Chapter 7: Death. Only Death. (and a little surprise)

Sunwind had said that she would come back to check on us every few days. Luckily, the day after we decided to go to ShadowClan, she came. She wasn't as surprised as I thought she would be on my decision, but she was surprised that Joann was coming too.

"Are you ready?" Sunwind asked after we had eaten. Me and Joann nodded, and we started our short journey.

The whole way, I could only think of the bad things that could happen. I only thought of the bad stuff. Only the bad things. Like me dying as soon as we enter the camp for mysterious reasons. Or everyone just attacking me and Joann as soon as we walk into the camp. But that's what happens when you put stress on someone. They think of only the bad things that will happen to them.

"Cat." Joann murmurs in my ear as we are coming close to the dreaded ShadowClan camp, "What do you think's going to happen?"

I just stared ahead with wide eyes. I didn't want to say anything, but she's my sister. I have to say something. So I told the truth, like I always do, "I think that in the next day or two we're going to die." My eyes didn't leave the space in front of me, but I could smell Joann's sudden surprise and dread. I could tell that now she was copying my face exactly. I'm psychic like that.

"Okay, be prepared to face the Clan." Sunwind wasn't making this any easier for me.

It's DEATH TIME! That's what my mind was screaming at me. As well as: It's okay. There's always the next life. Wait. No. No next life. ONLY DEATH! DEATH FOR ETERNITIY! Yes, I know, I have a messed up mind. There's no cure. I checked.

Despite all the turmoil that was going on in my mind, Sunwind was all smiley and cheery. I have no idea why. The scent she was giving off was strange too. Like the one that I smelled while I was fighting Hollystar. Something like relief. But, I have no idea what she's thinking. I don't plan to find out either. I honestly don't care what others think.

Unless I'm just meeting someone for the first time.

Wait, where did that come from? I had just thought about something that I never thought about. I never cared what others thought of me, no matter what.

Unless I really want to know someone. Then I'll try to be nice to them.

Holy crap. That voice wasn't even mine! Someone was invading my brain, I'm sure of it. Some tom cat who thinks that it's funny when another cat freaks out because no one is supposed to send creepy mind messages!

My breathing accelerated, and both Sunwind and Joann looked at me with worry, "I'm fine." I mewed quickly, "Just a little nervous. You know, I did kill Hollystar."

Sunwind nodded in understanding. Joann looked at me in shock. I guess she was surprised that I had taken one of a leaders' lives.

It's only a matter of time before I meet everyone! I'm so excited!

I'm now fed up with this little monster of a voice. I don't like it, and I want to rip its vocal chords out. Why not just rip every cats' vocal chords out? It would make such a quiet little world for me. I would love having a quiet little world.

But quiet would mean no one to talk to...

SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP! My claws were unsheathing, and probably aching to kill someone. Anyone. Preferably the next cat that crosses my vision.

"Cat, are you sure you're okay?" Joann asked. Joann. Joann. Joann.

Do I really have to kill my sister? That just doesn't seem fair. But hey! Life isn't fair, bro.

"Cat?"

I just stared at her. Glaring, staring, with that cold murderous stare that I seem to have mastered in my short life. I smelled her fear as she locked eyes with me. For a minute, I didn't see her as my sister. I didn't see the cat that I longed to protect. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't see at all. I just relied on my nose. My trusty, trusty nose.

That was now going to make me kill Joann.

Joann was actually admiring the scenery as she walked along to the ShadowClan camp. To be honest, she was scared that it would be as scary as Cat could be sometimes. But she was all wrong. There were so many cool things to look at. Birds and squirrels and frogs and rabbits. All communicating in an environment that was perfect for them.

Then Joann heard rapid breathing coming from her brother. She glanced over at him. His eyes were wild, crazy and angry.

"I'm fine." Cat said hurriedly, before Joann had a chance to say anything, "Just a little nervous. You know, I did kill Hollystar."

Joann was shocked. Cat had taken a life from a Clan leader? She had heard that was practically impossible for a cat to kill a leader. Most had live taken from sickness or old age.

Things went back to normal for a moment. Then Cat's breathing got heavier, and when Joann looked back at her brother, all she saw was a crazed tom with a thirst for blood that she had never seen before.

"Cat, are you sure you're okay?" Joann asked. He said nothing. Just looked at her with an urge to kill bursting from his eyes. His eyes. That's what scared Joann the most. She had never seen him like this before, "Cat?"

Cat growled. He glared. He stared with that murderous stare that he seemed to have mastered in his short life. Joann was afraid. More afraid of him than ever. Because she honestly believed that he was going to kill her. And he wasn't playing. No, he wasn't even looking at what was right in front of him. He couldn't see, he couldn't hear. Cat just smelled Joann's fear. He had told her once before. fear kept him killing.

He lunged.

She screamed.

The whole world went still.

Well now, I hope you've liked this exciting part of my journey. I can't tell you what happened because if I do, hehe, you might want to kill me too. And I swear, as a cat, you will kill me. Honestly, I don't even know what inspired me to tell my tale to twolegs anyway.

Anyway, I heard that twolegs like cliffhangers, so I'm leaving this at a cliffhanger. Why do they call this a cliffhanger anyway? There are no cliffs!

Whatever. I hope you like the story, blah blah blah.

Why do I bother with these things. Cliffhangers. They are useless. I'll just tell you what happens. Joann lives by unknown mysterious reasons that I cannot comprehend.

Happy?

Okay.

Bye.