Entry no. 13: Running Away
A/N: SasuSaku. AU. I personally like this one for some sadistic reason.
Usually I would dedicate this chapter just to my loyal reviewers and readers, but I have a classmate who has some family problems, so this one is dedicated to all of those people out there whose parents are either violent or control freaks as well. It's one thing to care for your child a lot and completely other thing to keep them completely restrained, not leaving them a second to breathe. Childern have wings, you know, and it's cruel to clip them.
And there's a message for T., even though I know she doesn't read this...
I know you don't know it, but I sympathize with you. I hear everything you say about your parents and I feel terrible for not ebing able to help you. So I keep my fingers crossed for you, T.. Just believe and be patient. They say love makes wonders, so let's just hope they're right. You've got a boyfriend who loves you even though you can't really be together, and a lot of friends who are there for you. So let's all count the days until your eighteenth birthday together. ... So... sorry for this, I had to get it off my chest...
Something No One Will Understand: Hip Hip Hooray Kometa Brno! ^^
"Don't go."
Sasuke's hands fisted.
A gust of wind blew through the street, sending wisps of dust dancing.
"Sasuke-kun."
He couldn't answer.
He just couldn't.
"Don't do it again."
He wouldn't be able to leave her if he did.
"Please."
Why was it so hard for him?
"I beg you."
He had to kill Itachi. That was the only, single thing that mattered.
"I beg you, Sasuke-kun."
Why won't she just give up?
"I love you."
He loved her, too.
That was the answer.
And that was the reason why he was going to leave.
He bit his tongue.
"Is there really nothing you can tell me?"
So many things.
That he loves her hair, her laugh. That he is sorry. That he never meant to break her heart again. That he didn't ever want to make her cry. That he apologizes for returning and making her live through it all over again.
"Sasuke-kun."
The sobs finally overtook her.
If he could turn and look at her before, he couldn't now for sure.
"What have I done wrong?"
You made me love you.
Then he heard a sound he hoped to never hear again.
A kunai being drawn.
Sakura.
"I can't let you go."
No.
She was quick, but she could never match his speed.
His hand clutching her wrist, he blinked, face to face with her.
Tears were welled up in her eyes.
There was anger and sadness in those beautiful green orbs. And pain.
Pain he caused.
He gritted his teeth.
He had to cause her this pain to save her from even greater one.
She was shaking with agitation and sobs, appearing so weak as she trembled in front of him.
He kept holding her wrist, almost masochistically enjoying something that probably was their last physical contact.
He was so close to her he could kiss her.
He wanted to, but he knew he couldn't do that and leave.
He bit his virgin lip when he twisted Sakura's arm behind her, making her bend forward to ease the ache it caused.
She was silent now. She said everything she could. Just few soft sobs and whimpers escaped her lips as he held her.
I'm sorry.
So sorry.
With a precise hit to the spine, Sakura's body froze, paralyzed.
He set her down on the ground gently, touching her hair softly.
"Don't follow me."
Another hit, and Sakura's body went limp, unconscious.
He stood up and looked down at the woman who was probably the only love of his life.
Itachi.
He destroyed everything.
And then, Sasuke did something he kept doing through his short life.
Ran away.
He ran away from Itachi when he killed his family.
He ran away from Konoha so he could learn from Orochimaru.
He ran away from Orochimaru back to Konoha so he could master his Sharingan with Kakashi's help.
And he ran away from Konoha again, so he could kill Itachi.
No one was going to stop him now.
So Sasuke left, knowing all too well he was just running away again.
Running away from his friends, afraid of letting them close.
Running away from the feelings he began developing towards Sakura.
Running away from himself.
Thank you for reading. Love you, guys ... :)