Chapter 13: Cyber problems and mixed up feelings
New Chapter! ^^ I had a really bad day today and I really wanted to go into my room and stay there, but I went ahead and made another chapter :/ oh and i made a twitter if some of you want to follow me it's under ChiNikoru ^^ thx for the reviews!
Rin: *pats Nikuro's shoulder sympathetically* it's okay, Nikoru! And Nikoru will make short stories on the twitter account and post pictures of her art along with awesome vocaloid pics!
~*Rin's P.O.V*~
I was ready for the school day to be over with as I sat in boring science, learning about chemicals.
"Bleh," I mumbled and Piko snorted as the teacher looked over at me.
"Do you have something to say, Miss Kagamine?" She inquired me with a cold glare. The glare didn't faze me and I didn't bother on giving her an even colder one back.
"No ma'm." I said in a false respective tone. The Senpai is either deaf or doesn't understand the meaning of sarcasm. I sighed and began to work on music for Music Class. It was a stress reliever to write your feelings out on a piece of paper and create it into a wonderful song. I remember when I made my song "Why don't you call me yet?" for Len when we first began to drift apart. Of course I didn't let anyone near my iPod to hear the music I had made and I didn't plan on showing anybody either. I made alotof music that revolved around my feelings and they were pretty deep sometimes. Funny how the world works in funny ways, taking away your dad, then your best friend, and gives you a stalker who posts pictures of you on the Internet. I really didn't feel like looking into my stalker either, afraid if I did that I would kill them in one blow instead of making their death a slow and painful one like I planned. I grinned evilly and began to imagine how I would torture them. I was now walking down the hallway to music class, seeing groups of people whispering while looking at me. I felt very conscious of my self, but held my head high, meeting eyes head on with my own. I rounded the corner into the deserted hallway and continued walking in silence, seeing no one was here. I was suddenly one the cold marble floor of the hallway, feeling my butt aching and seeing papers scattering everywhere. I realized that I walked into someone and now that person was bending over to help me. I didn't take the boys hand and instead began to pick up my music papers. The boy helped me and I realized he looked somewhat familiar. He had blonde hair a little shorter than Mikuo's, but not by much. He had light blue eyes that I think were a shade darker than mine.
"I'm so sorry! I should have been paying attention! Are you new here?" I asked and he winced. I felt confused by his wince wondering why my question would cause that reaction.
"Rin,...it's me; Len." He told me and I frowned. I realized why I hadn't recognized him; he had gotten a hair cut and his hair was no longer in a ponytail. His tie was hanging loosely around his neck and the first few buttons of his shirt were open, exposing his chest to me. He watched me as I studied him, his eyes never leaving mine. I snatched the music papers he was holding out to me and quickly stood up to walk away. As I grabbed the papers from him, I smelled something also familiar, but I couldn't remember where I had smelled fragrance before. Probably some womanizer cologne, I thought and felt a dull ache. I wanted to get out of here quickly. I walked as fast as I could, almost running. I felt something grasp my wrist and I was now staring at Len. I glared at him and yanked on my wrist, trying to free myself with no avail.
"Rin, listen to me please." He told me, his voice was hoarse. I glared at him and he stared back with determined eyes.
"Let...me...go..." I said with a cold, deadly voice. He hesitated for a minute, doubt passing through his eyes, and I took advantage of the second of weakness. I pulled my wrist free and was now running to the music room.
"Rin!" I heard Len call out to me, but I didn't look back and he didn't chase me. I felt a stinging in my eyes and blinked several times before opening the door and walking into the room. I put on a fake smile and pushed on the metal door handle and walked in. I needed to feel Mikuo's arms around me and know that I wasn't alone. I didn't want to be alone in this dark hole of pain; I wanted to see the light and live in it. I didn't want to fear the light and cower away from it, and I wasn't. I wouldn't allow myself that life of hiding. I felt a stinging in my eyes as I stood outside the door, catching my breath and blinking back the tears that were threatening to flow. Once I regained my posture, I grasped the cool metal of the door handle and pushed down, walking in with a big fat and fake smile on my face. I immediately searched for Mikuo and spotted him towards the back of the room. I practically ran to him and hugged him, burying my face in his chest so he wouldn't see the tears that might still be lingering. He was stunned for a minute, but hugged me back gently; as if he were afraid I would break. He chuckled, but went tense immediately. He stroked my hair and mumbled.
"Hey...what's wrong?" He asked and gritted his teeth, making a wretched noise that sent shivers up my spine. I looked up to see him glaring at Galaco, who was glaring at me, but she turned away once she saw Mikuo's cold glare.
"Don't worry about the photo or Galaco; I bet they are just jealous of how beautiful and special you are." He told me gently and pecked my nose. I gave him a small smile and stood on my tippy-toes to peck his lips. He grinned after I pulled back and I heard someone clear their throat. I turned to see Taito glaring at Mikuo and I immediately had a nagging feeling; knowing what that look meant. Taito could be very possessive, especially when it came to people such as me. He didn't like it when I hung out with other guys, even if it was just Kaito, and would instantly feel jealous. He must be feeling so betrayed right now and I felt guilt come crashing down on me. I gave him a fake smile.
"Hey Taito!" I said with the fake happiness and he scowled at my smile. I knew he wouldn't fall for it; he had seen the cracks in my mask and knew my act. Or so he thinks.
"I'm...sorry..." He muttered and I gave him a confused look.
"About what?" I asked him. He smiled a sad smile, that to anyone else would have appeared sadistic, but I had seen his sadistic smile enough to know this one was sad. He turned and walked away, leaving me feeling stupid. I felt the need to go after him and demand to know what he meant, but I wouldn't budge. I felt a pair of arms snake heir way around my waist and felt Mikuo put his chin on my shoulder.
"Don't worry about him, Rin." He told me and I blinked in response as Mikuo kissed my neck. His lips stayed on my neck longer than necessary, but I didn't protest. I felt like a broken girl at the moment; unable to move or talk, only blink and stare lifelessly. Miku. Gumi, and Teto were now hugging me, jolting me out of my day dream of being broken.
"Oh Rinny! That was an awful prank that person did to you!" Teto said, squeezing me. Again, I didn't say a word.
"Stop talking about it, Teto! We don't need to remind her; I'm sure the school is already talking about it enough!" Miku told her and I felt like somebody slapped me.
"Just shhhh!" Gumi said and mumbled in my ear.
"Don't worry, Rin. The sleepover will be fun and I'm sure the school will have forgotten about it by Monday." Gumi told me and smiled gently.
I hoped so.
~*Mikuo's P.O.V*~
I was pissed right now. I was mad at the whole school for talking about the photo and I was ready to murder to the person who made the picture of Rin. Galaco had made that comment and after school I planned on having a word with her. I was sitting here writing lyrics to a song that I was making for Rin and wasn't having much luck; the trash can beside me held the wadded up pieces of paper with the lyrics I had first started writing and then decided weren't good enough. I remembered how I had kissed Rin on the neck, feeling the soft, smoothness of her skin under my lips. The sweet smell of oranges had filled my senses and I licked my lips unconsciously at the memory. I remembered the urge I had to give Rin a hickey. I instantly flinched at that part of the memory and controlled my hormones- well I tried. Stupid hormones. I looked down to see my hand writing lyrics.
The thought of kissing your sweet pink lips,
it just makes me wild. I can't help, but feel
the urge to touch you. This shaking from my finger tips,
is an unsteady thrum of adrenaline. I just want to release myself from these
sensations, please let me touch you one. I know that if I do, I will just beg for more,
but the need something much more! This odd, crazy, unmistakable feeling that I've got
is just to much!
I stared at the paper, feeling like a retard. I couldn't give this to Rin! It would freak her out and she would instantly feel awkward around me, even if we're together. I smacked my forehead down on the stand, banging it slightly on the plastic. I felt a poke on my shoulder and looked up to see Rin looking at me with slight concern.
"You okay?" She asked me and I simply nodded. She picked up my sheet of music and I instantly flipped. I snatched it from her and shoved it right down my pants, feeling the uncomfortable paper pricking my skin. I grinned sheepishly and she gave mea weird look.
"Um, if you didn't want me to see it, you could have just told me." She said and I instantly felt like a moron. I hung my head and she hugged me, but when she did, my face went directly into her boobs. Those new boobs of hers and they were spectacular. Ignore the urge, ignore the urge, ignore the urge! I felt heat rise to my face. Rin let go and saw my face and her brows creased slightly, giving her an innocent confused look. I instantly felt dirty for wanting to taint Rin's innocence. I was becoming a dirty pervert like Kaito! I went to a wall and banged my head against it several times, possibly putting a dent into it. I turned back to see Rin, Miku, and Gumi giving me odd looks. I sighed and realized it was a losing situation for me.
Dammit hormones.
Sorry it's short, but I have to study for exams that are coming up soon and I need to ace them if I want to write all summer long for you people! ^^ R&R!