Omg guys I seriously haven't had the time to write my fanfic and when I have I was too tired…things aren't really going well in my life but I shouldn't talk about me. Sorry for not updating fast I'm really trying to! 3 Please keep reviewing too, and please read my new jathan/coltonette fanfic I started on called Mebe Stuck Between Two Ways :3 I think I'll make my chapters here a little shorter so I can update faster, some chapters may be really small and others a little bigger (:

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Chapter 44

iJust want you back

~ * Freddie * ~

I wake up in the morning and rub my eyes. Wow I had a weird dream… That beautiful blonde girl who comes here every day came into my room at night and snuggled with me… I yawn and slowly open my eyes. I gulp as I get a shock. That girl actually IS in my room! Next to me, in my bed, snuggled into me. It wasn't a dream! What is this oh my goodness.

I look down at her and feel my heart starting to beat faster. She is seriously SO beautiful! What is she doing here? She's so out of my league… I wish I could just remember who she is!

I've been remembering some more things about my life the past days. I started to remember things about my family and my house. Which gives me some hope on that in a while I'll remember everything!

I see the blonde girl slowly waking up and my heart starts beating faster. What am I gonna say to her? What is she gonna say to me? Oh my god.

I smile down at her slightly. ''Erm…hi'' I say. Wow that couldn't have come out any more awkward. Way to go Freddie. The girl smiles up at me. ''Hey…'' she bites her lip. ''You still don't remember who I am right?...'' she looks down sadly.

I bite my lip, shaking my head slowly. ''No…I'm so sorry…I want to remember who you are though…'' I smile dorkish . Ugh why Freddie.

She smiles up at me. ''You don't have to be embarrassed or anything…I know you better than you think.'' She gulps and looks down.

''Well in that case…will you tell me about yourself?'' I smile. She makes me feel comfortable. I feel connected to her. Very connected…I can feel that we have some sort of special bond.

The girl nods. ''Well…I'm Sam. I go to the same school as you together with our friends Carly and Brad, those people that visit you every day too…'' she smiles slightly.

I nod. ''Okay.'' I smile back at her and look at her hand. ''Pretty ring. Who gave it to you?''

She gulps and looks down. ''You did…''

I gulp too. ''D-did I? oh…''

The girl stands up off the bed and I can she has tears in her eyes and avoids eye contact with me. ''I-I should probably go…y-you need to rest…'' She wipes her tears away and grabs her jacket.

Wow that literally broke my heart. I don't want her to go…I want her to stay here. I JUST WANT TO REMEMBER WHO SHE IS, DAMN IT!

''No!'' I say. ''Stay here…please?'' I smile.

She looks up at me. ''You really want me to?''

''I do.'' I say.

She smiles slightly. ''Alright.'' She sits on the bed next to me again and looks in my eyes. ''You really don't have the slightest idea of who I am?...''

''Well…I feel very connected to you…some sort of special bond…''

She smiles slightly at me. ''That err…that's true.''

Suddenly the doctor comes walking in. ''Mr. Benson! I've got some good news for y-''

He cuts off his sentence when he sees the girl, erm I mean Sam.

''How'd you get in here?...it's 6:30 a.m….''

She stumbles slightly. ''Erm I err…a nurse let me in.''

''Sure…'' the doctor says and he rolls his eyes. ''Oh well it's okay you can stay. Freddie, I've got good news for you!'' he smiles.

I smile back at him. ''What is it?''

''You're allowed to go home this afternoon.'' He says, smiling.''

Oh my god this is amazing! FINALLY! ''Really?'' I ask, smiling widely.

He nods. ''Really.'' We did everything we had to do and we've run all the tests so you will just have to rest at home now and take your meds.'' He smiles.

I smile back at him. ''Awesome! Thank you!''

''You're welcome. I'll give you the meds when your mom's here too.''

''alright.'' I smile as he walks out of the room.

Sam smiles at me. ''This is awesome. I'll call your mom for you.''

Apparently she knows my mom…well, that's a good thing. I smile. ''Okay, thanks.''

She smiles back. ''no problem.''

She grabs her phone and starts calling. I stare at her. I've got a special feeling for her…I love her! And I'm sure I'll remember everything about her soon. I just have to!

~ * Sam * ~

I sit in the backseat of Marissa's car as we drive back home with Freddie. I'm really happy he can finally come home now. I hated that hospital… I bite my lip. Freddie still doesn't remember who I am…that can't be a good sign. I just wanna take him to a place that is special to us, somewhere where special moments in our lives happened. I wish we could go back to Canada…so he could remember that we married there and I'm his wife…but unfortunately that's not possible. I look at Marissa. ''Hey…could you maybe drop me and Freddie off at the mall?...I wanna show him a place that might make him remember something about us…I promise we won't be away for long and I'll take care of him.''

Marissa nods and smiles. ''sure.''

After a while we get to the mall and I step out of the car. Freddie gets out too. I smile at Marissa. ''thanks. We'll be back soon.''

She smiles back at me. ''No problem…I hope it'll work… call me if you need me.''

''I will. Bye.''

''Bye. See you guys later.'' Marissa smiles and she drives away.

Freddie smiles at me, he looks slightly confused, understandable of course… ''Where are we going?''

''Some place special…'' I bite my lip and start walking into the mall. Freddie walks after me. ''We just drove past our school right? And this is the Seattle mall?'' he asks.

I smile slightly. ''Yup.''

I walk to the romantic place of the mall with the little fountain where Freddie gave me our wedding rings… I really hope he remembers something of it…He just has to remember! It can't be true that he forgot about everything about us…

I stop walking when we reach the place and bite my lip, looking into Freddie's eyes. ''Please just…look around, think back, breath in the scent of this place, listen to the sound…just…try to remember what happened here…'' I bite my lip harder. ''It can't be true that you just don't remember anything…''

''I'm doing what I can…'' Freddie gulps and he looks around, doing everything I told him to do. I stare at him nervously. He HAS to remember!

~ * Freddie * ~

I look around the mall and the place we're standing on, I breath in the scent and listen to the sound of this place. I try to think back, doing everything Sam told me to do. I close my eyes and then slightly open them again to look at Sam closely before closing them again. I completely concentrate myself on the place.

Suddenly, I feel my heart starting to beat faster, thoughts running through my mind. I sit down on a bench as I start to feel dizzy. My head starts to hurt like crazy and I grab it.

Sam walks over to me and puts her hand on my shoulder. ''You okay?'' she asks concerned.

I open my eyes, I look at Sam, I feel shivers running through my whole body when she touches me. I look at her again and notice the ring on her finger. I look at my own hand and see the exact same ring. Suddenly, flashbacks of my whole life start to run through my mind, I concentrate on them and start to remember EVERYTHING!

The last few flashbacks are really clear, it's Sam and me… the girl who's been my best friend since the start of high school, who's teased me through my whole life, but who suddenly kissed me on the fire escape and at school, the girl I fell deeply in love with, became my girlfriend and broke up with me, but also the girl I couldn't stop thinking about, the one who drove me crazy and still does, the girl I MARRIED! SAM IS MY WIFE! SAM BENSON!

I remember literally everything and stand up, pulling Sam up with me and hugging her as tight as I can. ''SAM!'' I yell.

I start crying and hug her tightly. ''Sam…baby… I love you so much! I remember everything I love you so so SO much! You're my everything!''

Sam bursts out crying and she hugs me back even tighter. ''BABE! Y-you remember me! I thought you forgot about me…I thought I'd lost you forever!'' she cries harder.

I stroke her hair. Her beautiful blonde curly hair. ''Shh baby, it's all okay now. I'm so sorry!...''

''F-for what?'' Sam asks, with tears rolling down her cheeks.

''For not remembering you earlier…how, I…I'm sorry!''

I feel horrible about this. How could I have NOT remembered Sam earlier!?

Sam smiles up at me slightly. ''It's okay babe, it's not your fault…I'm just really happy you remember me again!''

I wipe her tears away and peck her lips. ''I would never forget you baby, no matter how much memory loss I have and no matter how much time it takes, I will always remember you. I love you so much. Please forgive me…''

Sam strokes my hair softly. ''Of course I forgive you baby. I love you so so so much. I'm so glad I've got you back. I was so scared…''

Sam rests her head on my chest and I put my head on top of hers, kissing the top of her head softly. ''Thanks for coming to visit me in the hospital every day baby.''

''You're welcome, I just wanted to be with you…I missed you so much!''

Sam smiles up at me and kisses me. I kiss her back. She's so perfect… I love that girl more than anything.

''Let's go home.'' Sam says, smiling.

I nod and grab Sam's hand. I hold it tightly as we walk back home.

''So you really remember everything baby? As in…everything about everything and everyone that you knew before?'' Sam asks, smiling up at me.

I nod, smiling. ''Everything. Thanks to you, it was so smart of you to take me to that place.''

''Yeah well that's how I roll…'' Sam smirks.

I chuckle and walk into the Bushwell with her. ''I should probably thank Carly, Brad and Spencer for coming to the hospital so often too.''

''Yeah…'' Sam nods and smiles. ''You wanna go see them now?''

I shake my head. ''No. I want to spend time with you tonight.'' I smile.

Sam smiles back at me. ''Okay.''

I lead Sam upstairs. She unlocks the door of our apartment and I lead her inside. I smile and let out a relieved sigh. It feels great to be back home again. Safe, and with all my memory, and my mom, and most importantly, with Sam.

Tonight I'll show her how much I love her. I smirk slightly. It's been like 3 weeks since I made love to Sam, it's about time!