Chapter 19: The Stalking
Hello everyone! Sorry for updating late, I'm a terrible person! My birthday was last friday *cough cough may third cough cough* so for those of you who guessed I was thirteen, you were right, but as off now you are wrong! I'm officially the Kagamine twin's age! And for those of you who don't knwo how old the Kagamine twin's are well then...GO GOOGLE IT! XD I was listening to that song earlier :3 now onto the reviews
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~*Len's P.O.V*~
I was drunk and pissed for some unknown reason. I was walking-, no stumbling down the busy streets of Tokyo, getting bumped millions of times in the shoulder by pedestrians, whose faces were to blurry to see if I recognized anyone. I had a pounding headache that seemed to be thinking many thoughts, but was completely blank except for one thing: Rin. The memory of the rooftop had haunted me ever since that fateful day and I was a wreck. I had already drank most of the wine in the basement, trying hard to get rid of the stupid pain in my chest when I thought of Rin, though even though I was shit-faced drunk, the thoughts would stay.
The memory kept replaying Rin in my head, torturing with Rin's words and her expressions. I had made Rin tremble and the tears in her eyes killed me, knowing the pain that was reflecting in those glistening eyes was there because of me. I shoved my hands into the pouch of the dark hoodie and continued to walk. For a minute, I thought I could smell the citrusy smell of Rin and hear her laughing. I then saw a petite blonde who was clinging to the arm of a tealette, laughing to whatever he was saying.
Rin was not wearing her bow this time, but was wearing a white head-band instead along with a pink blouse and a black and white skirt that showed off her legs. Her lips were slightly glossed to a light pink and her cheeks were glowing a faint pink now. Her hair was shiny and soft looking, giving her a blonde halo. She was beautiful, especially in the glow of the city lights. I felt a growl deep in my throat, seeing that Rin was close to Mikuo and was comfortable looking: almost pleased.
I yanked my hood over my eyes so that they wouldn't recognize me and I began to follow them, keeping a distance so that I wouldn't be obvious to everyone around us. The crowd was getting rather thick now and I had now lost sight of them and I was pushing and shoving through people, trying to find the tealette and blonde. I spotted them rounding a corner away from the crowd and I began to have a sinking feeling, and ran after them. We were now outside the city and Rin and Mikuo were chit-chatting; though I was too far away too hear them.
They passed the school and headed towards the back of it, the sinking feeling growing steadily. My hands were clammy, my heart beating fast with the rush blood going through my body. Since I was drunk, I was now stumbling along with my running. I saw that Rin and Mikuo had stopped in front of a gate and I quickly hid behind the wooden part of the fence, hearing the squealing noise of rusting metal hitting more rusty metal as Rin and Mikuo walked inside of the fenced off area.
Quickly following behind them, I climbed the nearby Sakura tree, almost falling out once getting onto the branch. The earlier alcohol now left a bitter taste in my mouth as I watched Rin. She was smiling as she walked over the bridge that connected the sides of the koi pond, holding her arms out once the breeze started, sending the Sakura blossoms in her direction. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears as Mikuo follow her and wrapped his arms around her waist, smiling at her.
I bit my lower lip, tasting the sour copper taste of blood on my tongue. Shit, I thought, feeling my hand clench tighter onto the branch I was perched on, turning my knuckles with. Mikuo led Rin to the stone bench on the other side of the koi pond, having her sit down. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but I saw Rin close her eyes and saw that Mikuo had pulled out a lighter. He began to dash around the small enclosed area, turning on lanterns. I noticed a lantern on the branch below me and scrambled to move so I wouldn't be seen. I managed to climb onto a higher branch out of Mikuo's sight as he lit the lantern, not daring to let out a sigh of relief.
Mikuo once again returned to Rin and had her open her eyes as I climbed back down to the branch I was on earlier. I heard her gasp with awe and looked to see her face, which was filled with a wondering joy that a child would have. The glowing haze of the lights reflected in her blue eyes, making her appear as fragile and beautiful as any angel I had seen in pictures, as she walked towards the bridge, Mikuo following close behind. She began to sing, her voice sounding pure and sweet, yet her song was a sad one.
Light tried to save me, but darkness was embedded in my soul...
Something I could never reach on my own.
For I am afraid of the darkness's cold.
I whispered the words of the song, feeling this odd, hurting, sensation in my chest. Rin walked back to the stone bench, but instead of sitting down, she continued to stand. I saw Mikuo following her once more, about to grasp her hand, but trip over something and falling, dragging Rin with him. They landed in an awkward position, Mikuo was above Rin, his hands by her head and his knees by her hips. I could see a faint pink on his cheeks and the same on Rin's, but then she smiled. That smile, was the one she would give me when we were still friends. That was my smile and she was giving that smile to him.
Something in me snapped as Rin slightly pursed her lips and Mikuo leaned down, ready to meet her lips halfway. I jumped out of the tree, scraping my hands as I fell to the ground. I ran at Mikuo, lifting him off of Rin and throwing him off of her. I looked down at Rin, who was gaping at me, her eyes filled with many different flickering emotions. I felt an excruciating pain go up in my jaw as Mikuo punched me. I instantly fought back, though Mikuo was about two inches taller. He ducked all of my punches and kicked me in the gut, causing me to fall to the ground.
I felt the adrenaline coursing through my veins as I got up, wiping my now bleeding lip from when he had punched me, getting ready to strike back. I could her a faint screaming noise, but I couldn't identify it and chose not to take any notice of it. I had my fist back now and saw a flash of pink go before my eyes, but I didn't have enough time to stop my fist from connecting with the person's face.
I felt my knuckles connect with Rin's jaw and saw go flying into the koi pond. I felt the numbing shock crawl up my spine, staying completely frozen as I saw Mikuo, screaming Rin's name as he ran into the pond and lifted her up, bring her back to the bank and helping her stand on her feet. I could hear the racing beat of my heart and I felt sick, thinking only one thought:
What have I done?
I realized that the screaming had been Rin, pleading us to stop, but I hadn't comprehended that fact and had harmed Rin. Rin's face was covered by the wet strands of hair that had come lose from her bobby-pins, causing me to not see her face when she spoke.
"Len...I don't know why you are here, but you have ruined our date. We are leaving now, so don't follow us." She said, her voice sounded strangled and she turned around walking towards the gate with Mikuo's arm around her shoulders. He shot me several death looks, looks that said, "You bastard, how dare you touch her?"
Before I had realized it, I had said something.
"Rin, I want to speak with you alone." I said darkly. Mikuo turned and growled at me, but Rin put her hand on his chest and seemed to murmur soothing words to him. She turned back to me and I could see her face clearly. Her left cheek was turning a blueish-purplish cool and blood was welling out of the side of her mouth. I felt the instant sickening feeling of guilt churning in my stomach.
"...fine, but make it quick..." She told me and I saw Mikuo walk out the gate, glaring at me hatefully before he rounded the corner. Rin stood where she was, staring me head on, her eyes holding a cold, blank stare.
"...well?" She tapped her foot impatiently. I had to assess the situation before finally managing to find the words to speak.
"Why do you refuse to be my friend again?" I said, my voice low and I stared back into those eyes, the eyes that were once full of energy and happiness...were dark and blank, looking as if she didn't have feelings. Her eyes widened for a fraction of a second before narrowing.
"...Len, the last time we talked...was what? Third grade? You moved on and became friends with people I couldn't be friends with. I moved on as well and...I'm happy..." She said the last part as if she was unsure, but I didn't see a hint of doubt pass through those eyes of hers. I saw her turn and begin to head for the gate before I asked one last question.
"Are you sure your happy, Rin?"
~*Rin's P.O.V*~
I flinched at Len's question.
"Are you happy, Rin?" He had asked, but I didn't turn back; just simply kept walking and met up with Mikuo outside the gate. Mikuo wanted to beat Len's ass for hitting me, but I simply shook it off and told him I was fine. Though my jaw was extremely sore, I wasn't hurting near as bad as the time when Jessi took me roller-blading with her. I unconsciously rubbed my right shoulder and realized we were now standing in my drive-way. The entire house was glowing with lights, something I was pretty sure Rinto had done. They were probably waiting to jump me once I opened the door. Mikuo walked me to the front door and I kissed him good night. He gently rubbed my cheek and kissed it gently as well before walking back to his house.
I mentally prepared myself for what was coming, and pushed on the door lever, signaling my arrival home. I looked around cautiously and decided I might be able to sneak to my room if I was quite enough. I headed towards the stairs after putting my shoes up, but before I made it to the second step, I heard a voice behind me and nearly jumped thirty feet in the air.
"Rin Kagamine!" I heard Rinto say sternly, and I instantly tried to hide my face. I didn't turn to face him so I just let him talk to my back.
"What Rinto?" I inquired and tried taking a step up, but Rinto jumped the banister and stood in my way. I quickly hide my face with my hair, praying desperately that he wouldn't notice. Sadly my fortune just wasn't with me today as Rinto grabbed my shoulders and forced me to look at him. I knew what he saw; a wet, disheveled, and bruised Rin. I saw his face go blank and then he snapped.
"DID HE DO THIS TO YOU RIN? WHERE IS THE MOTHER-FLUFFER AT?" He yelled and marched me to the bathroom. I simply hung my head and continued to feel the dread of this situation. He slammed the door open to expose Mom in the bath tub. Luckily, she had the curtain pulled so the we could only see her face.
"Eh!" I heard Rinto say and then again, I was dragged out and then pushed into my bathroom. I sat down on my bathroom counter, while Rinto pulled out a first-aid kit and began to clean the blood from my mouth, his eyebrows pushed into a deep concentration.
"...what happened, Rin?" He asked, seeming to have calmed down. At first, I simply wanted to tell him everything; the bullying, the texts, and Len, but I knew if I did, that someone would be hurt and I didn't want anyone else involved. I simply sighed and came up with a somewhat believable lie.
"Well...I was to busy admiring Mikuo and well, this pole appeared out of no where and so I just had to hug it with my face." I said, trying not to laugh at how ridiculous that sounded. Rinto however, seemed to stare at me for a while before heaving a long sigh. I sat there in silence, letting him continue to clean my face.
"So...you hugged the pole? Then explain to me why your hair and clothes are wet." He told me and I paused, looking for a reasonable answer.
"A gutter was full of water and it couldn't support the weight anymore, so it broke and spilled water on me." I said, feeling clever at my awesome explanation. Again, Rinto stared, but decided to go along with it, I'm assuming, and put the first-aid kit back above the mirror. He looked back at me over his shoulder, seeming to appear exhausted.
"You know you can tell me anything right?" He asked and all I could do was nod, though on the inside, I was begging myself to tell him. Rinto then proceeded to walk out of my bathroom and room, leaving me alone. I then let out a small whimper and felt the tears flow. I wipped away the tears with my arm and walked into my room, climbing onto my bed and crawled under the covers. I clutched the small golden locket that I had never tooken off since the day Dad gave it to me. I turned on the lamp close to my bed and opened it, revealing a family picture on one side and one of Len and I on the other.
I looked at Dad's charming smile as he looked fondly of his family; a small short-blonde haired girl wearing a white frilly bow laughing while clinging onto his shoulders, while a matching blonde haired boy was holding onto his hand and a women, slightly shorter than him, holding onto the other little boys hand, laughing while back at him, her short ebony hair shining in the sunlight from being outside. I continued to sob silently until I fell asleep that night.
~*Time skip*~
It had been weeks since the incident with Len and the cheer-leading tryouts were today. I had been avoiding him, never looking at him, nor saying a word to him. He had tried once or twice to talk me, but I simply wouldn't let him get close enough to say a word before I walked away. To be honest, I didn't care if I made the cheer-leading squad or not, I had simply signed up for the fact of Piko signing up for football. Today was the football team's tryouts as well and the results would be shown on the board in front of the office, as well being announced over the intercom the next morning.
I was walking with Miku and Gumi to the tryouts, hearing them chattering non-stop, but of course I hadn't said a word all day yet. I had become more and more detached from the world and today was the worst day for me. I wasn't really happy about the tryouts being today, but I knew it wasn't the instructors fault and I wasn't about to be a bitch and complain. The feeling of being watched became more and more frequent now and of course rumors had come up about me being depressed or suicidal.
I had gotten over the idea of suicide a few years ago, knowing it would devastate my family and friends and I couldn't do that to Mom or Rinto or my friends, though I was risking them everyday to recieve the harrassment that I was when I was around them. The texts had stopped last week and I had a bad feeling about it, knowing something wasn't good. At first, I had the tiny spark of hope that maybe the person had given up and moved on with their lives, but seeing to many movies and seeing that the world didn't work with me, that instantly crushed that tiny spark.
I had become so wary to the point that I was paranoid. I simply gazed around, searching for the eyes that might be watching me right now.
"Hey Rin, Gumi, Miku! Over here!" I heard Teto call from behind us along with Neru and SeeU. We were all wearing a pair of shorts and normal T-shirts, along with comfortable tennis shoes. They joined us and the chatter was even louder now as we walked to the gym. I went through my routines over and over in my head, though I was pretty sure I had them memorized. After pushing on the steel doors, we walked across the basket-ball court and began to warm up. I warmed up by doing wind-mills and lunges, stretching my muscels before doing any serious gymnastics. I heard a whistle and turned to see Sonika with her clipboard. She was writing stuff down, probably taking role before beginning the tryouts.
"Okay...everyone's here so I will start passing out your numbers. Three judges will becoming in soon and I've made sure that none of them no any of you, so you can't go home and complain to your parents about the tryouts being rigged." She said through narrowed eyes. She started handing out numbers and putting them on the front of everyone's T-shirt. She put mine on and I realized my number was two and Miku's was one. I gave her a somewhat bright smile and she returned one back.
"Okay number one, come forward." Sonika said, motioning for Miku. Miku bounced up and smiled to the judges.
"You may proceed your routine." Sonika said, and sat by one of the judges on a stool. Miku took a stance and began to perform her cheer. I was more foused on her moves rather than her cheer, seeing her do a cart-wheels, flips, and a back hand spring. She went down on her knee at the end, panting and smiling. I was tempted to clap before I realized I was not supposed to do that, so instead, I gave Miku a thumbs up when she passed by me.
"Number two, you're up." Sonika announced and I walked forward calmly, ready to get this over with. Truthfully, I made up the words as I began my routine, not bothering to have made some up before.
"L-I-O-N-S, lions we are the best!" I said and totally blanked out as I began to do my back flips and round off's. Twist and turn, twist and turn, I kept thinking to myself as I twisted in the midst of a back hand-springs. I ended the cheer, doing the splits in the end before standing up, bowing, and then returning back to the group of girls that were waiting their turn. All of my friends flashed me encouraging smiles and I went to sit by Miku since she and I were both done. The tryouts were finished around six thirty and after everyone was done, my friends and I decided to go to the cafe` before heading home. The minute we stepped in, we were instantly jumped by Ann. She squealed in delight and took our orders. She went back to the kitchen and within ten minutes, she had returned, asking us how trouts had gone.
"They went well, but I'm pretty sure Rin, Miku, Gumi, and SeeU will make it." Teto told her and I instantly spook up.
"I'm pretty sure you will too, Teto. You 'drills' were pretty awesome!" I told her about her new move in which she called a 'drill'. It was a similar to a back hand spring, but she spun around while doing it, something that looked rather complicated in my opinion.
"I think Luo will make it." I heard Neru say, not looking up from her phone. I stiffened and glanced curiously at her.
"Why do you say that?" I heard Miku ask her, voicing my question for me. Neru didn't even glance up at us from her phone.
"Her grades are great, her smile is friendly, her gymnastics aren't bad, and according to my phone data, she knows half the people in Japan and America. I have a feeling that she knew at least one of those judges, along with the fact that I have seen her being all 'buddy-buddy' with Sonika, or at least trying to." She replied, holding up her phone screen with the records of Luo. I just gave her this odd stare as to why she might have it, but then again, it's Neru.
Ann was tapping her chin thoughtfully, looking at Neru's phone.
"She's not as cute as the rest of you girls are." She pointed out and we laughed. After sipping my orange and peach smoothie, I began to head to the cemetry, pausing only at a flower shop to pick up a dozen white roses and a small lantern. I walked along the old iron fence of the cemetry before reaching the entrance and walked in, still holding the flowers and lantern. I walked past dozens of head stones and markers before finally finding Dad's towards the center of the cemetry.
"Hey Dad..." I said, and sat down, facing the head-stone. I set the roses on the grave, alongside the things my Mom and Rinto had probably brought earlier, and pulled out the small lighter I had also picked up and lit the lantern.
"Happy Birthday..." I said and felt the tears stinging in my eyes. I began to hum a mournful song, turning my face towards the sky. The tune I was humming was called "Vampires Lullaby", something that seemed to fit the mood. Before I knew it, i wailing and couldn't hum anymore, and just laid on the ground, and cried on Father's grave. I hiccuped several time before closing my eyes and just laying there, continuing to let my tear flow. I felt my breathing slow and I didn't move, but instead I fell asleep, dreaming of my family before the accident and murmured in my sleep:
"I love you, Daddy."