Wait, whats happening? I cant move. Breathing hurts so much. Why does it hurt so much? Where is he?
"Ka..Kaka..shi"
Pain, all i feel is pain. My bones, my skin. My entire body is in agony. Make it stop...Kami please make it stop.
"Kaka..shi"
What's that? Its so far away, i cant understand. Someones there? What are they saying?
"Ka..kashi"
Please help me, it hurts so much. Why? Why does it hurt?! What happened?!
"Kaka..."
Two weeks before:
"Ok so talk."
I shift around so im facing him, my back resting against the other side of the tub. I can see him clearly now. His wet gray hair draped across his face, long pale arms hanging on the tub rim, mismatched eyes staring at me intently. The emotion raging in those intelligent orbs made my insides churn.
"I understand what im about to say may shock you, though i dont really care."
I raise an eyebrow but he holds up his hand for silence. Relaxing back again i nod, ill save my questions for later.
"You once told me you loved me. I didnt truely understand that emotion until recently. I understand a paternal love to a certain degree because of my father but not an-" he paused, searching his brain for the right word as he looked to the ceiling. I furrowed my brows, unsure of what was happening. "-affectionate love."
"I beleive i do love you as you love me."
I blink at him, dumbfounded.
"Its the kind of love where you become attached to someone. Where you want to make them happy and would do anything for them to be so. A burning love that makes your heart pound in your chest when you see them. A jealous love, something ive now understood perfectly."
He leaned forward to watch me closely, running his fingers through my hair.
"My father explained it to me before, i ultimately declared that it was non sense. But now i see i was wrong."
His hand slid down to cup my cheek, his eyes pinning me to the spot. Those eyes, i felt like they could see into my soul.
"The Hatake Clan are very closely related to wolves. So much like wolves we mate for life. Never do we find another if our mate dies, much like my father and mother."
Again im rendered speechless.
"So when i do take you, and i will, you will be mine. You can never find another."
I find myself nodding, my body acting on its own. He admitted he loved me...
"Wait...I dont understand...This is coming out of no where."
"Not exactly, Ive known since the first day that i loved you. When i made you cry it hurt me too. Something i wouldve brushed off and not cared about if it was anyone else. It bothered me so much i spent all night looking for you."
I tried to think back to that day. The training fields. His face. No. His eye, he looked worn out. The dark ring under it from lack of sleep. Why he was so sluggish during our fight. Why he didnt use his chakra...
"Why..Why didnt you just tell me then?"
I sit up and grab his face in my hands, glaring at him. He knew this whole time...The walk home! He said:
"I wouldnt say i find your affections disgusting. Theyre flattering really. But imagine my surprise when i hear you climax and say my name. I did just meet you. So its a little much for anyone to deal with."
Never in that did he say anything about not liking me back, i just took it as he didnt.
"I didnt want these feelings."
That sent a knife into my heart, i pulled away, turning my head to try and hide how hurt i must look. He caught my chin with his thumb, forcing me to look at him.
"Im sorry that was thoughtless of me, but i didnt want to feel that way about you. I thought i didnt deserve happiness, not after what happened to Obito and Rin."
I frowned,
"You do deserve happiness. Out everyone here you deserve it the most. Youve lost so much, too much."
He smiled, his dimples appearing on his cheeks. My heart swelled at the sight, it was a real smile.
"When i first met you, you were the only one who didnt look at me like i was broken. You simply saw me. And that made me uneasy. I didnt know why but seeing you look so lost made me want to help you. Though i still hated you in the beginning before i knew what love was."
He pressed his forehead to mine, i lowered my hands to his chest. My eyes widened when i felt his heart pounding.
"I decided to finally tell you and accept this when that Dog started sniffing around."
I wanted to laugh, his face was twisted into a scowl but it looked childish and more like a pout. Like someone was trying to take his favorite toy.
"Hes just a kid, Kakashi."
I smile at him but Kakashi shakes his head and lays back into the tub-end.
"He was trespassing on whats mine. Touching you so easily. Acting as if you were his."
His tone was bitter, but i could hear the desperation there. He had thought he was going to loose me. I leaned forward, hugging into his chest, my face in the crook of his neck.
"I didnt like it either. He smelled too much like Akamaru."
Kakashi stiffened, i looked up at him to find him giving me a hard stare.
"You smelled him?"
"Huh? Well kinda, i mean hes got a strong scent so i couldnt hel-"
He cut me off with a kiss, snaking one arm around my back and a hand in my hair. My eyes widened when he pulled away, the fierce dominance in his eyes made a tingle run along my spine.
"Dont smell other men anymore."
"H-hai..."
He watched me for another moment before laying his head back on the tub rim. I stared at him, slowly leaning in to lightly brush my nose along his throat. I took in a breath of air through my nose, humming softly at intoxicating scent. Pine tree sap and a feral smell i couldnt place. It made my spine tingle again.
He raised his head with a quiet growl, his eyes watching my every move. Much like a predator would stalk his prey. His pupils dilated when i unconsciously licked my lips.
"So you love me?"
"I do."
"Say it."
I grip his face, pressing our foreheads together. I needed him to say it. I still didnt believe this was happening.
"I love you, Lincoln."
I smiled widely, nuzzling my nose into his neck with a soft light hearted laugh. Theres no way this is real. Never in my wildest dreams has he ever said he loved me.
A pair of strong arms wrap around my back, a slight chuckle bubbling in his chest. And his heart...It was still pounding. I dont get it, not at all. Maybe Kiba was the breaking point for him, ill have to thank that mutt later.
"You are mine, Lincoln Tyler."
His growl was soft and playful, something i hadn't ever heard from him. I grin into his neck for a moment. When my teeth met his neck he sucked in a breath through his teeth. I bit down a little harder than i should but i wanted to leave a mark.
"And youre mine, Kakashi Hatake."
I raise my head, expecting anger but only saw heat. He was panting with parted lips. Eyes lidded and sharigan spinning slowly. I smiled smugly, earning a growl. I let out a yowl when i was suddenly lifted over Kakashi's shoulder as he stood up.
"What the hell are you doing!?"
"You started this."
He went to step out of the tub, i clung to him,
"Hey! You could slip!"
"Ill be fine."
"I dont give a shit about that! I could eat tile while youre ninja ass would be totally fine."
He scoffed and stepped out and started walking to the bed. I stared down at his ass before grinning evily. I swung down my palm and slapped his ass. He nearly slipped, making me let out a shout which turned into a snicker when i noticed the red hand print on his left ass cheek.
"Youre going to get it for that."
"Im so scared."
My head shot up when he slapped mine back, it stung so bad, that dickhead probably used ninja strength.
"Oi! Careful with the merchandise!"
He slammed me into the matress, making me laugh, he smirked down at me. I stopped laughing when i saw him staring at my ass. Wait he didnt think...
"Hey hey!"
He was suddenly sitting between my legs, i tried to close them but he grabbed my thighs and pulled them apart with ease. I started scooting away from him, he paused to raise both eyebrows at me.
"Im not a catcher, im the pitcher. Get it?"
He tilted his head with a shrug. In normal circumstances that wouldve been cute.
"Im not the bottom!"
He froze before his eyes went wide.
"Im not either."
The awkward silence that went between us was stifling. I sat up and kept shooting glances at him. He was busy with his own thoughts.
"What are you thinking about?"
He looked at me before saying something that made me want to strangle him.
"In youre sexual experiences with men have you ever had this problem. Surely youve taken it before."
It felt like the air was knocked from my lungs. I clenched my jaw while quickly standing to my feet. That fucking idiot.
"Where are y-"
I slapped his hand away, shoving on a pair of boxers and pants. I knew i was overreacting again but damnit he was being insensitive.
"Lincoln?"
I grabbed a shirt and walked out of the room, when i reached the front door a hand caught my elbow.
"Whats wrong?"
I turned on him, teeth bared and glaring daggers. He pulled his hand away, confusion on his face.
"Ive never been with another man, you asshole! I was straight until you fucked everything up for me!"
He recoiled from me like i had slapped him but i was too mad to care about his feelings. He made me feel dirty and disgusting.
"Dont assume shit!"
I walked out and slammed the door, i kept walking, passing a striken looking Lee, Neji and Tenten. They said something but i was fuming and ignored them. I kept walking until i reached the steps. I was so pissed i didnt see someone walking in front of me. I collided with them hard. We ended up tumbling down the stairs a ways until we caught ourselves.
Holding my head with a wince i turn to snap that the person until i saw it was Kiba. He was rubbing his elbow with a worried Akamaru at his side licking his face.
"Ah, gomen Kiba."
I stood and offered my hand to him. He took it and i pulled him to his feet.
"Nah its ok, i was in my own world."
"Same here."
Three sets of feet walked down the steps to us, Team Gai minus The Green Beast of Konoha.
"Are you two ok?"
"Yeah, were ok Tenten."
I rubbed the bump on my head with a smile.
Some how i was roped into drinking with the kids. We all met up at the bar, none seemed bothered by me being there. If anything they seemed to like me around.
"Oi, Lincoln! Tell us a funny story!"
"Yea!"
I downed my 6th shot of some purple monstrosity that burnt like fire. With a huge grin i leaned forward, they all leaned in too.
"Ok so me and my buddie were drinking at the base when one of us got too fucked up. So i had the bright idea to-"
I glance over at Naruto, he was snoring lightly in a puddle of drool. I turned to them with a wicked grin and a wink.
"Let me show you."
I had them all leave the booth, i sucked in a lungful of air before letting out a yowl:
"WHISKERS HOLY SHIT YOUR PANTS ARE ON FIRE!"
i slammed my hands on the table as his head shot up with a wild look around.
"Whiskers! Take off your pants theyre on fire!"
The others caught on and joined in, causing Naruto to fling himself out of the booth while trying to remove his pants. With us all screaming at him in a panic he completely believed he was on fire.
"It burns! Ah! Help!"
I quickly took my shirt off to beat out the 'fire' with it while yelling for him to run. He took off, stripping clothing until he was in his boxers and out the door. Everyone burst in a fit of laughter, i slumped over to lean on a table while cackling. The others patted my back while grinning and laughing. I took a bow while putting my shirt on one arm and had my head through. A very drunk Kiba slid over to me, the others too focused on laughing to notice Kiba groping me.
"Youre so funny."
He was grinning and flushed. His hands tried to snake into the front of my pants but i grabbed at his wrists. He pressed himself into me, when i heard someone call out for Kakashi i went to look but a pair of hands ripped from my grasp and clamped on my face.
"Kib-"
I was cut off my a sloppy kiss to my bottom lip and chin. My eyes locked with Kakashi's lone eye. He froze as the group with their backs to me and horn dog tried to explain why Naruto was naked running through the village. I shoved Kiba off me and went to snap at him but his arms wrapped around my half dress torso. They all turned when they heard Kiba shout out:
"I love you Lincoln!"
They all froze for a moment before pointing and laughing.
"Someone get him off."
"Yeah before he starts humping your leg."
I wanted to laugh at that with everyone else but the stare i was getting from Kakashi made any laughter die in my throat.
Choji and Shino pulled Kiba off and they all went back to their booth, leaving me alone with Kakashi.
"Hey, i-"
He turned and walked out, i ran after him while pulling my shirt on the rest of the way.
"Kakashi, wait. Its not what you think."
He ignored me and kept walking. I ran to catch up, grabbing his hand. He turned on me, eye blazing. I flinched back, he clutched my hand while his other made the hand sign.
We ended up back in his apartment. I coughed from the smoke, swatting at it. He stepped away from me, showing me his back.
"Please listen. He was drunk-"
"Dont defend him!"
His back was tense with hands in fists at his side.
"No listen! We were all drinking and he just started getting handys when you walked in-"
He turned to face me, his demeanor was back to Aloof Kakashi. He had shut me out again. Damnit...
I stepped up and went to remove his mask but he stepped away.
"Go shower, you stink of him."
Gritting my teeth i stepped around him. I started stripping out of my clothes while looking back at him from over my shoulder.
"I didnt do this shit on purpose."
Walking to the bathroom i slammed the door closed, leaning on it with my hands. He didnt even listen!
The next day Kakashi was gone when i woke up. And for the next two weeks he never came back home. I had to hear it from Gai that Kakashi was on a mission.
"That fucking dickhead."