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Short and angsty!

Tears don't fall.

Yugi.

Tell me, why does it hurt?

Age fifteen

Atemu left. I started searching.

Crack....

Age sixteen

He's still gone. I'm still searching.

Crack.....

Age seventeen

Where is he? I'm....not searching as hard.

Crack....

Age eighteen.

Gone....he's not coming back.....I stopped searching....

Shatter....

My heart hurts....why?

Age nineteen.

I miss him, so much.

Where is he?

I never thought he'd be gone so long. I thought he'd come back to me but he never did. The time that has passed has shocked me. Days merged into months, months became years. And he never came back.

I miss him.

Please come back.

I'm so sorry.

Just......please......give me a way to find him.

Please.....

My Yami.

Where ever you are, I hope you're happy.

"Hello, Yugi. Good day?" Jou asked.

I let my bag fall to the floor with a dull thud before I answered him.

"Been all right. Yours?"

Jou shrugged. "Been okay."

I nodded. Jou's changed. He's quieter. Its guilt, I can see it in his eyes. I can't take it away. There's only one person who could take it away but he's not here anymore. It's our fault, we know that. But we want to be forgiven. But I doubt we'll ever get it. We don't deserve it.

Seto threw himself down on to the sofa, wincing as he fell on one of Jou's misplaced shoes. Guilt's in him too, I know it is. He's very good at hiding it. He told me once that he feels guilty because he didn't stop Atemu leaving. He didn't stop what we did to him. I told him not to be silly half-heartedly. But deep inside, I know he could've tried harder. We all could have. Damn, this guilt is driving me insane! Just come back!

I left them, sitting on the couch, missing a face that hadn't been there for four years. Jou had moved into the house I still shared with Grandpa two years ago, but touching anything in Atemu's room seemed so wrong. Sometimes, at night, when I'm afraid, I go and sit in there. Holding the frozen puzzle. So empty and cold without it's spirit. I passed the room, imagining the face I remembered so well. The fleeting, timid true smiles burned into my memory. The arms that held me whenever I cried out in fear. Grandpa smiled at me when I passed, out of all of us he's changed the least. I'm thankful for that. He understands things about this whole mess that I don't.

"Hello Yugi."

"Grandpa."

I've stopped looking for you....

"Going out today?" He asked

"No, Anzu and the other's are coming round later."

"Good. Yugi, I meant to ask, can you watch the shop for a moment? I need to look for something."

"Oh, sure."

He beamed and I turned and headed down into the shop.

The bell to the shop rang, I glanced up from the comic I was reading. We just weren't as popular anymore. Or maybe we were, I just hadn't noticed.

"Hello, how can I help you?"

"Duel cards?" A small boy asked

"They're over there. C'mon, let's get you a pack."

"Okay." He giggled

I glanced at him. A bouncy, blonde haired, blue eyes boy. Sweet. I smiled. Once we reached the shelf, I reached up and pulled down a hand full of dusty packs.

"Not many people want them anymore." I explained "So which one?"

"That one!" He cried, pointing at the middle pack.

"Okay." I smiled

He handed me the money, as I was placing it in the till, I heard him tear open the plastic around them. I headed back behind the counter and picked up my comic. I don't even like this. Batman. Full of men with big egos and terrified women. And what is up with wearing underpants OVER jeans? Trying a new fashion statement Bruce Wayne? I lost myself in the world of colour and dramatic exclamations.

"Hey Mr!" A child's voice jerked me back to reality

The same child as before.

"What is it?"

"This is for you." He shoved a rectangle of card into my hands "Bye bye!"

Then he was gone, the door slamming after him. I blinked confused and then glanced down at the card. Duel monsters, I recognised as I examined the back. I turned it over to look at the monster and gapped, something fluttering in my heart.

The Dark Magician.

So long I'd gone without this card. I lost it the same time that Atemu left.

Emotions seemed to swell from the card. Abandonment, confusion, hurt.

"I'm sorry." I whispered, sliding the card into my pocket.

"Yugi! Phone!" Grandpa called

"O-okay!"

I dashed out of the shop, not looking behind and skidded to a halt before Grandpa. He stared at me.

"You okay? You look pale." Grandpa commented

"Fine. Phone?"

"It's Ryou."

I nodded and placed the phone to my ear. Grandpa silently stepped out, closing the door softly behind him.

"Hello, Ryou?"

"Hey, Yugi. Listen, I can't come round today. Sorry."

"It's fine."

"Just thought I'd let you know. Bakura's coming. Call me if you need help with him. He promised to be good."

I laughed. "Okay."

"Bye!"

"See ya!"

We hung up.

Everything's falling slowly apart, where are you?

"It's been four years since he left, hasn't it?" Anzu asked suddenly

Before there had been a buzz off excitement and relaxation in the air. As soon as those words left her mouth it grew sombre. Everyone fell quiet. We knew, everyone knew. I nodded slowly.

"He isn't coming back and we can't find him." She stated

"I know."

"What do we do?"

"Forget him?" Bakura suggested, it was as suggestion without and heart though.

"No!" I cried " I'm not ever forgetting him."

"Yugi, have you tried using the puzzle to call out to him?"

"Not for a few years."

"Try again. Go get it!"

I hurried to Atemu's room and scoped up the puzzle, cradling it gently. With doubt in my heart I sat down and pulled the puzzle gently to my chest. I glanced up at Bakura, he gave a small nod. I closed my eyes and opened my mind to the silent part of it, calling out into the void of darkness.

/Atemu? You there?/

Nothing. Well, I was expecting it.

/i don't expect you to be there. I don't deserve you to be there. But I want you to be there. Please be there. Atemu....please...?.../

Nothing. He's not there. He won't be there again.

"Bakura. He isn't there."

"It was worth a try. If the Pharaoh heard Yugi's heart call out to him maybe he'd be tempted to call back?"

"I felt nothing, Bakura. He's not there."

"I know." Bakura's confident tone had faded into sadness.

/You're missed you idiot. Come back to me?/

I sighed. I can still hope in vain, can't I? Wish on stars? On birthday cakes? On wishing wells? Only a miracle an bring you back.

Well....then.....I wish for a miracle.....

.......Aibou......

Short, I know.

Not interesting, I know.

Dodging the flying Ninja monkeys, Yes! I know!