Hello,
This is a new chapter to 'Always there for me'. There are new elements that are added to the story, that complicates everything. Meanly to George and Vanessa, and Derek and Meredith. And will Meredith end up with Derek? Or will he pick his wife over her?
Enjoy,
TempeGeller(Ellen)
4. Hate my sister's intern
As surgeons we want to control everything around us. Every little thing.
We want to control every thing in the human body.
In life we try to control everything as well, try to keep everything clean. Not messy.
The truth is that, life's not that way. Life's messy, it's rough around the edges.
And we all have to accept it. Let life happen.
"I got go to rehab, but I saw no, no.." April Kepner sung at her way up. She had coffee with her for her resident. Her very nice resident, April liked Vanessa. She was fair, and she tried to teach her as much as possible. That's why she only thought about transferring a couple of seconds. Even less. She just said yes. A man stepped in the elevator. He was tall, had curly hairs and bleu eyes.
"Hey, I'm April Kepner." April said to the guy. He stared at her, for just a moment.
"I'm George O'Malley." He turned to her. "Are you new here?"
"Yes, I'm a new intern." April explained "My resident is Vanessa Grey. So how's Seattle Grace?"
"Great, specially this days." George rolled his eyes. "There's Derek Shepherd off course. Everyone seems to love him. I don't know what It is with that guy. He's apparels very.. I don't know."
"Does Dr. Derek Shepherd work here?" April Kepner's mouth fell open, she was interested in neuro. Learning from Derek Shepherd would be an honor. "He's the most brilliant neurosurgeon of the country."
"Oh that's not all he is." George turned around.
"Is he rude?" April's eyes faced his. "It could be possible, brain surgeons can be very cocky."
"Cocky he is." George replied "He's also a very nice dude. I mean he was…"
"I know Vanessa Grey." George stared at her. "She's my roommates sister. So do you know by any chance if she has a boyfriend?"
"No, no." April shook her head. "I mean the one guy loves her. But she does have a daughter. Cute little girl, I had to baby-sit once. Selena, I believe."
"Daughter?"
"You didn't tell me you had a daughter." George walked towards Vanessa Grey who was standing in the back.
"Oh, yeah, I have a daughter." Vanessa turned away walking trough the halls towards the elevator. "Why was I suppose to tell you? I though I was just flirting with a doctor, that's all."
"So you don't think I'm boyfriend material." George stared at her.
"I never said that." Vanessa replied "But I hardly know you, am I suppose to tell you everything because you live with my sister?"
"I don't know." George looked at her once again. "I don't think you should. Or I don't know."
"That's just it." Vanessa turned around. "I'm not that, it's been a long time since I had a date."
"how long?" George pressed on the elevator button.
"I'm just.." Vanessa stared at him. " I have a kid, you don't want to get involved with me. And you don't know me, there's nothing you know about me. I mean it's true."
"I think I do." George stared at her. "Do you want to go on a date with me?"
"I don't know." Vanessa walked out of the elevator. "Just leave me alone. I mean, I don't get it. You shouldn't like me, I mean I'm not that pretty, I'm not that nice. There's nothing special about me."
"There is." George grabbed her hand. "I like you!"
"No, you don't!" Vanessa slowly pulled her hand away. "Dr. O'Malley."
"Just give me a chance." George stepped in front of her. "I'll take you out on a date. We'll eat, we'll laugh. And maybe I'll kiss you good night."
"And maybe you could leave me alone." Vanessa turned around.
"See my love life is going nowhere fast." George stared at Izzie. "She had a kid, and then I asked her out. And she said no, flat out. I mean she didn't even talk to me. She hasn't said a word."
"George, maybe it's.." Izzie stared at her. "Wait a minute, she has a kid? Since when, Mere never mentioned she had a baby?"
"I never mentioned who's baby?" Meredith was standing behind them. "Who's baby are we talking about?"
"What about your sister's baby?" Izzie stared at her. "And her husband?"
"Selena?" Meredith nodded her head. "She's the cutest little 4 year old, I've ever seen. She sometimes stops by. And she loves her aunt Meredith."
"So are she and the husband happy?" George asked "I mean she's doing all this long hours."
"Henry's dead." Meredith replied "3 years ago, he was a soldier. She knew the risks when they got married. He died during war. A bomb. Ever since she hasn't had a single date."
"Oh." George turned to Izzie. "Oh."
"Why are you asking, George?" Meredith turned around.
"I kind of asked her out." George replied "And she kind of said no."
"Oh, please." Meredith stared at him. "Did you really need to ask her out? I'm trying not to make her think about anything. She lives alone. In her apartment."
"So you both are dark and twisty?" Izzie stared at Meredith
"She's given up." Meredith explained "On love. She's given up. It mind not be clear. But I can tell she has. She thinks that Henry was her only chance on love, and when he died. Part of her died with him. I mean they knew each other very long. She was 16 when they met. She's not okay. She's pretending to be okay, she's a lot of things. But she's not okay."
"Why don't you mention it?" Izzie stared at her.
"Because I know what's she's like." Meredith replied "She's my baby sister, I can't see her hurt. I just can't. I mean you didn't see it, when Henry died. You didn't have to. So she doesn't date anymore, that's fine with me. She talks to me about Derek."
"It's just I think she should go out with me." George replied "She has to move on some time."
"She doesn't." Meredith stepped in front of him. "She can do what ever she wants to. If she wants to go out with you, fine by me. But you are not going to keep asking her. She said no. You have to take no for an answer."
"Meredith, you need to bring her back. She needs to get back on the horse." Izzie replied
"Says who?" Meredith turned to Izzie. "What if she doesn't want to date? Isn't that okay? What if 3 years isn't enough? Is that plausible? I mean she gets to take any time she needs."
"Derek." Addison walked in the elevator next to Derek Shepherd.
"Satan." Derek turned to her. "Where are you minions?"
"Haven't you heard." Addison turned towards him. "I prefer ruler of all that is evil."
"You're a bitch." Derek turned away.
"Even tough I'm a bitch and you call me Satan." Addison turned to him. "Maybe I'm still the love of your life?"
"No, you're not Addison." Derek turned away from her.
"Please Derek, can't you remember." Addison stared at him. "We can't break up. We're Derek and Addison. I mean we're perfect. You wrote me that song, remember. What does the intern have, that I don't?"
"Derek," She stared in his eyes. "Don't you think it's possible that I'm still the love of your life?"
"I've got some coffee." April Kepner handed the coffee to Vanessa Grey who was walking next to her. "I heard that no of the other interns followed my move in coming with you."
"You're right." Vanessa turned to April. "Can you do me a favor, can you take care of my mum today. She's in the hospital, and I would like to keep updated on her."
"Okay." April turned around. "I'll take care of it."
"So, I was just thinking." Meredith walked next to Vanessa "I'm going to give Derek another chance. I mean, it's stupid that I'm turning him down, right?"
"That's true." Vanessa turned around. "Just be careful. I don't want to see you get hurt."
"Nes, I think I owe this to myself." Meredith turned to Vanessa "I really do love Derek. I mean he's the one."
"I hope you know where you are heading" Vanessa stared in Meredith's eyes.
"Yes, just I never felt this way before about any of my previous man." Meredith smiled. "Derek's the best guy."
"So I heard you turned down George" Meredith softly said. "Why?"
"I don't know." Vanessa stared at Meredith "Are we done talking about this?"
"Maybe." Meredith stared at her. "Maybe we should talk about it, I mean you always want to tell me to give Derek another chance."
"So, where is this going?" Vanessa slowly stared at Meredith, like she was trying to read her mind or something. "Meredith, please speak your mind."
"I'm just saying, shouldn't you give George an honest chance." Meredith replied "He's a nice guy, sweet, cute. I mean he's totally your type. You should date again."
"Okay." Vanessa stared at her. "If you give Derek another chance, I'll go on a date with George."
"Okay." Meredith slowly smiled "Okay, you go out with George. I'll forgive Derek."
"Cool."
"Good morning, Dr. Bailey." Derek Shepherd got in the elevator. "Saw Dr. Grey sister?"
"Dr. Vanessa Grey, lovely girl." Miranda smiled "I hardly work with her. She does look like Meredith quiet a lot. And I heard the chief mentioning that she looks like Ellis when she was young."
"I didn't even know she had a sister." Derek stared at Dr. Miranda Bailey. "I mean my wife shows up, I'm asking her to get divorced right this instant. Right now, I don't want her in my life anymore."
"You should think about it." Bailey turned to her. "Are you willing to throw your marriage away."
With those words Miranda Bailey left the elevator. She just walked out. A couple of seconds later, Derek slowly left the elevator. He stared in front of him. He was not sure about anything right now. The only thing he knew was that he loved Meredith. 3 little words he didn't want to tell her yet.
"Derek." Addison walked past him. She slowly took a pile of papers out of her bag. "If you really want it. Here are the divorce papers."
A couple of second later he felt her lips brushing his. She kissed him very briefly. Maybe even to short to really notice anything. Still enough time, to make doubt come up in his head. Did he want to give their marriage another try? Did he want to try that? Did he want to be the good guy? He had to admit, he couldn't be that to both of them. Did he have to pick the woman he promised to spend the rest of his life with or the woman that brought him back to life? Did he have to pick the girl that cheated on him, broke his heart or the sweet honest girl? He didn't know. All he could see was someone walking away. Addison walking away. And a couple of moments later, doubt started knocking on his door even harder. Meredith slowly walked closer to him. She had a smile on her face. She slowly placed both of her hands against Derek's cheeks. She stared in his eyes. And then she also kissed him. Longer then Addison had. He could see her blue eyes stare in his.
"Derek, are we still on for diner?" Simple words that would make him laugh in any other situation. If Addison hadn't been there a couple seconds ago. "8 right?"
"Yes." Derek nodded his head. "We're still on. Sure. I'll pick you up, we'll drive together."
Vanessa slowly walked in the room. She stared at her. She knew that her thoughts were wrong, her mother didn't see her as a daughter. She was just a doctor to her. Worst even, she spoke to her as a nurse.
"He doesn't love her, you know." Vanessa slowly stared at her, when the first words came out. "He can't. He will stay with her anyway. His wife."
"Who are you talking about?" Vanessa slowly sat down next to her mothers side.
"Dr. Webber." Ellis smiled "Meredith's only 4 years old. Me and Webber have something going on. And his wife doesn't even know."
"Mummy." Vanessa stared at her. "That's been over 28 years ago. 28 years. That's a lot of time. I'm your daughter Vanessa, your second daughter."
"You look just like me." Ellis touched her hair. "What's going on?"
"They brought you in the hospital." Vanessa explained "You've got Alzheimer. "
"She won't remember." Dr. Webber entered the room. "Hey Ellis."
"This nurse really looks like me, don't you think?" Ellis turned to Richard. "don't you think?"
"She's your daughter." Richard stared at her. "Your little girl is suppose to look like you. "
Vanessa didn't bother staying, the two of them looked so close. In a way that made her happy for her mother, but it did make her curious. About their past. The things her mother said mad her curious. She knew for sure that there was something between them. Her mother had an affair with the chief. She knew that for sure, the only question was if they dated when her mother got pregnant. Vanessa stared at him. Her thoughts got the better of her. Was he her father? Could the smart doctor be her father, and were the stories that he told about her. Where this stories? Was she the daughter of Richard Webber, the chief? Or did her mother date another guy, that as her father. She wanted to ask. She wanted to confront her mother. But Ellis Grey had no way to remember that she was her father. Vanessa slowly sat down. What happened to them? What happened to them that drove them away from each other. That was a question she would solve.
"I've got a date with Derek." Meredith woke her up out of her deep thoughts. "A date with Dr. McDreamy. He and him are so getting together?"
"Do you know what happened between mum and the chief?" Vanessa stared at Meredith. "I mean do you remember them fighting? Anything? Is the chief my dad?"
"Nes." Meredith stared at her. "I remember something. I was young, going around on the carrousel. I remember them fighting about something. I was 5, 4 months over. She was pregnant with you. She didn't know yet. We moved a moth later. I don't know anything about their thing."
"She just keeps saying. He's married. He doesn't love her. That he can't stay with her." Vanessa slowly placed her hand against her head. "I mean I want to confront her. I want to know, where I come from. I mean, is he my father or is some random guy?"
"I know that you want to know." Meredith turned to her. "But the answer is in her mind. No one else can give you an answer."
"DNA can." Vanessa replied "I mean, a paternal test could disprove my theory. It could prove that we're not related. "
"Oh, so you're going to walk up to the chief." Meredith smiled "Dr. Webber could I borrow some DNA, so I could prove that you impregnated my mother 28 years ago. That I'm the product of your love affair or whatever it is. I mean you can't ask him that, he's your boss. And he mind be your dad. And it's not like you could steal his DNA."
"I can't do that." Vanessa replied "But I can't ask him. I can't wait until mum gets a moment of clarity. That mind never happen. What do I need to do?"
"Derek." Meredith walked towards the elevator. "I'm sorry I'm late. I was having a family crisis. My sister's kind of in a strange mood, and George just asked her out. So things are weird."
"I think I understand." Derek stepped in the elevator slowly following Meredith. "I mean things have been weird for me to."
Derek pushed the button, telling the elevator to go down. His finger was trembling from something. And a soft noise was heard. A paper falling to the floor. He didn't see it right away.
"I'll get it." Meredith replied picking up the paper. The first thing she saw was Derek's name. There was no signature next to it. Then there was Addison's name. There was nothing next to it either.
"Meredith." Derek stared at Meredith, while her face showed a anger or disappointment in him.
"Seriously." Meredith stared at Derek. "You didn't sing the papers? Oh, I'm not going to diner with you."
"Meredith, please." He replied chasing her down the halls. "You have to listen to me. I was going to sign it. I was going to, and then.."
"When?" Meredith turned around in a smooth motion. "When were you going to sign in. the year 2020. Derek, I can't believe that I was going to give you a second chance. You want to stay married to her?"
"Meredith." Derek took her hand.
"No, you don't get to.." Meredith stared at him. "I really hate you right now, and I subject that you don't follow me in the parking lot. Unless you want to be run over by my jeep. And trust me Derek I will. And oh, don't hit my sister with a door on your way back."
"Meredith." Derek yelled once more again, following her trough the door.
"Derek, don't." Meredith stepped in her car. "I don't want to talk to you. I wish that we didn't have to talk to each other outside work."
"Aunt Meredith." Selena walked towards Meredith who opened the door. "What wrong?"
"Nothing sweetie." Meredith lifted her niece spinning her around the room. She stood still when she saw her sister standing in the middle of the door. "Vanessa, what's going on?"
"Oh, I thought I would come over, bring some diner." Vanessa slowly placed her bag on the ground. "What happened Meredith. I thought that you and Dr. McDreamy were heading for diner. Nice romantic diner."
"We are not." Meredith sat down "He didn't sign the papers. I think he still loves her."
"Who Addison?" Vanessa stared at Meredith. "Why? I thought she cheated on him, and she broke his heart. I thought that was rather painful. I thought you guys were together."
"I don't know." Meredith stared at her. "I just feel so crappy. Mum in the hospital. Derek and all this shit. Why does life have to be this crappy."
"Oh please Meredith." Vanessa stood up. "Life's not great, but you just live it. There's nothing you can do more. It seems that you are afraid for what's coming your way."
"I am." Meredith yelled "Because his wife's all hot and pretty. And she's a red head. And she's so much better. I'm just thinking why would he go for me? When he has a gorgeous wife. I mean, what am I. It's not like me and Derek are going to get married and live happily ever after."
"Aunt Meredith everyone live happily ever after." Selena stared at her. "Just like Cinderella."
"I'm not a pretty princess, sweetie." Meredith stared at her. "I'm one of the towns persons. Always complaining about everything. That's what I am."
"Meredith please." she slowly picked up Selena from Meredith's lap. "If you want to find that thing everyone wants. You'll have to fight for it. No one is handing it to you. If you want McDreamy, you'll have to tell him. Scream it to him, sing it. Whatever works for you. But if you think that he's going to pick Addison, don't threaten him. Meredith he's not a mind reader. You'll have to say the words. The only words that will tell him enough. You know what those words are. And if you can't say them, you'll lose him. That's how things go."
"Vanessa." Meredith stared at her. "Thank you."
"George." Vanessa had Selena in her arms. She could see him staring at her. "How are you? Fine, good."
"okay." George turned to her. "So this is her, your daughter. Selene."
"Selena." Vanessa corrected "Her name is Selena, like the singer. You know the tejano singer Selena."
"Right." George smiled at her. "Hey, my name's George. I'm a friend of your mummy and your auntie."
"Auntie Mer." Selena smiled while grabbing his finger. "My finger."
"No, sweetie." Selena stared at her with her blue eyes. "That's not your finger, give George back his finger. Selena Elizabeth Andrews, give George back his finger."
Slowly she let go of his finger. Give him a beautiful smile. "That's a lot better Selena. I'm so sorry George, she's a playful girl. She doesn't really .."
"It's okay." George stared at her. "She's cute. Yes you are."
"And she's not a dog." Vanessa smiled at him. "I've got to get home. Get her to bed. And.. Well.."
"I get that.." George stared at her.
"We'll talk tomorrow." Vanessa smiled "I've got to get a little girl to bed. And fast. Really."
"Tomorrow." George replied turning around. "We'll talk tomorrow. "
"I've got coffee." April Kepner walked, she handed Vanessa Grey the small cop of coffee. "And there's a surgery on the board. I heard you will be scrubbing in."
"I am, Doctor Kepner." Vanessa stared at her. "Thanks for the coffee. Do you want to scrub in? I'm doing the surgery, and I think you disserve to scrub in."
"You think." April smiled "Well, I read up on the surgery."
"Good, I'll say you at 4." Vanessa walked on. She slowly walked in the elevator. George was standing right there staring at her when she got in. "so how are you?"
"Good." George stepped in front of her. "So talk, do I talk or.."
"George, I know what it took to ask my out." Vanessa paused "But I think going to diner, falling in love. I'm just not there yet. I'm to focused. You're a nice guy.."
"Nice guy." George stared at her. "If Alex asked you or someone else, .."
"My answer would still be no." Vanessa stared at her. "I'm kind of in hard place right now. Mum, my so called dad and being transferred. It's all hard. And stuff, I need time. Much time. And dating, Meredith's in trouble. She needs me, Selena needs me. She's 4, George. I'm ending my 3rd year residency. Stuff. So.."
"What should I say about that?" George stared at her. "Meredith can take care of herself."
"I don't know George." Vanessa walked out the elevator. "I'm just not there, I don't know why. Just, can't we be friends. Like hang out, eat dinner and not have any dates going on."
"So, you really think that taking care of Meredith is more important then being happy yourself." George stared at her. "Meredith has Derek. Who's handsome."
"Yeah, I release." Vanessa replied "But what if Derek leaves Meredith, and she breaks down. She's my sister. And…"
"You're scared and afraid" George replied "I know that's the same thing, but you are. You use Meredith as an excuse to go on a date. To forget that he's dead. Your husband is dead."
"I know." Vanessa replied "It's not why I'm not going out with you."
"yes it is." George took her hand. "Why can't you give me a chance?"
"George, please." Vanessa pulled her arm towards her. "Just stop talking about dating. Please."
"Mer." Cristina got in the elevator. "How was the diner with McDreamy? Nice, hot?"
"Not much, we didn't have diner. He didn't sign the papers. " Meredith rolled her eyes. "And then I talked to my sister about something. She says I should tell Derek I love him."
"She said that?" Cristina stared at her. "Nice sister you got there. Apparently she turned down George. I mean isn't it weird, George falling all over you at first. And now he's all over your sister. I mean, he probably realized he couldn't get you."
"What, oh, I have faith that my sister's going to say yes today." Meredith smiled "She's great for him. And she's very nice person. And they would be a very cute couple."
"Like you and Derek." Cristina replied "Do we need another drama couple on the work floor?"
"So how are you, Cristina?" Meredith stared at her. "I mean what are you going to do about everything? "
"I.." Cristina replied "I've got an appointment. And the reason I told you is because I had to put a person that they needed to call in case of emergency. I put down you. You are my person."
"So are you telling the father?" Meredith turned around. "I mean, I didn't even know you were having sex. And now you're pregnant."
"I don't know, I.." Cristina turned to her. "I don't think it's important to tell the father."
"Maybe you should tell him." Meredith replied "He is the father, you are suppose to tell him. Are you sure you don't want to be a mother?"
"A baby and residency?" Cristina replied "No body can do it."
"Except my sister." Meredith replied "She got pregnant in her last year med school, and she did her internship with a one year old child. It's possible. I think you should know that it's possible. Not easy off course."
"I'm not a mother Meredith." Cristina replied "Have you seen your baby sister, she's born to be a mother. She's so bright and shiny all the time."
"I understand." Meredith replied "I just want you to talk about it. Think about what you are doing, just I want to think about your options. That you are not unhappy about your choice."
"I understand." Cristina replied "but I decided right after I found out. I know what I'm doing."
"Kepner." Alex Karev stared at her. "you are Vanessa Grey's bitch. You bring her coffee."
"Will you just please shut up." April Kepner stared at him. "I'm going to do scrub in on a surgery. It's very smart to bring your resident coffee. To keep her happy."
"That doesn't mean you have to baby-sit her daughter." Alex Karev replied "I don't even get it, she's hot off course. But George's already hitting on him. Apparently she turned him down twice. "
"Right?" April replied "She's my boss, and she's not going to go for you."
"Well, they say that we're the same age." Alex replied "she's Meredith Grey's sister. Her frigging mother is Ellis Grey, she's medical off spring."
"I didn't even know that." April stared in front of her.
"You're meaning to tell me that Nessa Grey is ashamed of her legendary mother Ellis Grey." Alex turned to her smiling. "Meredith didn't want to tell either, turns out that her mother has Alzheimer."
"I heard her talk about it." April replied "That and her father issues."
"Got a surgery with McDreamy." Meredith anounced when she saw Vanessa pass by. "I mean he's apparently taking away a tumor, no big deal. And I'm scrubbing in."
"You're scrubbing in with McDreamy." Vanessa smiled "Are you going to tell him the big L word?"
"Lesbian?" Meredith turned to Vanessa "I don't see what lesbians got to do with this!"
"No, Meredith." Vanessa rolled her eyes. "The big L- word, I mean love. Are you going to confess him how much you love him, how you can't live without him. How he should I don't know. Just say something."
"You are trying to be the big sister." Meredith smiled at her. "Don't, cause now I'm going to give you advice. Go on a date, have fun. And don't forget bring Selena over to my place. I mean go find George and tell him the good news."
"I just turned him down." Vanessa stared at her. "I mean Meredith, I don't feel like dating anyone right now. I have you to take care of, and Selena and my job. I don't feel.."
"Excuses." Meredith turned around. "You got a world of them don't you? I can take care of me, it's my job to take care of me. And Selena, you do a great job. One date is not going to ruin that, and deep down you know that. I think you think that it's to soon, to soon after Henry."
"It is." Vanessa turned around. "He's only been dead.."
"For 3 years." Meredith yelled "He's only been dead for 3 years, that's a lot of time. I know that you needed it, but are you going to let go a perfectly great guy, just because you're scared. Henry wouldn't want you to be this sad. He was all about seeing you smile. You know that. You have to move on, why not now."
"Because.." Vanessa replied "Because I don't want to get hurt again. You see where your reletionship with Derek ended up, his wife showed up. All man are cheats. What makes you think that George is going to be different?"
"I know for sure that George is not married." Meredith replied "And no, you can't be sure that you are not going to get hirt. But that's the challenge. Throwing yourself in an adventure, without thinking of the consiqueces."
"Meredith, I'm not like you." Vanessa turned around. "My whole life people have been saying to be like you, but I'm not. I don' tlike adveture, I like things secure and safe. I like it when I come home and everything looks tidy. I don't like tequila, and I don' tlike to lose control. And another thing, I fell madly in love with Henry, he was the love of my life. And with him gone, I'm done to."
"So you're saying that.." Meredith stared at her sister, for the frist time she saw tears in her bleu eyes. Slowly she walked over to her, catching her in her own arms. "You're going to be fine. I swear. I mean George's a good guy. I swear. Henry, I know that you love him. But he wanted you to move on, go out. Fall in love, get married. That's how things work."
"I love him so much." Vanessa cried. "How could he think that him being in danger was alright. He always told me that he would be back, and on day he didn't come back. How could he think that I could live without him?"
"Hey." Meredith stared at her. "You want to watch old movies tonight, and stay up. Cause we can do that. All night long. You could even move in with me."
"No, I need to keep my appartment." Vanessa replied "It's Selena's home."
"It's got to much memories." Meredith replied "You've got to leave the past behind you. And to start you need to get a new house, a new slate. And it's mum's house, which means it's yours to. So move in. Move in. How much times do I need to ask you?"
"About a giziion times, and my answer would still be no." Vanessa got up. "I need to get over myself. And I can't do that by living with my big sister. I need to stand up, need to be okay. But I can't do that with you breathing down my neck."
"If you ever need a place to stay." Meredith stared at her. "You're still my baby sister."
"Go get him." Vanessa smiled "I mean McDreamy, so I can enjoy your romance. I mean once in a while I like to hear about a love story, that doesn't end in tears. And frequently I hear, and then bleh!'"
"Derek." Meredith walked towards him. "I know what I said, and how mean I was. And the whole hitting you with my car. But the thing is. This is so hard, I mean hating you. It so .. What I'm saying is. I can't do it. I can't watch you, knowing that you would rather be with your wife. If we go on, then I need to know that you are committed to this thing. I need you to decide. Her or me?"
"Meredith.." Derek stared at her.
"Derek, listen to me." Meredith stared at him. "Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."
"Meredith." Derek stared at her.
"You made your choice, haven't you?" Meredith stared at her. She could feel the tears coming to her. He didn't react, he didn't say a word. Probably not to hurt her. "It's her, isn't it? Your picking her?"
"Yes, Meredith we've been married for 10 years. I can't put that behind me." Derek slowly reached for her face. Meredith slowly walked back a bit. "She disserves me to try."
"I.." Meredith's eyes were full of tears. "So, okay. That's it , Dr. Shepherd."
Life's rough around the edges,
Never the way you want it to.
And you never end where you like.