Again I am going to apologise for it being a while since updating this, went through a bit of a bad period at work and I didn't have the energy to write anything or the time. Anyway here is the next chapter finally and I am currently working on chapter five but have got a little bit stuck, hopefully I will finish it soon.

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Chapter Four

Naomi

It has been about 12 hours since Emily was moved to intensive care although it seems like it has been 120 hours. I can honestly say I have never known time pass so slowly. I just want to be able to see Emily and tell her how sorry I am. I can't stop thinking about how stupid I have been, why did I have to keep pushing the poor girl. I didn't have to go as far as I did to prove things to her. I could have just talked to her again; she comes across as being an intelligent girl and would have understood. Now though because I had to be my usual selfish self Emily is lying in intensive care with tubes to support her breathing and all sorts of fluids and medications being pumped into her. I've not been to see her obviously as it is still family only but there have been times I have watched her through the window of her room, her body looks so lifeless except the gentle movement of her chest up and down in a slow rhythm. Her leg is in a pot and the skin that can be seen is covered in bruises and various sized cuts. I already feel so guilty about everything but every time I find myself standing there watching her the guilt sets in even more.

Her mum and dad have been lovely; they have kept me up to date with how Emily is even though nothing has changed with her. If only they knew the truth about what had really happened, I don't think they would have been so nice to me if they did. Katie and I even seem to be managing to tolerate each other, we both knew Emily needed us all to stick together and not be fighting. It's interesting actually, I have found a new respect for Katie Fitch over these long hours, she has shown a much softer side to her personality and I have watched as she become the strong one that has been holding her family together. She is the one telling her mum and dad to stay strong when they break down in tears and she is the one who has sat with her little brother who is obviously struggling with all of this and told him that Emily is going to be ok and fighting with him again at home before he knows it even though I'm not sure she believes it herself. She is so scared she is going to lose her twin sister and I can see that but she is trying so hard to hide it from everyone else.

Cook left a couple of hours ago, I don't think he was happy about leaving me in the state I was but I eventually made him realise that I would be ok and anyway even if I wasn't I didn't want him getting bored, he didn't even know Emily. I momentarily forgot that even I didn't know Emily really; I was just as much of an intruder. He must have either been to see Effy as soon as he left or called her and updated her on everything that had happened as it wasn't long before she turned up here. I had been sitting in the waiting room biting my finger nails running over everything that had happened again and again. Every time I closed my eyes I saw it all happen again as if it was that exact moment all over again. I hadn't even heard the door open when Effy came in, I jumped when she had sat down next to me and said my name softly "Naomi" she paused "you look terrible."

I turned to look at her "yeah, I wonder if I look as terrible as I feel."

"It's not your fault Naomi" she said quietly "you should go home and freshen up and then maybe come back another day."

"No" I shook my head "I can't leave Effy I need to know she is going to be ok."

She rested her hand on my knee "Naomi you can't give her false hope, if she wakes and knows you're here everything will have been a waste of time. You need to go home and let her be with her family they are the ones that will take care of her now."

I could feel the anger bubbling inside of me and that mixed with the guilt and the upset finally exploded the ticking time bomb "fuck you Effy, how dare you come here and say something like that to me. You were fucking right with one thing though, maybe it isn't my fault, it's yours everything is your entire fucking fault. If you hadn't come up with that stupid plan none of this would have happened because she may not have got so off her face and upset and then run and well you know the fucking rest."

I finally stopped shouting at her and the tears won their battle. I collapsed to my knees breaking down in tears everything suddenly overwhelming me. Effy crouched next to me and pulled me into a hug something she rarely did. She whispered softly "its ok Naomi, everything is going to be ok. Emily is going to wake up and you will have a chance to talk to her."

I took a few deep breaths trying to get the tears under control "I'm sorry Effy, I shouldn't have said all that I know you were only trying to help me with that plan and I chose to go along with it. It is all my fault and I just need to accept that."

Effy stood up and helped me up with her so we were back on the chairs "you need to stop beating yourself up Naomi. If we are all completely honest with ourselves we all have a part to play in the blame game, we have all played our part. I should apologise to you for what I said earlier I shouldn't have said that. Everything happens for a reason though Naomi so we will just have to see what happens next."

"I can't help but beat myself up Eff I feel so fucking guilty, I know everyone keeps telling me it's not my fault but I can't shake it off. Even Katie and I chatted whilst Emily was in theatre and she admitted the part she played in tonight's events." I deliberately left out everything about Emily being gay it wasn't my place to share that with anyone. Emily deserved the chance to tell anyone she wanted to know in her own time. "She just needs a friend Effy, she needs someone to stand in the corner with her, you know help her realise she can step out from Katie's shadow and be the person she was born to be. You know that night in the garden when we kissed, when all this trouble fucking started, we talked and I found myself wanting to just sit and talk to her for hours. If it hadn't been for Katie I think we could have been really good friends. Instead look what happened."

"You'll get your chance to talk to her again and you never know something good might just come out of this mess and you may just get that new friend." Effy always knew what to say to make me feel that little bit better however down I might feel.

Anyway Effy finally left me to it about an hour ago, she did try to get me to go home again even just for an hour but there was no way I was leaving until Emily was awake and out of intensive care.

I was still in the waiting room, James was sat in the corner with his dad asleep, Katie had gone to get some air and Jenna was with Emily, there still hadn't been any news as I slowly sipped another disgusting cup of what is apparently coffee. I can feel the tiredness creeping through my body more and more but I was determined not to give in to it. Everyone in the room looked up when the door opened hoping it would be the doctor with some good news. Once again though I was disappointed when it was Jenna that came in, she glanced at me before turning her attention to her family "Katie is sitting with Emily now so we can take James home for a while, I know Katie won't leave her and she will ring if there are any changes whilst we're gone."

Rob smiled slightly, I could see how tired and worried her was, it was to be expected really the whole family has been taking it in turns to keep a vigil by Emily's bedside "Ok love, you look like you could do with a rest yourself."

"I think we all could" she replied equally as concerned about her husband.

Rob nudged James awake "Come on son let's go home for a while."

"Is Emily awake?" he asked sleepily.

"No son" Rob shook his head "there has been no change yet but Katie is with her."

James seemed to accept this, it was obvious he loved his sister and just wanted to her to be ok. He walked with his dad towards the door as Jenna glanced over to me once again "I'll follow you down Rob." He acknowledged what she had said as she came over to sit with me "you should go home for a while to Naomi. Emily will still be here later."

I shook my head "No I'm fine I can rest later on here. I will only worry even more at home and anyway I don't think I will get much rest as every time I close my eyes I see it all happen again."

She seemed to understand what I was saying "Ok but you take care of yourself to. Can I bring anything back for you?"

I smiled "I will and if you don't mind a decent coffee wouldn't go amiss."

"Ok" she laughed "I think I can manage that." She stood up to leave but turned back to me before opening the door "thank you Naomi for being here, Emily is lucky to have you as a friend."

Thankfully she left quickly and missed the tears that fell from my eyes; she wouldn't be saying that if she knew the fucking truth. All I could hope was that when Emily did wake up she would give me the chance to be her friend and then it would be me that is the lucky one.

Another hour passed by slowly without any change and I needed to stretch my legs a bit as I was getting restless. I found myself walking in the direction of Emily's room; I stopped outside once more and looked in. Katie was sitting by her side holding her hand as she talked to her. Emily still looked the same as she had last time I found myself standing in this position. Katie must have realised I was stood there and looked over to the window before turning her attention back to her sister. After about a minute she stood up and kissed her forehead, I saw her lips move but couldn't make out what she had said. The next thing I knew she was stood beside me "what you still doing here?"

"You know why Katie" I rolled my eyes "I thought we were over this."

"Yeah sorry" she muttered "I guess the stress is getting to me."

"I wish she would just wake up" I said quietly knowing how she felt "at least then I can tell her how sorry I am and just hope she gives me the chance to make it up to her."

Katie raised her eyebrows and I could only guess what she was thinking, I nudged her laughing slightly "not like that."

Katie smiled "well we know that's what Emily wants."

"I won't lead her on Katie I promise. As I have tried to say I am not gay although the two kisses we've shared were pretty amazing." I could see Katie was over thinking and I wanted to nip it in the bud "I just hope she gives me the chance to be her friend."

"I'm sure she will" she replied quietly "you know the police came to talk to me earlier to see what I knew. I couldn't really tell them anything much but they did also mention that they were still looking for the driver but they needed to take finger prints and any other evidence from the car to find out who they were as it was a stolen car that was being driven."

A flush of anger shot through me "I hope they lock him up and throw the key away when they find him. I don't understand how anyone can run someone over like that and then disappear. They should face up to what they have done."

"If I ever get hold of them they will regret it forever" she spat angrily "but for now we just need to wait for Emily to wake up so we can both apologise to her and then take things from there."

"Yeah" I replied quietly.

We stood together in silence for a few minutes just watching Emily breathe with help. It was Katie that broke the silence "do you want you go sit with her for a while?"

I must have looked confused "I can't, isn't it still family only?"

She nodded "yeah it is but I think you need this. If anyone says anything I will just tell them you are a cousin or something. Let's just hope they don't ask though I'm not sure I could bring myself to say the words."

"And there is the usual bitchy Katie, I knew she had to be there somewhere" I smirked.

She shoved me "Just you remember she is never far away Campbell now get in there and sit with my sister whilst you have the chance."

"Thanks Katie" I said softly. I took a deep breath and stepped into the room slowly walking towards Emily. I sat down on the chair that Katie had earlier vacated. I wasn't really sure what I should be doing I felt a bit stupid about sitting talking to her when I couldn't be sure she could actually hear me but then they do say that people can hear you and that it can help with recovery. I sat for another few minutes just watching her before finally thinking 'fuck it' there were things I wanted to say to her, needed to say to her and if she didn't hear me then it would be a weight off my mind and if she did hear me, great. I knew I would still have a lot of apologising to do when she woke up. I reached out for her hand but hesitated for a second. I took her hand in mine and took another deep breath "I'm so sorry Emily" a tear slipped down my cheek "I was behaving like a complete bitch. I could see how much you were hurting and I should have stopped but I was only thinking of myself. Please just wake up so I can apologise properly and try and make it up to you." I wiped another tear from my cheek "please just wake up Emily and be ok."