left hand traveled tenderly under your shirt as she starts caressing your left breast. You feel your sticky wetness starting to spread on her fingers as your body was filled with need. "Baby…" you tried to protest in anticipation as she took her sweet time playing with your clit and, in gentle circles, rubs it. You felt her tap it gently as the tension on your body builds up. You are close in delirium as you begged her again. She slowly slips her middle finger in your pulsing channel in a rhythmic pace. "Don't stop baby." you shrieked as she starts slowly and steadily begins to pump. You can feel you muscle clench as you moaned her name "Aaallleexxx." She adds another finger inside opening you more and pump at a firmer speed making your hips move with the stride that she set. You felt you're close in explosion as you arch your back. You feel Alex's ragged breath and groans as she rest her mouth on the side of your ears. It didn't take long before you cry with the force of your orgasm as her fingers continuous to pump in you, bringing you down on a high. Alex took off her shirt and boy shorts in haste and gently raised your hands to help removes yours. You regained awareness on Alex hovering above you as she kisses you intensely as your body trembles again. Alex wasn't done yet. She repositions herself as her thighs bumps on your cunt and hers was on yours. "Baby, look at me." She said in a voice thick with desire. Her eyes conveying the intensity of her emotions over you. You felt adored and valued as you never felt with anyone before. She nudges her nose lightly onto yours as she starts moving again rubbing your still sensitive cunt onto her thigh as you feel her moisture on yours. She took both of your hands and pin it above you as your chest heaves lightly against each other. "Come with me again." She demands as her rhythm moves quicker and you feel your self close to the brink again. Your eye closes forcefully as your toes curled when your fluid rupture powerfully once more. "Aaahhhh…" as Alex shrieks her own moments after. You were still catching your breath as you feel her thumb rubs your hypersensitive clit again bringing you to completion one more time. You're clutching desperately at her shoulders when she re-enters you once more and wraps your legs around her hips, pushing inside you deeply. She started to breathe some hot air on your neck in between kisses as it slowly moves to your collarbones. "Aaahhhh…Aaalll…" you grunt as she reaches your right breast and fondled over it. She started sucking as her heated tongue is flicking your nipple. She gave the same attention on your left with every harmonized thrust. Your moans and her groans are yelled through the darken bedroom. You begin to meet her thrust again as you cried out and reach the edge. Alex deflates on top of you, as you lied consumed on the bed. She was above you still when you regain your senses as her fingers are still inside you. She kisses your tear-stained cheeks softly and looks at you with adoration.

"I love you." She said gently. You look at her emerald orbs and saw unshed tears on them as she tries to hide her emotions. You feel like crying again as you can feel the pain she was feeling.

"I love you too." You told her and kiss her again fervently. You wanted to erase the agony she must be feeling as you moved in her fingers again. You wanted her to know that in the rapid rate of your life changing, you're still hers. She answered by thrusting on you again making you know she's all yours. She worships your body again as you glorifies hers, and you made love to her all over again entirely throughout the night.
...

On the morning you felt alone as you haven't felt Alex so you reached at her side but it's empty. You rise from the bed confused and wore Alex's t-shirt and your panties from last night. You heard movement on the kitchen so you went there to search for her as you saw her busy preparing breakfast.

"Hey."

"Hey." She greeted you warmly as you approach her, wrap your arms around her, and buried your face onto her neck. You stood wrap on each other for a moment as she rubs soothing circles on your back. She releases you and instructed to seat at the stool by the counter and hands you your breakfast and coffee.

"Where's yours?"

"I'm just for coffee." Your brows furrows on her answer.

"No…here. Let's share." You said and tap the stool beside you for her to seat. You started eating the bacon and egg as you feed her too. She smiles with the gesture and you smiled back.

"Spend the day with me." You said asking her to.

"I don't have work today but aren't you busy?" your heart breaks a little on the honesty of her question as it unintentionally reminds you on where your priorities lies lately.

"I ask Annie to free my schedule today cause I know you don't have work."

"You didn't have to Pipes." She said shyly as she fidgets on her glasses. You grab her face by both hands and kiss her warmly conveying your affection for her.

"I want to…I'm sorry Al. I know you felt out of place in my life lately but trust me it's the last thing I would want to do." You said as you look at her sadly.

"I'm sorry too kid…maybe you could arrange some time like this. I'm not asking for too much…just a little time with you is enough." She said caressing your cheeks with her fingers. You shared a short kiss as she playfully bites on your lower lip and you couldn't help but groan.

"I thought you're still sore." She teases you as she chuckles.

"Don't underestimate my athletic body." You said and straddle her. You shared another brief kiss. You rest your face on the area between her neck and shoulder, inhaling Alex's scent as her hands rest on your hips. You seated quietly hearing only each other's breathing.

"I love you so much." You said through the silence, face still buried on her neck. She looks at you a little and smiles genuinely.

"I love you too…very much." She said and places a lingering kiss on your cheek.
...

It lasted for some time. Arranging your schedules, fitting Alex's free time. You even had the time to visit Diane as you promised before. The two-day visit is memorable as it's only the three of you just like the old times. The demands have been cruelly waiting at the sidelines. You're career is soaring. You were having movie offers, commercials, photo shoots, TV appearances, galas, award shows, radio interviews and even theatre castings. You made an effort to work it out but when your both hands are full enough to hold onto another present, you must let go of something else. You didn't notice it just yet, but you placed Alex on the audience once more, as you're busy playing your role again. She doesn't call you for it. She doesn't remind you anymore nor say anything when you broke a promise again. She was silently looking from the sidelines. Seeing by her own eyes how your two worlds don't fit anymore. She's becoming aware how far apart you guys are now…that things have changed for you and not for her. She's still a bartender and you're the movie star now.

The last blow happened on your birthday. Your mother has organized a cocktail party for you. She invited your co-workers in the industry and of course her own circle of friends. Your friends Polly and Pete came too. Your mother asks Polly to invite Alex instead, as you knew full well her unannounced dislike towards your girlfriend. You're busy talking with your guests; one after another as your father proudly introduce you with some of his business connections. You saw Alex lingering alone through a crowd, which she felt as an outcast. Your eyes catches each other's as you both smile and you're about to walk to her when a director you worked with before, came to you discussing a proposal. You looked at her apologizing. She gave you a smile that doesn't quite reach the eyes and a tiny wave. The party progressed and you haven't had the chance to spent time with Alex. You saw her now talking for the first time with Polly and Pete and somehow it calms you.

"Wow, you look nice supercunt."

"Thanks, holly. You don't look half bad yourself."

"Please, I was never."

"How did you put up with her?" she asks Pete jokily.

"You have no idea." They chuckle together as Polly slaps her on the arm. Their banter continues until Alex turns her eyes on Piper's gifts on the table. There were lots of designer labeled paper bags, known jewelry shops and other expensive gifts around. Her eye caught the one she gave Piper. An 11x14 painting that she showcase last exhibit wrapped in a simple manila paper, it was down the table just discarded on the wall. Just like her, it was out of placed, deemed unsuitable. She zoned out a little and both Polly and Pete looks at where she's staring.

"Put the painting in the table." Polly said firmly on a passing by waiter and grabs him by the arm. The waiter complies on the instruction as Pete thanked him. Alex is silent; she suddenly felt more left out than she already are.

"I'm sure someone just forgot to put it there." Polly said as she smiled timidly consoling. She gave a halfhearted smile back.

"Thanks. Excuse me." She said and left before Polly and Pete can say anything.
...

You've search for her, as you haven't seen her for an hour. Some of the guests are just lingering around, as the party is about to end. You saw her at the back by the garden, silently standing and thinking. It's the first time your eyes linger to her form. She's beautiful as always, and you feel your heart beating faster. You surprised her as you threw yourself at her and starts kissing her moist lips conveying your adoration. As your kissing intensifies, you taste tears in her lips. Alex is crying.

"Alex…what's wrong?" you asks her, still holding her face with your hands.

"I can't do this any longer…I don't belong here Piper." She said in a sad tone holding your hands, still in her face.

"What do you mean?" your voice shakes, as you dropped your hands, knowing exactly what she meant.

"This is not working…we're not working anymore." Her lips quivered as tears flowed endlessly from her eyes.

"No…Alex…"

"I'm not myself in here Pipes…I'm not myself in your world anymore." She said in a heart breaking voice.

"No, Alex we can fix this…Let's fix this." You said begging and sobbing. She shakes her head no and looks away.

"We both know it's coming."

"I'm sorry…I can change. I'll change it." You said as your voice trembles as you plead for her to stay.

"Don't apologize for something you're glad you have kid. You dreamed this…you've worked hard for this Pipes."

"I can't lose you."

"I need this…and this is your world now." She walks towards you slowly holding onto your head as she place a soft kiss on your forehead. You felt her tears mixed with yours as you hold on to her shoulders tightly, not letting go. Your heart is breaking as you feel Alex's shattered. She let's go of you slowly as you keep on holding on to protest. She frees herself and starts walking away as you hear the lingering sobs of her breaking self.

"Alex…Alex!" you shouted in a resigned voice but Alex doesn't stop. You lost her, the only person that means something in a crowd of people. The only face you would look for every waking hour of the day.

...

A tough three months have passed since you and Alex broke up. The distraction bought by work is a great relief but you still shed tears for her, and for you. You realize now that maybe Alex holds on to your relationship longer than she should, that she stayed for you, as long as she could. She bears being in the sidelines as long as she's still a part of your world, until she wasn't anymore. On nights that you missed her badly you can feel your own heart breaking, so you looked at the painting she gave you on your birthday, for comfort. It's an acrylic painting of you on a stage with stars as its background. The image was taken on your first landing role at a local play, which Diane took while she's visiting. It's one of the best days of your life, where you and Alex used to share your dreams.

It's Nicky's birthday when you saw her last. You were hoping she'd come so you took your chance. You're ready now; you'll give up your dreams for Alex.

"Look who made it?" Nicky said when you arrived.

"Hey, happy birthday!" You greeted her with a hug.

"I felt so special for you to be here Chapman."

"Shut up! You're special to me."

"I feel like you came with a purpose." Nicky teases as you fell silent. She's waiting for you to say something.

"I just..."

"She's at the back porch. Go get her tiger!" You smiled shyly and walk at the back, passing by some people who recognize you. You saw her nursing a beer, seated in the outside table deeply thinking. She's still as beautiful as you first saw her. She must have felt you before she saw you as she looks up at your direction, and smiles. Your heart skips a beat as you walk towards her. You've had your speech on what to tell her, to win her back. You seated across her as you both smiled dearly for each other.

"Hey."

"Hey, kid. It's nice to see your face."

"You too." You said warmly. She smirks back but you saw something else, the kind of smirk that Alex has when she's excited, when she has news.

"Spill it!" You said nervously. Did she found someone new? No. Alex won't do that, not this early.

"I was offered for an exhibit again from the first artist I worked with." She exclaimed.

"Really? Wow, that's great Al." You said happily.

"It's going to be big this time. The showcase will all be mine." She happily said.

"What? That's amazing! When is this?" You inquired excitedly. Alex's dreams are now coming to pass. Maybe this will work now, the two of you has a chance again.

"It's in a week Kid."

"That's fast. Well, where?" I could accompany you, I can arrange my schedule." you rumble excitedly. She looks at you a little unsure.

"What?"

"It's in Denver Pipes."

"In...in Colorado?" You ask surprised as your tone rises a little.

"Yes. I needed to stay for long as the exhibit was held first two Friday's of the month." She dropped her eyes and explains.

"How long?" Your voice shakes.

"I'm not sure yet kid."

"Do you know someone there? You can't be alone in there Alex...you need to..." You said in a trembling voice as you rumble.

"Pipes..." She cuts you off and held your hand that is resting on the table.

It's the first time you felt her touch again after three months and it breaks your heart, making you long for her again.

"You're leaving..." It's a statement more to you than a question. Your prepared speech wasn't delivered; this is Alex's dreams. You can't and you shouldn't hold her back. She didn't do that to you. Her dreams are coming to life and sadly, you aren't going to be there to see it, and it makes you wanna cry. Your tears fell rapidly as you didn't notice. Alex rises to her feet and seated beside you. She felt your grief as her glasses hides the tears in her eyes. She raised her arm to your shoulders as you laid your head unto hers. You're both silent as you both feel the inescapable end of your love affair. You'll be here living your dreams and she'll be there, chasing hers.

"I'll miss you."

"I'll miss you too."

"You should know that I'll keep a piece of you in me, always kid...and I'm thankful for that." She said as tears fell on your eyes again and you felt Alex lingered a kiss on your head...one last time.

...

On a present occasion, you were riding in a car with Annie heading to a radio interview. She notices you're quiet and thinking. You missed her. She always comes back to you on random days. You remember the way she plays with her glasses while thinking. You were reminded of the days with her serene face sleeping soundly beside you, and when her brows furrows in irritation when you wake her, whenever you're excited about something. You recall her distinct smirk when she's teasing you. You tried comparing it to people one time but no one ever really got close and you distinctly remember the feeling of being wrapped around her warm hugs on Sunday mornings. You missed her so much; you can feel your own heart breaking.

"Are you okay, Piper?" Annie asks and you looked at her.

"Yeah. I just…miss someone."

"Alex?" she asks in a small voice. You smiled at her and she smirked back.

"You know what?...the saddest fact about all of this…about fame, glam, money, all of this beautiful people surrounding me now…the person I would wanted to be with is nowhere to be found. I suddenly felt so alone in a crowded room of people."

"Was it worth it? I mean getting your dreams?"

"I would like to say yes...I mean my career haven't left me yet...so...but I would trade it, given a chance to be with her again, I would...in a heartbeat." You said in a soft voice.