Why couldn't mom just pick up the groceries after work? Or even dad? They know I hate going out. I let out another deep breath as I readjusted all the groceries on my arms. So many groceries and no car… Why did I even have to get some of the foods that Ikuto likes? We've been sharing my bento, while he has a sandwich and he brings me strawberries. At the moment, it was just making the load so much heavier. Ikuto isn't even here and somehow finds a way to annoy me. This is just great. I stomped my way through the back roads to the house, the less people I meet, the better my day will, hopefully, get. I liked the fact that there was absolutely no one on the street. He kidnapped me on a busy street. I've never set foot on one since then.

"Get the hell off of me!"

I know that voice.

"Don't touch me!"

It was that shrimp that looked like a doll. I dropped the groceries bags and ran towards her screams. We may not get a long but I could try to help in some way. I ran towards the next alley way. I'm sure the screaming came from here. My eyes widen as I skidded to a stop. At the second street light down, Shrimp was surrounded by three guys. She was cowering in a Fidel position as the three guys tried to touch her in certain places. My legs were shaking. I wasn't even the one being attacked but I was still terrified.

"Come one, Rosie. We can finally be together again." The man with platinum blonde hair that almost looked silver said sweetly as his soft hand grabbed mine.

"My name is not Rosie. It's Amu." I said as he started pulling me away. I tried to pull back to try to stop him. "Let go of me! Mommy is waiting for me!" I screamed.

I shook the memory away. I've been doing better this past month. I don't shake as bad when other people are around. If I can stand up to Ikuto, I can stand up to them. I pushed my feet to move. I ran in between them and the shrimp. I held my arms out in a protective way, I guess. My legs were shaking terribly but I still stood there.

"Look what we got here guys." The guy in the middle said. "Blondie here has a hot friend here." He said in I guess you would call a playful way. I don't know. I'm not good with people. I do know is when someone talks like that, they expect to get what they want.

"Pinky?" I heard the shrimp gasp.

"Run." I said confidently. I was honestly shocked by how strong I sounded. I knew it was a lie. My entire body was shaking because my legs were shaking so bad. I could hear the guys snicker. They've noticed my shaking. They knew I was a coward. It wasn't long till I heard her running off.

The guy to the left went to chase her down. Being fast on my feet, thanks to my runs, I was able to tackle him to the ground. I was able to get a good punch to his face before I was being pulled off. The other two were holding my arms as the third one got up. When the third one got into distance, I brought my legs up and kicked him back. He stumbled to the ground. When my feet hit the ground, I pushed them upward and kicked the two holding me back in the face. Landing from doing a back flip, I turned and started running. Before I made it to the street where I dropped the groceries, I was tackled from behind. He flipped me around to where I was laying on my back and pinned my arms above my head. I felt someone else holding down my legs. I started struggling as I felt someone else taking my arms. The man that was currently sitting on me smirked as he brought out a knife. I learned not to scream in these situations years ago. They only seem to make them aroused even more so. The man took his knife and started cutting my shirt open. I started moving my chest around to make it more difficult for him to cut. I could feel the knife cut through my skin a few times but I did nothing about it. I can't let them do to me what he did. Not again! The man before me had the same look on his face as that man did. I growled at that look. The man looked slightly shocked but quickly recovered when he realized he cut all the way through my shirt. His smirk was instantly back as he pulled the shirt apart to look at my chest. His eyes widen as shock overcame him. He saw the scar.

"Holy crap!" He shouted.

"That is mess up." The dude holding my hands down said. The dude at my feet sat on my feet.

"I wanna see." He said as he looked over the dude that was sitting on me. His eyes widen too. "I was not expecting that." He said. I rolled my eyes at him. "How did you get that?" He asked me.

"Let's just say this isn't the first time someone pulled this on me. He was much more ruthless than you three." I said. It was true. These three was a heck of a lot more kinder than he was. The dude that was sitting on me sneered.

"That isn't going to stop us now." He growled. Apparently he got impatient or just mad at something. He got up off of me, making it a lot easier to breathe. "Hold her legs open." He commanded. I started squirming again, making sure it was harder for them to hold me down. There was no way I was going to let them do this to me without a fight. He cut open my pants. As he got in between my legs, I realized something. He moved exactly like he did.

He was able to hold me down, thanks to the shackle on my wrist that attached me to the bed. He slithered his way between my squirming legs, one legs at a time. He chuckled as if I was just playing with him. Tears were already filling my eyes.

"Calm down, Rosie. I'll take extra good care of you." He still talked sweetly. I knew what he was going to do. This wasn't the first time he did this to me.

"I'm not Rosie! I will never be Rosie! Let me go already!" I yelled again. I felt like a broken record but I had to try to make him understand this. It was the only hope I had. He started pulling up the dress he had forced me to wear a few days ago. He got rid of any under garments. He said that they would just get in his way if he was in a hurry. "Don't touch me! I've had enough of this! Just let me go!"

My cheek was stinging and was starting to burn. My eyes widen as I brought my hand up to my cheek. I realized that I was sitting up and by the concert wall. I looked forward to see the shrimp looking at me in concern.

"You're back." I gasped. My mind replayed everything that had happened again. "I thought I told you to run." I glared at her. She glared back.

"I'm not that stupid. I was able to bring back some help." She almost growled. I raised a brow at her. I leaned a little to the side so I could look past her. My eyes widen again. Ikuto was beating the crap out of them. Why would they help though? Humans were selfish. They don't know me that well. Heck, I couldn't tell you that much about me. Why the heck would they want to help? Then I realized something.

"That memory…" I mumbled under my breath. "I was screaming again. Wasn't I?" I asked her. She raised a brow at me.

"I don't know about again but you were yelling even though no one was touching you. Something about you not being Rosie." She explained. I dropped my gaze down to the ground. My shirt and pants were still ripped open. I brought my knees up to my chest in hopes that they couldn't see anything.

"Sorry about that. That tends to happen with me." I apologized. She brought her hand up to my shoulder.

"Don't worry about it. I'm just glad you helped me out when you did." I knew that this was her way of saying 'thanks' but all I could do was bring my knees closer. I looked up at her.

"You're not hurt are you? Did they touch you?" I asked. Her eyes widen this time. She shook her head before throwing her worried looks at me.

"Forget about me. They almost raped you! It's a good thing Ikuto got here when he did. Who knows what all they would've done to you!" She was almost yelling now but I couldn't help but to chuckle darkly.

"Nothing I'm not already used to." I mumbled under my breath. She was starting to calm down. I was getting really tired really fast. I leaned to the side. Ikuto threw his last punch to the last dude before turning towards us. He looked extremely worried but I was getting too tired to care. He rushed over here as I sat up straight. He knelt down right beside the shrimp and stared at me in the eyes. It seemed as though he was asking me if I was alright. Thank goodness for all those lunches and note passing with him. I was starting to understand his looks. .I hummed a bit.

"I'm fine. I'm really tired. I'm also kind of mad cause I might have to got grocery shopping again. I dropped everything before I got here." I told him. He nodded his head before getting up and going down the street where my groceries were. I looked back over to the shrimp. "I don't know your name." I told her. Her eyes widen again.

"Why would you help someone you don't even know the name of?" She asked. I looked at her straight in the eyes. Should I tell her? Should I tell her that I have a fear of other people? About what happened to make me fear others? Or should I not tell her anything at all. I'm not as comfortable around her as I am with Ikuto but it's better than when I'm around others. Maybe because I kind of know her better? I don't really understand any of this. I had to answer her though.

"So you don't turn into me." I said, as it was the truest fact in the world. Being me was a nightmare but I was surviving. Confusion was in her eyes this time.

"Mashiro Rima. You can call me Rima." She greeted.

"Hinamori Amulet. You can call me Amu." I mocked her like I did the first time I meet her. Her giggled at that.

"Amulet?" She asked. I nodded my head.

"Yeah, I have no idea what my parents were on when they came up with that." I commented. She chuckled this time. I pulled at the edge of my cut shirt so it crissed-crossed. She didn't need to see the scar. I didn't want her freaking out like they did. I looked over to them. They were still laying on the ground. "They must be really incompetent if they have to force themselves on others, especially if they have to help each other out." I commented. Rima started laughing. I smiled. I actually made someone laugh without even trying. Maybe I can become radiant? My chest was feeling lighter. I was happy. For the first time in years, I was happy. Maybe I can stop surviving and start living. I heard plastic bags stretching. I turned to see Ikuto standing there with my groceries. I had a raised brow at the laughing Rima. I told Ikuto what I told Rima. He was smirking now, I could tell that he was trying not to laugh himself. The smile was back on my face. If I was going to start living, I wanted these two with me. Ikuto looked at me with a raised brow this time, looking to my legs then back at me. I nodded my head and stood up, my grip firm on my shirt. I didn't mind my pants all too much. There was only a little stare at the bottom, it was almost microscopic, all I had to do was sew it up when I got home. Rima stood up next to me. She nodded her head at me, as if saying she was coming with us. I led the way, very slowly. I was extremely tired. First I had to deal with the stupid people at the grocery store and then even stupider people out in the alley way. Too many people for one day for me. I do good dealing with school as much as I had. I blame Ikuto for that. I like how curious he is, even if Ninety percent of his questions were crazy.

"Are you hurting or something?" Rima asked. I looked at her. "Your walking really slow." She stated. I hummed a bit again. I don't know why I'm humming. It's kind of soothing though.

"I'm just really tired. I haven't been sleeping well the past few days." I replied. Yeah, and after today, my nights are just going to get worse. Stupid PTSD. I yawned silently, wishing for the comforts of my own bed. Okay, the floor sounds better at the moment. Hmmm… Sleep just sounds good at the moment.

It took us a while to get to my house since I was practically sleep walking, but we made it. I opened the door wide enough for them to walk through.

"Kapuiyakasha!" Ami yelled from the other room. Thriller was playing loudly again. I rolled my eyes. Something good must have happened to Ami.

"I'm too tired today, Ami!" I shouted at her. I led Ikuto to the kitchen where Mama was busy typing on her lap top and Papa was cleaning his camera. "I'm home." I stated as I walked into the kitchen. "And I brought friends." Mama immediately stopped typing, Papa stopped cleaning, and thriller stopped playing. Ami magically appeared in the room as Mama and Papa looked over my shoulders. I just ignored them for now. "You can place the groceries on the table. I need to change before I start putting anything up, I'll be right back." I said as I turned to go to my room. I took a deep breath. "Five… Four… Three… Two…"

"Friends?!" My family shouted. I slapped my face in annoyance. Do they think I'm incapable of making friends? I could hear them all talking in the kitchen. I just shrugged it off before going into my room and quickly changing my clothes. I took my time going down the stairs.

"He just doesn't talk." Rima was almost growling. I rolled my eyes.

"Then how did they become friends?" Ami asked. I walked into the kitchen. Rima looked like she was about to kill my family, Ikuto was staring outside the kitchen window, and my family looked utterly confused.

"Because we can respect each other, unlike you all. Stop being rude." I growled. I know, you're not suppose to be mean to your family but, if I didn't, they would continue on. I walked over to the groceries and started taking everything out of the bags. My family was bowing towards them in apology.

"Please forgive us. Amu has never had friends before. We would just like to know how you all became friends so quickly" Mama apologized for everyone. I took another deep breath, causing me to yawn. Rima stood up and started helping me with the groceries. Don't judge my family. They're usually not here. They are usually at work or for Ami, at a friend's house.

"You've never had friends before?" Rima asked me. I could see Ikuto staring at me in the corner of my eye. I nodded my head.

"Not even acquaintances." I confessed. Ikuto's eyes harden but his eyes never left me.

"Why not?" Rima asked hesitantly. I shrugged at the question.

"People judged before they even tried getting to know me. That and I thought everyone was stupid." I told as I was putting everything up. Everyone was quite now. The only thing that was heard was Rima and me putting everything up. "Ami are you sick or something?" I asked. I turned at looked at her. She was looking at me with a raised brow.

"No, why?" She asked in return. I raised a brow at her.

"What happened to your music then?" I asked. Her eyes widen to the size of saucers before she started freaking out.

"MY MUSIC!" She yelled before racing back to the living room. "Any requests?!" She yelled at everyone else. Everyone just kept silent as 'Everything you want' by Vertical Horizon started playing through the walls. I rolled my eyes. This was Ami's revenge for not doing thriller with her this time. I looked to Rima and Ikuto.

"You two staying, for supper?" I asked. Ikuto looked to the stove, and back to me. "Yeah, I'm cooking." I replied to his silent question. He nodded his head before leaning back in his seat. Rima looked to Ikuto.

"She can cook?" She asked as if she doubted me. I glared at her. I could see the small smirk on her face. I rolled my eyes before grabbed some food to start cooking with. "So you've had her food before?" I heard her ask him. At least she's trying to get along with him. "I'll stay too. I just have to all my parents to let them know." I nodded my head as I placed everything down to get the house phone. I handed her the phone. She went to the hallway as she was dialing the phone. I went back to cooking but this time with a smile on my face. I have friends… And they're over at my house for supper. Dear, God, I HAVE FRIENDS! I felt really light on my feet. I could be flying through the air right now. There was a bright white flash towards the doorway.

"You forgot to turn off the flash!" Mama scolded.

"Crap!" Papa gasped. I glared over their way. Mama, Papa, and Ami froze in place.

"Burn those negatives." I demanded. They all started pouting.

"But we don't have a picture of you since you were six!" Mama whined.

"I need a picture of my precious sparrow!" Papa whined too. Why do I have the sneaking suspicions that they were up to something. Ikuto tapped his foot three times, we had made in our rule in school that if he tapped his foot like that, it meant that he wanted something. I looked over towards him. He brought his hand up in the air and started scribbling. "Ami, can you get Ikuto a pen and some papers?" I asked her.

"Yeop~!" She saluted before rushing off somewhere. I rolled my eyes before returning my glare to my parents. They looked like they were at the point were they wanted to beg but they stood their ground. I vaguely saw Ami giving Ikuto pen and paper but I just continued to glare at my parents. Ikuto walked passed me and towards my parents. I took another deep breath. Since this was going to take a while, I went back to cooking. I was dead tired anyways. The sooner everyone eats, the sooner I can get to bed. Here we go again by Demi Lovato started playing in the other room. I was lip singing along with it to help keep me awake even though I didn't really like the song. I could hear Ami singing along with it. I loved hearing Ami sing. She was really good at it, she was the lead singer in the choir for a reason. A piece of paper was right in my face now. I leaned back a bit to read it.

Let them get the pictures. I think you'll actually like the picture.

"Oh, and what makes you say that?" I asked while I glared half-heartedly at him. He just smirked while a playful look came in his eyes. I let the food sizzle so I could cross my arms. He brought out a pen and started writing.

Cause They're making a copy for me. I am in the picture after all.

Ikuto was in the picture? Usually when Ami brought boys home, she likes video games, Papa would always freak out and hide in the bathroom. Now he's taking pictures of me with Ikuto. I shook my head of those thoughts before going back to cooking.

"Fine, but I'm trusting you on this." I pouted. I saw his smirk widen in the corner of my eye before he went back towards the table.

"Sorry for taking so long. So what did I miss." Rima apologized as she came back in. She looked kind of sad. Did her parents say something about her staying here?

"Ikuto as Amu whipped." Ami stated. Papa looked shocked as Mama was giggling. My face started warming up.

"Does not!" I denied. Rima started smirking with an evil look in her eyes.

"Thanks for the info. I'll make sure to put it to good use." Rima's evil side was showing through now. I didn't care, except my face was getting warmer.

"Don't make me poison your all's food!" I threatened. Everyone just laughed. Well, I'm in for hell…