Chapter 9 - Completely Unnecessary
Author's Note: Hello, my lovelies! Yes, I know I'm severely late, and you're all clamoring to find out what happened between our duo since the last installment. Well, as I said last update, I had some personal issues (both for myself and friends) come up that left me with little time to write, so I must admit that the last chapter's ending was very intentional on my part. (I have an evil side that likes to come out and play.) This is a chapter I'm sure you've all been waiting for, so here we go! I own nothing but the mistakes, Dahlia, and Amanda.
Also, the song I own is not mine, but one of my favorites! Give Your Heart a Break by Demi Lovato. It seems appropriate, does it not? ;)
I couldn't move. I couldn't do anything but stand there like something resembling a decoration of some sort in the middle of the dance floor. Which, given how we were all dancing just five minutes ago (if even that), is nothing short of a complete 180.
And it was all because my best friend since childhood went and kissed me!
I pulled back, mine and Simon's breath intermingling with our heavy breathing. "S-Simon...?!" Any more protest was cut off, because he leaned back in, kissing me once more...and I found the world once again going completely quiet. It was like going underwater at a pool, everyone and everything falling away, giving way to total silence for the time submerged underwater.
A breathy sigh. I had no idea if it came from me or Simon, before we broke apart again. "Clary...I...I'm..." How could I hear him when he voice was nothing short of a whisper.
"Well, what have we here? Our favorite couple finally making it official, even though we know you've been dating for years now?"
I sprang away from Simon like he burned me, gaze landing on the oddly tattooed, smirking form of Jace, watching the two of us with something akin to amusement.
"WAIT A MINUTE! THEY KISSED?" Dahlia's voice rang out clearly from behind Jace, and she just shoved him aside like he wasn't even there, looking completely and utterly shell-shocked in the best of ways at this news.
Amanda followed her, standing on Jace's other side, looking as if she'd been sucker punched in the gut. "...what?"
All eyes were on the two of us, and I shifted uncomfortably. "Er...n-not exactly."
"Well, Fray, either you kissed or you didn't, and I gotta say, what I saw looked a lot like you were." Jace pointed out, as if I was dense.
Dahlia was even too shocked to do something to him...like slap him or stomp on his foot with the point of her shoe...for that. "Guys! Details, please!"
Amanda remained silent, and as Jace's blue orbs flicked between me, Amanda, and even Simon, who remained just as quiet...he started to laugh. Loud. Hard.
And in that moment, I knew he got it.
"Oh, this is bloody priceless!" He said between guffaws. "He kissed her, and she didn't kiss him back! Oh, hell, this is gold!" Off of Simon's stricken look, as well as Dahlia's confused one, he grinned maliciously. "You see, ladies. Simon here has been in love with my little pet here for...what is it? Eight years now?" Simon didn't reply, not that I would've heard him if he had, because he was WHAT? "Anyway, he's been in love with her for years...and her, being the clueless little thing she is, has had no idea of this, even though anyone around them could see it as plain as the nose on our faces!"
"You mean...you really didn't get that?" Dahlia looked shocked at that. "I could tell he loved you from the moment I saw you guys together!"
"You don't deserve him if you're going to be that dense!" Amanda seethed, looking shocked at my cluelessness, but also completely outraged. "I mean, seriously...if I had someone like him looking at me for YEARS, I wouldn't be so dense!"
Jace chuckled, still grinning evilly. "Smart girl, Fray. You should listen to her." He pointed at the shortest of out group. He looked over my shoulder at the other male, who remained utterly silent at the entire exchange. "Don't you agree, Simon?"
Simon. Oh shit. No. This time, all eyes were on him. But, he only had eyes for me. And the look he was giving me was making my heart turn to stone. "You mean, you never even guessed...? Didn't even...consider...?" He couldn't finish the sentence. Oh dear god, he couldn't even finish the sentence.
"No!" I told him honestly, mentally kicking myself, because right now, I felt like I was two inches tall. "Simon, I never thought that, b-because I never even considered it myself."
Jace decided to jump in again. "Because you could never love him back, right?"
"Simon, I do love you-"
"You know the way he means, Fray."
This time, I actually whirled on the taller blond, because he was seriously pissing me off right now. "Jace, I swear to god, shut up. Because if you don't, I'll send your nuts straight up to your kidneys!"
Dahlia cracked up, despite the seriousness of the situation, getting out her phone just in case Jace decided to be more of an idiot than he already fucking was.
Luckily, looking shocked and impressed, he remained silent, giving the floor to me.
"Simon, I do love you." I told him honestly, looking up into his forlorn eyes. "Okay? But, I never thought it meant like...this!" I gestured at...I had no idea, because I was still replaying the fact that HE KISSED ME. "We've always been affectionate, but that's how we are...how we've always been!"
"But, why is it so hard to admit that you love me, too?" Simon asked me in return. "I mean, the reason I never dated anyone was because I didn't want anyone else. Only you."
It was like he slapped me across the face, because he mentioned liking someone...years ago before he moved away from New York City. But, it would never work out. Oh my GOD, he wasn't talking about some random girl, or some senior. He was talking about me! The realization shocked me to my core...because he's been in love with me for years...and I never even realized it.
"I gotta get out of here. I'm sorry guys..."
Simon's voice. Pulling me toward the real world again. And he was running. Not toward me, not being my rock like he'd been for the last several years of my life. Instead, he was running away from me. Cutting me adrift to figure this one out on my own. "Simon!" He didn't hear me...didn't want to hear me, because music started up, who knows how much time had passed.
It was almost cruel that it was one of my favorite songs. And instead of hanging out and jamming to it like he usually would do, he ran faster getting lost in the throng of people so fast that I lost sight of him, standing stock-still in the same spot as the actual words rang out.
"The day I first met you
You told me, you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was
Now here we are
So close, yet so far
Haven't I passed the test?
When will you realize
That, baby, I'm not like the rest?"
Author's Note: I'm so sorry, you guys! It'll get better, I PROMISE! Hang in there!