Hey, so, I haven't updated in a few years.
No, nothing has been wrong, I just felt like my content wasn't up to par with the standards I held for it.
I've matured more and have finally found the inspiration I needed to continue writing this story and hopefully my others.
If there are people still reading this, I want to thank you so much for sticking around even when I've been a horrible author to you guys.
I'm thankful for those that read this and in the future, I hope that I can keep the promise I'm about to make.
I will update more frequently. Expect it to happen.
I have marching band starting in August and then school, but I promise I will find the time to update if I can
Bless you all, you cutie pies
Enjoy~
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Chapter 7: The Fear of Falling Apart
Normal POV
After hanging out with Sting, and finding out about Natsu's new relationship with Lisanna, I should've been happy that I would finally have him out of my hair.
Turns out, I feel quite the opposite.
Over the years, I'd only ever had Levy and Cana as people I talked to, so hanging out with Natsu was something I'd never experienced. He's a pervert, overly excited half the time, ill-tempered, and very boisterous, but I came to enjoy those things about him, even if I've only known him for about a week.
Today was Saturday and Lucy was pondering over these confusing feelings that were festering inside her.
She had expertly avoided the pink haired lunatic for the rest of the school week and had occasional conversations with Sting and Levy. Anytime Natsu would get near her, her noble friends would help her escape him, thinking it was only because they had a fight, when in reality, the blonde just had a broken heart that she couldn't quite place.
The blonde found herself lounging on her bed with nothing to do considering operation Get Lisanna was a success, so now she was back to her boring life of mismatching her pajamas and tripping over the furniture in the house. Left alone with her thoughts, she replayed the events that took place after school and wanted to rip her hair out all over again. Curse her teenage heart.
After all, she was blind, but she was still a girl, and this meant she was a girl with feelings and hormones.
Those never went well together.
Lucy cried when she got home from school yesterday, and when Cana asked, she just blubbered and angrily swiped at her eyes with an annoyed, "It's allergies!"
Now Lucy wanted to cry all over again, but instead the doorbell decided to ruin her moment of sadness. Cana was out (probably getting more alcohol) and left Lucy alone, hoping she'd be able to stay alive until she got back.
The blonde swung her legs over the bed and cautiously felt along the walls of the house until she felt the familiar knob of the front door. Unfortunately, the person on the other side of the door was impatient and thought it would be a great idea to ring the doorbell a million times.
"Give me a second! Damn!" Lucy grunted and practically pulled the door off its hinges. "Who are you?"
"It's Natsu, Lucy. I wanted to drop by and thank you for helping me get together with Lisanna, so as a reward, I bought you underwear."
The girl could practically feel the smirk oozing from his face. "What the hell?!"
"I'm kidding." He said in surrender and then put his hands on her shoulders. "I did come here to tell you something though."
"What is it?" Lucy gnawed on her lip, hoping the sinking feeling in her gut wasn't going to be the start of an impending monsoon of emotions.
"Why have you been avoiding me the past week?"
She heard the sadness in his voice and felt like she got punched in the gut by a professional boxer.
"I just didn't know you were there, that's all. I mean, I am blind after all Natsu." She tacked on a nervous giggle to finish her sentence, hoping he wouldn't suspect anything.
"Yeah, but whenever I would find you, Levy or Eucliffe would always conveniently take you away. Do they not like me or something? I know I've been annoying to you, but you're pretty cool to hang out with and I don't want our friendship to end after it barely even formed to begin with."
The heartfelt tone to his words made Lucy's heart weep, and all she wanted to do was hug him. She mentally laughed, wondering how a stupid scheme that lasted a few days could bring such strong emotions to her.
If you had told her she would have feelings for a crazy pervert that was considered a playboy, she would have laughed in your face and told you to get lost.
If you told her the same thing now, she would just solemnly nod, and tell you that she was crazy for ever falling for such an unattainable guy, especially when she was blind.
Slowly, she grabbed his hands from her shoulders and held them loosely in her own.
"Natsu, I've enjoyed talking to you, but I think it's best if you stayed with your group of friends and… and just left me and my friends alone. After all, you only befriended me so I could help you get Lisanna, and now that you have her, there's really no need for you to hang out with me. We've only known each other for a week, so I think it's better we pretend nothing happened in the first place. I'm sorry, but I think you should leave now, Natsu."
She sighed and squeezed his hands knowing that it may be the last time she could come in contact with him.
Harshly, her arms fell to her sides as the boy in front of her practically flung them towards her like they were burning coals.
The blonde's eyebrows rose in shock while she mentally prepared herself for his response.
"Fine, Heartfilia, be that way, just know that I won't be talking to you again, and if I ever do, it'll be me telling you that you're in my way when we pass by each other at school since you're blind and you like doing that kind of thing, and don't talk to Lisanna either. I know you helped me get her, but let's be honest, I could've done it on my own if I wanted to. I just thought it would be fun to mess with the blind chick before I had my girl, but turns out, you're a prude. You'd be lucky to snag any guy."
Lucy's mouth dropped open as she gaped like a fish. She expected something upsetting, but not this. Never would she have expected the Natsu from a minute ago to say something of this caliber.
It seemed as though the old Natsu was back along with the last name basis.
Did this mean everything before had been a joke?
If so, then why would he come by and try to be nice when he already had Lisanna?
Is he so much of an asshole that he would try to cheat even when he was in a relationship?
Lucy's mind was spinning with all of these questions, but the pain she felt was overwhelming her train of thought.
As tears brewed in her eyes, anger and sadness were brewing in her heart.
"Get out Dragneel! I never want to hear you ever again! I hope Lisanna realizes what a douche you are and dumps you in the trash where you belong!" She pushed his chest out of the archway and promptly slammed the door in his face.
After hearing his receding footsteps, she sunk to the ground and cried.
She cried for what she said and cried for what she thought would be best for her heart, when in all actuality, those words only ended up hurting it more.
The blonde figured if she never talked to Natsu again, that her growing feels would get smothered and she would live her normal life again. She felt sad an hour ago, but now she felt even worse knowing that he only did those things with her to try to hook up with someone before he started dating.
How could someone fall for another person so fast?
How could I have been so stupid?
He only took me out to try to woo me, but I'm so dense and I'm blind, so I couldn't tell he was flirting.
It was a mind boggling concept that left the girl feeling gutted and utterly confused, especially since it was happening to her.
Lucy just hoped that this melancholic feeling would go away quickly.
Boy was she wrong.
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Did you like that?
Probably not
But I hope you stick around because I'm just getting started
Did you catch the song reference in my title btw?
Also, I recommend listening to The Judge by twenty one pilots because you guys are the juDGES OF MY STORY LOL
I'll see you later my lovelies~
Remember, if you're sad (maybe from this chapter idk), that I'm sending you virtual hugs and puppy videos, so cheer up, things will get better, yeah?
Bye~
p.s. next chapter will be from Natsu's viewpoint so you aren't too confused because of his actions, I forgot to add this when I posted so I'm doing it 13 hours after lol
I'm so forgetful
BYE FOR REAL THIS TIME
~ZeldaFan64