Hi All.. So sorry for the really late update had such a busy few weeks and a broken laptop but now my files are saved so i can continue :)

Hope you all like..

A strangled smile fell from your face

It kills me that I hurt you this way

The worst part is that I didn't even know

The following morning Pippa was awoken early by the sound of a bike parking on the drive but true to her word she'd bolted the front door, She couldn't let Jax get away with putting Tara first because she knew if she did he'd always do it. Pippa heard the key slide into the key hole and the turning of his key but she knew the door wouldn't open. Then the banging started "Pippa open this god damn door now" Jax called but she just climbed out of bed and went to check on Opie and Kenny.

Pippa opened the bedroom door quietly and noticed her brother still sleeping soundly whilst Kenny was wriggling around in his cot so she picked him up and carried him into the kitchen, Jax was still banging on the door so Pippa gave in and unbolted the door but returned to the kitchen, She paced Kenny into the small chair that was rested on the table and strapped him in. Jax hung up his cut and jacket before walking into the kitchen "Pippa" she continued to sort a bottle out and ignored Jax; she made a pot of coffee pouring herself a mug. As she rested the bottle and the mug on the table Jax pulled her arm. "Get off me" Pippa bellowed as she raised her hand slapping him across the face. "I don't even want to see you" She said as she turned back to the table unclipping Kenny's chair and lifting him into her arms and taking a seat, She picked up the bottle from the table and placed the teat into Kenny's mouth. Jax poured himself a coffee and sat in the seat opposite Pippa watching her as she concentrated on feeding her nephew; he could tell she was in her element as she smiled adoringly at him. Jax reached the mug to his lips and took a sip of the hot liquid the whole time not taking his eyes of her face. " Let's have a baby" He said without thinking, causing her to look up confused "What?" before he could think he began speaking "I think it would be great if we have another baby, I missed everything the first time and I want to experience it all with you. Together as a family" Pippa shock her head "No. You think you run to Tara's defense and I'm suddenly going to forgive you and have another baby with you." Jax smiled "I'm here with you because I love you" Pippa snickered "You've got to be kidding me. Yeah you're here now but last night you were sat at your ex-girlfriend's side while your side of the bed was cold" "I'm sorry Darlin'" He stood from his chair and crouched in front of Pippa reaching for her free hand "No it's not OK Jax" Pippa recoiled from his touch making him feel scorned. "I need some space, Please" Jax rose from the floor grabbing the pack of cigarettes from the table and walked out of the kitchen grabbing his cut on his way out the front door, slamming it behind him. Pippa felt torn by her decision knowing that eventually he would get tired of her mixed emotions but she was deeply hurt by his actions the night before. Pippa continued to watch Kenny as he squirmed in her arms when a loud thud brought her back to reality, She quickly stood up and ran through the hall with Kenny in her arms making her way to Opies room, Once she walked through the door her heart broke at the sight before her, Opie was sprawled across the floor trying to make his way to his wheelchair, He looked at Pippa and felt angry with himself for showing her his weakness, he was meant to be a warrior in her eyes. "Ope, let me help you" she said as she walked to Kenny's cot placing him inside, She turned around and crouched down beside her brother grabbing his arm "Come on, Let's get you up" Opie raised his body from the ground and lent on the arms of his wheelchair as he turned himself around with Pippa's help he sat down "Thanks, You shouldn't be taking care of me. I should be taking care of you" Pippa smiled softly as she sat down on the edge of his bed "Nonsense I can take care of myself now" Opie looked at his sister "I heard what happened, He loves you. Just remember Tara has been part of his life for such a long time it's going to be hard for him to just let her go" Pippa shook her head "Don't Ope, He can't have it both ways. The women kidnapped our daughter for Christ sake I don't care for her reasons she still did it" "I know. I'm not excusing that but he knows what he's doing" Pippa rubbed her palms together before clapping her hands together and standing up "I'm going to call one of the guy's to come give you a hand, I have to go somewhere this morning" Opie nodded as he wheeled out into the hall. The sound of whimper pulled Pippa towards the cot, she picked up Kenny holding him to her chest as she walked to the baby changing unit laying him down and quickly removing the used diaper replacing it with a new one "That's all better isn't it little fella" Pippa snuggled Kenny closely when the door knocked. She placed Kenny back into his cot before making her way to the front door, Opening the door she found Juice smiling goofily at her "Juice, what are you doing here?" She asked as she moved from the door way letting him inside "I wanted to make sure you where OK after last night. You left pretty upset" Pippa smiled softly as she walked into the kitchen pouring a mug of coffee and handing it to juice "I'm fine. However, I do need a ride. If you're up for it?" Juice lifted his head "Yeah sure, where too?" he grinned. Pippa picked her phone up from the counter beside her and dialed Neeta's number "I need to see my dad" She said as she waited for Neeta to answer her phone "Hello" Pippa heard Neeta's voice on the other end "Neeta it's Pippa. I need a favor "Miss Pippa. I haven't heard from you since you were a smart mouthed teenager. How can I help you?" Pippa smiled at the memory of Neeta chasing her around her parent's garden as a child "Neeta, My brother has just had a baby and he needs help with getting around" "Miss Pippa, I would be more than welcome to come by and help." Pippa smiled "Opie has had an accident so he needs a lot of help with his son, I don't want to ask to much of you" "Nonsense child. I'm always here to help you both" Pippa smiled "OK. Thanks Neeta, I won't be here but one of the boy's will let you in" "That's fine Miss Pippa. I will be their shortly" Pippa ended the call and dialed Phil's number, Phil answered quickly "Phil. It's Pippa, I need a favor "Sure Pippa, What can I do?" "I need you to come keep an eye on Opie, until I get home tonight" "I'll be there in five" Pippa ended the call and placed her phone back onto the table "I've just got to get dressed, If Neeta or Phil arrive then let them in please" She said as she turned to walk out the door.

Now there's a million reasons for you to go

But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

Once Pippa was dressed and ready to go she grabbed her bag from the coat rack in the hall and grabbed her phone from the table, she noticed Phil cooking and Opie sat up the table with Kenny in his arms "I'm going to see Pop, so I'll see you tonight. Neeta's on her way to help with Kenny" she said as she kissed Opie's cheek and Kenny's forehead "Pip, Phil and I can split it between us" Pippa glared at her brother "Ope, I'd feel better knowing Neeta was her looking after you both" Opie nodded. Pippa walked past Juice pulling him by his cut leading him to the door. Opening the door she faced Neeta "Miss Pippa. You've grown in to the beautiful young women I knew you'd become" She said as she pulled Pippa into a hug "Thank you Neeta, It's great to see you. Opie is inside with Kenny. I've really got to go" Neeta let go Of Pippa and moved aside so she and Juice could exit. Juice climbed on to his bike and handed Pippa his helmet, she climbed on behind him wrapping her arms gently around his waist. Juice reversed of the drive and towards the clubhouse.

Juice pulled up at the clubhouse and turned off his engine. Noticing Jax's bike he quickly helped Pippa climb off and took his helmet. "Thanks Juice" she said as she walked towards the clubhouse door. Juice walked to the benches and took a seat. Jax abandoned the car he was working on and walked towards Juice wiping his hands with a cloth he kept in his overalls pocket for when he got covered in grease "What you bring Pippa here for?" Juice looked up "She wanted to see Piney" Jax nodded "Thanks man" Juice smiled "Yeah no problem" Jax tapped Juice on his shoulder before heading towards the clubhouse.

Pippa took the seat beside her father "What you doing here Sweetheart?" Pippa smiled at him and reached out her hand for him to take "Come on Pop, let's go for a walk" Piney placed his hand in hers and stood up to join Pippa, as they walked towards the clubhouse door Jax came in wearing his work overalls covered in grease "Pip. Can I have a word?" Piney looked at the pair stopping to turn to his daughter "It's ok. Sweetheart, I'll wait" Pippa shook her head angrily "No Pop. We are going for a walk. He can wait." She said continuing past Jax brushing against him frustrated.

She said, "If we're gonna make this work You gotta let me inside, even though it hurts"

Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see

She said, "Like it or not, it's the way it's gotta be

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

Pippa walked beside her father through the gates of Samcro She'd been wracking her brains since Destiny was in hospital how her father no longer smelt of alcohol. "Dad, you quit drinking?" she asked curiously, Piney smiled brightly "Yeah I've been cutting down for a while. Is that a problem?" Pippa shock her head smiling "I just don't understand why? You've always been a heavy drinker" "I wanted a change. I was sick of people thinking I was a stupid drunk old man" "A drunk maybe but never stupid" Piney reached Pippa's shoulder giving it a gentle Pat "I'm glad your home kiddo, it's nice having both my children and grandchildren around. I'm just saddened by how much of Destiny's life I've missed" "That's the reason you gave up the drink isn't it? So she wouldn't resent you and leave like I did" he looked away embarrassed "It was my blood they couldn't use. I'm her grandfather, I should have helped her but the bottle had been so important most of my life, Then you showed me to my beautiful granddaughter that needed help and I couldn't give her it." Pippa felt sad at how guilty her father felt as he confessed to her "I know what your life involves, you've seen too much bad stuff happen in this club, and I never blamed you for being who you are. I don't hate you because you couldn't donate your blood. You did me a favor really" Piney looked at Pippa raising an eyebrow confused "I did?" Pippa nodded "If you had have given her your blood I would have avoided telling Jax that Destiny was his daughter. I'd have just gone back home with Mom" "I'm glad you stayed. I'd like to get to know my granddaughter and spend time with my daughter" "I'd like that and I'm pretty sure Destiny would love to spend time with her gramps. She has photos of you and Ope; I put them up in our old apartment so she knew who her family was." Pippa wrapped her arm inside her father's arm and sat down on a bench close by, she could tell by his breathing that the walk had been a little too much for him. "I'm gonna call one of the boys to come Pick us up, We shouldn't have gone too far" Piney rested his hand on Pippa's hand "I'm glad I did. It was nice to talk to just have a talk with you." Pippa smiled as she pulled her phone out of her bag she dialed Juice's number "Hey Pippa. What's up?" "I need someone to come collect my dad. Where outside the old Diner we used to go after school" "Be there in five" Pippa ended the call placing her phone back into her bag. "Was that Juice? What are you doing with him Pippa?" Piney looked at Pippa curiously causing her to shake her head laughing lightly "There is nothing going on. Trust me that boat sailed long ago." Piney shock his head slightly "Sweetheart, if you don't let him go completely it will cause problems for your relationship with Jax." Pippa looked at the road "Pop. I did let him go, it was a long time ago. He's my friend and I can talk to him. I don't even know if there is a relationship between Jax and me" She said as she kept her eyes on the road "Looks to me that Juice thinks it's something more. You and Jax will sort it out" Pippa was about to speak when she noticed Juice in the Teller/Morrow pick-up truck pulling up beside them. Pippa stood up and opened the door for her dad. "Are you coming?" He asked as she closed the door behind him. "No. I'm going to go for a little walk, I'll come back later" Piney smiled as she moved away.

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt

And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself

Let's hold onto each other above everything else

Start over, start over

Pippa walked along the side walk thinking about her relationship and how it was all beginning to play out for her, It was no where near what she'd expected. She knew she loved Jax but she was starting to doubt he even loved her. Pippa reached into her bag pulling out her phone this time dialling his number. "Meet me at the cemetery" She spoke and ended the call. She continued walking through the gates until she came to Donna's grave, Pippa sat on her knees and began cleaning the grave up whilst singing. Once she'd cleaned it all and laid the fresh flowers she'd just brought She lent against the head stone and began crying "What do I do Donna? I love Jax but I'm so confused. I need my best friend. Kenny needs his mom and Opie needs his wife. This life is so messed up." "What's so confusing?" Pippa turned to see him standing behind her. "us. What we are" She stood up to look at him properly "What's so confusing. We love each other don't we?" Pippa moved closer to him Placing her hand on his cheek "Of course we do. I love you completely Jax but I don't know if you feel the same. You hurt me last night Jax" Jax placed his hand over Pippa's and placed his other hand on her waist "I'm so sorry. I never realized just how much it affects you when it comes to Tara. I love you and Destiny, your my life and I need to let Tara get on with it and understand I'm not going to keep running to her." Pippa leaned forward gently resting her head against his chest "Please don't hurt me again Jax" Jax placed a soft kiss on the top of her head "I'm sorry. I hate arguing with you" he replied as he hugged her tightly "I just want us to be a family."

qI'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance

Believe it, I can change

I'll keep us together Whatever it takes

Whatever it takes - Lifehouse

R&R

A/N: So i felt Pippa and Piney needed some time together and Juice needed to be brought up. I'm a little stuck for where i want Jax and Pippa to go right now so any views are welcome. :) i will update regularly now though...