Chapter 5

TITLE: Falling

Disclaimer; My obsession for KH is great, my ownership… not so much D;

I was feeling silly and a little embarrassed, well a fuck load of embarrassment actually. Demyx had fluttered over me and handed me a cigarette and said I was ok to smoke inside, so, naturally, I lit her up. There were a million emotions running through me. Maybe this is why I never dated girls. Maybe it was this confusions flowing through and taking over my veins. Maybe I needed to do what I was taught and keep these as far from the surface as I could.

"There you are Roxy." I smiled at Axel. There was that confusion. He had beautiful eyes and they made me calm the moment I locked with them. "A rollie?" I just nodded and realised why I was feeling so relaxed and light.

"Shit." I rested my head on my arms that were supported by my knees. "I think I need to go home…"

Axel just looked at me. "Well I'm going to go ask for a few of those… 'rollies'" He used his fingers and quotations and ruffled my hair and ducked away for a few moments. Out of the corner of my eye I saw someone sitting how I was and she looked a little familiar.

"Xion!" I called over to her. She lifted her head and dabbed her eye and shot me a fake smile.

"Hey Roxas."

"May I sit with you?"

"Sure." She ushered me over and rested her head on my shoulder.

"Are you ok?" I ask heading her my 'rollie'. She took a puff and held in. It looked like she was trying to compose herself and when she had, Xion let out a large cloud of smoke.

"Naminé," A large sigh escaped her lips and she looked at me. "She- she," Xion sighed again. "How did you approach Axel, or how did he approach you?" She was looking right at me wishful, like I was about to tell her some big secret. I felt something hit the very pit of my stomach. My heart? Probably…

"Xion, he and I aren't together, like yea, I like him, but ive only known him for a day. Not even that. We aren't together…" my voice trailed off.

Axel barged out. "Hey guys! Stop looking so gloomy, why don't we head back to Roxas' place for our own private party?" Xion's facial expression changed and looked rather pleased at the idea.

"Ok sure!"

Once again Axel had disappeared so Xion and I headed towards the front doors and headed to my end of campus.

"So I'm new to all this Xion, but please please correct me if I'm wrong, but you like girls, don't you?" Xion just looked to the stars and inhaled another puff and smiled to herself. "Yes."

I felt bad because I didn't know how to react. Is anyone but me straight around here..? Well I'm starting to second guess that last bit…

"is it nice?" It seems my mouth now has a mind of its own.

"Is what nice?" She continued looking to the sky.

"Knowing"

She looked over at me kinda sad looking.

"You don't know… your preference?" I just shook my head

"No I never got t-" Midsentence, I was swept off my feet, and feeling like a damsel rather than a confused young adult, I still felt a little sad. Xion handed me the cigarette and I copied what she did; I took a large drag in and held it, I let my head fop into the nook of Axel's neck and exhaled.

"Why have you done this to me." He looked rather confused at the statement rather than question.

"Oh hush up you whinny little girl." He giggled into my check.

We finally arrived at my dorm and we all sat on my queen bed. I on one end and Axle and Xion on the other. We'd been talking for a while, me trying to tell Axel what Xion and I were talking about before but without actually telling him. I think we both just confused him. Xion just smiled at me. I decided I liked her. Not the way I think I like Axel but more in a companion way. Like I trust her and know she does me.

There was a knock on the door as I lit another joint.

"Hello, Roxas?" Naminé's head pocked from behind the door and Xion's face lit up in confusion. Axel leaned over to her and whispered in her ear. "You can thank me later." She shot him a grin.

We were all on the bed passing around 2 joints and decided to play strip blackjack. Xion was good, she had all but took off her jacket. Naminé and I were down to our underwear. Stupid risk taking. I kept catching Axel staring mindlessly several times and made my face warm up.

"So Axel, when are you going to join Roxas and me?" Her eyes were narrow as she ran her hands down her sides to her garter belt and flicked a strap connecting her garter to her stockings. What, when had she put those on?

I saw Xion's face light up as mine did earlier today and I was worried she was actually going to end up with a nose bleed, and Naminé noticed this. She threw down her cards revealing a score of 30 and her hands trailed up her sides and into her hair, then-

"Ok, I think that's enough for me," Axel said abruptly and walking over to the other bed and pulled out his phone. I looked back over at Xion and she was like a statue. Her mouth was gaping at the show in front of her and Naminé started at Xion's clothes.

"Please no messes on my bed I said taking the only lit joint from Xion and joined Axel on the other bed, Xion's skinnies had been thrown on the floor.

"Hey" I said climbing over him towards the wall. He stopped me mid straddle, chucked his phone and took the joint.

"I still haven't figured you out." He said taking a long drag and holding it. After, he narrowed his eyes at me for some time.

"I don't I have either." I shied my eyes to something else. Axel hunted for my gaze and sat up but did so I was still sitting on his lap.

"May I please do something that might help?" His eyes almost looked pleading. It didn't happen straight away, so I let my cheek linger on his for a moment. My lips were just millimetres from his and I was going to do this. I was finally going to get my first kiss. I closed the gap and the room went quiet. The girls on the other bed had stopped and were watching sin unfold. It felt almost like this small act of skin touching freed something inside me. I felt amazing and pushed harder, more eager. I raised myself above him and let my fingers trace his face.

He finally pulled away and I was sure I was blushing. The girls continued and more clothes hit the floor, I couldn't take my eyes off this crazy haired redhead. I was really looking forward to the freedom that came with being an adult, in uni and a 3 hour drive from my parents.

A/N; yes yes yes, lemony goodness *seedy smile* I love this chapter already so much! I've started strong and taken my time but be prepared for things to slow down and get to fall in love with everyone and form unhealthy bonds with certain characters.