Chapter 30: Feeling you again
4 weeks later
Scully is sitting on the couch reading a book, it's a Friday morning and Mulder doesn't have to work today. Kersh closed the x files but gave him an opportunity to work in Quantico, he's know a teacher and is currently dictating two different subjects, criminology history and psychological profiles of a murderer, he only teaches three days a week, which gives him time to take care of Scully.
Scully gasps and puts a hand on her now very visible pregnant belly, Mulder looks at her with concern - What is it? - he asks walking towards her in a hurry
She smiles and puts the book away reaching for his hand, and putting it right under her belly button, his lips immediately curl into a smile and his eyes open with surprise, small movements indicate that there is life in there, under his hand. He kneels and pulls up her shirt putting his ear on her belly and his hands on her waist, she smiles caressing his hair.
- Hello there baby, is dad out here - he whispers to the belly making her giggle - We are very happy right now thanks to you, we love you - a tear roll down her cheek, they are happy indeed, the baby is perfectly healthy, so is she, it is really a miracle. He looks up and see her crying - You know, your mom is crying, I don't know if is happiness or if she is just feeling sorry for me - she laughs, a sweet and sound laugh, one of those that melt his heart.
- You are unbelievable Mulder... I love you - he looks into her eyes incredulous, feeling as if his heart is going to explode with happiness, he leans forward and kiss her with all the love he is capable of, she puts her hands behind his neck and kiss him too with passion, they remain like that for a few minutes until their lips are completely puffy and red, she push him away slightly - Move Mulder, I need go to the bathroom - he takes her hands and helps her stand up, while her shirt falls back hiding her belly - We have to get ready Mulder, the sonogram is in three hours - she says while walking towards the bathroom
- I know Scully, you are the one who has to change, I'm ready - he yells so she can hear him, she feels a little headache and frowns while washing her hands, meanwhile he orders some baby stuff online for give her a surprise, she comes out of the bathroom a little pale, he looks at her and immediately runs to her side - Scully, what's wrong? - he asks holding her, she frowns again and close your eyes tightly, taking one hand to her temple, he helps her to sit and kneels in front of her again, she gasps and laid her head on the back of the sofa, he is paralyzed without knowing what to do.
Heartbeat. Flashlight. Sonogram. Flashlight. William. Her with a baby. Mulder smiling. Flashlight. William - I want you to let me go, this is the only way, you will have a daughter, is my gift to you - Flashlight. Doctor - It's a girl - Flashlight. - I know that you love me - William smiling - I'm fine - Car in the road - He is my father, Mulder is my father -
She opens her eyes widely looking for air through her mouth, Mulder is looking at her with terror, she feels overwhelmed by the images and begins to sob in a choked way, he draws her to him in a hug and she cries in his chest shaking, he caresses her back slowly - It's ok Scully, you're okay, we are in home, breathe honey, breathe - she clings tightly to him for stability - Just breathe, think about the baby, relax honey - she inhales strongly through her mouth and exhales letting fear come out.
After a few minutes she finally pulls away with a steady breath - I saw him Mulder - she says looking at him - He is alive, William is alive - her eyes are still full of tears and she is clinging to his shirt - Our son Mulder, I saw him, I… Oh God - she lowers her gaze to her belly - Oh my God - she says in a whisper taking one hand to her belly - He did this… He did this for us - she sobs uncontrollably again looking for refuge in his chest.
He is speechless, he can't believe her words, he needs to know more, what the hell is going on? He needs answers - What do you mean he did this? - he asks in a whisper caressing her hair, she knows he needs to know everything of the doubts may drive him crazy, she tries to calm down so she can explain everything to him, even it will be shocking.
She pulls away again looking at him - William is you son, he show me everything, he… his connection with me, made possible for him to listen to all our conversations, about our wishes and fears, he ... - she sighs closing her eyes - he restored my fertility, he wanted us to have another child and have a normal life, so that we wouldn't follow him - he looks at her with a frown and stands up walking from one side to the other - Mulder ... - she looks at him with concern and stands up - Mulder, he's your son -
He stops and looks at her with fury - You were the one who said he was not my son, how am I supposed to believe now that he is? - she looks at him repressing the tears - This is a damn madness, how am I supposed to believe these things when everything in my life has been a deception? - he yells with anger, she looks down knowing that he is right, if it is complicated for her, for him it's much worse, he breathes and sits heavily in the chair of his desk - This is a damn joke - he says exhausted
She walks towards him and stands by his side looking at him sadly, he looks up, towards her eyes and tears begin to fall down his cheeks - I'm sorry - he says in a whisper and hugs her resting his face on her belly - I'm so sorry - she cries too feeling his pain, she hugs him by putting one hand on his shoulders and the other on his head, stroking his hair
- I'm so sorry Mulder, it's my fault, I shouldn't have believed in the words of a lying bastard, please forgive me - he kisses her belly and moves away a little to look at her, one of her tears falls to his cheek and memories of a past that seems very distant fill his mind
- There is nothing to forgive - she bends towards him and kisses him gently on the lips, he helps her to sit on his legs and they both hug each other tightly, trying to regain strength, trying to calm the pain that lives in their hearts, trying to find safety in each other's arms. They remain like that more time than they think, until the baby kicks between them, both laugh with a little sadness - I guess someone is trying to prove it's presence - he says in a sweet voice
Both look down towards her belly - Mulder - she says in a whisper, he looks at her with a look that denotes tiredness, which denotes years of suffering and loneliness, but with a spark of hope, she half smiles caressing his hair - I want us to do a paternity test... it's the only way - he close his eyes and nods, she kisses his temple with softness, he sighs - I know the answer, but I want you to be sure - he nods again opening his eyes
- Ok, but I believe you, I have always believed in you and always will - she nods frowning with tears filling her eyes again - Now, don't cry, we have two miracles now - he says caressing her belly - I wouldn't change that for anything in the world - She rests her head on his shoulder and puts her hand on his, feeling as the baby moves smoothly under her skin.
After that her go to his appointment, knowing everything will be alright, Scully decides not to tell the sex of the baby to Mulder, still hoping it will be a pleasant surprise for him in the next ultrasound, but she is sure that William will come to them soon, and is sure that they can be a happy family, never a normal one but eventually, a happy one.