Chapter 17: Untold Thoughts
Hi everyone! ^^ it's me again and I am very excited about this chapter! I would like to thank everyone who P.M me or left their character in a review! I loved making your characters part of my story I am sorry if I didn't use your character, I just couldn't fit it with the plot sadly, but that doesn't mean I don't love you! This chapter is for everyone who reviewed, favored, and followed the story! You make me so happy :') I haven't used all of the characters that I have selected yet, only one so far, but don't worry I will put them in soon! This chapter is rather short this time, but I wanted to get something in before I have another exam. I really hate exams right now. Has anyone figured out Rin's stalker? I'm not saying who it is sorry ;3 but you can always leave answers!
Rin: Nikoru doesn't own Vocaloids, but we all know she wants to~!
Nikoru: Yes, yes I do.
Mikuo: …Jessi-chan gave Nikoru ideas about me…
Nikoru: Tehe…yes thank you Jessi-chan :D NOW ONTO THE STORY! Oh, and thank you IA-K1002 for making an account :D I hope we can be friends as well :3
~*Len's P.O.V*~
I felt like a piece of crap without a soul or a purpose in life. I walked blindly down the stairs that led to the roof top, hardly noticing the friendliness of the voice calling my name. I looked to see Luo smiling at me and I just gave her a blank look before realizing she was speaking to me.
"…so what were you doing up there?" She asked me, rocking on the heels of her boots.
"…I was just looking at the city from the roof top." I lied to her and she nodded and continued to smile. Luo was a nice girl and of course we became friends, but at the moment I wanted to be alone. Luo was now staring at me with concern and I couldn't even force a fake smile to reassure her of whatever she just said.
"Hey Len, do you need to go to the nurse? You don't look so good." She told me and I simply shook my head.
"I'm okay Luo, don't worry about me. I've just had a lot on my mind lately." I told her and I began to walk down the hall with Luo beside me. The back of her hand kept bumping into mine and I wasn't sure if it was on purpose or not, but I didn't comment on it and kept walking. I could only process one thing at a time and my vision was blurry. We were now in front of the glass doors that led to the cafeteria and I pushed on them to get inside. Luo led me to an empty table and sat there, continuing to talk to me, though I wasn't listening. I could only think of Rin and how she looked up on the roof. I had yelled at her and she cringed at the sound of my voice. The tears that had spilled on her pale cheeks were the ones I wanted to wipe away and I did, remembering the wetness on my finger tips and stared down at my hands, opening and closing them. Those tears were the ones I had cause to fall, something I had sworn would never happen, something that did happen.
"Len are you sure you're okay?" Luo asked me and I didn't respond. I saw the lunchroom doors open and saw Rin walk in, looking as if nothing happened. I felt like someone slapped me when it happened, seeing that she was trying to be strong when I, Len Kagamine, was losing my mind. I felt like I couldn't breathe and I was staring at her, memorizing the every little movement she made. I was dying over here and she was okay, when I had made her cry. I remembered the feeling of holding her to me, burying my face in her hair to see if it was the same scent it was when we were young. Though Rin had grown up, she still used the same shampoo and continued to smell like oranges.
*~*Time Skip*~*
I was now walking down the hallways, heading out since school had ended exactly two minutes ago. I wasn't looking where I was going and ended up knocking someone to the ground. I stooped down to help gather the papers that were on the floor and the feeling of déjà vu` washed over me. I noticed the boy with shaggy black hair.
"I'm so sorry!" He said, his voice had an English accent to it and he was hesitant with his Japanese. I was rather glad I took an English course this year and was almost as fluent as Megurine Luka.
"Don't worry, I speak English as well." I told him and handed him the papers. The boy sighed in relief and looked up at me with clear green eyes. Something about him made me more relaxed and I offered him a hand to help him up. He took it firmly and I hoisted him up.
"My name is Noah Pierceton and I am a new student from America, nice to meet you!" He held his hand out for me to shake and I took it, shaking it firmly though we were supposed to bow in greeting when we meet somebody new.
"I'm Kagamine Len; it's an honor to meet you." I said with the usual formalities. He smiled a bright smile and glanced around.
"So your name is Kagamine?" He asked me and I chuckled.
"My first name is Len, but we normally say our last names before our first; it's rather odd to some foreigners." I told him and he face-palmed himself.
"Please excuse my stupidity." He told me and I smiled.
"Nah it's okay, I've been confused before, several times to be honest." I told him and began to walk in my direction to leave.
"Well I will be on my way Noah-san, I shall see you tomorrow I suppose." I told him and bowed, secretly smiling to myself. He bowed quickly back, almost falling while doing it.
"Good bye, Len!" He told me and he turned and went his way. He made me feel more at ease around him and I began to wonder if all American's were like this. The minute I walked out of the school down, that feeling came crashing down. I walked towards my house, seeing that it was empty as usual. Mom and Dad were working and Lenka was probably hanging out with her friends. I felt numb and I wanted to get rid of this feeling, wanted to have my sense back. Though normally people would rather be numb than hurting, I didn't want to feel like I didn't have emotions. I walked into the kitchen in search for something to make me feel better and searched the medicine cabinets for something. I found sleeping medicine, but that was it. I felt this compelling to go to the basement and so I did, unsure what I would find. I flicked on the light switch and walked cautiously down stairs.
"Hmm…I wonder what's in here…" I muttered aloud, reaching the last step. I looked around and noticed that there was a shelf in the back holding dark bottles. As I got closer, I noticed it was wine and picked a bottle up, inspecting it carefully. It was some sort of French wine from the nineteen seventies' and I went upstairs, taking the bottle with me. I went back into the kitchen and looked through the many drawers until I found what I was looking for. I stuck the corkscrew in and twisted the cork top off of the bottle, hearing a sucking noise as it was pulled on and then a pop when it was released from the glass lid. I smelled it, making sure it didn't smell dangerous and took a hesitant sip.
The alcohol bathed over my tongue, tasting of grapes and some strong metallic flavor. I removed the bottle from my lips for a minute before taking another drink. I walked back to my room and drank more of the alcohol and settled down on my bed, feeling a rather rushing adrenaline feeling.
"I like this feeling better than numbness," I murmured to myself and continued to drink until I couldn't drink anymore and set the bottle on the nightstand next to my bed. I closed my eyes and drifted off to an unpleasant sleep.
~*Mikuo's P.O.V*~
It was officially three in the morning. Rin had fallen asleep on my chest, her head lying where my heart was beating the loudest. I cradled her in my arms, her body fitting perfectly with mine. I no longer felt the need to want Rin the way I did before, but instead, it was replaced with a feeling of love and wanting to protect Rin. I wanted to make that kind of moment special and not rushed. I wanted to propose to Rin and put a ring on her finger. I wanted to spend warm summer days of courting her and sipping sweet tea on the porch swing at my house, laughing with her and smiling. I smiled to myself in the dark and my grip around Rin tightened.
"I want to make you happy, Rin." I told her quietly and she murmured something in her sleep that I didn't quite catch. I pictured Rin in a flowing white gown, smiling brightly at me, and the priest announcing that we were officially married. I imagined a blonde haired little girl on my shoulders and Rin walking beside me smiling, though Rin had told me she wanted a boy first and then a girl. I remembered our conversation we had just an hour ago:
"I want a little boy." She had murmured sleepily to me and I chuckled.
"So you don't want any girls?" I asked and felt her smile against my chest.
"Of course I want a girl, I just want a boy first…but I would gladly accept a girl if I had a girl first." She told me and I caressed her back in soft strokes, sending her farther into sleepiness.
"What would you want to name them?" I inquired and a name already came to my mind on the girl.
"Well I would name the boy Max, since your name begins with an M, and I would let you name the girl." She said, causing me to be hesitant on the name I had chosen.
"What about…Rui?" I asked uncertain and felt Rin's arm wrap around my waist.
"I like that name." She said before closing her eyes completely, slipping off to slumber.
I continued to smile and watched the digital numbers change on the clock on the desk nearby. Rin was murmuring in her sleep, words I couldn't quite make sense of.
"...Len..." I heard her murmur and I immediately stiffened. Why was she saying Len? Why was she saying that dirt-bags name? I stopped stroking her back and rested my arms on the white sheets beneath me, crinkling them in my fists. Rin began to try to roll us over and I was now in the awkward position with my head on her left breast. I could hear the steady thrum of her heart and I let my head relax into it, though not putting all my weight onto her so I would squish her. Rin's heart was very soothing, lulling me into sleep as well, until I felt Rin's arms creep up my bare back and hold me down to her.
"...Mikuo..." She murmured now and I felt my face flush. I didn't want to move because I would wake up Rin, but at the same time I was trying not to be perverted. I realized my hormones weren't acting up and I sighed in relief. I wanted to be the proper gentlemen and meet Rin's parents and marry her before taking her innocence. I continued to listen to Rin's heartbeat until I fell asleep.
~*Rin's P.O.V*~
I felt the sheets beside me and realized that they were empty. I opened my eyes slowly to see a pair of blue eyes above me. I blinked and then sat up staring at Rinto, who was sitting on my bed.
"W-Wha?" I said and looked around, looking for a certain teal haired boy. I had this sinking feeling that Rinto found him sleeping with me and got the wrong idea. That sounded just like Rinto.
"Hey sleepy head!" Rinto greeted me cheerily and that had me thinking that maybe he hadn't found Mikuo in my bed.
"Uh...hi?" I said questionably and hoped he wouldn't see my nervous expression. Rinto smiled and got off of my bed and stretched.
"It's noon, so you slept for quite a while. We brought you home some awesome food so come on!" He told me and ran out of the room like a five year old on Christmas morning. I sighed shaking my head and quickly closed my door, locking it and turning to see if there was any sign of life in my room other than me. The closet doors opened revealing a shirtless Mikuo. He grinned at me and I sighed, feeling the weight lifted somewhat off of my shoulders. He knelt down to grab his shirt, but before he could grab it, I picked it up. He looked at me inquiring and I smirked a seductive smirk-, or what I hoped looked seductive, and twirled the shirt around my index finger. He raised his eyebrows playfully and reached out to grasp it, but I jumped out of his reach. He followed me and we continued the our little game until I had fallen on the bed with him over me, smirking in triumph as he clasped his hand around my arm and reached for the shirt with the other. I used my free arm to pull his face down to mine so he would kiss me. He lips pressed gently to mine and I felt somewhat disappointed, but brushed the feeling away.
"Hey Rin! What's taking you so long?" Rinta pounded on my door and Mikuo pulled back chuckling softly.
"Ah...be down in five!" I responded and I assumed he went back downstairs. Mikuo now had his shirt back on and was smiling at me. I smiled back and reached up to kiss him one more time.
"I..I will be back to get you later and so I can meet you family." He told me once I pulled back. That weight returned again as I thought of how my mom would act and along with my pest of a brother, Rinto, being the moron he is. I sighed in defeat and simply nodded.
"There's a tree outside my window that you can climb down an escape without being seen." I told him and he opened the window and climbed out.
"Just like Romeo and Juliet, huh?" He asked me and I giggled softly. I was no Juliet sadly, but sometimes I felt like a dark Cinderella. I shook my head sadly and changed into a pair of shorts and a normal tank-top and headed downstairs. Apparently the "Mother-and-Son" trip had ended early on account of Mom's work schedule being changed.
"I have to go into work tomorrow an hour early so I maybe getting ready while you eat breakfast, meaning you will have to make your own breakfast." She told us and I simply nodded. Rinto's jaw dropped, exposing chewed up bits of what the American's call a "hamburger". Rinto told me they had setup a McDonald's a few blocks from our house and that it was really good. I looked at the oddly shaped chicken and took a hesitant bite, unsure what to expect of American food. I had to admit, it was pretty good for Americans.
"Okay...well," I began and I hurried to get this off of my chest.
"Mikuo, my boyfriend, is coming over to meet you, my random strange family, so please try to act normal!" I begged at the last part. Mom busted out laughing, while Rinto simply growled.
"No perverts for my bunny-chan!" He said and stood up in his chair, making one of those weird poses of his. I face-palmed myself and began to think of ways to lock Rinto out in the back yard.
"Now Rinto, you mustn't act that way. We are a "normal" family." Mom said and added quotations to the normal part. I knew this wasn't going to turn out well so I simply ate in silence as my deranged family talked of ways to be normal or beat up the pervert, as Rinto called him. I threw away my trash and went back upstairs and collapsed on my bed. I felt my phone vibrate and thought it was Mikuo.
To: Rin K.
From: Unknown
Enjoying yourself Rin?
I growled in frustration and shot a text back.
To: Unknown
From: Rin K.
Why yes, yes I am. Why do you ask? If your so great and mighty shouldn't you know this?
I smirked at the phone's screen.
To Rin K.
From: Unknown
Don't get so smart Rin. I am watching you right now.
I stood up and looked out of my blinds until my phone went off again.
To: Rin K.
From: Unknown
Don't bother looking out of your window, you won't see me.
I paled and closed my blinds and shut the curtains, knowing whoever was the unknown number couldn't see me now.
To: Rin K.
From: Unknown
Tsk, tsk, tsk. I can still find out about you. I'm closer than you think.
I quickly turned my phone off and closed my eyes, wanting it all to just go away.