We had just came back from the police station. I was completely tired. They had the recording but that was a good thing. I wouldn't be able to find it within myself to keep it. I already had that constant reminder in the back of my mind that I had failed to protect her. I didn't need that dumb thing to help with that. I walked up to the room that we shared with Rima. I almost could see Amu at her desk again. I just sluggishly moved over to the bed and laid down. I knew the others were behind me. This was kind of like our sanctuary, even if Amu wasn't here.
"Ikuto…" Nagi started. I didn't answer him though. Amu was the only one that made me feel safe. That it was alright to talk again. That if I did talk, something bad wasn't going to happen. We knew that Hotori would do something stupid eventually but nothing like this.
"What are those books" Yaya asked. I looked at her and saw that she pointed to the books on the only bookshelf in the room. None of the books had names on them. I always found it weird that Amu would put her gag manga in her end table then have nameless books on her book shelf. I shrugged. I really didn't feel like talking. I just wanted to sleep. That would be impossible though since Amu wasn't here. I saw Utau walking over to the book shelf and grabbing a book.
"It's in a different language." She said. Amu wrote books? Yaya was over there in a minute.
"Vietnamese… Amu-chii wrote her dairies in Vietnamese…" Yaya was talking to herself but I couldn't help but to freeze. All those books were Amu's previous dairies?
"I remember now…" Nagi gasped. Everyone turned towards him. "Some kid at our old school stole her dairy and read it out loud at an assembly. That's when everyone started calling her slut." Nagi explained.
"Amu-chii has a phobia of people?" Yaya asked. "Then how come she could hang out with Ikuto and Rima-chii?" She was asking. Yaya looked up at us with determination in her eyes. "Yaya will decipher Amu-chii!"
"Actually, if Hotori was following in his dad's footsteps, he might actually use the place that his dad used. Or finds a place that resembles it. I'll look in the earlier diaries. She might have mentioned something about it in them. I'll need your help with the rest of them Yaya." Kairi explained. They both immediately went to work. I didn't know those two that well but, I was glad that they were willing to help Amu like they were.
"I remember Amu saying once that the woods protected her from him sometimes." Kukai stated. "So it has to be a place in the woods, right?" I stared at him in shock. When did he become so smart? "Don't give me that look, Ikuto!" Kukai pouted. Nope, he was still the same Kukai. I laid my head back down. Oddly enough, I knew the Hotori's the best. They were business partners with my stepdad before they found out about Mizuki. Utau spent most of her time in singing classes and summer camps. She probably wouldn't know too much about them.
"Guys, you need to hear this…" Kairi said loud enough to catch everyone's attention. Yaya was standing next to him, tears were running down her face. That was enough to make me sit up. "If killing myself didn't mean he would win, I probably would've done so already. Every time they called me slut, I can remember the times he entered me… Why couldn't they just have read the entire passage before judging me like that? Can't they see that they're hurting me? I can't look at them now without shaking. They scare me. Why does everyone have to hurt me? Why can't someone just be there for me? I know that the weirdo with all the paper and the weird name said to write in a dairy since I won't talk to anyone about this but… So far.. It's only hurt me. Maybe I should just quit writing… But… A dairy is the only one that won't judge me. I see the looks my parents make… I can't tell Ami about these things. I'm suppose to be there for her. She can't even walk yet. I don't want her judging me too…" Kairi stopped. My chest hurt… Everything hurt… Amu didn't deserve this.
"Why did you stop?" Rima asked. I could hear how broken she was about it.
"Most the rest of it seemed to have gotten wet somehow. Everything is smeared." Kairi told.
"She must have been crying when she wrote it… What does the next one say?" Nagi asked. Kairi shrugged.
"Everything after this is in Vietnamese. I need to start analyzing the ones before this one. Kairi turned around and pulled the very first one out. When he opened it, there was a puzzled look on his face.
"What's wrong?" Kukai asked this time. Kairi seemed to start skipping pages.
"These are all drawings… Amu was a good artist. It's like being there at the scene." Kairi commented.
"We'll take it to my place and tape it up. They aren't bond to the book so they should be alright." Utau stated.
"Good idea, it'll be better for everyone to seem them that way." Nagi complement. Kukai had this weird look on his face. "What's wrong, Kukai?" Nagi asked.
"Something just isn't right bout this." He said.
"What do you mean?" Rima asked.
"When was that passage wrote?" Kukai asked. Kairi went back to the book and quickly found the page.
"If I'm right, only six months after she started school again. Why?" Kairi asked.
"Shouldn't she still be… you know…" He took a deep breath. "My older brothers had this girlfriend that was raped once when she was younger. He always complained on how much she complained on how she was different from everyone after the incident. How damaged she was. Wouldn't Amu also feel the same way? Not trying to fit in like other girls but, trying to look normal?" Kukai clarified. Kairi quickly started going through the older books.
"I believe that was the smartest thing I've ever heard come out of your mouth." Rima stated. I had to agree with her. Utau was snickering while Kukai pouted.
"Weird…" I heard Kairi mumble. I stood up and grabbed the book out of Kairi's hand. The very first page held only one sentence.
I'll move on…For him.
Under the sentence was a drawing of her lock. I knew what she meant by this. I grab the key in my pocket.
Thank you Dad.
I gave the book back to Kairi before walking over to the bed again.
"Do you know what it means?" Kairi question. I nodded my head once at him.
"What are you two talking about?" Utau asked. Kairi was telling them. I haven't heard Yaya speak for a while now. She's usually the loudest one out of all of us. She was sitting on the ground in front of the book shelf reading. She had this weird look on her face. I'm guessing that Amu's Vietnamese wasn't that well in the beginning. I stood up again and grabbed some unused paper and a pencil before handing it to Yaya.
"Thanks. Amu-chii's sucked at this. I wonder how Amu-chii ever improved." Yaya stated. I smirked at that. I will tease her about this later.
"Ikuto. What does that sentence mean?" Utau was in my face now. I grabbed the key and held it to my face. Her eyes widen.
"You mean… Dad…?" She must have seen the picture. I nodded my head once. "Dad saved her?" I nodded my head again. Her face slowly formed a smile before she started laughing. I raised a brow at her now. "It's like nothing ever changed! Hotori is the bad guy in her life and the Tsukiyomi are still the good guys!" She was laughing. She did have a point. History had always found a way to repeat itself. I just never imagined it would be anything like this.
"Boss, are you sure you know what you're doing?" One of the lackeys asked Hotori. Hotori just stared at me.
"Of course I know what I'm doing." Hotori talked as if he was experienced at this. I wasn't too worried about it. "Now get out of here… Amu and I need to talk for a bit." The lackey just nodded before head out of the room. There was no one else but me and him
"Are the guards really necessary?" I asked. He just stood up from the chair he was in and walked over to me. The fake smile was already on his face.
"Stop comparing me to him." He demanded. "I'm not like him." I snorted at that.
"Oh really? How so?" I asked with fake curiosity. This dude was an idiot. He and his father were a lot a like.
"Well, I don't like chaining people up. I think it's not as fun that way." He was standing in front of me now. He kept his eyes locked on mine as something made it's way on my neck. A burning sensation flew through my body making me shaking. I couldn't stop myself from screaming from the pain. When the sensation stop, I fell to the ground. It was as if all the energy left my body. "That's what happens if you try anything funny." He stated before heading out the door himself. I growled at him. Damn him… Damn him to hell.