The room was silent, Bellamy had just finish telling me his story, which in all honestly felt more like the plot of a bad movie rather than real life, and I was having trouble processing all the information.

Part of me could understand why he had acted the way he did, he was trying to protect his family. The other part of me was still furious, why couldn't he protect me as well if he loved me so much? Why did he have to cause me so much pain? I had always believed our relationship was strong enough to overcome the differences in our upbringing. But the way he reacted to my mother's threats, thinking he didn't deserve me and that I would be better off without him, made me worry that if I decided to forgive him the fact that I came from money and he didn't would always hang over us.

And if this wasn't bad enough, my own mother was responsible for all the pain and suffering I had gone through in the past couple of months.

And then their was the part of me that couldn't help but be happy, he loved me, always had. He didn't betray me and the last months had been just as difficult and painful for him as it had been for me.

As I was trying to make sense of all my feelings Bellamy was standing awkwardly in the living room as Raven continued to glare at him.

"I don't expect you to just forgive me, no mater what the reasons were behind my actions they remain my actions. All I ask is that you leave out the part about Octavia and my mother when you tell Octavia what happened. She'll blame herself when the only one responsible for all this is me."

"And my mother." It was only a whisper, the first words I had dared to speak in front of him. I could see from the way his whole body relaxed that my silence had made him very tense. And he was right if Octavia found out it would hurt her, and if Bellamy's mom were to find out it would be worse, she would probably feel it was her fault for coming from nothing. In this aspect he was right, these two amazing people needed to be protected, it made it very hard for me to hate Bellamy when all he was doing was keep safe two people I would also probably do anything for.

I just wish he would have turned to me instead of hurting me, we could have found a way together.

"You're not honestly going to believe this crap Clarke, do you really think your own mother would do something like this? He's probably only trying to cover up his mistakes." I could understand Raven's anger; the sting of betrayal from the person we loved the most is impossibly painful, to find found out that Bellamy never cheated and still loved me was a dream come true, but for Raven who doubted everybody she met because of Finn and how he had treated her, she couldn't believe this to be true.

"I do, my mother is … she changed a lot when she lost my father, controlling me and my future gives her purpose, a sense of accomplishment. I don't doubt that she is capable of meddling in my life to get her way."

"Still this all seems very improbable."

"Raven can you give us a minute."

"Clarke really, I think you need me to make sure you don't do anything rash."

"I think she's old enough to make her own decisions."

"Nobody asked you pretty boy, as far as I'm concerned theirs still a very strong chance that I'll break your legs before the day is done." Bellamy backed up a little at Raven's words, she might be small but she knew how to pack a punch and Bellamy clearly was smart enough to realize it, but I could see he really wanted to be able to speak to me alone.

"Please Raven."

"I'll be right outside ok." She took her time gathering her things before making her way to the door; I think she was being extra slow just to piss Bellamy off. I didn't intervene because it was giving me the extra time I needed to gather my thoughts together. I needed to make sure I said this right so Bellamy understood.

"Clarke I…"

"No now it's my turn." I took a deep breath and then let my feelings come out.

"You've hurt me Bell, I understand there were circumstances that made you feel like you had no other choice, but you did. Did you think I would have let anything happen to Octavia, to your mother, the three of you were my family when my mother was nowhere to be seen."

"I know I screwed up and left you to deal with this pregnancy on our own, I promise it will never happen again. Just please Clarke give me another chance to prove you my worth."

"That's the thing Bell to me you were always worthy, you didn't need to prove anything or become a different person. I loved you just as you were." Bellamy's face fell, he had been putting on a brave front since he had arrived, but something I said finally made him crack.

"Loved? I understand, I won't push you to be with me if you've already moved on, but I promise I will be there for our child." He thought I didn't love him anymore, how could he be so foolish of course I still loved him, even after he broke it my heart still belonged to him. However, regardless of my feelings Raven was right I needed to be cautious. Not that I didn't believe that Bellamy loved me, but he needed to believe in himself before I could give us a second chance.

"I didn't say that." The smile that took over Bellamy's face made it difficult for me not to just go and run to him. "Of course I still love you Bell, but if we're ever going to make it things need to be different, we need to get to know each other again. We can't jump into this as if nothing has happened."

Bellamy kept nodding along, probably happy that we still had a chance, making the next part a little difficult to say out loud.

"I need you to go back to school and finish your semester."

"What?! No Clarke you need me here with you, even if it's just as the father of our child. I am NOT leaving you again." The shock was evident on his face, but I knew this is what we needed.

"Bell you need time to process this and decide if this is what you really want. I've already gone through that, I've made my decision, and this baby is my whole life now. I need you to be sure this is what you want."

"Clarke I don't need time, I know, I've always known the only person that can keep me in line is you, you're everything to me. Life without you was unbearable and I will love this baby just as much."

"Bell please, you can't just leave everything behind and move here, what about you're mother?"

"She'll understand, it's not like I've been around much these past months." Guilt was obvious on his face, making me realize that even if he knew the truth behind his actions the repercussions for him where as devastating as they were for me.

"And school? What are you going to do? I won't be responsible for you dropping out? My mother said you weren't good enough well prove her wrong. Just finish out the semester and then ask for a transfer, it's not forever, but it will give us some time to learn to be with each other again."

He continued to argue with me, but I wasn't budging. We were going to have to take our time for this to work, I would need to trust him again, despite his explanations he still lied and its not something I could get over right away.

"Bell it's not just you, I want to deal with my mother as well, so when you finally move out there won't be anything keeping us apart."

"If this is what you want I guess I can go back for the end of the year, but be warned miss Griffin nothing, and I mean nothing in the world will keep me from coming back to you.

"I don't have any doubts on that."

Sorry guys for the delay and the short chapter, I haven't had anytime to write so I decided to do mini chapters instead. Please leave a review! And thank you for continuing to follow this story.