I need to have a story in this song. #allthefeels

Hello

(Adele)

There's one in a million chance in our lifetime, that we'll find someone that can take us, flaws and all. Piper Chapman had that chance. She had those chances over and over again in the past but she never really thought she'll lose it until one day, in a cold November rain. It's distinctly tattooed on her mind, on how she looked like when she came back, on how tired and in pain her eyes were. She especially couldn't forget how her emerald eyes tried hard not to shed tears when Piper came forward about her sins.

Four years after, all she wanted is to have another chance to hear that someone's voice again, to tell her things that she should've told her a long time ago, to tell her how wrong she is, and to tell her she's really sorry for all the fucked up things she's done, to tell her how she means to her but the odds are not in her side this time.

...

Alone in LA, Piper contemplates on dialling the number again. She thought hard on what she'll say. She dialed the number for several times before since she got it from their old common friend, but all of her attempts are wasted. The person she's trying to get hold of is not interested anymore. She deserves it, she thought. Piper deserves nothing from her. She continues to listen on the sound of ringing that she heard a lot of times before as her mind traveled back towards the last time she's able to talk to her.

It's the day after the attack. Piper is on her bunk waiting for the news about what had happened. Who is the culprit? How badly is she hurt? Is she okay? Does she hate her? She anxiously waited for her arrival. She is sitting quietly at her bed, only the constant tapping of her shoes is heard. She needed to see her and tell her how sorry she is. Piper is silently running every scenario in her mind as she waited on hours for her to come back. It's probably close to ten in the evening when she sees her.

"Alex." Piper whispered.

Her throat suddenly felt dry as her breathing gets a little hard. Alex had a large bruise on the right side of her temple to her cheek, her lower lip was cut and she isn't wearing her glasses. Piper assumed it's damaged due to the attack. Although it's nothing compared to what Piper had thought of, she's never seen Alex like this. There's nothing in her emerald orbs. Her eyes were dull as if Alex isn't there anymore. Piper is suddenly scared. She's reminded of how she is before she snap back to herself when she heard Alex is attack, but Alex is giving her the same look that she knows too well. It worries Piper. All the courage that she managed to build hours ago, on how she'll approach her, flushed down the drain. Alex walk passed Piper's bunk without a glance at her. It's impossible not to see her as she's now just standing a few feet away from the entrance of her bunk. Alex knows where Piper's bunk is. She's either ignoring her or she really didn't see her due to the absence of her glasses, Piper thought. She decided it was the latter. Before guilt consumes her, she decided to follow Alex at her bunk. When Alex reaches her bunk she silently gathered her things. She arranges them neatly again disregarding the fact that it's on the same neatly state as she left it early that morning. Alex is making herself useful. She was absently re-arranging things at her bunk as her mind wonders off, somewhere. Piper notices this so she gently made her presence known by clearing her throat so she wouldn't startle the raven haired woman but Alex jump at the sound.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." Piper said gently as Alex looked at her.

"What are you doing here?"

Piper aches at the sound of Alex's voice. Her voice is uncharacteristically deeper and drier. It's as if she's hurting while she speaks. She looks at Alex closely as she sees the fingerprints around her neck. Her assailant tried to strangle her as the marks are still visible on Alex's pale skin. Piper is voiceless as she feels like crying.

"Why are you here?"

The question hit Piper hard. Alex's tone is cold and distant.

"I...I want to check on you."

"Why?"

Piper is once again taken aback by the way Alex speaks. It's as if the raven haired woman doubted her sincerity.

"I want to make sure you're okay."

"Why?"

Piper seems to be insulted this time. It's as if Alex is trying to imply that Piper never cared for her or for anyone in that matter.

"You know I care."

Alex chuckled in response as Piper stood offended. Alex isn't like that to her. It's the first time she's seeing the raven haired woman cynical towards her.

"Alex..."

"Let's cut the bullshit here Piper. Why are you here?...You wanted to know if I'm still alive? You wanted to clear your conscience, is that it?" Alex said as her tone rise.

"Alex, I wa..." Piper said as she stepped a little closer.

"Stop right there." Alex said as she held up her hand to stop the blonde in getting closer.

Piper sees a flicker of pain in Alex's eyes before it snap back into anger. Alex is being protective of herself. She's not letting her guard down again, even for Piper and that's where Piper realizes she screwed up. She screwed up, big time.

"You should go, Piper. I'm fine. Your girlfriend might be looking for you."

"She's not my girlfriend...and she's not in here anymore."

Alex looks at her as if she's grown two heads as Piper stares back, confuse.

"Of course. She's gone, I'm here. So, you're running back to me. Suddenly, I matter again."

"That's not true. You know that, Alex." Piper said as her voice shakes.

Her eyes started to gather tears at bay. Piper didn't know how to explain to let Alex know she's never a second choice. She isn't a replacement or a spare tire.

"Oh, really? Okay...so let's talk about truth here." Alex said in a tone that Piper never heard her use towards her before. It suddenly made her terrified.

"Did you thrown me back in here because you suddenly feel alone and lonely?"

"Alex..."

"Answer it so we can move forward and put the past behind." Alex said as she gestures with her hands and puts an emphasis on putting the past behind. Piper contemplated on lying, but she decided not to as Alex deserved the truth.

"Y...yes."

"Okay...Did you feel like you weren't supposed to be here if it wasn't for me?" Alex asks as she stares hard at Piper.

"I...Alex..."

"Answer it."

"...Yes." Piper said softly as she drops her gaze.

"Did you resented me for some time...when I stole your good life?" Alex asks as her tone underlined hurt and guilt. Piper contemplated answering again. She feels silent for a moment before answering her.

"Yes." Piper said as she saw Alex's sad eyes.

"You know I'll always love you, right?"

"Yes."

Piper answers the question quickly as she always feels Alex's love for her. She always does. Piper's tears flows as she realizes how Alex seems to manage and find something worth loving in her every single time. They stared at each other silently. Piper wanted to close the gap between them and hold Alex. She wanted to tell her how sorry she is. She slowly steps forward to do so, but Alex speaks.

"Are you still with me while you're flirting with her?" Alex whispered as Piper gaze at her misty eyes.

Piper is taken aback. She didn't want to answer so she silently pleads with her eyes. Alex gaze at her wearily. She knows the answer even without Piper saying it. Alex is suddenly hit by the fact that Piper always seems to manage to break her heart. She wasn't there for her ever, not when her mom died, and neither when she feared for her life. She chose Larry instead of her, then she cheated on her for Stella. Maybe Piper was over them a long time ago, that when she left Paris all those years ago, she already left the past, including her, behind. Maybe Alex is the only one holding on to it, that Piper had already moved on. She was over Alex a long time ago. Alex is the only one believing that there's a future, so Alex decided to let go. She lets Piper go, this time. Alex drops her gaze as a tear escapes her eye. She wiped it immediately, but Piper sees it even before she can.

"Alex, can we talk about this? Please..."

"Pipes, I just want to rest. It's a long day."

"Tomorrow then?...Please, Alex."

Alex looks at her as she manages to smile timidly masking her broken heart. Piper gaze at her back as she too wearily smiles.

"Okay." Alex timidly nods her head.

"Okay."

Piper smiles as she slowly turned around and walks away. She stops for a few seconds before looking back at Alex. It breaks her heart as she saw her leaning her forehead on the wall as she heard Alex's muffled cries. She wanted to go back and hug her tightly, to say how sorry she is, but she stops herself. She wanted to give Alex her privacy to clear her thoughts about them. She proceeded walking back at her bunk and settled in for the night.

Piper's thoughts don't seem to be resting. It's passed midnight as she's still wide awake. The memory of Alex's leaning on the wall, crying doesn't seem to leave Piper. She decided to get up and check on her. She goes to Alex's bunk and sees her sleeping. Piper lingered at the entrance of her bunk for a few seconds before deciding to settle down near Alex's bed. She looks at her for a few seconds and brushes her fingers on Alex's cheek gently, not to wake her.

"I'm sorry, Alex. I'll make things better, I promise." Piper whispered as she manage to hold back her tears.

She places a lingering kiss on the raven haired woman's cheek before slowly getting up and walking back at her bunk. Piper hopes tomorrow, they'll be okay.

...

Piper sleeps late that night. She remembers falling asleep an hour after she pays Alex a visit. She wakes up by the sound of people around her. She absently gazes at the clock near the guard post as she sees women rushing in to go to the shower. The clock says 7:30 as Piper curse on herself. She rushed towards the shower area and took a bath as she immediately get dressed after. She passes by Alex's bunk to check if she's still asleep. Piper is surprised to see her made up bed meaning Alex is already in the cafeteria. She creates scenes in her head on how she's going to approach her. Piper is about to leave and head to the cafeteria when she notice something is odd on Alex's bunk. Her bed is made up neatly, too neat for Piper's liking and her things are nowhere to be seen. There's an unsettling feeling coming over Piper so she decided to open Alex's cabinet and her heart sank as she finds it empty. Alex is gone.

Piper finds out that she's been transferred that morning. Probably in the wee hours in the morning where no one is awake. It pains her to think that Alex requested to be transferred as what the management tells her. Her mind wanders back to the last night she's able to kiss her. Is she awake? Did she felt her? Does she hate her? She didn't have the chance to say she's sorry and worse, she didn't tell her she loves her. She didn't even had a chance to say goodbye. Alex didn't say goodbye and it hurts Piper like hell. She knows she deserved it. She deserves nothing from Alex. It was the last time Piper had seen Alex Vause.

...

She's taken back to reality by the sound of the tone in her phone. It's her voicemail once again as Piper contemplated on leaving a message again. She did that on her previous calls, but the raven-haired woman never seemed to be bother anymore. She decided to leave a message again hoping that Alex will get back to her this time. She needs to talk to her.

"Hey... Hi." Piper said as she pause for a while to gather her thoughts.

"Sorry, I'm calling again. Can you hear me? Is there something wrong with your phone? I mean, it's just...I never heard from you. I must've called more than twenty times now...I just...Al...Alex, please...I really need to talk to you. Please...just, please pick up..." Piper desperately says. She swallowed the tears that's slowly threatening again.

"Hello?" A husky voice answered her plea.

"Alex? Al, is that you?"

"It's me."

"Alex."

It is short and angsty, I'm sorry. I just feel so angsty today plus this song seems to give me the feels every time. Adele does, every single time.!

To anyone who feels the same, I hope things get better for you. Did this chapter suck? Sorry. Review, please.