Chapter 10
Okay, so I accidentally deleted chapter 10.
How that happened, I'm not so sure.
From what I can remember is that during this chapter:
Ana has been talking to Eric for a while and Elsa throws a small wrench into their conversation by informing Ana that "No man wants a dorky, chubby girlfriend. Especially Eric Coulter", causing Ana to become self-conscious when Eric buys her favorite cookies from her favorite bakery in Dauntless.
Eric asks her what's wrong and she admits about her insecurities.
He stays with her at her apartment. During their conversation Ana states that she wants to lose weight but Eric replies that he likes her just the way she is - there's just enough for him to hold onto. In fact he confesses to disliking how skinny she was when they first met because he doesn't think it was truly healthy.
After explaining that she lost the weight after the depression of the breakup, Eric tells her that he doesn't want that to happen again.
When Ana says that she doesn't want to gain any more weight or lose any more - because she was admittedly too skinny after the breakup - Eric states that she just wants to maintain the weight she has to which she agrees.
They work out a little plan as to how they will do that, walking, gym, etc.
Eric shows her that he cares about her, showing appreciation for her body.
Ana and Eric are kissing on his couch when Ana decides to ask Eric about his tattoo and he tells her about his father and how they'd have these awesome camping trips and do a lot of family activities together.
Sometime later, Eric undresses Ana and tenderly shows how much he loves her physicaly. Ana tries to return the favor by giving him a blow job - thinking that that's what all guys want, right? But Eric stops her and promises that he is going to change her mind about relationships, sex and love. Whatever preconceptions she has about herself or a relationship, Eric vows to change that.
When discussing it with Myra and Edward, Edward says that he can see that Eric cares about her and reminds her about Eric's past once more - admitting that he himself came from the same sort of background.
To show Ana how committed Eric is, Ana receives a key to Eric's apartment. He tells her that she can go there whenever she wants to.
Eric leaves to go on a trip to Erudite for his job.
While he's gone, Ana finishes her classes for the semester. Hec is driving her home when she receives a text message stating: You should really ask Eric who he's sleeping with tonight, bitch.
Ana goes to sleep crying, thinking that Eric lied to her the same as her ex - Cain - would have and isn't on a business trip but is fooling around.
I am so terribly upset that this chapter deleted. It had the first glimpses of a lemon, smut or sexual scene between Eric and Ana. But other than that it also shows Ana's insecurities in the beginning and it has Eric's promise/vow that he's going to change her mind about it. And I think that is the best part of the entire incident that happens in her apartment. The fact that Eric says that he is going to do everything he can to show her how a man is supposed to treat her is important to their relationship and the story.
Again I am so terribly sorry that this chapter got deleted and that I cannot replace it. I'm working on it and hopefully I can put something up before the story is complete.