Happy Little Pill- Trite Sivan (Trxye)
I stopped as the door slammed behind me. I was not of the sort, I was no cheater and now, thanks to him, I am one. I cheated on somehone who loves me, someone who is willing to bail out my ex-lover just to make me happy, but I'm not sure if I'll be holy when he gets out anymore.
"Agatha?!" Tedros called out from the other side. I tried to fight back turning, but I felt my feet slide the other way. My hands pressed against the wooden door, sighing to myself.
"Agatha, please come back." He rasped, sounding as if in tears also. His voice had cracked, causing me to soften. "I'm sorry," He sighed continuing, "I don't know what came over me... Just- please forgive me." He mumbled.
I watched my hand gesture to the handle. I bit my lip as I felt myself being emotionally drawn back to him again. I shook it off, turning the other way and walked off.
He didn't try to follow me, he wasn't allowed out from where I was. I ran my fingers through my hair, feeling oddly scared. I groaned as layers of anxiety weighed over me, taking over my thoughts and my feelings.
"Agatha, are you okay?" Oliver asked, looking up to face me. I ignored him, walking by. "I want to walk home." I heaved, pushing the door open.
"But the meeting isn't finished yet." He called back, turning to face me. I didn't hesitate to look at him. My glare fixed on him. "I've had quite enough of it today " I deadpanned. He nodded, watching me take my exit.
I squinted as the sunlight blinded me, yet I felt quite relieved to be out of that place. I fiddled with my fingers. What was I going to do? I didn't want to tell him, that was for sure. But I also didn't want to keep it from him.
I groaned, pushing my fingers through my raven-coloured hair. Could this get anymore complicated?
I had left my buspass at home, so I was walking home tonight. I cringed. Colten had always been good to me, from the day we met. I felt compelled to him, an odd feeling I had never felt in my whole life.
I felt like he was hypnotizing me. Every time I was around him,I felt something. An odd love or lust, as if I couldn't keep my eyes away from his.
But now, because of Tedros, I don't think that feeling will be as strong as before. Tedros is a charm, something I don't want to lose, but I have too if I want to be with Colton.
"Hey," I felt cold hands touch my shoulder, causing me to gasp. I turned around swiftly, feeling an irking consume my feelings. He softened his face. He was not that old, about in his thirties. I knew him, he came to see me when I performed the other night. He was always wearing a suit, mainly because he was a business man.
"Are you Little Lady?" He questioned, staring at the different attire I was wearing. I eyed him as his stare landed on my chest. "And so?" I questioned, folding my hands over my chest.
"Wanted to ask if you could do a private show for me." I nodded slowly. What a pervert. "Um, I don't think I'm played to do that kind of stuff." I breathed, causing him to shudder.
He pulled out a poster from his pocket. It was the poster Keg made for me. The image was in a dark place with only a peek of light which was turned my way. I sat on a chair leaning forward on it, my hands touching my knees as my car ears stood tall above me. I grimaced, staring at my chest live which was very clear to see.
On the poster it said I was allowed to give private performances. I never agreed to that and it was never in the contract.
"Why don't you talk to Keg about this. I am performing tonight anyway." He nodded, winking before turning around. Repulsed, I shuddered.
Everyday I grew to hate my job more and more, maybe it was a sign for me to quit, but access rding to the contract, I had to work a full six months before I decided my future.
I rang the doorbell, waiting for him to answer. I had finally got home after a long forty-five minute walk. He opened the door, his eyes dropped down on me as he knelt on the door.
"How was the visit?" He asked. He sounded tired, I probably woke him up from his sleep. I giggled nervously, avoiding eye contact. I stared ahead, pretending to be looking at something else. "Eventful."
I stepped in, leaving him confused. I hadn't had breakfast today and it was already 12:13. I shrugged. I had lost my appetite after the little incident between Tedros and I.
All I did was thinking and that made me more upset. "Are they releasing him anytime soon?" I thought for a while. I didn't want Tedros to get out of jail after what happened today. I know talking about that was wrong and one sided, but at the moment, I never want to see him again.
"Agatha, are you alright. You're awfully quiet and you haven't answered my question." I nodded, sitting back on my seat. "It's up to you now whether you want Tedros out or not " I mumbled, fiddling with my fingers.
"Do you want me to allow him to leave?" I shot him a glare, causing him to look at me, quite confused. I didn't want anyone to ask me about what I wanted because it wasn't my choice. They should figure it out on their own and without me.
"I don't know. What do you want?" I asked. staring at him. He thought for a while, sitting next to me. "I don't know what I want either. I just want you to be happy."
I cringed, the guilt rising. I felt a sudden nausea swallow me. Colton stared at me, quite confused. "I want him to stay in jail." I gaped, staring at him. Neither did I, like I said, but I expected him to want to do the right thing.
"This isn't about the fight you had with him earlier, is it?" He nodded slowly, but I knew he was lying. I sighed, anger somehow boiling inside of me. "This is about me, isn't it? You're jealous!"
He widened his eyes, quite set back. "I'm not jealous, Agatha." He defended, crossing his arms. "Yes you are..." I pressed, getting up. He did the same, his face now red. "Why wouldn't I be?!" He yelled.
"You've known him for so long and you have a bond," He ran his fingers through his hair. "I've only known you for a day or two and I know you're my girlfriend but I can't help but feel like you love him more." He sighed, searching my face for answers.
I was speechless. I tried to say words, but for some reason they just wouldn't come out. "As I thought." He said, turning around. I ran towards him, grabbing his arm and pulling him around. "It's not like that. I promise."
"What happened today? Why was it so eventful?" I sighed, feeling my eyes and my throat burn. He turned to me, anger boiling inside his blood. "Prove me wrong! Prove me wrong Agatha!"
He stood so close to me, I could feel his breath harden on my skin and hair. "Agatha, tell me what happened." I ran my fingers through my hair, shielding my now wet face from him.
"He kissed me." I mumbled. "He what?" He rasped, causing me to shudder. I had never seen this side of Colton before and it kind of scared me.
"I asked how he was doing and he kissed me," I stared down at his fists which were now clentched. "But after that I left...and I told him it was wrong. I did, you must believe me." I fiddled with my fights once more, listening to him mutter things under his breath.
What he was saying wasn't pleasant at all. "When I find him, I'm gonna pound his fucking face and I don't care if I get into jail too." He turned around to walk away, but I grabbed him once more.
He turned back, grunted as he cornered me once again. I squinted, shielding my face with my arms as I stepped back.
He stopped, staring directly at me. I lowered my arms, showing my face to him. It was stained with tears and my eyes were red. He lowered his hands also, staring at me with shock.
"You-you-you thought I was going to hit you?" I lowered my head, gasping as he pulled me in for a hug. "Never," He started, "Never will I bet harm you or touch you, okay."
I stood in the same position, feeling his warmth. Everything felt normal again, nothing was wrong anymore, we were together again.
I smiled at him, a small smile but it was just enough to assure him that everything was fine.
Yes, I know you guys hate me for leaving you for so long without another chapter (two or three days tops) but I've been going crazy with my delivery which is meant to come today y'all. I'm stressing. I went on instagtam and all somanc talked about was his book and everyone kept on talking about inside jokes and I wanted to cry and throw myself in poop, maybe not but you get it.
I also had a bit of writers block because I felt like I diddnt want to complete this story. Tell me how you feel about that so I can support the decision I end up making.
Question time:
Should I let this story go and create a new one?
How do you feel about Colton and Tedros?
Do you know who Lana Del Rey is? 'Ultraviolence' and 'Shades of Cool' are somehow linked to her songs. Why?
Should Agatha just go back to Gavaldon and ditch all the drama?
I've been avoiding talking about Agatha's phone cuz at the moment, she doesn't have one o_O
Forgot that, my book just came and it smells lovely crying right now