an~ so yeah, i just realized that i never did red, and since she's been in two books and will very likely be in the next one, that makes her worthy of a oneshot. darn my lack of ideas, i need one for a girl thing for bess. Red POVish

I'm not insane anymore. I used to be, but I've been cured.

So why do they still look at me like that?

I know I've done horrible things in the past, but I know they're wrong now, and I'm sorry. But still they avoid me, still they give me looks as if to say, stay away from me creepy girl! So I thought, maybe if I do what Mr. Clay does, then they'll accept me. So I'm writing it down. All the bad things I did when I was insane, every singl one, they're going on this paper. I WILL prove that I've changed. Here goes.

1) I terrorized my family. I didn't mean to, but I did anyway, so they sent me away.

2) In affect, I killed my grandmother. That was an accident, too. She was trying to cure me and the wolf got out and became a monster even worse than before. And it ate her. I used to think he ate my family, too, in the moments where I wasn't lying to myself, but now I realize they left when they heard what had happened, that I was still insane.

3) I scared everyone I met for years to death. I was horrible to them, with my pictures and my tantrums and my games. I acted like what I was, a deranged little girl. Games of death and dying, and most of all, I played house with Kitty.

4) I joined the Scarlet Hand. That I have no excuse for. They told me I could have my family, and I believed them. That has got to be one of the wors mistakes of my life.

5) I kept Henry, Veronica and their child captive, and pretended they were my family. I knew they weren't, in a back corner of my mind. That corner said, give them back, the blonde girl needs her family too. But the insane part said, no, she has more family, I don't have any. It also said, they aren't hers, they're yours. How wrong I was.

6) I tried to steal the rest of Sabrina and Daphne's family. My desire for a family said that they were needed, they were mine, I should take them, so I tried to. I failed. Thank goodness. Jake would make a horrible guardian.

7) I killed many, many people. That was what a temper tantrum led to with me. Especially once I got the tools. So many dead... And almost the Grimm girls, too. It hurts to remember what I did. But I must, to prove I'm sorry.

8) I terrorized Mrs. Sprat, who is the closest thing to a mother I had since mine died. My mother DID love me, and I wasn't TRYING to hurt her, or Mrs. Sprats, it just sort of happened.

9) I almost got Mr. Clay killed with my insanity, too. That was fixed though, and I'm going to try and do more like that to make up for it.

I will, too. Now that I'm better, if this letter doesn't proove that I'm sorry, I will keep doing good things until they realize I'm not the little insane girl with a pet jabberwocky. Because I'm not insane anymore, and I realize my mistakes.

I'm sorry.