AN: Hey everyone! I know I haven't uploaded for a week and I'm sorry. I had this really important test (not school) I had to prepare for and after that I was out of town for it.
Severus tried to apologise to Lily at least once every hour in the following days but Alice, Mary and Marlene always made sure that he never got too close to her.
The evening before the end-of-term Mary entered their dormitory looking highly disgusted.
"He's out there right now," she told the others. "The stupid git says he'll sleep there if he has to." Lily stood up and the others tried to stop her.
"You can't be serious," Marlene said, her eyes wide.
"I have to. I need to cut it off." And without another word, she turned and climbed down the stairs and went towards the portrait hole. She ignored Potter's calls on her way out.
As she stepped out into the warm corridor she saw Severus looking up and she folded her arms.
"I'm sorry," he blurted out.
"I'm not interested."
"I'm sorry!"
"Save your breath. I only came because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here."
"I was. I would have done. I never meant to call you a Mudblood, it just-"
"Slipped out?" Lily said without any pitty in her voice. "It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you?"
He opened his mouth but closed it, without speaking.
"I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way. I've chosen mine."
"No- listen- I didn't mean-"
"To call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?"
He struggled on the verge of speech, but with a contemptuous look she turned and climbed back through the portrait hole.
At breakfast the next morning Lily could feel Severus' eyes on her even though her back was towards him. She ate in silence and hurried up to finish some last minute packing.
Lily had mixed feelings about leaving Hogwarts and going home and with those muddled up emotions she boarded the train.