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Pippa was sat in the waiting room with Gemma and the rest of the Patched Member's, Gemma had called Luann to take care of Destiny while they rushed to the hospital. Pippa sat in the chair fidgeting in her seat getting up and sitting down "What's taking them so long?" She said looking out the waiting room door, "I don't know sweetie" Gemma replied in all honesty she prayed she wouldn't lose another child in this wretched hospital, She didn't want her only granddaughter to grow up without her father. She was torn from her thoughts by the doctor entering the room "What's the verdict doc?" Clay asked as he stood up from beside Gemma. The doctor looked at them all and felt a little intimidated "The bullet is out, It just missed his left lung, I'd say he was quiet Lucky." "Can we see him?" the doctor took in Pippa's desperate pleading eyes and weakened with a small smile "I can only let family in the room really" Gemma stood up "She is his family" Pippa looked at Gemma smiling softly "Only two at a time, He needs to rest" Gemma reached out and grabbed Pippa's hand "Come on baby girl" Pippa nodded. As Pippa and Gemma walked out of the room and closed the door Clay turned to the boys "Look, We let Tara go because we were more concerned with Jax but I'm telling you now, anybody sees her you bring her to me. Got it?" He looked at his members as a few agreed but Opie looked at Clay and shook his head "Jax begged you not to touch her, He said she was messed up and confused and it wasn't her fault" Clay looked at Opie sternly "I am the Fucking President of this club not Jax, I see her as a threat and we take out the threat" Opie shook his head and walked out of the room heading to the baby ward to see Kenny.
Over the last few weeks Kenny had grown big and strong but the fear was still there, he knew he couldn't take him home to the Clubhouse but he also knew he didn't want to return home to the house he once shared with Donna. Opie was worried he would never be enough for him so he had to make one of the hardest decisions of his life. Opie watched Kenny's face light up once he peered over his cot "It's a beautiful sight isn't it?" He looked behind him to find a nurse holding a clip board writing something down, "Yeah, He's beautiful alright, Looks just like his Mom." The nurse nodded and walked closer to Opie "Have you thought about what you're going to do with him once he comes home?" she asked as she touched Kenny's tiny fingers carefully "I've thought about it, a lot. I just don't know what to do" she looked up at him smiling softly "I've met a few single fathers who have been left after their partner dies after the delivery of their child or when they can't cope with the prospects of parenthood." Opie nodded "I love him, I just don't know what's best for him right now" She handed Opie a piece of paper that had written in big bold letters ADOPTION OPTIONS, Opie looked at her in disbelief "What are you trying to insinuate? I'm not capable to take care of my son?" She shook her head but eyed his patch on his cut, Opie realized that she was looking at "Oh, I see because I'm part of an Outlaw biker club, I'm not fit enough to be a father. Who the hell are you coming in here and giving me fucking adoption leaflets " She took an edgy step back "I.. I'm sorry, It was just an option." Opie shook his head "Get out of this fucking room and don't come back" She nodded and ran out of the door.
Piney watched as she ran, He stepped into the room and saw Opie with Kenny in his arms break down crying, "What's wrong son?" Opie looked up at his father as he wiped his tears "I can't do this, I'm not ready to face fatherhood without her" Piney rested his hand on his son's shoulder, and looked at his grandson "You can do it, you have the club you have Pippa. We will help when you need it" Opie nodded "Pippa already offered but Pop, I can't move back into that house" Opie pulled the other seat up next to Opie's chair "I wasn't the best father to you and your sister, If I could change the past I would you both deserved better than an alcoholic biker, who would rather be dealing guns than spending time with my children" Opie smiled lightly at Kenny as he made a gurgling sound and turned to Piney "Get to the point pops" Piney nodded "What I'm saying is if I had a chance to do it again I would, So think about it before you decide what you think is best for Kenny, because one day he might pick up and leave and you will lose him just like I did with your sister" Opie lifted Kenny and extended him to Piney "Here you want cuddle with your grandson?" Opie took Kenny in his arms "Of course I would" He looked down at Kenny and smiled brightly Kenny reminded him of his children and everything he wished he could have taken back. "Hey Champ, You smiling at your grandpa?" Piney continued talking to his grandson as he smiled back at him gurgling. Piney stared at Opie "You're going to be a great dad, son" Opie nodded his thanks. He stood up from the chair looking at Piney and Kenny "I'm going to head back to Pippa, She if there's any news on Jax, You coming?" Piney shook his head "If it's alright with you I'd like to spend some time with Kenny" Opie smiled a little "Sure Pops, I'll meet you later" Piney nodded at Opie as he turned to leave.
Pippa sat in the chair beside Jax reaching out to touch his hand with one hand and gently reached her other hand to his face "Why aren't we having any luck Gemma, It feels like something is trying to stop us being together, It feels like no matter what we do it will never work" Gemma looked at Pippa from the other side of the bed "You are going to work, You've just been out of this life for so long you've forgotten what it entails to be a part of Samcro," Pippa nodded her understanding "I was never an old lady Gemma, I left juice before he patched in, it's hard being an old lady let alone Jax's old lady when he's the object of so many Crow eaters desires " Gemma shook her head laughing lightly "You've always been his old lady even if you never knew it, In his eyes you were the only women who was old lady material to him, Tara was to innocent, she never understood this life and Wendy she was just a crack whore who couldn't keep her legs or her veins closed, You how ever was this girl who made him question everything he did. He watched you every night you came into the club house after school to do your homework or the family dinner's sat at my dining table" Pippa sat in disbelief "How do you know all this stuff? Did he keep some sort of journal or something?" Gemma laughed "Jax with a Journal, Yeah right! I'm his mother baby girl, I was very observant with him, After John and Thomas died I watched him like a hawk and I always have, I felt like he needed me to prepare him for his role as President at the Table because He is next in line for that gavel" Pippa nodded and remembered all the times Jax used to mention that he'd one day take over Clay's position as head of the club and Opie would be his V.P.
Pippa leaned closer to Jax resting her head beside his hand stroking his arm softly when he slowly opened his eyes "pi.. Pippa" he spoke as he looked down at her as her eye's filled with tears, He reached his hand towards her cheek and wiped her tears away with his thumb "I'm ok, Don't cry please" She nodded and smiled as she stood from the chair and leaned over to kiss his lips "Don't ever do that to me again" Jax laughed as he cupped her face "I will never leave you, I promise" she kissed him again until Gemma cleared her throat "Shit, Sorry Ma" Gemma smiled as she shook her head "You pair are like a couple of teenagers, Please tell me you don't act like that at home. My poor grand baby has to witness this" Jax chuckled lightly "Ha ha Mom, Is Destiny ok?" He asked Pippa staring at her worriedly "Yeah, She's fine Luann has her and Bobby and Juice are watching them. Who was it Jax?" Jax turned away to look at his Mom "I love you Ma and I'm grateful your here but can we please..." "Sure baby, I'll go collect Destiny" She kissed Jax's cheek and headed to the door as Pippa shoot towards her and wrapped her arms around her "Thank you" Gemma hugged her back and kissed her cheek "your welcome baby girl" Gemma opened the door and walked out.
Pippa walked back to Jax sitting on the bed beside him and reaching out for his face again "So who as it?" Jax couldn't hide it from her because he knew eventually she would find out "Tara. She's sick, she didn't know what she was doing" Pippa snickered "Right, Jax. She's gone insane because her ex-boyfriend is the father of his best friend's sister's child and they are now seeing each other?" Jax shook his head and rested his hand on his forehead "She was empty, She was angry at me because I let her go. She begged me to leave you and Destiny and start a fresh" Pippa recoiled and stood up "Did you consider it?" Jax nodded when he noticed the tears in her eyes "I considered starting a fresh, you me and Destiny, Away from the club a better life" Pippa was in shook "Trust me Jax, I've tried the other life, and it isn't all that great. It's just as troubled as this life" Pippa sat in the seat next to Jax again she looked at his worn face, he'd been fighting so hard lately dealing with club business and the things going on at home, it was taking its toll on him. "I don't want to go back to the house Jax, We need a fresh start" Jax smiled "I was thinking the same thing, I can get the Prospect round there and clean the blood of the carpet and we can make sure it look presentable to sell it. Then we can look for something a little out of town, If you want? We don't have to" Pippa chuckled a little "Let's take it one step at time but for now we need to find somewhere else to stay"
Jax was about to answer but Opie walked in the room "Sorry, I just need to talk to You guys about something?" Opie entered the room and stood pacing across the room "Ope, Sit down Bro, your making me dizzy" Opie walked to the seat the other side of Jax and sat down looking at them both "I need help and you're the only people I trust enough" Pippa and Jax looked at each other confused and then turned to Opie "What's up bro?" Opie turned his gaze to Pippa giving her a small smile "Remember when you offered to have Kenny when I was out on club business?" Pippa nodded "Well I was thinking how you would feel about taking him on permanently?" He spoke giving her a reassuring look "You're asking us to raise your son? Why?" Opie looked at them both before looking at his hands "You're my best friend Jax and Pippa your my sister but seeing the way you are with Destiny makes me realise I want Kenny to have that life, He doesn't need anything from me, he needs a family" Jax and Pippa looked at each other, Pippa reached for Jax's hand "Opie we are family, but we can't. You're the only person he needs" Opie looked up "I wish that where true but I can't bring him home to the clubhouse" "What about your house?" Pippa asked but Opie shook his head "No, I'm not going back there, I haven't stepped foot in the house since she died." Jax looked at Pippa then back at Opie "Look, We were thinking of selling the house but If you want you can move in their until you're ready to go home with Kenny" Opie smiled lightly "I can't raise him, It's either you guys or adoption"
Pippa walked round the bed and stood in front of Opie slapping across the face "Don't you dare, Donna wouldn't want that, She would expect you to get of your back side and be a good father to your son, She didn't leave you with nothing Ope, She left you with the most precious gift anybody could get. She gave you a little boy that she would have loved and cherished, Don't give up on him" Opie nodded "I am scared, Without her I'm lost" Pippa reached for her big brothers face and raised his head to face her "I know your lost but Kenny is here to bring you back, She left him behind to save you. Don't you see it? That baby boy is a part of you and Donna created out of your love for each other, She may be gone but you have a beautiful boy who needs his Daddy" Opie stood u and wrapped his arms around his sister as tears slid down his cheeks, He began to walk away but Pippa reached his arm to make his turn slightly "If you need help or guidance we are here, Don't be afraid to ask for help, If you need a break I'm always available for Auntie sitting duties, Ok?" Opie smiled "I got it, Thanks Pip" He walked through the door leaving Pippa and Jax alone again.
"That was a nice thing for you to say" Jax spoke as she walked back to the bed sitting beside him again "He's my brother and he needed the encouragement to know he can raise Kenny himself if he put his mind to it, He's like any normal parent when they prepare to bring their child home, I was petrified when I brought Destiny home. I was frightened I'd forget to wake up in the night or I'd burn her mouth when I fed her. Eventually I learnt how to be independent and I moved into my own apartment. I know Ope doesn't have somebody to live with him but we will always be right there for them both and anytime he struggles even if it's in the middle of the night all he has to do is call me and I will be there" Jax smiled brightly at Pippa "This is why I love you, Your compassion for others is astounding, You have such large heart Pippa, Destiny is lucky to have an amazing mom and I'm extremely lucky that you even dared to take a chance on me" Pippa smiled and leaned in to kiss him, When she pulled away she laughed "I'm the lucky one, You took a chance on me after everything I'd done to you." Jax smiled "When will you get it? That's the past, Destiny is here now and so are you and that's all that matters. I have you both and I'm happy" Jax pulled Pippa's hand towards him and reached for her waist until she lay beside him. "I love you Jax teller" she said as she rested against him "I love you too pippa Winston" He held her closely falling into a peaceful sleep together.
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A/N: Pippa and Gemma have a bond but they sometimes struggle seeing eye to eye but this was one of the rare moments Gemma lets her guard down with Pippa, I wanted Jax to wake up soon so the story wasn't continuously in hospital lol.. I liked the Piney & Opie heart to heart. Also I needed Opie to explore his options with Kenny because i felt that he could give the baby way if he felt that he couldn't take care of it himself and it would be a constant reminder of Donna. he would choose Pippa and Jax because of the way their relationship is with Destiny and he wants that for Kenny. I felt what Pippa said was possibly what someone in that position would need to hear, he has got a small piece of Donna back and he needs to remind himself that she is still with him..