''NOOOOO ROSE PLEASE YOU CAN'T DIE'' Hermione shot bolt up right the quilt and sheets were wrapped around her she was covered in sweat and had tears running down her face her throat was sore from where she must have been screaming she was panting heavy.

''Fuck, fuck, fuck why.'' she cried as she placed her head in her hand and cried ''why me can't I get a fucking break I don't need reminding'' she yelled out into the darkness of her room all could be heard was her cries of pain and heartbreak she hadn't had one like that before.

She had had one or the other but not lots of different ones another thing she blamed both Ron and Harry for. They had brought it all up for her the memories the pain the insults the lot she was a total mess once she had her cry.

She got up out of her bed cast a quick scorgify so that her bedding was now clean and fresh before she walked into her bathroom she cast a wandless tempus and was shocked to see that it was only four am. She groaned and decided she would go and have a shower freshen up a little perhaps go for a walk around the castle visit that place she used to spend so much time in when she felt sad or upset.

Then she would begin on her lesson plans she figured that she wouldn't be going back to sleep now anyway and if she was honest she never wanted to sleep again if she was going to have that happen to her again. Hermione looked in the mirror in shock she was as white as a ghost her eyes were red and puffy she looked a mess not that she cared right now.

Hermione set the shower that was one thing she loved about magic and that was the instant temperature she stepped in and sighed as she felt the hot water run over her muscles she closed her eyes and let the water run over her body before she reached for her cherry and watermelon shampoo.

Hermione made quick work on washing her hair and body she was feeling much better when she decided she needed to wake up a little she changed the temperature to cold she knew the shock would wake her up and it did she was now wide awake she quickly turned the water back to her original temperature to finish washing her hair out.

Hermione stepped out of the shower and quickly dried her hair and body before she walked in to get changed into the clothes she would be wearing today once she was done she got her wand and walked into the living room she saw the dog who still had not be named fast asleep she walked past ''Hey boy, I won't be long ok.'' she stroked him on his head and then excited her quarters.

Hermione began making her way to the courtyard she visited. She had been the only one to have found it and the only one to spend her time there she never did tell anyone where it was she would go there when she needed to sort her head out or to just work especially when it was hot out.

Hermione smiled when she saw the outdoor area she walked out with a sigh when she found it in school, she had cleaned it up a little she lay down on the grass under the big oak tree it wouldn't be long until the sun began to rise she decided she would watch the sun rise she often did that she lay back and relaxed she looked at the stars and her thoughts turned to her little girl that she never got to care for.

Two hours went by and she was disturbed when she heard a child's voice calling her.

''Mummy why are you sad?''

Hermione looked at this little girl who was sitting on the bench near her, she had long curly brown hair and chocolate brown eyes, she looked like Cameron and then she realized she was talking to her daughter ''Rose?''

''Yes Mummy why are you out here sad?'' The little girl said who looked just like Hermione

''I just came out to relax I am not sad baby'' Hermione wasn't sure if this was a dream or she was imagining it but it felt real

''Yes you are? Mummy I am happy here I am safe Nanny and Granddad says hi and told me to tell you they are so proud of you and Cameron I am too my Brother has turned into a little prankster honestly mum you need to keep a close eye on him.'' she smiled ''I watch you all the time Mum I miss you too and I know you tried you're best but Nanny said that God needed an angel and I was chosen I want you to be happy mum''

''But I can't I miss you so much darling I am so sorry I didn't know I was pregnant during the war I wish I could take back time''

''You can't mum I am happy now you need to move on. Let go of all the guilt. I am always with you and Cameron don't be afraid to have any more children. I would like to have a little sister, I will always watch over you it's time to let go Mum. I love you''

''Rosie baby please don't go not yet. You are so beautiful I am so proud of you. You will always be my little rose''

Hermione watched as her little girl got up and walked away just then she saw her parents ''Mum, Dad?''

''Yes darling we came to bring Rosie back with us we can't stay we need to go. I am so proud of you poppet''

''Yes I am so proud that my little girl is all grown up you have given me lovely grandchildren. I am just waiting to see you get married now, although I will be watching every bloke who gets near you. As for Harry and Ron they will come around some time when they do, you will need to hear them out as for Draco and his wife they are wonderful people we will watch over them also.''

''Daddy I am so lost I just worry that I will let Cam down I feel like I let Rose down and if I have another baby it will be like I am replacing Rose''

''Darling listen to Mum. You will never be able to replace Rose she is in you're heart you have plenty of love to go around and you are doing a wonderful job with Cameron dad and I are so proud and I have a feeling there will romance on the card soon. Just look for it and when it happens just go with it.''

Hermione smiled ''I don't know but I will try. Take care of her for me?''

''Always, now we must be going darling, we will always be there remember that''

Hermione felt her mother and father kiss and hug her and then she looked at her little girl and kissed her ''Mummy and Cameron will be with you eventually. Be a good girl until I come to you again.''

''I love you Mummy tell Cameron I am with him''

Hermione watched as her little girl ran to catch up with her mother and father she had tears running down her face when she watched them fade away

''Rose, Rosie wait come back.'' she cried ''I love you baby girl. Mummy will always love you sleep tight angel.'' Hermione jumped when she heard a sound she looked around ''Oh hi''

Severus woke up as usual he could never sleep for long he sighed and decided to go for a long walk perhaps it would clear his mind a little not that he would be going back to sleep he couldn't help but let his mind wander to Hermione he was shocked to hear all that he did he couldn't believe all she had been through and still managed to be a single Mother he had to admit she had done a wonderful job and he was looking forward to teaching him although he defiantly will need to be on his top guard when the time comes seeing how both Cameron and Draco's son act together he wondered if Hermione's son would be in his house? Or would he be in Gryffindor like his mother and would Nicodemus join him in Gryffindor, he couldn't help but grin he could imagine the shocked faces 'Golden Girls son sorted into Slytherin house' he shook his head he wondered what the papers would say tomorrow.

As he walked the halls he heard some talking and some sniffling, he frowned what the hell. Why would students be out at this time he stormed down to the area he was surprised to see where he was he had come here when he was in school to gain piece it helped clear his head no body had ever found it other than him. When he got closer he was about to shout when he noticed a head of bushy hair he furrowed his brows it was Hermione she was now sitting on the grass crying when he heard talking he wondered what was going on he walked closer as to not scare her when he heard her pleading for someone called Rose to stay and saying how much she loved her when it clicked Mummy will always love you? What...oh yeah her daughter but why would she be talking like she was there He cleared his throat ''Miss Gra...Hermione? Are you ok?''

Hermione looked up ''Severus? Er yeah fine, thanks I was just...Never mind is everything ok?''

Severus walked up and gestured to the patch of grass next to her ''May I?''

''Of course'' Hermione moved over for him to sit next to her ''What brings you out here? How did you find this place I have been coming here since my third year I often watched the sunrise of star gaze and worked when I needed piece?''

Severus wasn't surprised it would be her to find the place ''Oh I couldnt' sleep so I came for a walk I am sure you know that seeing as I am the one who always caught you or the two Idiots Potter and Weasley out at night.'' he chuckled ''No I used to come here when I was a student here for much the same thing as you. It helped me get away from real life for a little while I was unaware that anyone knew of this place. I have not been here in years''

Hermione smiled at him ''Yeah it's the same for me. I couldnt' sleep I had a nightmare and there was no way I was going back to sleep any time soon, in fact I don't think I want to sleep ever again?''

Severus frowned ''I have dreamless sleep if that will help?''

''No good anymore I became immune to it. After the war I practically lived on the stuff and after my daughter...you know but thanks for the offer.''

Severus was surprised it was the same for him he couldn't use the dreamless anymore because of all the years he used it, he became immune ''I am sorry about you're loss I know it's a little late and I can't even begin to imagine your pain but my mother told me that it gets better in time.'' He looked at her ''Hermione I hope you don't mind me asking. You can tell me to mind my own if you wish. But who was you talking too?''

Hermione blushed ''Oh it's stupid you won't believe it anyway, I'm not even sure if it was real myself well I was either dreaming, day dreaming or I am officially loosing the plot.''

Severus shook his head ''No you were awake but there was no one here?''

Hermione sighed she supposed she could tell him ''I saw my little girl. She was here she sat on the bench and we talked. She told me to move on and that she would like another sibling and not to feel guilty about it, she said that she was looking over me and Cameron including Draco, Luna and Nico, she looks just like me she was so beautiful and then I saw my mother and Father they were with her told me to move on and find a husband I mean Cameron often asks if he can have another dad and another brother or sister. And then she told me she needed to go she was sad because I was upset she didn't want me to be sad she wants me to be happy and she don't blame me for not being able to save her.'' she smiled as she spoke of her daughter she looked at Severus and saw he was listening ''Go on laugh at me. Tell me I am silly''

Severus listened to her he actually understood what she meant yes, there was no actual person, but it had happened plenty of times he read about it once and he heard from others ''No it's not silly I have heard that it can happen it's like somebody is dream walking you. It is supposed to bring people closure and help heal the wound and pain. I think she and your parents came to you in your hour of need they saw you were needing some sort of help and closure. Tell me do you feel a little less guilty now?''

Hermione thought about it hard ''I guess. I mean I don't feel like I am going to break any moment soon. And I feel like I have shed some weight and don't feel so weighed down''

Severus nodded ''Then I believe that it was real and they came to help you heal even if it is a little. It looks like you needed to break down totally for you're self to begin to heal after all these years, holding on to the guilt and pain whilst hiding it and caring for you're son. And then all it took was for those idiots to upset you and then you finally let it all out and they visit to help you heal.'' he smiled at her ''And I bet she is pretty and I bet she is very intelligent like you''

Hermione smiled at him she never knew he could be so kind after all the years she knew him she never thought he could be soft and understanding. She looked at his face and noticed that he wasn't as pale or sickly looking like he did during the war and his nose wasn't as hooked as it seemed and his hair definatly wasn't greasy she could tell that it was from working with potions constantly it is bound to mess you're hair up he wasn't gorgeous but he was good looking in his own way he had lovely black eyes wait a moment am I checking him out? Really Snape no Severus what am I saying he wouldn't even look at me twice why on earth am I calling him hot? Well, he is handsome in you're eyes and don't deny it you have fancied him in some way. 'Shut up'

''Sorry?'' Severus asked looking at her

''Oh I was just thinking and arguing with myself'' she laughed nervously, she couldn't believe she said it out loud

Severus nodded ''Oh right ok.''

''Severus I am sorry for what the papers might say about you. When we were asked for questions they asked things like why I defended you and Drake and is that why the Trio is not together anymore, I lost it told them to butt out and that you were innocent and good people so I wan't to appoliafixe first hand I know you hate attention just as much as me.''

Severus shook his head ''Hermione. I don't mind you do not need to be sorry you have done more than I deserved you defended me and believed in me and Draco. As for the papers I am used to it I don't care what bad things they say about me.'' he smiled at her an actual smile

Hermione couldnt' help but think when he smiles a proper smile he looks even more handsome, she shook her head ''Well I am sorry anyway.'' she was glad to know that he didn't know she was the one who saved him from the snake bite it is bad enough he thought he owed me a debt for freeing him it took her ages to tell him to forget it if he knew she had saved his life as well then he would feel like he owed her a life debt and she didn't want that.

Hermione looked up and noticed the sky was going a pink colour she was shocked ''Severus what's the time please?''

Severus cast a tempus and his eyes widened ''Its six thirty?''

Hermione smiled and sighed ''It's beautiful a brand new day'' Hermione looked up at the sky and smiled she felt peaceful like it was just her and Severus for the moment

Severus smiled and looked up at the sky to see that the sun was rising soon he looked at Hermione when he notieced she was shining her hair was lit up and her at that moment she looked like an angel when he heard her breath that it was beautiful he couldn't help but at that moment realise that she was beautiful so while he was looking at her he smiled ''Yes it I beautiful'' although he wasn't talking about the sun setting the warmth of the light shined of her face at that moment she looked like she was floating he realised that for her it must be a relife knowing it was a new day

Hermione smiled and looked up just as the sun finaly rose and set she whispered ''I love you my little rose'' she smiled she looked towards Severus and saw that the sun was shining down on one side of his face she smiled at him ''Well it's a brand new day time for me to get my life back together.''

Severus looked at her with respect he knew she was strong he respected her and how she was going to continue fighting ''I see you are more relaxed?''

Hermione stood up and brushed he back of her clothes to make sure there was no grass on her clothes ''Yes I can't explain it when the sun washed over me just then I felt like I was free and that talk I had with my daughter and parents made me realise that I need to start healing and I need to be there for my son to allow him to grieve he has just learnt about her and knoww he will need me. And I can finally put the pictures out of my little girl and no that she forgives me.''

Severus stood up next and smiled at her ''Well I must say you are strong Hermione always have been you were flawless during the war and you always fought you never gave up and I just knew you wouldn't give up fighting now''

Hermione smiled at him she leaned up and kissed the side of his cheek ''Thank you Severus. Thank you for listening to me.'' she moved away and gave him a little smile as she walked away with a sigh ''I will see you at dinner?'' and then she was gone

Severus stood there in shock when she kissed him, he felt her warm lips It felt like an electric shock went through him it tingled he touched his cheek when she walked off ''Yes goodbye Hermione'' he said it in a soft voice as she disappeared out of sight.