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Kind of a dramatic chapter again…Enjoy!

Chapter 13

iDon't want this

~ * Sam * ~

I wake up on the couch in Freddie's living room. Urh what time is it? I sit up slowly and clutch my stomach. Holy fuck that hurts. I look around the room. Where's Freddie?

''Freddie? Babe? Freddieee?''

A minute later Freddie walks out of the bathroom ''Oh hey baby.'' He walks over to me and pecks my lips. ''You fell asleep on the couch, I thought I'd better let you sleep. You needed it.'' He smiles.

I smile back at him. ''Oh, alright. What time is it?''

''10 p.m. how are you feeling?'' Freddie strokes my hair softly.

''Fine. But my stomach hurts like hell!''

Freddie sighs, ''I'm really sorry babe. I promise it'll feel better soon.''

I nod and pull Freddie on the couch next to me, I cuddle into him and he wraps his arms around me. God I love It when he does that. It makes me feel safe. He makes me feel safe. He's so freaking amazing!

Although I clearly asked Freddie to leave all of this alone ,I'm sure that he's not going to do that. I have never seen Freddie so shocked, pissed and angry before! I need to make sure he isn't gonna do any stupid things. But how am I gonna do that? Freddie won't let this rest until he's sure of it that this will never happen again.

Ugh why must he exactly be so protective over ME? I NEED to stop him from doing any stupid things. He's gonna ruin his life! His chance of going to college! No way, I will NOT let that happen!

Oh no this is horrible! This can't be happening, I'm ruining Freddie's life! I don't deserve him. Why am I even here? Back in Seattle, as Freddie's girlfriend? I'm a COMPLETE failure! Even my own dad thinks so! So why wouldn't Freddie think so? He can't really love me, he just can't, no one does! I need to leave, Freddie deserves a good life, without me!

Okay, I need a plan, think Sam, think. Should I go back to Cat in L.A? No, if I do that, I'll need to tell her what happened, no, not a plan. I need to think of somewhere else to go.

I sigh deeply, Freddie looks at me. ''Sam are you okay?''

''I'm fine.'' I fake a smile at him and lean up to kiss his cheek.

He smiles back at me. ''Alright. You know you can always tell me everything right?''

I nod at him. ''Yeah.''

Freddie hugs me closer to him and kisses the top of my head. Oh no why is he doing this. This makes it so hard for me to leave! But I need to do this for him. He deserves to be happy, and to go to a great college, and to have a great life. That won't happen with me here, I need to leave, as soon as possible.

Freddie stands up off the couch. ''Wanna go to sleep baby?''

I nod and stand up off the couch too. Freddie grabs my hand and walks to the bedroom with me. He hands me one of his shirts. ''Here. I think that might sleep more comfortable as your clothes.'' He winks at me.

Awww he is so sweet. Ugh.

I take the shirt from him and smile. ''Thanks.'' I walk to the bathroom and put the shirt on. I smirk as it's way too big for me and walk back into Freddie's bedroom.

''Looking good baby.'' He smirks.

''Right?'' I chuckle at him and get into the bed. Freddie gets in next to me and wraps his arm around me before pulling the covers over us.

''Good night baby, wake me up when you need me okay?''

I nod. ''Night.''

Freddie kisses my cheek and closes his eyes. After a few minutes I realize he has fallen asleep. I look at him. He looks SO cute when he sleeps.

Okay, now's your chance Sam. I try to get out of the bed but Freddie keeps his arm wrapped around me tightly. Why did he have to become so strong!?

I try harder and harder to get out of his grip and finally succeed. I get out of the bed quietly and make sure Freddie stays asleep.

I grab my bag and put my phone and wallet in it. I change back into my clothes. I sniff Freddie's shirt. God it smells like him… I put the shirt in my bag and walk over to Freddie quietly.

I kiss his lips softly. ''Goodbye Freddie…I can't thank you enough for everything. I'll never forget you…I-I love you…''

I bite my lip and walk out of the bedroom, I walk to the door and walk out of it quietly, I start crying softly as I shut it and walk down to the lobby, out of the Bushwell and onto the street.

Well, here we go…miserable life here I come…

I sigh deeply and wipe my tears away before walking towards the train station.

~ * Freddie * ~

I wake up early in the morning. Ugh I had a bad dream. I remember Sam telling me a goodbye and walking away. I look next to me. ''Hey ba…''

I cut off my sentence. Sam's not there.

I look around. ''Sam?''

I get out of the bed slightly worried and walk to the living room. ''Sam!?''

I walk around my house. ''SAAAAAAM!?''

She's not there. Shit.

I check my phone. No messages. Fuck!

I try to call Sam. Come on, pick up, pick upppp!

I throw my phone across the room in frustration as I realize her phone's off. This is bad! This is really bad!

I run out of my apartment and knock on Carly's door. ''Carly, Spencer! Open up!''

After a while I hear someone walking towards the door and unlocking it. It's Carly.

She looks at me sleepily. ''Dude what's up? It's 6 in the morning!''

I storm into her apartment. ''Sam's gone!''

Carly's eyes widen. ''What do you mean Sam's gone!?''

''I mean she's gone! I woke up and looked next to me to see she wasn't there! So I looked around my house but she's gone! And her phone's off Carly! Fuck!'' I kick against a chair and run my hands through my hair in worries and frustration.

''Oh my god…this is bad!''

''You think!?'' I groan.

''We need to go search for her!''

I nod. Oh god I need to find her!

''Spencerrr!'' Carly yells into Spencer's bedroom.

I look at her. ''You told Spencer about Sam!? Didn't she make it obvious she doesn't want anyone to know about this!?''

''She also didn't want us to know about it Freddie, and Spencer's my brother, we can trust him! Plus, he's the only adult here, he might be able to help us!''

She had a point there. ''Okay fine just make sure he'll help us search!''

Spencer walks out of his bedroom. ''Carly what's up? It's 6 a.m.!''

''Spencer Sam's gone! We need to go search for her!''

''Oh god that's bad!'' Spencer responds.

''Yeah!'' I scream. ''So please get your car and help us search!''

Spencer nods. ''Okay. Let's all just get dressed and then we'll go.''

I nod and run back to my apartment, getting dressed quickly before running back.

I yell into Carly's and Spencer's bedrooms. ''Guys hurry the fuck up!''

Carly and Spencer run back into the living room at the same time. ''Done!''

''Okay let's go!'' Carly says.

We quickly walk down the Bushwell and get into Spencer's car.

''Okay so where do we go?'' I ask.

''Erm let's just drive around and look around if we see her?'' Carly replies

''yeah okay.'' I say.

Spencer starts the engine and we start driving, me looking to the right, Carly to the left and Spencer ahead of us. But no track of Sam. I try to call her again but still no answer. Ugh why did she put her phone off!? Carly and I both know Sam's password so we would've been able to track her down if her phone was on.

I groan. ''This is bullshit!''

Carly looks at me. ''Freddie it's alright, we'll find her okay!

I put my head in my hands, groaning. I couldn't be more worried about Sam right now.

After driving around for 5 hours Carly, Spencer and I give up.

''This is hopeless!'' Carly sighs.

I nod and sigh deeply.

Spencer nods too. ''I'm sorry guys.''

''It's not your fault..'' I sigh again.

We drive back to the Bushwell as I get a text message. I groan and open it.

No way, IT'S FROM SAM!

I frown as I read the long message. 'Dear Freddie, right now I'm sitting in the train. I need to get away. For you and Carly. I'm sorry for being such a failure. I don't belong in you guys' lives. You both have an amazing life ahead of you and I'm ruining it. I won't longer do that. I don't deserve you, I never wanted you to get involved in my problems. Now you won't have to worry about them or me anymore. I'll be fine, really. Please don't try to search for me. Continue with your life, go to college and live the happy life you deserve, without me! I'll never forget you Freddie, you mean everything to me. Thanks for everything. Goodbye, I'm sorry. Xxx Sam.'

I feel a tear roll down my cheek when I finish reading it. I stare straight ahead of me. Carly looks at me worried. ''Freddie? What's wrong!?''

I hand her my phone and let her read the message. I can't believe Sam actually did that. Does she really think she ruins my life!? She makes my life worth living for! I'm nothing without her!

''Oh my gosh…'' Carly says when she reads the message. ''I-I can't believe she did that…how can she think that?''

I can't reply, I just stare ahead of myself.

''Freddie?...''

Carly wraps her arm around me. ''Freddie, we'll find her okay? We'll find her together! I don't know how but we will find her! I won't let this happen. I won't let my two best friends live a miserable life without each other.'' She hugs me and I hug her back, I look at her and nod while trying to hold back my tears.

''We need to find her Carly…we NEED to! I-I'm nothing without her!''

She nods. ''I know..'' She rubs my back. ''Shh it's okay, it's gonna be okay..''

''I'm so worried about her Carls…''

''Me too…but we need to be strong now, we need to do everything to make sure we'll find her!''

I nod. Carly's right. I need to be strong, I'm not gonna give up. I WILL find Sam, no matter what it takes!