"It smells like death" I tell Daryl.
I've been living in cellblock A now for 3 days and it's been death after death. Hershels been trying to help by giving us tea to bring our fevers down but it's barely making a dent.
"I'm sorry girl. Were going out to get meds today." Daryl say leaning against the window we had to talk through so he doesn't catch the flu.
"Be careful" I say as I rest my head on the window so desperate for his touch.
"I will. I love you." He says. He's gotten into the habit of saying it more freely now. I don't mind I love it but it feels like he thinks i'm going to die so he has to say it.
"And I love you" I say back before he leaves.
I want to cry. I miss him. I miss him so much it hurts. He comes by everyday. Hell almost every hour but still not being able to touch him to feel him. It's breaking my heart. A single tear runs down my face. I quickly wipe it away. I don't want to cry. I can't.
I sigh and walk back towards cellblock a that reeks of death and fear and sickness. It's like being in a hospital that hasn't been cleaned in a year. I hate it here. I hate my cell that I'm forced to live in. It's not home. I have my art supplies with me that Daryl brought the second day I was here but that's it. The only thing from home is that.
I sit down on my bed and just think.
Hershels been doing a great job taking care of everyone and even though he's not sick he stays in here with all of us. I offered to help but with Hershel and Dr. Caleb there's no need. I don't mind though. I want to just sit in bed and not do anything. But I can't. Because if I do I'll lose my mind.
I tried staying in bed my first day and it didn't do any good thoughts of death kept creeping in and making me become unhinged. So I got up and went to Glenn's cell. After that him and I make a point to talk. It's good for us. We're both not wallowing in despair and were getting closer.
Glenn and I talk about everything and anything and unless I'm with Daryl or he's with Maggie were together.
I don't know much of what's going on outside just that the old and young now live in the warden's offices. I know Beth is watching over the kids. She didn't tell me. Because she's watching the kids Rick doesn't want her to come in here because the risk of her taking back the germ even though the glass will put Judith in harm's way. I don't mind. I wouldn't want her to be in here with us.
I start to pace restlessly like a caged animal.
I should be out there I think. It's been so long since i've been helpless and it's making me agitated and mad.
I hate this I think.
. . .
I sigh as I check the oil on the car michonne and I will be taking to the veterinary college. We need another person. With Rick wanting to stay behind with Carl and Eva and Glenn sick the normal crew who goes out was out of commission. Most were killed during the attack on D and the others wished to stay with their family. Still have only 3 people on a run to get meds for most of the prison was going to be difficult.
"Just going to be me and you? Like old times?" Michonne asked walking over.
"And Bob" I say.
"Great 3 people for a huge run" she says leaning against the car. "What about tyrese?"
"I can try. He's still pretty messed up over Karen's death" I say wiping my forehead.
"Still. We need more people" she says.
"Alright I'll go ask. You go see if anyone else wants to join." I say. She nods and gets up.
. . .
"There you are. Been looking everywhere for you" I say. I have been. I didn't expect to find tyrese at A.
"Someone has to stand guard." He says giving me a brief look that shows off his swollen eye.
"Man I wanna find them too. Put a bolt in their head for what they did." I say walking closer. "Those people are locked in. Ain't nobody getting in or out without a whole bunch of people seeing."
"Sasha's in there. I ain't going anywhere" he says turning toward me.
"Yeah? Evas in there too. My girl. And standing guard ain't gonna do her no good unless we come back with them meds." I say.
Tyrese just turns and looks in the window.
"We'll leave in an hour incase you change your mind" I say before leaving.
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AN: I said I was going to end this story last chapter. But my best friend who first got me into fan fiction practically ripped my head off when told her I was going to end it. Also you guys telling me you still wanted it to continue really touched me. So even if I get no more new followers (cuz it shouldn't be about that I've learned ) I will continue writing this story. The updates will be random so be patient. Also! I want to add some new characters that will play majorly into the story line. So if you want to submit one or add yourself simply PM me and I'll send you a list of things I need to know about your character with the re: mixed match add. Thanks! Hope y'all enjoy.
PS. Sorry about almost ending it.