A/N Hermione Mentions about loosing her sons twin daughter after she was born. it doesn't go into detail she just adds it to her lists of why she wouldn't be good enough to get a wizard.
The song Hermione sings for Cameron is called - 'Just as you are' - by Bryant Oden
Cameron walked out of his bedroom dressed in his pyjamas he smiled as he walked over to the table to drink his glass of milk ''Thank you Mummy''
Hermione smiled at her son he would always be her little boy no matter what ''Good boy now drink up and then I will tuck you into bed you have had a very busy day today.''
Cameron drank his glass of milk he walked out to the kitchen and placed it in the sink and walked back in ''Ready Mum.''
Hermione got up and followed her Son into his room she helped him into bed and tucked him under ''There all nice and warm''
''Mum can you sing me a song please.'' Cameron said looking up through sleepy eyes
Hermione nodded she conjured a chair and sat by his bed and stroked her hand through his hair as she thought of a song to sing ''Ok I got one I sang this to you before I put you down for the night I used to sing it because you were and are my miracle baby.''
Hermione cleared her throat and sand in a soothing lullaby tone of voice as she ran her fingers through his hair...
You are loved just as you are,
You are loved just as you are,
Can you feel it in your precious heart,
You are loved just as you are...
You are safe You are home,
You are held You're never alone,
The light you are could make angels sing,
So grateful for the joy and love you bring...
You are loved just as you are,
You are loved just as you are,
Can you feel it in your precious heart,
You are loved just as you are
Just as you are
Just as Hermione finished the song she had tears rolling down her cheeks she saw that Cameron had fallen to sleep she smiled leant down and kissed the top of his head ''I love you little one you are and always will be my little miracle baby.'' she stood up and walked towards the bedroom door and jumped
''Bloody hell what are you doing here?'' Hermione gasped as she stood by the entrance of the door
''Sorry didn't mean to scare you but I couldn't help but listen to you singing I do love your voice you know Nico does too.''
Hermione smiled at him she pushed him away and shut her sons door ''What's up Drake?''
''I want to ask how are you really I mean Pomona asking about Cameron it's got to bring up bad memories I am concerned for you Princess I don't want you suffering like you did a few years back.''
Hermione sighed and ran her hand through her hair ''Fine. I am shitting myself being here knowing we will end up in the paper what will happen when they figure I got pregnant during the war. They will be asking things like were it Voldomort's or Ron's as well as anything else she can think of. And then there will be Fudge, although Kingsley is the Minister and knows what happened, I will be questioned.''
Draco sighed, he pulled Hermione down next to him on the couch and into a hug ''Shh Princess everything will be just fine you got us Minerva and Albus. And I am pretty sure you got all the other staff as well'' he continued to rub his hand up and down his back
''I don't know Drake it's just I am worried someone will say something to him or ask him about his father it's bad enough, he asks me occasionally, mostly on his birthdays about the bastard and will he ever have a daddy and lets face it the last couple people I went out with couldn't suit being a father figure and I am not good looking I am damaged goods.''
Draco shook his head he pulled Hermione back ''did you listen to that song you sang cam. 'You are beautiful as you are! Hermione you are far from damaged goods your a heroine brave, clever, loving, understanding and most of all you're a brilliant judge of character any man or wizard would be crazy not to have you because I think they would be one lucky son of a bitch if they managed to score your heart''
''Drake I am scared I suffer nightmares from the war I suffer occasionally with after effects due to the fucking Crutiatious curse! I was raped and almost lost Cameron. I lost his Twin Sister! I am ruined for any man Drake I have a hell of a lot of baggage no one wants to take me and Cameron on or help me unpack my baggage and help me put it away.'' Hermione said with tears running down her cheeks.
Draco also had some tears in his eyes, he pulled her down and stroked her hair he held her while she cried ''Princess It will work out scars are from your past for doing what was right for making it safe for other people you should be proud of them. As for the little Angel you lost yes, it was devastating and I wish she had survived too, but she never it just wasn't meant to be.'' he took in a deep breath
''I think both God and Merlin needed an angel and Rose would only be the perfect candidate. She will be watching down over you and her brother as well as us you are loved Hermione by many people I love you so much that there is not enough words to tell you.'' Draco said all this while brushing her hair with her head in his lap
''Shh it's going to be just fine things will work out. As you always say 'you do not know what is around the next corner' and that is good advice you should listen to it'' once he finished talking, he just focussed on the fire that was crackling and dancing as he stroked her hair he hated what happened to Hermione.
Having to lose a child that you carried for nine months only to deliver her hold her once while she cries and then that's it, no more crying because she died due to the Crutiatious after effects.
He didn't want to think how hard it would be on her it killed him just thinking about it, he had held her before Hermione did and then she was ripped from them if it killed him.
And he knew it would of ripped and destroyed Hermione, but he guessed he thanked the gods that Cameron survived, he was how she coped and got through it, he lost his God daughter but she would always be in his heart.
Draco was pulled out of his thoughts by light snoring coming from Hermione, he smiled he stood up and picked her up, he walked over to her bedroom cast a feather weight charm on her while he pulled the quilt down he placed her down softly and pulled the cover up to her he leant over.
He bent over and kissed her head ''Things will get better I promise you my wonderful sister'' Draco stepped out quickly checked on Cameron and then headed over to the floo to go back to his and Luna's quarters but not before he checked the door was locked.
''Love I'm back, Is everything ok?'' Draco asked, stepping out of the fire he looked around and realized just how late it was he knew Luna would be in bed reading or planning what to write in the Quibbler he headed to his room stripped off and climbed into bed ''Hey love''
Luna smiled when Draco came into bed she noticed he looked a little hurt ''Is Hermione ok?''
Draco sighed ''No. I don't know she totally broke down Love I don't like it.''
''Why what happened'' she was concerned for her friend
''She was talking about how she will never have a father for Cameron or a partner for her self because she is ruined damaged goods. She went on and listed things like because of my scars, nightmares, crutiatious after effect and then the Death of R..Ro..Rose she totally broke down I haven't seen her that confused or broken since that night or the funeral five years ago'' he was concerned for her being back here ''It must be this place being back here were the war took place''
Luna had tears in her eyes as she thought of her Goddaughter lying in Hermione arms before being taken away because she had died that was always in the back of her mind it killed her she missed Rose lots ''I guess but she will find someone when she least expects it perhaps we should visit Rose's grave one day go this weekend or something take some flours''
Draco pulled Luna close to him he wanted to feel her next to him when he thought about Rose and other stuff ''Yeah that could be a real good idea I know the kids know about Rose and it could make her a little better or worse what do you think?''
''I think it will allow her to get he tears out and heartbreak we should leave the kids here with Albus and Minerva though she won't cry in front of the kids you know that.''
''Yeah I guess so well hopefully a little shopping will make her feel better?''
Luna laughed ''Well It always makes me better''
Draco laughed he turned the light off and cuddled up to Luna before letting sleep take over him.
The Next Morning Hermione woke up She looked over at her clock and groaned as it was only seven in the morning she decided she would get up, have a shower and chill for a little bit before Cameron woke up. She got up and headed to the bathroom when she saw her hair all over the place, puffy eyes and tear stains on her face she grimaced she looked like shit.
She snorted to herself that was something Draco would say when she was sick or ill, she got undressed and climbed into the hot shower, she often wished that Harry was in her life and that he would be the one to catch her tears and put her back together again, but how things change now it was and is Draco who was and is doing all the things she thought Harry should be doing.
She smiled, she loved Draco and to be honest, she thought he was better than Harry and Ronald he understood more and he wasn't quick to get angry he always waited to hear the full story before getting annoyed or being unhappy she couldn't have asked for anyone better she was a bit hurt knowing they would turn their backs on her after eight years of friendship after everything they had gone and been through.
The amount of times she had sacrificed herself to save their sorry arses in some ways she was glad they wasn't around because she blamed them for her loosing her daughter ok, she knew it was a little harsh, but she couldn't help it if they hadn't been childish they wouldn't have been caught and she wouldn't have been tortured at Malfoy Manor by Bellatrix Lastrange.
Then perhaps she wouldn't have lost her beautiful daughter due to fucking after effects of the Crutiatious curse Hermione shook her head, she had to pull those thoughts from her head, she needed to forget she had to focus on her Son Her son Cameron, who was lucky to have survived he needed her and she couldn't think about her daughter like that because it hurt too much.
she would have to go visit her daughters grave soon clean it up a little and place fresh flowers down, but for now she needed to be a Mum to Cameron she had to be there for him be his rock and be the one who catches all his tears and be the one to put him back together again should he fall and she couldn't and wouldn't be able to do that if she was too busy remembering her painful past.