I'm back! Sorry for the long wait for this new chapter, I have been really busy. I am now married yay! and have moved into my new house with my husband. Things have settled down so I should be having more time to finish up this story, we're almost at the end. Hope you enjoy this long awaited chapter.

Allowing Bellamy to walk out of my apartment was heart wrenching, his eyes were determined but I could tell that part of him felt defeated by my words. I knew he wanted to stay and start making amends for his decisions, but I was grateful he agreed to go back home while I sorted out this mess.

I needed to deal with my mother once and for all; it was time I came out of hiding and told her face to face what I had been holding in for years. Now that I was an adult there was nothing she could do to control me.

I was expecting my friends to come back in as soon as Bellamy closed the door behind him, so I was surprised when instead I saw Miller hesitating at the door before finally making his way inside.

"Hey Clarke."

"Miller, I'm so happy you came along with Bellamy! With everything happening he needs a good friend to stand by his side." When Bellamy had showed up earlier I hadn't been at all surprised to find Miller standing by his side. He has always been the best out of all his friends.

"I actually had ulterior motives for coming with him to find you." In all the time I had known Miller I had never seen him looking so nervous, something was clearly troubling him and I wasn't sure I could deal with more revelations.

"What's wrong?"

"I knew what Bellamy was going to do."

"What? What do you mean you knew?"

"Well I didn't know exactly what he was planning, but I knew he was going to do something drastic. When your mother confronted him Bellamy came to me for advice on what to do. And I swear Clarke I tried to make him see that if he told you the truth you would surly be able to work something out together. But he was so worried for his family that he wasn't in his right mind." Guilt, Miller was acting nervous because he felt guilty for what had happened to us. I could have been angry at him for not telling me anything, but I was done with all the negative feelings. What was done was done, there was no longer any need to live in the past.

"Miller none of this is your fault."

"You were my friend too Clarke and I stood by and watched you get hurt, if I had told you about your mom's involvement before Bellamy pushed you away everything would have turned out differently."

"Nathan"

"I know I can't change the past, but I just wanted to apologies. I don't know what you're planning to do in regards to Bellamy, but he loves you so much and the past couple of months have been extremely difficult for him. Not that I want to make excuses for him, but just keep that in mind while you make your decision." My mother had destroyed too many lives, not only had she cause pain to Bellamy and I, but my friends had also been forced to live with the weight of the decisions that came from our actions. I couldn't imagine how Octavia would react if she found out the whole truth.

"I don't know how I would have acted if I had been placed in the same position as you, you stood by your friend no matter what and part of me really respects that. Don't worry we'll work it out somehow." He seemed relieved to see that I hadn't completely turned down Bellamy.

"By the way congratulations, being pregnant really suits you. This might not make you feel any better, but when Bellamy found out Murphy was the reason he never got your letter he beat the crap out of him."

"I would have loved to see that, Murphy's always had it in for me, I just didn't think he was evil enough to cause his own friend pain."

"I don't think it matters to Murphy who he hurts as long as he comes out on top."

"Can you keep Bell out of trouble, I'm afraid of what he might do if he bumps into Murphy when he gets back."

"I'll to my best." Miller gave me a salute as if he was answering his commanding officer before saying goodbye and letting my friends back in.

Octavia was still very agitated, she wanted to know the truth behind everything that had happened. I wasn't sure how to explain it without having her find out that Bellamy's decision had come about from a desire to protect her.

"Bell won't say anything, why are you keeping me in the dark."

"O, please it was just a misunderstanding, I thought Bell had cheated and it turns out he didn't."

"That can't be it, you're not the type of person to run away before getting to the bottom of things."

"You'd be surprised what kind of stupid things people do when their hurt. O, I never would have gotten to the bottom of this if you hadn't found me, thank you."

"You're welcome Clarke, we're friends now and forever you know that."

"Of course, you were my first and most precious friend. However, you should probably get going, Lincoln's going to start worrying."

"You've already sent Bellamy away, are you trying to get all the Blake's out of your life again." Octavia was trying to pass it off as a bad joke, but I could tell she was truly worried.

"Of course not O, but you guys have lives to get back to and my life is here. This isn't goodbye I promise, plus if you decide on attending a school here we'll be close again." I was trying my best to distract her from asking more questions about me and Bell and the prospect of her moving here was all it took to get her taking about the future rather than the past. Monty, Jasper and Raven remained quiet until Octavia finally decided to leave. I could tell the boys were anxious to find out what Bellamy had said and what my plans were going to be.

Raven remained suspicious as I recounted Bellamy's story, they were also very surprised by the actions my mother had taken and couldn't believe she could do something like that.

"He knows you and your mother don't get along, he could have made up this extraordinary story in order to excuse his behaviour thinking you would never go to her to ask if it was true."

"I told him when I sent him away I was going to deal with my mother once and for all, if your theory was right he would have tried to stop me from doing that. Look I know its hard for you to believe him, all you know about him is the terrible things I've been telling you over the last few months. But I know Bell, he was hurt by this as much as I was." I could tell Raven was going to interrupt but I was having none of it. "I know Raven you don't have to say it, this was his decision and regardless of his reasons he hurt me. But that doesn't change the fact that my own mother put him in an impossible situation. Could you say you wouldn't do the same thing to protect the people you love, if you didn't think there was another way out."

I could see how much she hated to admit it, but I was right. She was slowly changing her opinion on Bellamy, and hopefully one day they would be able to be friends.

"So what's going to happen now? Are you going to go back?" Jasper was trying to be brave for me, but I could tell he was bothered by the idea that I might leave the city.

"This is my home now, I'm staying here no matter what." I knew Bell would move out here to be with me and his unborn child, I wanted nothing more to do with my mother, and there was a good chance Octavia would move out here, even without these reasons there was nothing that would make me want to leave my new friends. They were there for me when I had needed them the most, I wasn't going to dump them just because I was getting Bell and Octavia back.

"We would understand if you decided that it was best for you."

"It's not, you guys are my family now, I don't know where I would be without the three of you."

"Ah Clarke, we love you too. Come on everybody group hug." Monty quickly got up joining us.

"Come on Raven, you too."

"You guys are way too sentimental." Raven tried to keep her thought front but I saw the glint in her eyes when she joined us on the couch. She was just as happy as I was to have people she knew she could count on.

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I was truly grateful to the three of them as I stood in front of my childhood home trying to gather enough courage to go confront my mother.

"Do you need us to come in with you?"

"No I need to do this on my own." After a few more minutes of pacing back and forth I was standing at the door hoping I would be strong enough to deal with whatever came next.

I rang the doorbell and waited; nerves were slowly starting to take over. I knew I had to remain strong and finally confront her, but she was still my mother no matter what she had done this was going to be incredibly difficult.

"Clarke!" The shock was obvious on her face, she seemed much older than the last time I had seen her, her normally neatly placed hair was all over the place and she looked incredibly sleep deprived.

"Hello mother." She reached out to try and hug me, but I avoided her.

"I can't believe you're really here, I've missed you so much Clarke."

"This isn't a social call mother, I've come for some of my things and to clear a few things up."

"Clarke sweetie, you've been gone for months is that all you have to say to me. What happened to you, are you ok?" She took a step back and looked me over, it was easy to tell the exact moment that her eyes fell on my stomach. "Oh my god you're pregnant." My bump was so obvious now; I couldn't have hidden it from her even if I had wanted to. "Is this why you've come back, you got yourself knocked up and now you need my help?"

I had to stop myself from laughing in disbelief, she had gone from a worried mother to judging me as soon as she saw my belly. She hadn't changed at all.

"I didn't come for your help, I actually don't need anything from you anymore, I've found my place in life."

"Clarke you've really thrown your life away this time, becoming a mother at your age."

"Is that all you're worried about, don't you want to know who the father is, do you even care where I've been living these past few months."

"Of course I care, I've been worried sick for you ever since…"

"Ever since you pushed Bellamy to break my heart so that I would start listening to you again." Her face paled, she wasn't at all expecting me to know the truth.

"I was doing it for you."

"Let's be clear everything you've done was for you, you've never once thought about my feelings. But I'm over it now, you can stop caring for me now and go on with your life, this will be the last time you see me. We're done."

"Clarke you can't be serious, we can't be done we're family, no matter what you say or do you're always going to be mine."

"Your right you're always going to be my mother, I can't change that, but you are done playing a role in my life and you will never set your eyes on my child." I had initially wanted to get some of my things that I had left behind when I ran away, but now I realized that it didn't matter I was done with my mother and done with this place I didn't want to stay here a second more.

I was walking away when my mother grabbed hold of me.

"Clarke you might not see it my way, but for me I was trying to stop you from making the very mistake you are making right now. See where you ended up without me."

"Oh dearest mother what you still haven't figure out is that this child you want to dismiss as a mistake his actually Bellamy's child, you caused him to leave me and spend the last five months thinking he didn't love me, how can you cause your child so much pain and still act like you were right. You're never going to change and I don't want to remain here and have to deal with it. We are DONE."

"Clarke, Clarke, come back, right now!" I ran for the car, and Monty like the proper get away driver that he was had me out of there in mere seconds.

I was fine while confronting her, but as soon as I took my seat in the car tears started to fall down. I was shaking uncontrollably and couldn't stop myself; darn hormones making my emotions go all over the place.

I was hugging my knees to my body trying to calm myself, Raven and Jasper were trying to comfort me but nothing was working. I was vaguely aware that Raven was calling someone on her cell phone, but what she was saying was lost on me. I didn't know where we were going or how long he had been driving around. It wasn't until the car slowed and I saw Bellamy standing in front of his apartment building that I put the pieces together. The shock of dealing with my mother caused me to have a panic attack and cry out for the only person that could make me feel safe again, Bellamy.

When the car came to a complete stop I rushed out and ran to him. No questions asked, Bellamy wrapped his arms around me.

"I love you Clarke, and I will never let anything happy to you or our baby I promise."