Sabrina POV
How could you possibly feel alone in New York, for crying out loud? One of the busiest citise in the sorld, and I still feel lonely. I think there's something wrong with me. Ok, screw that, I KNOW there's something wrong with me. I'm sitting at the dinner table with mu parents and Daphne, but I still feel alone. I guess it kind of helps that we're not really having a conversation.
I mean, Dad's just fuming at me because I snuck off to the Golden Egg again, because it's completely MY fault that I haven't settled back into a live I haven't known for two years after a measly little month, right? Well, not a measly month. a loooooong month.
Daphne's TRYING, really she is. But it's not working. She has a million friends as usual and she has fun with them, but she's more distant than usual. She hasn't come up with a new word in months. I'ts like her muse is gone.
And mom's overcompensating for our dysfunctionalness. She'll talk to us, Dad'll bark out an angry reply, Daphne'll answer as cheerfully as possible, looking at me to see if I actually care for once, and me? I'll mumble a one word repl, if I bother to answer at all.
Most of the time, I don't really even register that they're there. I just sort of drift through life, really. I go to school, do my work, wash the dishes occasionally, take care of my appearance halfheartedly, and sneak off to go see everafters as often as possible. See, that's the only time I actually feel like I'm really alive, and that there are other people. I miss it.
It's funny, how when I get something, I don't want it anymore. Like makeup help. I get it, and I don't care how I look. And my parents. Frankly, I wish I'd never woken them up. And to get away from everafters and constant danger and Puck. The bane of my existence when I was back home, now I figured out that he was really the closest thing I've had to a friend in a long time. Plus, I actually function better when I'm running from something. It's weird.
I really think there's something wrong with me. I don't like being safe, I miss the most annoying person I've ever met, I feel alone in the most crowded places... I need to fix this. I don't really care what Dad does. I'm calling home. I need to know they're safe, at least.
So I'm calling.
Ring.
Ring.
Ring.
What if they've been kidnapped? What if they're dead? What if-
"Hello?"
A boy's voice. Has Granny taken in MORE orphans since we left? I don't recognize the voice.
"Umm... Hi? Is Granny Relda there?" That was dumb. I mean, if he doesn't knw me, he's not gonna know my nickname for Granny.
"Sabrina?" The voice asked incredulously. It sounded a lot mor familiar now.
"Puck?" I asked.
"Yeah."
With that on word, I smiled for the first time in a month. "How've you been?"
"Bored."
"Gee, I wonder why?"
"You haven't changed much."
"Actually..." I trailed off.
"So you have? How?"
"I think there's something wrong with me."
"I knew that already."
I didn't say anything.
"Wait, for real?"
"Yeah, kind of."
"What?"
"Well, I got what I'd wanted for ages, but now I don't want it."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm bored, I'm spacey, I spend no time with the parents I've missed for ages, I always feel like I'm alone except when I go to the Golden Egg..."
"Yeah, Mustardseed told me about that."
"Dad was NOT happy."
"Anything else?"
"I found out that I actually don't mind being a fairytale detective, and I miss running for my life."
"Ok, that one sounds like an actual problem."
"The rest don't?"
"No. they sound like you just figured out what you really want."
"It's kind of sad that I only realize hom much I need things when I lose them."
"Happens to a lot of people."
"Uh-oh, my dad's coming."
"See ya, then."
"Yeah. Oh and, Puck?"
"Hm?"
"Thanks."
"For what?"
"Making me feel like I'm not alone."
"Any time, Grimm."
I hung up still smiling. I might live through this after all.
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