The amount of reviews I got for the last chapter was unexpected; it's nice to see so many of you involved in the story. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts and feelings, it's interesting to read your ideas of what you think happened.

I feel I should let you know that Bellamy won't be in this chapter; I don't want you guys to be disappointed as you read. But we get to see Raven, Jasper and Monty for the first time.

Also in order to post this as fast as possible like the last chapter this was written without a beta, please be understanding of any mistakes.

I had made it almost to the edge of town when I finally stopped running; my phone was exploding with unanswered calls, all from my mother. There were no calls from Bellamy telling me it was a big misunderstanding and that he still loved me. Was this it, the moment when he dropped me like all the other girls that came before me? I would have thought I deserved at least a proper break up instead of this crap. How dare he break my heart like this? He was the one that had started to get serious first; he's the one that brought up colleges and where we might end up and he was the one that exposed our relationship to everybody. I might have had feelings for him long before but I knew where I stood with him; I had no expectations of a future with him. He was the one that changed the rules.

None of them really cared, not my mother who tried her best to mold me to fit her expectations nor Bellamy who clearly had gotten tired of me. I was sick of this place, of everybody knowing who I was and judging me before they got to know me, I needed a fresh start.

Once my mind was made up it was surprisingly easy to get organized, I focused on the task at hand refusing to let my emotions run wild. I would deal with them later, once I was far away from this place. I waited outside my house for my mother to leave for the hospital, I knew that despite her trying so hard to find me she would never miss work no matter the reason. So I waited and like clockwork she left the house at 7:05 in order to get to her precious hospital.

As soon as she was out of sight I rushed to my room and started packing the essentials, and sat down at my computer to write one last college essay. I had no chance of getting in since it was so late, but I had to try. I knew I wanted to study art; the city didn't matter, as long as it was from away from here. It also needed to be somewhere unexpected where my mother wouldn't look for me, or Bellamy.

Who was I kidding if he wasn't going to come after me when we were in the same town he wouldn't come looking once I left. He was lost to me. I was so angry, with him for what he had done after claiming he loved me, but also at myself for letting him in, in the first place, I should have known better. When I lost my father I felt nobody would ever care and support me like he did and I had decided that I would need to be strong, unfortunately I had made the mistake of leaning on Bellamy. Once again I had someone that was on my side no matter what, I should have know better, nothing last forever.

Most of all I just felt alone, I had nobody I could turn to deal with what was happening and that made me incredibly depressed. Octavia might have been a contender, but she was to close to Bellamy. They were family a real one, not like me and my mother who had become strangers, as much as I was angry with him I didn't want Octavia to have to choose between the two of us. I really needed to leave this place and find a place where I belong.

Snap out of it Clarke...right I had a task to complete, I needed to focus. I ended up settling on the Art institute of Chicago and wrote an introductory letter in which for the first time I was able to be honest. I wrote about how for all my life I had been groomed by my mother to become a doctor but that drawing had always been a passion of mine, one I could no longer deny. I quickly put a portfolio together and printed out all the forms I would need, this was it my whole future was ridding on this.

The last thing I needed to do was transfer the money my father had left me into a different bank, a bank my mother didn't have access to, this way she wouldn't be able to find me once I left. Since it was late it would be impossible to do tonight so I couldn't take too many things from my room or my mother would notice I had left, I needed to get a head start or she would find me and probably drag me back kicking and screaming. I took one last look at my home before walking away with no intentions of returning. I did take the time to mail a letter to Octavia, she would probably get the story from her brother, but she was the only person I was leaving behind that cared about me so she deserved it, even if it wasn't a great goodbye at least she could get some kind of closure.

I spent the night at the old motel at the edge of town, I was sure nobody would come looking for me here. My mother started calling me again as soon as her shift was over, after a few hours I grew so tired of hearing my phone go off that I threw it outside, it's not like I needed the contact info of anyone in it anymore. After a sleepless night I made my way to the bank at the break of dawn. They asked me a bunch of questions, but they couldn't really stop me from moving all my money, and by law they couldn't reveal anything to my mother. As I made my way to the bus stop my mind drifted away, I was trying so hard not to think of Bellamy that without realizing it I found myself in front of the field where our graduation was being held. This was it, my last chance to turn around, I hesitated for a minute but then my resolve returned as I saw Bellamy with a girl around his neck. A different girl then the one I had found him in bed with, if it could have my heart would have broken all over again, but it was already in so many pieces I wasn't sure I would ever be able to put it back together again.

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Two months, I couldn't believe it had already been two months since I packed up my life and moved to Chicago. I couldn't say that I've never been happier because that would be a total lie; I was still recovering from my failed relationship with Bellamy. No matter how hard I thought about it I couldn't understand what had happened. One day we were happy then the next he's a completely different person. If this had been the old Bellamy I wouldn't have given it a second thought, but the new Bellamy, my Bellamy, was caring and gentle. It mattered to him if he caused pain to those around him, I couldn't understand why he had done this to me.

I pushed thoughts of Bellamy away as someone called out for more coffee, despite my best efforts I found myself thinking about him everyday even after all this time apart. Working helped to keep my mind occupied, but sometimes I wondered if I would ever get over this heartbreak.

Unfortunately, I hadn't been able to get into the art institute, they wrote back saying my application was past their deadline and there was nothing they could do. However they encouraged me to try again next year, and that based on the portfolio I had sent in with my application I had a lot of potential. They did, however, have night classes open to everybody. Upon hearing that I signed up for as many as I could knowing it would be a long summer if I didn't keep busy. This also meant that I needed to find a job, something flexible, that's how I ended up working for the Ark bar and grill. The pay was decent and the boss was a sweetheart, Kyle Wick, I had actually gotten the job thanks to my roommate Raven Reyes. They were completely and irrevocably in love with each other, no matter how much they tried to deny it, so much so that sometimes it was painful to watch them together.

Raven didn't know the whole story, only that some guy had broken my heart and I had moved away. She keep telling me that it gets better with time, she had been through her fair share of shitty relationships so she was talking from experience. Her ex had actually cheated on her while she was away on a student exchange program. The worst part was that the girl he cheated on her with didn't even know he was seeing someone. A complete douchebag as she loved to call him when ever his name was brought up.

I hoped she was right because there was only a void in my heart at the moment.

If it hadn't been for meeting Raven on my first day in Chicago it might have been much worst. With her guidance I was able to make awesome friends, Monty and Jasper, had a place to stay and a good job. What else could I possibly ask for ... Bellamy.

Stop it Clarke, I will not think of him.

Tonight we were having a party to celebrate the end of the summer; college was just around the corner and everybody was excited to start, everyone except me. Monty claimed it was their last chance to party and get really drunk before school took over their lives; him and Jasper were both studying to be bioengineers so they had their work cut out for them. I had a feeling even with such a heavy workload they would find time to party.

For me it was the perfect opportunity to have my mind go blank for a few hours. I had always avoided going to their parties in the past two months, it reminded me too much of the last party I had been to, the one where Bellamy claimed me as his...no more. But this time I needed to drown my sorrows into something else than my own misery otherwise I would go crazy. I wasn't one to normally use alcohol as an escape but I needed a break. I needed to let loose if it was only for an evening. Tonight I was going to celebrate me, I had moved out on my own and was doing good, for someone like me that had everything handed to me my entire life that was quite the accomplishment and I was proud of the independent women I was becoming.

When my shift ended at the grill I made my way over to their apartment, ready for a night of fun. As soon as I walked through the door I saw that Monty had made his cheesy nachos that I loved and I immediately jumped on them.

"Clarke slowdown there's more than enough for everybody, is Raven feeding you properly it looks like you haven't eaten in days."

"Are you kidding she always eats like this, honestly she's even starting to gain a little weight, maybe we should call for an intervention."

"Oh yes! I love interventions; I'll mention how scared I get when I eat next to Clarke. Afraid that she'll mistake my hand for food." My god my friends were idiots, but they were my idiots and I loved them for being able to make me laugh.

Now that they mentioned it I had put on some weight recently, and my appetite had double in the past month or so, maybe I was developing an eating disorder because of all the stress I was under.

"If anybody needs an intervention it's the two of you, what kind of moonshine have you been making up recently? The two of you shouldn't be allowed to make all these crazy mixes."

"It's not like you've ever tried any."

"No, but I've heard enough stories from Raven to know I should stay far away from the stuff. You know like the time her and Wick almost kissed because they had one too many."

"I don't know why you're using that as a example, if anything it shows how awesome our moonshine is, we bring people together with it."

"If it can almost get these two to finally admit that they like each other, I call it a win."

"The three of you need to stop this I do not, I repeat do not, have feelings for Wick. He's annoying, always thinks he has a solution for everything."

"Look at her trying to cover her blush with denial."

"Seriously Raven, why not let you're guard down and give him a chance. Forget about the past and what Finn did to you, Wick is good."

"Do not mention douchebag, and Clarke you're really not in a position to be giving out romantic advice." She was right, I understood how hard it was to trust someone with something as previous as your heart. Especially after haven had it broken before, but at the same time it was hard to watch two people who clearly cared for each other miss out on a chance to be happy.

"You're right I'm sorry I brought it up, I'm going to go take a walk I'll be back in a few minutes." I needed some air, I knew bringing up Wick was risky since it always made me think of Bellamy, but I had to try to push her a little to thank her for everything she had done for me.

"Clarke don't go I didn't mean to yell. Come on I'll even let you tease me about Wick drunk calling me last week."

"Don't worry about it Reyes I'm fine, I'm just feeling a little warm I'll be back before you have time to miss me." She reluctantly let me leave, the boys were staring at me a little confused as to my odd behavior, but they didn't push the issue.

I hadn't been lying, I was feeling a little warm, maybe I was coming down with something. As I exited the building I was suddenly hit by a wave of nausea, maybe Monty was right and I needed to slow down when eating. Then again it wasn't the first time in the past month that I had been unable to keep my food down, it was almost as if I was … holy shit! Pregnant it was almost as if I was pregnant and experiencing morning sickness.

No no no no no this couldn't be right, I had my period recently, I must have or I would have noticed. But the more I thought about it the more I realized that since the move I hadn't had my period, hadn't needed to buy any tampons. I needed to calm down, this could all still be explained away by stress, a test that's what I needed, until I was sure there was no point in having an emotional breakdown.

I probably should have waited until tomorrow, but I was too agitated to think straight at this point. So when I returned upstairs looking like an escaped mental patent and claiming I needed to leave they all immediately knew something was up.

"Clarke you can tell us, we're your friends."

"I know, and I'm grateful to have you guys, but I still don't know what's going on and I need to check something, I promise we'll talk tomorrow." I didn't wait for an answer before leaving, knowing them they would get me to tell them what was wrong and saying it out loud was too frightening a thought.

I ran to the nearest pharmacy and grabbed the first pregnancy test I could find. It took me a good two hours after arriving back at the apartment until I gathered enough courage to actually complete the test. And I probably would still be staring blankly at the box if Raven hadn't returned home early.

"I was worried about you, you haven't looked this scared since that first day I met you. Tell me what's going on." I slowly moved my hands away from each other, they had been holding onto the pregnancy test so firmly that the box was slightly bent.

"Clarke what's that…oh my god is that a pregnancy test?"

"Yes." My voice was only a whisper.

"Have you taken it?"

"No."

"Ok well that's the first step whatever comes afterwards we'll deal with it, ok?"

"Ok."

I know it must probably sound cliché but that was by far the longest minute in my entire life, I couldn't bring myself to look at the test once my alarm rang, so Raven was the one who ended up announcing that I was pregnant. It took me another good hour to realize the implications of that information. I was going to have a baby. I was carrying Bellamy's baby and he didn't know. Would it change something when he found out? Would I get to see him again? Did I want to see him again?

"I have to tell him."

"You probably should." I could tell Raven was doing her best to avoid asking the most important question of them all, was I going to keep it? She probably wanted to give me time to think about it, but I knew from the minute the words it's positive left her mouth I knew I was going to keep it. I didn't know the first thing about being a good mother, it's not like I had a great example growing up, but from the minute I found out I had a little baby growing inside of me I grew protective of him or her, I would do anything to protect this child as any good mother should.

"He didn't grow up with a father, knowing him he's going to want to be involved. No matter what he did I can't keep this from him." But I couldn't call; hearing is voice would be too much I wasn't ready. Hadn't had enough time to get over him, if we were going to raise a child together I needed to be able to put my feelings aside. I decided to write him a letter that would at least give me a few days to get used to the idea of becoming a mother and that Bellamy might be returning into my life.

However, weeks past without him trying to reach out to me, I had left my address in the letter hoping he would show up at my door telling me he would be there for me, at the very least I had expected a letter, or any kind of response. But when the fifth week ended without any news from him I had to come to the conclusion that he didn't care, about me or about his child. Raven send out a second letter, calling him all kinds of names and telling him that he wasn't even a man if he couldn't bring himself to even come tell me to my face that he didn't want anything to do with me and the baby. Even after that Bellamy remained radio silent, and I began to realize that I would have to raise this child on my own.

Of course Monty, Jasper and Raven claimed that I wasn't alone and that they would be with me every step of the way, and as much as I appreciated the sentiment it wasn't the same. My baby would never get to know it's father and I couldn't forgive him for that.

On my first doctors appointment Monty came with me acting all-nervous as if he was the father, I think he was trying to make me feel better and not let the other couples judge me for being alone. The doctor confirmed the day the baby was conceived and as I had suspected it was late May. The day Bellamy had received his first college acceptance letter, I had been so proud of him that day and we had both gotten a little too carried away forgetting to use protection. This meant the baby was due in February of next year, giving me plenty of time to get organized before applying for school again.

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At five months pregnant I was slowly gaining more confidence in myself and my ability to raise this baby on my own when my world shifted again. Monty and I were out pumpkin shopping when I heard someone call my name.

Octavia

"Clarke." She looked between Monty and I glancing at my large belly at regular intervals. She looked confused, which meant she didn't know I was pregnant. Bellamy hadn't said anything; I wondered if I should lie about whom the father was. She clearly thought that it was Monty if the glares she was sending him where any indications.

"Is that why you left? To be with someone else, shit you must be at least a couple of months pregnant, how could you do this to Bell."

"What?" She didn't know why I left, what the fuck Bellamy, did you put all the blame on me? Did she think I cheated on him?

"Look I don't know who you are or how you're related to the bastard that cheated on her after knocking her up, but for the record Clarke didn't do anything wrong." Well I guess lying was out of the question now, by the look on Octavia's face my suspicions were confirmed she had no idea Bellamy was the father.

"The baby, it's Bellamy's?"

"Yes."

"And he knows?"

"I sent him a letter to let him know and he never did anything about it."

"I'm going to kill that bastard." We would still need to talk about everything that had happened, especially since Bellamy had clearly been keeping things from her, but in that moment I was just glad to have my friend with me.

Again thank you for all the reviews, the last chapter clearly left many of you surprised. So I feel I should explain a few things. This story was originally inspired by a prompt given to me; Clarke moves away, and when she settles in her new place, FAR away from Bellamy, she finds out she's pregnant.

At first I didn't know what to do with this idea, because I normally only write happy stories and this one would involve a little heartbreak. After weeks of thinking it over I came up with this story. I know many of you are really pissed at Bellamy, and perhaps angry at me for not including him in this chapter, but remember I have a plan for this story…so please have faith in me a little longer. Next chapter will be Bellamy's point of you and we will find out what really happened, I can't guarantee you'll all will be satisfied with the explanation, but I will try my best.

Hopefully I don't lose to many readers with this pregnancy twist, for me it was always the end game, but since I wanted it to be a surprised I tried not to give it away early on in the story.

Please leave a review, I would love to hear what you think of this chapter, especially since so many of you were vocal about that last one I'm curious to see if you like it.