Chapter 21 - Motherhood
Felisa paused as she reached for the door handle, she turned back around to her two sisters and grandmother. "Are you sure none of you guys want to come with me?" Felisa asked once more.
"Why do even want to see that maiale," Luciana sneered.
"Cause you guys never gave me a reason not to," Felisa snapped before walking out slamming the door behind her.
"We really upset her," Isabel mumbled, "and she has every right to upset."
"Well it's your fault!" Luciana exclaimed pointing at Isabel.
"What, why me?" Isabel asked.
"You had every chance to tell her," Luciana sneered.
"How do you tell somebody they weren't ment to be born!" Isabel shouted.
"Enough!" Roma shouted bringing the two girls attention to her. "It doesn't matter she's already gone. She went with Monika right?"
"Yeah," Isabel replied.
"Then she's in good hands," Roma reassured.
"Alright," Monika said as she stopped the car, "we're here." Monika glanced over to Felisa to see she was staring at the floor. "Felisa?"
"My family hates me," Felisa mumbled.
"I'm sure they don't, they could never hate you," Monika reassured.
"They're not telling me something, I know it," Felisa sneered.
Monika flinched, she could never tell her, with the kind of stuff Monika heard the other day. How do you tell somebody their birth was never wanted? "Do you want to go home?" Monika asked.
Felisa took a deep breath, "no, if they're not going tell me I find out by my self."
Monika sighed, she really didn't want Felisa to know, "alright."
Monika walked up to the front door behind to only be stopped when she bumped into Felisa. She looked up to see her frozen in fear, looking past her she saw a woman standing in the doorway looking at the two girls. Monika noticed that the woman did look like Felisa with her short curly brown hair and dark complexion. There an awkward moment of silence before Monika finally nudged Felisa.
"Ah, um are you Anna Vargas?" Felisa mumbled.
"Yes," The woman responded.
"Oh good cause um," there was another pause, "what was I saying?" Felisa asked forgetting so much from the pressure.
Monika sighed giving Felisa a shove forward, "this is Felisa Vargas, your daughter, she came to see. you."
"Oh, well by all means please come in," Anna invited. The two walked in the first thing Monika notice was a foal yet familiar sent hit her, she was going to say something to Felisa until she noticed how happy Felisa looked, and decided to keep quiet. "Please have a seat," Anna said gesturing to the seats in the living room. Anna glanced over to Monika, "a friend of Felisa?"
"Girlfriend!" Felisa replied, smiling ear to ear.
Felisa was so happy she didn't notice the disgusted look on Anna's face before she quickly changed to happy. Monika shifted uncomfortably, between to mixed expression and foal order this whole thing screamed 'get out while your girlfriend still has her happiness' but Monika remained quiet. Sitting on every nerve saying to say something!
"So Felisa how's your little sister?" Anna asked.
"Um, I think you're think of Luciana, I'm the youngest," Felisa corrected.
Oh, yes my mistake, so Felisa how's school?" Anna asked.
"Great I'm graduating this year," Felisa answered.
"Hmm, didn't think you would be that old," Anna commented.
"If she wasn't then she wouldn't be able to see you," Monika added.
"Ah yes I guess your right," Anna mumbled.
Monika took a deep breath getting another whiff of the foul sent, it bothered her how familiar it smelled. The sent reminded her off two things; homecoming and her sister. Now Monika was really confused, what would remind her of homecoming and Julia? Then it hit Monika; alcohol, this house stunk of it.
Monika shot up from her seat, "Felisa!" She exclaimed.
"Yeah Monika?" Felisa responded.
"We need to go, I forgot I promised to give Julia my iron cross and I still have it," Monika lied. Monika hated to lie but she couldn't sit and listen to this anymore.
"Oh okay," Felisa said, "but first can I use they bathroom?"
"Alright I guess," Monika mumbled.
Felisa turned to Anna, "oh, upstairs first door to the left," Anna said. The two watched as Felisa ran up the stairs, "Monika, you never introduced yourself," Anna pointed out.
Monika sighed turning to the woman, "Monika Beilschmidt."
"Beilschmidt, now where have I heard that name before. Oh I remember Isabel mentioning a friend with that last name."
"Julia Beilschmidt," Monika added. "She's my sister."
"Yes, you're Lili's granddaughter aren't you, now I know who your mother is," Anna said.
"You knew my mother?" Monika asked.
"Yeah she was such a nice woman, didn't know she had kids, don't think she really should of," Anna stated. Monika mumbled but it wasn't heard clearly. "Did you say something?" Anna asked. Monika mumbled once but still wasn't clear. Anna sighed, "I don't appreciate the mumbling if you have something say it."
"You ungrateful fotze!" Monika exclaimed.
"Excuse me," Anna sneered.
"Did I stutter?" Monika snapped.
"No but you spoke German," Anna hissed.
"Whatever, you are so ungrateful, you talk about my mother when you gave up two of your children and tried to abort Felisa. When my mother was pregnant with me she knew she could die but abortion didn't cross her mind. She cared more about her children you care more about drinking and being a whore!" Monika exclaimed.
"You need to be quiet, you have no right to talk to me like that. My past is none of you business," Anna sneered
"When it effects the people that I care about then it's my business. Felisa was so excited to meet you because nobody told her about you. I'm glad I came along cause I'm going make sure that she never sees you again," Monika stated.
"Monika," Felisa said as she came down the steps Monika turned around afraid that Felisa heard her, but the smile on Felisa's face relieved Monika. "Ready to go?" Felisa asked.
"Yeah, let's go," Monika responded, as the two walked out Monika couldn't help but smirk at Anna's disgusted expression. The ride home was so quiet is scared Monika it wasn't like Felisa to be this quiet, it wasn't until they pull up to Monika's house that Felisa said something. Monika turned off the car and was about to pull the key out when Felisa reached out and grabbed her hand. Monika turned to see Felisa looking down at her lap, tears rolling down her face. "Ah, Felisa what's wrong?" Monika was sure that Felisa didn't hear her.
"You know don't you?" Felisa asked, "I mean about my mother."
Monika nodded, "yeah."
Felisa gave Monika's hand a squeeze, "thank you Monika."
"For what?" Monika asked.
"You're not wearing your necklace," Felisa pointed out, Monika quickly looked down to realize she was right. "You lied so I wouldn't get hurt, but I heard everything. You weren't just upset because of what she said about your mother, you were upset of what she did."
"I was actually told not to get upset, but I just couldn't handle it," Monika confessed.
Felisa looked up at Monika she had stopped crying and was giving Monika a small smile. "Monika you never know when to keep to your self, you always speak your mind and that's why I love you."
Monika chuckled, "yeah, I guess your right."
Monika and Felisa walked into the house to see Julia and Isabel sitting in the living room, the first thing they noticed was Felisa's red face telling them that she had been crying.
"Oh my gosh," Isabel exclaimed standing up and rushing to Felisa, "what happen?"
"Wait she's smiling," Julia pointed out, "I'm confused, what did happen?"
"Well at first we were having a nice conversation, but then when I wasn't in the room Monika blew up on her. Oh you should have heard some of the stuff Monika said, she called her selfish and something called a fotze and starting comparing her mother, then went on a rant of how she's all upset because it's people she cares about. She also said some of the stuff that nobody would tell me," Felisa explained.
Isabel sighed, "how about we go home you tell Luci and Abuelita what happen and we'll fill in the rest."
"Alright," Felisa agreed then turned to Monika hugging her, "thanks again Monika."
"No problem," Monika said, Felisa let go and the two left.
"You called her a fotze," Lili said as she walked into the living room.
"Hey I learned it from you," Monika said, Julia then started to laugh.
Lili sighed, "somehow I knew telling you to not get upset was a waste of time. You always speak your mind."
"That's exactly what Felisa said," Monika said, causing Julia to laugh even harder.
"Well, it's all over now," Lili stated, "now all you have to worry about it graduation."
A/N:
Next chapter is the last chapter, then I will start my sequel story.
Any ideas, comments, and questions are all appreciated!
Until next time!
~Silent Fangirl