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Chapter 41

iCan't lose you

~ * Sam * ~

Brad Carly and I still sit there waiting in the hospital waiting room. I can't take this any longer! I just need to see Freddie, talk to him, tell him he needs to be strong, that he's my everything! The past few minutes I haven't been able to speak, I just stared ahead of me, sad, scared, like my throat was being clenched again.

Carly sighs. ''Sam…you can't sit here like this forever…please talk to us…''

I stare ahead of me again and bite my lip after a while. ''What's there to say…''

Carly sighs again. ''I don't know…'' she rubs my back and puts a string of my hair behind my ear. ''we're here okay. You can talk to us…cry on our shoulders…''

''I know…''

I stand up quickly when the doctor walks over to us again. ''and!?''

''Mr. Benson's still not conscious… but you're allowed to see him for a short time.''

I look over at Carly and Brad and they smile slightly and stand up too.

The doctor shakes his head. ''Sorry only one person at a time…and just a few minutes. Can I ask what kind of relationship you have with Mr. Benson?''

''We're really good friends of him…'' Carly and Brad say.

The doctor looks at me. ''And you?''

I bite my lip. ''I'm his wife…''

The doctor looks at me slightly surprised but then smiles slightly. ''Okay you guys decide who can go first. Only a few minutes''

He walks away and Carly and Brad nod at me. ''Go ahead.'' Brad says.

''Thank you.'' I smile slightly at them and bite my lip before walking after the doctor to Freddie's room.

I take a deep breath and bite my lip hard when I walk into the room. I gasp slightly and get tears in my eyes again when I see Freddie in the bed there unconscious and on all these kind of beepy machines, with lots of scratches and a huge Band-Aid on his head. I rush over to him and sit down on a chair next to his bed and hold his hand. I bite my lip hard. ''Oh baby…''

''I can't believe you're here…I can't believe you saved a little boy's life and this is what you get…'' tears stream down my face.

''P-please wake up…Freddie…y-you can't leave me alone here…I need you…you're my everything…I love you so much! I-I can't…I can't lose you!''

I wipe my tears away and squeeze Freddie's hand. ''You're an amazingly strong guy, you have to fight! You're gonna make it! I have faith in you babe…''

''Please…wake up…Freddie…''

The tears start streaming again when nothing happens and I kiss Freddie's forehead softly. ''I-I love you so much…more that you'll ever know…''

I cry harder and hug Freddie. ''Don't leave me…babe! P-please… I-I need you…I need you so much! My life doesn't make any sense without you! Please wake up! Freddie…baby…FREDDIE!''

I cry even harder and I can feel myself starting to panic and slightly hyperventilate again. Right at that moment the doctor walks in and pulls me away from Freddie.

''I think it's better if you leave now…''

I shake my head and try to squirm out of the doctor's grip. ''N-no please! Please!'' I cry harder as he takes me outside. ''No…Freddie! Wake up! FREDDIE!''

~ * Carly * ~

I look worried when I see the doctor drag Sam out of Freddie's room and rush over to them. I grab both of Sam's hands. ''Sam calm down…please…'' I feel helpless as Sam just cries and sobs, shaking and breathing heavily. I hug her close to me. ''Shh…we're here…''

I gesture Brad to come over and he strokes Sam's hair softly. ''Sam Freddie's strong okay, he's gonna make it! He's going to fight!'' Brad says.

I nod. ''He is. He's not gonna leave you behind…I promise…'' I bite my lip as it suddenly hits me that there really is a big chance Freddie isn't gonna make it… Oh my goodness…No, you gotta stay positive Carly. He IS gonna make it!...

The doctor comes over to us again and tells us Brad or I can go see Freddie now. I look at Brad. ''You go…I'll stay here and make sure Sam's gonna be okay.''

Brad nods. ''Okay babe.'' He kisses my cheek and walks inside of Freddie's room. I try to calm Sam down and just keep hugging her, stroking her back.

After a few minutes Sam's calmed down slightly and Brad comes back. I look at him and bite my lip. ''How was it?...''

''heartbreaking…'' Brad sighs, biting his lip. ''He doesn't look good…''

''Oh god…well err…we have to keep talking to him, they always say that helps!''

Brad nods. ''You can go now if you want babe. I'll stay with Sam''

I nod and kiss the top of Sam's head. ''I'll be right back…''

I take a deep breath before walking into Freddie's room and gulp when I see him. He really doesn't look good… I bite my lip and sit down on the chair next to his bed.

This is just like that time Freddie got hurt when he saved me and got hit by a taco truck…but then 100 times worse!

I look at Freddie. ''Well…here we are again…you're hurt again because you had to safe somebody…you're way too good for this world.'' I gulp and then get tears in my eyes.

''Please wake up Freddie…fight! Come on, please!...We all need you so much…Sam needs you! She loves you so much, you're her everything! Please Freddie…please wake up…'' I bite my lip harder and wipe my tears away.

I nod when the doctor tells me I need to leave and look at Freddie. ''Please…fight! For us…for Sam!...'' With that I bite my lip again and walk out of the room, walking back over to Brad and Sam.

I sigh as I see same back in her trance of sadly staring ahead of her again. Poor thing… Why can't everything just go well for Sam and Freddie for one time…they deserve to be happy, why won't life just let them be happy!?

I sit down with Brad and Sam again and just stroke Sam's back again like I did before. I feel so helpless, I can't do anything for her… I have no idea what is keeping me so calm, I might lose my best friend! But it just feels so unreal…I feel like I have a really strong feeling that he's gonna be okay, it's kinda strange. I just feel this big need to stay calm and positive…

Brad stands up. ''I'm gonna get us some coffee okay? I'll be right back.''

I nod. ''Bring some bacon for Sam…''

''I will.'' Brad says and he walks away.

I have a feeling that even bacon isn't gonna cheer Sam up right now…oh who am I kidding? I'm sure bacon isn't gonna cheer her up.

After a few minutes Brad comes back and he hands me the cup of coffee. ''Thanks.'' I smile slightly at him and take a sip.

Brad gives a cup of coffee and a package of bacon to Sam. ''Here you go…''

Sam cracks a small smile at Brad and opens the package of bacon, she grabs a small piece and slowly puts it in her mouth.

Nope, Sam's never eaten bacon so calmly like this, it's definitely not cheering her up. She eats another piece and then puts the package away. She gives it to me. ''Here…you can have it…''

''You don't want it? It's Bolivian…you're fave!'' I say, trying to make sense.

She shakes her head. ''I'm not hungry…''

Wow, Sam and not hungry, I've never heard her say those words in the same sentence… This is bad, really bad.

After a couple of minutes the doctor walks over to us again. Sam looks up nervously and I can see the fear in her eyes. I've never seen her like this…it's absolutely heartbreaking…

Sam bites her lip. ''Any news?''

The doctor nods. ''Erm, Freddie's mother is with him right now so I'm just waiting for her so I can tell you all what's going on…''

''I-Is it something bad?'' Sam asks.

The doctor shakes his head slightly. ''There's good and bad news…''

Sam puts her head in her hands and runs her hands through her hair impatiently and nervously.

Gosh please hurry up Mrs. Benson…we need to know what's going on with him…now!

I sigh in slight relief when I see Mrs. Benson running up to us. I bite my lip when Sam runs over to her and hugs her tightly, crying. Woah…this is…err…different. Things have changed so much lately…I'm happy Sam and Mrs. Benson have such a good bond now though…I just wish this wasn't the reason that showed it off.

Mrs. Benson hugs Sam back tightly and cries too, she rubs her back. ''H-he's gonna be okay!...he's not gonna leave us behind! He's a fighter, he'll fight!...''

I bite my lip hard and start crying softly too. This is just so heartbreaking. Brad pulls me into his arms and hugs me, he kisses the top of my head. I sniff slightly and just hug him tightly.

The doctor coughs slightly and we all get caught out of our trance and look at him, he continues with what he was telling us.

''So there's good and bad news… the good news is, the chance Freddie's gonna make it has improved! He's made a lot of progress after you guys have been with him, so I want to ask you to keep talking to him, it seems to be really good for him! It's almost for sure now that he's going to make it.'' The doctor smiles at us.

Sam looks up relieved and smiles. ''Oh my god really!?...''

The doctor nods.

Brad and I smile too. ''That's amazing!'' I say.

Mrs. Benson smiles in relief. ''Oh thank god!''

The doctor continues. ''But, the bad news is that…as you know Freddie's hit his head extremely hard, and there's a high chance of memory loss when he wakes up…''

I gulp slightly. ''p-permanent memory loss?...''

The doctor nods. ''Possibly…we can't tell that yet…I'm so sorry.''

We all share some looks, gulping. This is horrible….I mean I'm so so SO happy Freddie's gonna make it, but what if he wakes up with huge memory loss…what if he doesn't remember Brad and me…or his mom…or even worse…what if he doesn't remember Sam!?...What if that's true and it's…permanent…

I look over at Sam and she looks back at me sadly, gulping and gasping and biting her lip harder than ever before, causing it to bleed slightly.

Mrs. Benson strokes her hair softly. ''Sam it's gonna be okay…h-he'll remember us…you! He would never forget you!...''

Sam looks at her scared and the tears form again in her eyes.

The doctor looks at us again. ''Two of you are allowed to stay over here with him tonight…''

I nod. ''Thanks…''

The doctor smiles slightly and then walks away again.

Brad and I look at Sam and Mrs. Benson. It seems pretty obvious to me that they're the ones that will stay here with Freddie tonight. I hug both of them. ''Stay with him…talk to him… tell him we love him…'' I bite my lip before giving Sam and extra tight hug and giving her a kiss on her cheek. ''Stay strong okay…call me whenever you need me, I'll be there in a minute.''

She hugs me back and nods. Brad hugs her too. ''stay strong blondiecurls… we're here for you.'' He looks over at Mrs. Benson. ''You too Mrs. Benson…''

They both nod and Brad and I smile slightly at them before walking away, hand in hand.

This is gonna be a looooong night…

I look over at Brad when we sit in the car. ''W-will you stay with me tonight? I don't wanna be alone right now…''

Brad nods. ''Of course babe…''

He kisses my lips softly before driving back to the Bushwell.

I sigh to myself. What a day…