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Chapter 8: Nightmare

My breath caught as wind plunge into my lungs, I could only look at the darkness below me as I fell into the endless abyss of darkness. When I hit the ground pain rip threw me, but it was gone in seconds. The floor was smooth, and hard as well as tough enough to break every bone in my body from the height I fell from. Looking up all I saw was darkness; though I knew my eyes were open.

I glide my hands against the ground, and felt nothing. "What are you doing." Said voice turning towards it saw nothing. Then a spot light flash on, and I saw a little girl with long white hair, it was me, but when I was younger. "It not safe to stay in the dark for long, because when you stare into the abyss the abyss will stare back at you." The girl said putting her finger to her lip. "I forgot who quoted that, but anyway come with me." The little me said holding out her hand. I toke it.

I was now in a wreck city, the sun burn down against me, cars were damaged and weeds growing all over them, the streets were cracked, and most of it wasn't streets anymore, and the building were almost destroyed, all of them damage, some even fallen.

"Allen." I heard a woman voice behind me. Turning I saw a white hair woman walking towards me. She was older but there was no mistaken that she was me.

"What happen here?" I asked myself, I felt the question was more important then the fact I was seeing another me.

"You." She said simple, her lip curving up. "I am so happy to see you old friend." She said, and I toke step back. This wasn't me, chills ran down my back.

"Me, how?" I said taking another step backwards.

"Your ignorance of course, back in my time you were never that..." She smile again. "But what can I do." She said taking a step forward.

"Who are you." I growled, and then all of a sudden she was in front of me, she grab my chin as I fell back.

"I'm Neah." She smiled

All of sudden I was back in the darkness, my heart was pounding so hard that I felt like it filled the darkness.

A spot light flash on. "So your back." Said the little me, the light seem to hover above her. "Follow me, the dark isn't a place to hide."

Standing up I follow her in silence. Bitting my lip, I really wanted to ask her a question. Then she turn back to me.

"Go threw that door." As she pointed, a light flash upon a red door. Walking pass the girl I reach for the knob. Turning back I look at the girl.

"Are you coming?" I asked, and she stare at me for a second.

"No." She said and turn around, leaving me. I open the door.

...

I found myself in front of Mana's grave, or more likely in front of myself who kneel in front his grave crying. It was time when my hair was short and reddish brown, and I had no scar.

And then a plume man appear, and a wave a pain shot threw my head. "No!" I shouted, as tears began to fall from my eyes. I don't want to remember this, I thought. Waving my head.

But it wouldn't go away.

"Good evening child, why are crying." The fat man said. I pluged my ears, as I repeatedly shouted "No!" But they didn't hear, and I couldn't take my eyes off the two. I saw myself talking to the fat and weirdly shape man with a tall hat, and he talk back to me. But then I heard myself scream mana 3 times.

Mana grave disappear as well as the little girl and the fat man. Tears stream down my eyes, I fell to my knees, and I threw up, then I whipping my mouth on my sleeves.

My heart was pounding so hard that it hurt, I couldn't calm my breath either, and I began to feel light headed.

"Allen." I heard a familiar worry voice called. Turning around Lenalee hug me. "Allen are you ok?" Lenalee Ask, and I buried my head in her chest, holding her tightly, and I cried.

But Lenalee body all of a sudden felt cold, looking up Lenalee skin began to rot and fall off. I screamed, my heart pounding even harder.

And then I was back inside the darkness, clutching myself.

"Didn't I tell you the darkness is no place to hide." The little me said. Tears were running down my eyes continuously, snot under my nose,and a little slob escape my mouth as I look at my younger self. "I said no hiding in the dark!" She screamed and the light cut on. And all I saw was fields of body and rivers of blood everywhere beside the little circle I sat in.

An then I saw a familiar red head among the dead. "Lavi." I sob, but it wasn't just him every single person I ever met was here.

An thoughts ran threw my head: i don't want live i don't want to I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live I don't want live. And why was I even born...keep walking Allen I heard a voice whisper to me.

...

"Allen! Allen! Allen!" My head turn, Road was holding my face. "Allen your not supposes to be here. I am so sorry." Road said as I clasps against her.

But the last words I heard before I black out was from my little self. "Allen if you wish to protect the things you love, you'll have to fight, and also Allen... destroy the Akuma..."