Disclaimer: I'm not Cassandra Clare thus own none of her characters.

Warning: Some blood, some death, maybe more death. Violence too. (Nothing too much…) Also I don't know how trigger warnings work, but this probably needs one, I guess…

"Isn't life so sad when all you do is live?"

CHAPTER 17 – HELL

ALEC

When he opened his eyes again, he was at the subway. "I fell asleep…" He muttered looking around groggily. He knew he was forgetting something, but couldn't place his finger on it. Not that it mattered… He couldn't bring himself to care, Magnus left him, believing he was betrayed. He hurt his only love and lost him, what else was there to care about? What worse could happen? As if echoing his dark thoughts, a sound resonated through the tunnels; an unearthly growl. 'Demon.'

For a moment he pondered letting it kill him, but then remembered Niennor's words and reluctantly reached for a seraph blade, whispering a name, "Castiel". A sense of 'Deja vu' hit him but he ignored it as the demon was getting closer. When Alec tried to get up, his feet wouldn't hold him, and he felt dizzy, collapsing as his vision blurred, and everything went black. In the darkness he could hear the demon laughing, and charging at him. Everything happened in seconds. He still couldn't see a thing, so he just thrust the blade in front of him, but the demon just clawed at him tossing it aside. He tried to get up again as it lurched, but lost his footing, falling down once more. He was as good as dead. He raised his hands in front of him to protect himself but the attack never came. After a few seconds, his vision returned and he saw, a tall figure clad in black, standing in front of him protectively. There was a flash of blue sparks and in the burst of light he recognised the familiar form and froze. The demon burned and disappeared screaming, and the man turned unsteadily to face him, and smiled. His heart broke again seeing that dazzling smile, but it was short-lived as Magnus' face contorted in pain. Alec gasped as he saw why. There was a deep claw wound on his chest. "Are you… okay?" managed the Warlock and swayed, falling on the Nephilim's arms who had jumped to catch him, and gently laid him down, holding him. "Magnus!" he sobbed and the Warlock opened his eyes slowly and looked at him. "I'm… glad…" he said "You're sa-" he couldn't finish his sentence as he started coughing violently, blood spilling from his mouth.

Alec realised in horror his lungs must have been punctured. "Shh… Don't speak… You're going to be okay…" he crooned. Magnus smiled crookedly "No… I won't be, Sayang…" he coughed again, and fought to go on "Heh… At least now… you won't have… to worry… about… immortality…" he managed and closed his eyes exhausted "No! No, Magnus, please, you can't, you can't die, please, no, no, you're gonna be okay, please, I love you, don't leave me, please, take my life instead!" He sobbed harder than ever, hugging him as tightly as he could without hurting him. "How am i supposEd to face this wretched worLd aLone?" The Warlock opened his eyes once more "It's okay love… Don't cry… You're strong… You don't need me…" he whispered reaching out weakly to wipe away the boy's tears "I'm sorry for what I did to you. I love you…" his hand fell limply down and Alec froze once more "No, no, no, no, no, no, no it can't be, please no, Magnus! Magnus, please no…" All the pain he thought he felt from the breakup, all the wounds acquired through the years summed up, the Greater demon, those were nothing. He realised he had never really known pain before. "No… I'll Give wHaTever you ask of Me… just pleAse, stay heRe with mE…" he whispered. "No…" he said one last time. "I refuse to exist in a world where you don't." He gently laid his lover down and kissed him one last time, then took out one of his seraph blades and named it. "Ithuriel". He looked at Magnus and whispered, his eyes never leaving his face "I hope I can see you again soon… I love you." and plunged the Angel Blade in his heart.

THE END!

No, no, no, I'm Just kidding, don't kill me! But you know… I feel terribly sleepy… Maybe I'll go to sleep and write the rest tomorrow or the day after… Or not. xD

Note: "Sayang" means "Darling/beloved" in Indonesian

P.S: Sorry it was small, next one coming soon! Also sorry if it's too "drafty" :/ (On my defence it's late at night and I'm sleepy…)

P.S 2: Two more hidden messages here.