I am back and my computer key is still jammed. So like fuck my life.
Fang, or Nick, was coming over today and I was going to tell him both secrets. The first one wasn't as scary to tell him but it was still terrifying. Now the second one, that one is the one I'll possibly lose by best friend over.
I was about three months into the pregnancy so I had my first doctor's appointment tomorrow. I didn't want to know the gender of the baby, because it'll just make it harder if I choose that it'd be better if the baby got put up for adoption.
My mom told me that I should start to show this month and she was right. I have to borrow sweat shirts from Iggy, even though I'm not showing very much.
"Ready?" Fang asked as I pulled my backpack from our locker.
"Yup," My hands started to sweat as we walked out to his car.
We walked into my house with my mom greeting us by the stairs with chocolate chip cookies and a glass of milk for both of us. She hugged me knowing what I was about to tell Fang.
Fang and I sat on my bed and I buried my face in my hands.
"What's wrong?" Fang asked rubbing my back.
"I need to tell you something…" my voice shook and I felt tears come to my yes; one tear spilling out.
"What is it?" I looked at him more tears falling down.
"Please don't think poorly of me…" My voice broke.
"I could never do that." Fang pulled me into his arms and I let out a sob.
"I'm pregnant…" Fang held m tighter as I sobbed.
"Oh Max," Fang sat stroking my hair as I cried on his shoulder. "Who's helping you through all this?"
"Just my mom, I mean Iggy knows and stays over whenever I've had a bad day."
"Who's the father?" There's the question I didn't really want.
"Dylan Gunther-Hagen."
"I will help you through this. I mean, I don't know what to do but will find out what I can do to help."
"Thank you," I looked up at him and smiled.
"No problem," He took a deep breath, "I need to tell you something too."
"What is it?" I asked
"I kind of, um, like you." He then added quickly, "But it's totally okay if you don't feel the same way."
"I feel the same way…" I smiled and so did he. "But I don't think dating with me being the way I am right now is the best idea."
"I totally agree with that; maybe after you have the baby." I nodded in agreement. "So, do you know the gender?"
"No, my first appointment is tomorrow, but I don't think I want to know the gender." Fang nodded and handed me a cookie, which I took biting into it immediately.