This is a song fic based on the song First Burn (From Hamilton). First Burn is actually the draft of the song used in the play, Burn. The lyrics used are in italics.

NOTE: Some of the lyrics have changed to fit the characters.

This is set in the normal Fairy Tail world by the way. There's also mentions of OC's. (Just Natsu and Lucy's children.) This is set in the future, although no spoilers are mentioned.

Ships: Nalu (mentions of LeoxLucy and GajeelxLevy)

-FIRST BURN-

Leo. The man's name… was Leo. Lucy Heartfilia had cheated on Natsu Dragneel with her celestial spirit. His heart ached. He thought what him and Lucy had was special, that their love was shared and that they were enough for each other. But apparently being married meant nothing to the golden haired beauty.

He stalked over to the desk, running his hands over the letters splayed all over their shared desk. Natsu had never been one for writing and all, but for Lucy, it was her life. Whenever the two were apart, she'd send him letter after letter, and mavis were her words beautiful. They flowed like a river, smoothly and perfectly and gorgeously. He had never been one for reading, but her words made every second of it bearable.

But now?

Even thinking of reading them made him sick. Her words that described how she was his, how he was forever hers, yada yada yada. They clearly didn't matter to her anymore. But that didn't change the fact the words were forever going to be truth for him. He was bound to her by fate. She was his mate, and he thought she knew that meant forever.

Forever was such an insignificant word.

The door opened, pulling his attention to it. Lucy stepped into their apartment- (it wasn't her old one nor his old house. They had bought a new apartment when they found out she was pregnant for the first time.)- head down and coat wrapped around her tight. He knew she had come to tell him how 'sorry' she was and how much she 'regretted' what she did. He also knew that was all bull.

"Natsu-" Her chocolate eyes drifted to the letters on the desk. There were so many. She had a habit of writing letters for him that mirrored diary entries, so he would know exactly what she did. He'd been out of town when she had cheated, the many times she cheated, but she hadn't failed to write him a letter. He should've known they were off, that the things she had done were lies.

"I saved every letter you wrote me," he starts off, voice soft. He follows her gaze and sweeps a couple of the papers into his hands. He hugged them tight to his chest and blinked back tears. "From the moment I saw you I knew you were mine. You said you were mine, I thought you were mine!" She took a step back, quite obviously unsure of what she should do. At this moment, he was sure she knew a fight was coming. He was just glad Erza had agreed to watch their kids. He couldn't bear it if they saw this.

"Natsu- I am yours-" She fiddled with her thumbs, eyes trained only on him. He remembered there was once a time when he could drown in her eyes, longing for her look only at him. Now he wished her eyes would be on anyone other than him. He couldn't bear to see the guilt, the pain, the raw emotion held in them.

"Do you know what Gajeel said, when I told him what you'd done?" Him and the other slayers were like brothers. (And a sister. Wendy was always going to be like his sibling.) He wasn't able to always get in touch with Rogue or Sting, and he didn't want to bother Wendy, so Gajeel was the next person to go to. He was pissed at Lucy, even had a fight with Levy about it. The small blunette, of course, sided with Lucy. "She said, 'You have married an Icarus,'" ironic, "'she has flown too close to the sun.'"

Lucy gulped, the sound ringing in Natsu's head. She shed her coat, hanging it up in one fluid motion. She then took a step towards Natsu, hand reaching out to grab his own. He clutched the letters harder, pressing them closer to his chest. He stepped back, twisting himself so she couldn't reach him from where she stood.

"Don't take another step in my direction," he hissed, "I can't be trusted around you." She hesitated, leg hovering in the air, prepared to ignore what he said. She allowed in to rest on the floor, staying a few steps away. Her mouth opened, but he swiftly cut her off. He didn't think he'd be able to continue if she spoke. Lucy's words were hypnotic. "Don't think you can talk your way into my arms-" his voice wavered, so he repeated the last part more certainly. "Into my arms."

Natsu held out a letter in one hand, raising it to the sky. He lit the fist on fire and Lucy yelped. "Natsu! Stop!" she pleaded. These were the first letters she'd ever written him. Natsu didn't dare look at her, afraid of the tears he'd see. "Dammit Natsu, stop!" She reached out to pull the other letters from him, but again, he stepped back.

"I'm burning the letters you wrote me," he choked on the words as he spat them out like poison. She didn't make another move to stop him as he set another on fire. This one was dated a week after they began to date. "You can stand over there if you want." He could tell she really didn't want to stand by. He didn't look at her, but a tear slipped down his cheek. "I don't know who you are" he accused, "I have so much to learn."

He skimmed over the next letter. This one was from the morning of their wedding. He could sense the nervous tone as he read. Tears blurred his sight so he gave up on making out the words. "I'm re-reading your letters and watching them burn" He finally looked her in the eye as he set that one on fire. Her breathing hitched again. Natsu never liked causing Lucy pain, but this.. With every letter his flames devoured, the less he felt caged. The more he felt truly free. "And watching them burn."

He stalked back over to the desk and picked up a bundle of papers, waving them accusingly as he glared. "You published the letters he wrote you," she had. Leo had wrote her sickening sweet letters, and it made him hurt because he could never write that well for Lucy. His writing would never be like theirs. "You told the whole world how you brought this boy into our bed" Natsu thrust his hand out, papers gesturing to their bed. He had once adored that bed. Snuck over to Lucy's old apartment to sink into it. Now he slept on the couch, feeling betrayed with every glance. "In clearing your name you have ruined our lives."

There was the second part. She would have been able to of kept this a secret if she hadn't needed to prove herself innocent. Natsu himself didn't know if he was glad that she had to or not. He wouldn't have thought Lucy would have ever kept a secret from him.

"Natsu, I had too!" His glare silenced her again.

"Heaven forbid someone whisper, 'She's part of some scheme'," he knew he might be acting to harsh, but he wanted her to feel all the pain harbored in his soul. He circled her and leaned closer. She leaned back, teary eyes wide. His own face was a mess of tears too, but neither cared to fix that. "Your enemy whispers so you have to scream" he takes a deep breath and backs away, voice growing slightly louder, "I know about whispers, I see how you look at Gray."

She opened her mouth to object. Perhaps to say, 'I never loved him like I loved you,' or 'I never even loved him'. "Don't. I'm not naive." Dammit, he wasn't. He knew. "I have seen men around you. Don't think I don't see how they fall for your 'charms'," he choked on his words again. Betrayal. She had betrayed him even before Leo happened. "All your charms" he sobbed. He set the bundle on fire and threw it to the floor. The carpet didn't catch fire. Part of him wished it did.

"I'm erasing myself from the narrative, let future historians wonder how Natsu reacted," he growled, "when you broke his heart." He knew they were going to be in the history books one day. He knew Lucy's writings would be part of it. He knew, dammit! "You have thrown it all away," he reached out to the desk where all her other letters and works were, "stand back, watch it burn" He set the whole desk on fire, tears flowing like rivers. Lucy let out a low scream, calling out his name and once again pleading him to stop. He heaved. "Watch it all burn."

He stepped back towards her, making his small stature seem bigger. "And when the time comes, explain to the children the pain and embarrassment you put their father through." He sobbed loudly, aiming his eyes at the ceiling in hopes to lessen the pain and tears. "When will you learn that they are your legacy? We are your legacy!" An image of their children- there were 3 in total- flashed in his mind. Their oldest was a boy, who looked more like Lucy than Natsu. Lucy's soft blonde hair, Natsu's vibrant green eyes. People said he was so much like Natsu. Lucy swore they were true.

Their middle child was a girl, pink hair and brown eyes. The exact opposite of her brother in looks, but not personality. The last was a little boy who looked just like Lucy. Her eyes, her hair, everything. He acted the exact opposite of his siblings.

"If you thought you were mine," he continued, "Don't." He tore his coat off the coat hanger- (he knew he didn't need it. She knew he didn't need it.)- and stormed out of the house, not giving Lucy a second to start talking. He was a mess and the only thing he could think of was seeing Gajeel, maybe punching Gray in the face until he felt better. Something in the back of his mind also told him that he needed a place to sleep.

He headed to the guild, not caring to clean up his face. It was a mess, tears still streaming and others dried to his face. He threw open the door with one hand, the other wiping at his face. "GAJEEL! GRAY! FIGHT ME!" The ravens compiled, and as the boys traded blows, Natsu knew, deep in his heart that it'd all be alright. Somehow.

After all, people said he was a bit to forgiving.

-END-

I might do more of these. I have a few ideas for some other songs too. Such as Satisfied and The World Was Wide Enough. If you have any requests for Hamilton songs, leave them in the comments. Otherwise, thanks for reading. Feel free to review and have a great day.

Also, Lucy won't be Alexander in every song I do. She'd switch around. I would imagine Natsu being more like Alexander Hamilton, but this one seemed like it worked with how the characters are now.