Hi All!
I am so sorry for such a late update.. I finally found some inspiration in the latest SOA episodes :)
Jax stormed through the club house angrily pushing past his fellow club members and the crow eaters crowding round hoping to get the Old Lady status.
"How's Pippa?" He heard one of the girls question as he walked past, he wanted to answer but he was so angry at her for making him leave when all he wanted was to support her through her decision revolving their unborn child.
Walking into his old dorm room he slammed the door shut before falling onto the bed.
His mind was in over drive on the reasons why he should just forget Pippa and accept that he screwed up but then his heart knew better; it kept reminding him that Destiny was his baby girl and he wasn't willing to loose her not after everything they'd been through and then his mind fell to his unborn child.
He wanted to watch Pippa's stomach expand as their unborn baby grew inside her.
He wanted Destiny to get excited over the arrival of a new sibling the way he had when Thomas was born but he didn't want her to suffer the same fate of watching her parent's spiral out of control because their child passed in front of their very eyes.
He'd just started falling into a peaceful dream revolving their family when a banging at the door awoke him "Jax. Get up quick" Jax shot up rubbing his eyes groaning
"What?" He called back groggily.
"Pippa's gone. She collected Destiny from Gemma's…" Jax didn't need to hear another word as he bound towards the door pulling it open almost ripping it from it's hinges
"Is she back home? Gone to Opie's or the cabin?" Jax questioned Tig as he stood in front of him shaking his head
"Chibs is at your place, Opie has returned home and Pinney's driven out too the cabin. Juice is checking all the places he think's she might head. I sent the prospect to the cemetery." Jax rubbed his chin roughly, he was confused.
Why would she run, Opie needed her and he needed her.
Walking through the clubhouse he came face to face with his pissed off mother "What the hell happened between you two?" Jax shrugged her off
"Don't worry about it Mom. I'll deal with it" Gemma tried responding but jax was already through the door heading for his bike.
Pippa stood at the bus station holding Destiny's hand tightly as they waited for a bus back to Chicago.
"Mom, I want to stay with Dad. Why can't we just stay here?" Pippa crouched down to face her daughter gently stroking her wet cheek
"I know you want to stay baby but now you're all better we can go back to Grandma's" Destiny simply nodded.
Pippa didn't want this life for her children and she certainly didn't want it for herself, She was raised in that club and she had finally escaped Charming.
The sound of a single motor cycle cut through the air Pippa knew who it was the moment she heard it.
His bike came into view the same time the bus parked ready for it's passenger's to board.
"Pippa wait!" Juice called out as he came closer.
"What do you want?" she asked as she caught sight of him
"Jax is going out of his mind. You just up and left; You got to stop running" Pippa glared at him
"I am not running from him I am running from this club; It destroys people." Juice steped towards her taking the duffel bag from her grip and setting it on the side of the path, Destiny had already gone to sit on the bench still in their sight.
"He loves you, You know! I think he always has; ever since Tara left. We all thought it was because she had left him but when she returned he was still this hollow man. Pippa you make him right, You and me; We were just two kids playing with fire until we got burned; I broke your heart when I chose the club and I am sorry for that but Jax right now; is choosing you and his kid over the club" Pippa felt her eyes water,
"You can't do that. You can't come here begging me to give him another go, Come back to the club house. If he wants me he should come and find me." Juice chuckled a little
"None of them knew you'd be here; I just had this feeling you would be here, it's were we used too…"
"Wait for the bus to take us out of this town, I remember; We'd skip school and Dad would get angry at us..." She paused briefly
"..I shouldn't be here, I skipped town years ago winded up pregnant by the Biker Queen's son and here I am again; Pregnant for the second time and confused as hell"
The bus driver honked his horn for the last time waiting for Pippa to climb on the bus
"I'm sorry Juice, Tell Jax I'm sorry" Juice stood still not able to stop her.
She was the one good thing in his life before Samcro and even now he couldn't stop her from leaving again.
Pippa grabbed her duffel bag and held her hand out to Destiny.
Climbing onto the bus they heard the remainder of the bikes close in on her, She knew if he climbed on that bus to stop her she'd follow him back home in a heart beat.
Looking out of the back window Pippa watched as Jax climbed off his bike heading towards the bus while everybody watched on
"Wait up" He called out to the bus driver as he banged the side of the bus.
"Pip. Don't go" He said looking up at her through the window, She couldn't say a word, she felt numb and afraid.
She watched as Jax came walked closer to the open doors "Go. Please just go" she called to the driver startling the other passenger
"You sure?" the driver questioned slightly frightened that the biker would shot him in his head
"Yes Go" she yelled.
As Jax reached the doors the bus moved forward leading to the long road ahead.
Pippa turned around in her seat watching as Jax buckled to the floor grabbing his head in his hands, Tig, Clay and Chibs tried to help him to his feet while Juice watched on raising his hand in the air.
Turning back in her seat she looked down at her daughter wiping the tears from her eyes "Hey, It's okay baby. We're gonna go back to grandma's for a while." Pippa placed a hand on Destiny's shoulder.
The young girl pulled away from her mother turning away to look out the window "I want my dad" she sobbed resting her head against the window.
The realization hit her like a tone of bricks, It wasn't just her anymore; She was running from the club for herself not taking Destiny's opinion into consideration.
She'd just found her dad and Pippa was already ripping it away from her not even thinking about her.
Spotting the motel on the road side Pippa rang the bell on the bus furiously "Stop here please" She pleaded with the driver
"I'm sorry Miss but this bus has a route to follow, I can't just stop anywhere" Pippa climbed from her seat
"If you don't stop this bus now I'll stop it for you" The driver pulled of the road into a lay by and opened the door.
Pippa grabbed Destiny's hand and her duffel bag as she walked through the aisle to get off the bus
"Thank you" she smiled towards the driver as she climbed through the doors.
The following morning Pippa watched Destiny as she sat watching cartoons in their motel room, Looking down at her phone she noticed a bundle of missed calls from Jax, her father and brother.
She knew she needed somebody to collect her so she walked to the door turning back towards her daughter
"I'm just outside sweetheart, Call mommy if you need me" Destiny simply nodded too engrossed in the show at hand.
Walking outside Pip dialled his number and held the hone to her ear
"Hello Jax' Phone" PIppa felt her blood boil at the woman's voice she knew exactly who it was..
"Where is he Ima?"
"In the shower; Do you want me to go in and get him?" She replied with her sickly sweet voice.
Pippa had to bite her tongue as she replied "Just tell him…"
"What the Hell" It was his voice.
"Pippa.." He questioned
"I need you to pick us up" She spoke abruptly
"Sure, Were are you?" He replied his voice sounding happier
"I'm at Sunshine Motel" Without another word she ended the call walking back into her daughter.
Within the hour the sound of a motorcycle was sounded outside, Opening the door Pippa watched as Jax pulled his helmet off his head and walked towards her,
Piney sat in the truck watching his daughter carefully
"Daddy" Destiny called as she shot through the door jumping up at Jax.
"Hey Darlin, Why don't we get you in the truck with Grandpa" Destiny nodded eagerly, Pippa disappeared into the room grabbing her duffel bag to give to Jax.
Pippa handed him the bag and watched as he walked Destiny towards the truck strapping her inside before walking back towards her
"We need to talk" he said walking past her inside the room.
Closing the door behind her Pippa stood against the door her arms wrapped around her "Don't you get tired of it? Running" her eyes filled with tears as she looked up at him
"It's not that easy Jax. You live for this club, We were raised in a nightmare and I want it to end! I was raised by a drunk that beat my Mom while my brother had to protect me.. Whose going to protect our daughter when the bad comes looking for her daddy? I need her to be safe and away from this club" He stepped towards her reaching for her but she simply pulled away
"No. Don't you dare touch me. You slept with that whore and expect me to open my arms to you. Get real Jax, You'll never stick to one pussy. You're just like the rest of them" she sobbed as she walked to the bed settling down on the edge
"It's not what you think, I was doing a protection run on Cara Cara, I left my phone in the seat while I spoke to Luann. When I came out she was on my phone" Pippa laughed dryly
"You think that shit works on me? I know the club life Jax. Another hole to dip in because I'm not giving you what you need? How long will it last, How long will I be enough for you Jax?" Jax crouched down in front of her griping her hands in his own
"Is that what you think? That I'll get bored of you and trade you in? I love you Pippa. I don't need any other pussy and I certainly don't need any other woman in my bed, The one I've got already takes up to much room" He joked trying to lighten the mood, a small smile appeared on her face
"I love you Jax but I don't think I can have this baby, I'm not ready" Jax nodded resting his hand against her cheek caressing it softly
"Ok, We go to one of those clinic's on the way home. If you aren't ready then I'm not going to force you, We have Destiny that's enough for me" he smiled leaning towards her kissing her forehead
"Do you mean it? You can live with it if I remove the baby" she questioned him seriously.
Looking up at her sadly "Honestly, Having Destiny in my life has changed me, nothing would make me happier than getting to have this child with you but if you aren't ready then I understand and I'm okay with whatever you decide"
PIppa grabbed his face pulling him towards her placing a chaste kiss on his lips "I love you" she whispered as she wrapped her arms around him.
R&R
A/N: Hope that was okay.. I was quite conflicted with the way i was leading the idea of a pregnancy but i've got it now so i look forward to updating soon :)