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I slammed my hand down on the alarm. It took a great deal of effort to roll myself out of bed. I quickly changed into shorts and a jersey before running downstairs and grabbed a banana. When I got outside I noticed that Spencer's car was already gone. I glanced down at my watch; it was only 4:40.

Spencer's car was already in the parking lot when I got to the school. I dropped my bags off in the locker and headed towards the field. I saw Spencer on the field with Coach and they were sharing a laugh. When I got closer Coach noticed me and beckoned me to come forward.

"Ashley. Good to see you made it in one piece," coach laugh.

"Yeah Spencer gave me a little advice," I replied pointing my stick at Spencer.

"Great to here. My sis always was the best advice giver," he replied as he started to set up cones. My eyes widened as I connected two and two. But Coach didn't look like Spencer, he skin was darker and his hair was black and frizzy. I think Spencer connected two and two because she pulled her brother back in front of me.

"This is my brother Clay; the nice one," she said introducing us.

"Um…hi Coach Clay Carlin," I said awkwardly. He nodded and went back to setting up the cones.

"His adopted," Spencer said.

"Yeah I didn't make that connection until now. Wow I feel stupid," I said taking a seat on the bleachers.

"Don't be. People do it all the time," she replied taking the seat next to mine.

"Ashley," I heard Coach call from the field. I hopped off the bleacher and jogged over to him.

"I just want to let you'll be playing center position this season. Congratulations."

"Thanks Coach, but what about Carmen?"

"Tough luck. You have to earn it, and she didn't. To be honest I've been trying to find a replacement," he said, "This is between the two of us for now okay?" I nodded and thanked him once again before joining Spencer back on the bleachers.

We waited for the rest of the players to show up. The sun didn't come up until halfway through the tryouts. Coach was really working us hard today. We did suicides, two on two, scoring, drills and more drills. Surprisingly I wasn't as tired as most of the other girls trying out. We split up into the groups from yesterday and spent the last hour in a scrimmage. Carmen was making my life a living hell at the moment.

"Watch yourself Davies," she said and I knelt near the ball. I glanced at her before taking the ball from her and running down the field. Score. On the second start I wasn't ready for Carmen's retaliation. I felt the end of her stick collide with my facemask knocking it off.

"Carmen!" I heard Coach yell, "Get off the field!"

"Why she was the one who ran into me!" Carmen yelled back.

"Why the fuck would I want to run into you!" I said getting up and grabbing my mask.

"Carmen! My office now!" Coach yelled. This time Carmen obeyed and followed him.

"Spencer you're in charge," he said before pulling Carmen into the building. Spencer sent everyone out to run the church loop. I took at a seat on the bleachers. My head was pounding.

"Oh my god," I heard Spencer say.

"What? What's wrong?" I asked confused.

"You're bleeding," she said. I reached up and felt the warm sticky blood coming from a cut above my eyebrow. I felt her grab my arm and pull me towards the bathrooms. She sat me down on the bench and got a towel and some water. The water was soothing. She cleaned the dried blood from my eyebrow and my face. Spencer's face was inches away from me. I admired her beauty. She was truly beautiful even if she was sweaty.

"It's not that deep but I'm going to a liquid band-aide on," she said reaching for a bottle, "It might sting a little."

I watched as she took the tip out of the bottle and gently began to brush it on the cut. It was cool at first, but there was a sharp sting. I winced and suck in air through my teeth. Spencer's hand rested on mine and the pain suddenly subsided. She pulled out a real band-aide and placed it over the cut.

"There," she said standing up.

"Thanks," I said taking her hand and pulling myself up.

We headed back into the locker room after tryouts. Coach said the roster would be posted by the end of the day and official practice starts tomorrow. I had to shower in the locker room showers, which I wasn't too happy about, but they were nicer than I thought. Each shower had a stall with wooden double doors that reached the floor. There was a door and a changing area and then a door and a shower. Damn this school was rich.

I quickly showered and changed before going out to the car and dropping my bags off. I grabbed my banana and headed to English class. I took a seat next to Emily was gradually falling asleep. I couldn't blame her, waking up at four is brutal. Ms. Hall walking in a few minutes later.

"Alright class, today we will be starting to write our colleges essay," she said happily. There was an audible groan from the class. Ms. Hall just glared at us as she continued to pass out papers. She gave us the rest of the period to brainstorm ideas.

"What are you going to write about," I heard Emily ask me.

"I don't know yet…maybe lacrosse," I replied twirling a pencil in my hand, "what about you?"

"I'm going to write out my coming out story," she replied confidently.

"That's great," I chimed.

The periods went by faster than yesterday. I just wanted to see who made the team. I took a seat at the lab bench and laid my head down on the desk. I must have dozed off, because I feel someone shaking me awake.

"What?" I mumbled out.

"Teacher's out…we have a free," Spencer said looking at me.

"Oh okay," I said grabbing my belongings.

"Want to practice throwing?" she asked point towards the fields. I nodded and followed her.

I threw my bag into the car and grabbed my stick. The fields were empty except for Spencer and a pair of speakers. She started to blast some music and we passed the ball back and forth.

"So how's Ohio treating you?"

"Good, but I'm still adjusting," I said tossing the ball back to her.

"Well I bet you'll make the team," she replied turning the music off and coming to closer to me.

"I know I will," I said with confidence.

"The list should be up soon," she said grabbing her things.

I put my stuff back into the car and followed Spencer towards the locker rooms. There was a herd of girls surround Coach as he tried to pin the roster on the door. Girls swarmed around the list. Some of them were jumping with glee, others walking away sad. I saw Emily come up to me with a wide smile on her face.

"Ashley I made! I made the team!" she squealed while jumping up and down.

"That's amazing," I said giving her a hug.

"You made it too," she said giving me another hug and walked away.

Spencer returned from looking at the roster. She had a glistening smile on her face. I returned the smile before it instantly faded. Spencer looked confused until she turned around and saw Carmen storming towards me.

"Davies!" she screamed slamming me up against the lockers.

"What do you want Carmen?" I said trying to loosen her grip on my shoulders.

"Carmen let her go," I heard Spencer voice beside me.

"Watch yourself Davies. Today was just an 'accident' I'll be coming after you," she whispered in my ear before slamming against the locker and leaving.

Spencer helped me to my feet and picked up my bag. I caught Coach's eyes; he face looked concerned. I nodded telling him that things were okay before following Spencer out into the parking lot.

"I'm sorry about that," Spencer said shuffling her feet.

"It's okay. I get it new girl makes varsity," I said opening my door.

"I'll talk to her, but in the mean time watch out," she said walking towards her car. I pulled into the driveway. As I opened the door I saw Spencer pulling into hers. I gave her a smile before disappearing into the house.

I felt a pair of little arms grasp my leg. Sid was clinging to my leg giving me a goofy smile. I pried him off and picked him up.

"Ashwly can we watch a wovie?" he asked giving me a puppy face.

"Sure bud! What to you want to watch?" I asked putting him down.

"Finding Nemo," he shouted running and handing me the DVD. I put in into the player and sat him down on the couch.

When the movie ended, Sid was fast sleep on the couch. I threw a blanket over him and started to do my homework. My mother came home shortly after and put Sid to bed.

"Ashley want happened," she said grabbing my head and looking at the cut left by Carmen.

"It's nothing mom, just a little scratch at tryouts today," I said pulling her hands away from my head.

"It looks a bigger than just an 'accident'."

"Mom! It was my fault. I tripped and fell and her stick hit my face," I said hoping her wouldn't catch my lie.

She handed me my dinner before I headed up to my room. I sat in front of my computer as I started to write my essay.

"I've never learned to appreciate something until it's really gone. Life is a never-ending cycle of challenges. But it these challenges that make us who we are. The challenges and struggles that I have face and construction the person I am today. Me…" I felt the tears start to stream down my face as flashes of Madison appeared in front of me.

There was a knock on my door.

"Mom I just want to be left alone," I shouted.

"Um sorry. Your mom let me in. I hope that's okay?" I heard the angelic voice. I turned around and saw Spencer in the doorway. I spun around and wipe the tears away hoping that she didn't see them. I beckoned her to come in.

"Yeah no…it's fine," I said getting up.

"Wow. This room is amazing," she said in awe. I blushed a little. I watched as she walked over to the balcony and peered out. When she turned around there was a smile on her face.

"What?" I asked in confusion.

"I can see my room from your balcony," she replied and went to sit down on the bed. I took a quick peak out of the balcony window and saw I room that was empty. I assumed that was what Spencer was talking about.

"No!" I heard a shriek. I wiped around and found Spencer looking at a picture. "You played for the USA in the world championships?"

"Yeah," I said rubbing the back of my neck.

"No wonder you're so good," she said setting the picture down and returning to the bed. Her eyes surveyed my room, looking around at all the picture I had hung up and Madison and friends. Her eyes fell on the picture on my nightstand on Madison and I on the beach.

"Who is this?" she asked pointing to Madison.

"That was my girlfriend Madison," I responded.

"You two look happy. Is she back in California?"

"We were…she passed away a few months ago," I said taking the photo from Spencer's hand and looking at Madison.

"I'm so sorry," Spencer said getting up and pulling me into a tight hug.

"It's okay…really," I lied. I pulled away and set the picture back on the nightstand before walking out on the balcony. I threw myself on the hammock. I moved over to make room for Spencer. We lay there for a while just looking up at the sky. It was beautiful, the stars dancing against the black background.

"I should get going," Spencer said as she swung herself off the hammock, "I'll see you tomorrow."

"Thanks for coming over," I replied getting up and following her down the stairs. I watched as her figure walked across the lawn. There was a strange feeling inside of me, the feeling of life. After the accident with Madison I couldn't see myself happy until now. Something about Spencer is lifting this weight from inside me.

"She seemed like a very nice girl," my mother said from the doorway. I felt a smile inch onto my lips as I nodded.

"Yeah, she's on the lacrosse team," I replied, rocking back and forth on my heels, "I should get some rest." I thumbed towards my room. My mother just nodded and get back into the kitchen to finish the dishes. I peeked into Sid's room on the way up. He was sound asleep. I placed a gently kiss on his forehead and pulled his covers over his tiny figure.

I returned to my hammock and threw and blanket over myself.

"Madison," I said to the sky, "I miss you so much." I closed my eyes and let my subconscious take over.

"I miss you too Ashley."

"I made the lacrosse team and beat out this girl for center position. I think she's going to come after me with sharp knives," I laughed a little.

"You always had that charm," she said. I could hear her laughing. "Who was that girl that you were with?"

"Her name's Spencer. She's on the lacrosse team. She came over the check on me."

"Is that it?" I could picture Madison with her arms crossed and her foot tapping.

"Madison…I haven't thought about dating since the 'accident.'"

"Ash, you can't stay in the past, wondering what would have happened if you did things differently. I think you need to put yourself out there again."

"I know, but I don't think that I can take my heart being broken again."

"Spencer, she's different from most. She makes you feel normal doesn't she?"

"She makes me feel like me again," I said opening my eyes. I glanced over at the bedroom and saw Spencer at her desk writing something in her notebook before closing it.

"She's doing something to me."

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