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Chapter 60

Sighing, Arizona made her way back down to the bottom floor of her clinic with the flowers from her flowers in hand. Seeing Teddy in the back of the clinic in the stock room, she entered watching her friend go through supplies.

"What's up, Arizona?" Teddy smiled as she counted stock of the supplies. Noticing her friends mood had changed a little since she went up stairs to her wife's ward.

"Nothing." She breathed, sitting her flowers down on the table before hoping up beside them. "No patients?" She asked looking down the hall seeing there was no charts in the rack.

"No, it's a pretty slow week actually. I knew Jackson was going to be off, so I didn't over book you this week." Teddy said, getting a few box of gloves and tongue depressors to stock some rooms.

"So I heard you had a mighty fine break." She grinned, winking at her friend.

"Oh god." Arizona groaned, covering her eyes up with her hands. In the heat of the moment, she never once thought about being quiet.

"Those were here words exactly." Teddy laughed, seeing the look of shock on the blondes face. "You forget, these walls aren't soundproof.. and Cals office is right above me."

Shaking her head, "Fantastic." The lighter blonde said sarcastically.

"What's got you so outta shape. Shouldn't you be a little more happier for someone who just had office sex?" Teddy asked her friend. "Oh.. was it bad? Did she not deliver?" She teased.

"Calliope never fails in that department, if anything she's always upping her game."

"Then what is it?" Teddy asked, leaning up against the wall to talk to her friend.

"Well you know how I told you I was going to surprise her with the tickets to Miami for a few days, since she keeps putting the trip off herself?" Arizona asked.

"Yeah? Why does she keep putting it off? You said Maria was improving and was even home now.. right?"

"Yeah, but her mom and Aria told Callie that her grandma wasn't the same right now. She has to use her breathing machine for the better part of the day right and at all times when she's sleeping." She sighed. "And Callie doesn't want to see her like that. And I understand that, Teddy. I really do. But Aria has called me several times since New Years, trying to get me to get Callie to come out there. They all know she is Maria's favorite, she makes it no secret most times so Aria, Lucia and I were thinking maybe that's what Maria needed you know? A pick me up, you know Callie can change the mood of the room just by walking in."

"Yeah.. did you tell her about the tickets?"

"Yup. And she's pissed at me now. I canceled our appointment with Addison tomorrow so we could go to Miami, because I know when we start the baby process she won't want to leave. And she needs to go visit her family right now." To Arizona, Callie's family should take front seat to them starting to talk to Addison about starting their family right now. "She didn't even give me a second to tell her I rescheduled it for next month. That was the soonest she could get us in, even though I hated having to push it back that long, it was worth it."

"Addison couldn't get you in sooner?" Teddy asked.

"No, she had already moved around her schedule to fit us in for tomorrow. Even Addie thought this Miami trip was more important right now." Arizona said.

But.." Teddy asked, not understanding. "Why is Cal pissed?"

"Because she told her parents that she wasn't ready to see her grandma like that and she is pissed cause I canceled the appointment with Addison so we could go to Miami. So she went into a little spill about how I've changed my mind, that I don't want a baby with her now. She didn't even give me a chance to explain before she ran off to surgery."

"Ouch."

"Yeah. Ouch." The blonde said, leaning her back against the wall. "I can't believe she said that to me Teddy. After everything I've told her about wanting a baby. I just can't help but feel that she just gave in on this to please me and the she's not really wanting this. Maybe we shouldn't have one right now." She said quietly, fitting with the button on her white coat.

"I've talked to her Arizona, many times actually. She wants this." Teddy said, walking over the her friend and placing her hand on her shoulder. "She was just making sure that this is what you really wanted."

"Well I've been all for it. I don't know what else to do to show her, Teddy. And even if I did, I'm not doing anything else to show her that I want this. If she wants to accuse me of not wanting this just because I canceled our appointment for tomorrow to go see her grandmother who has been very sick, then so be it." Arizona shrugged.

"Arizona, don't be like that." Teddy said, pushing her friends flowers aside to hope up on the table beside the blonde.

"Why Teddy? With the exception of Christmas, every single time we've talked about this we have fought. It's not worth it to me anymore."

"You two need to sit down and talk like two rational adults and quit accusing the other of not wanting this, Arizona."

"I know.. but that will probably start yet another fight." The married woman sighed. "I'm tired of fighting with her. I swear I think we've fought more in the past three months of married life then we did our first year together." She said, dangling her legs off the table.

"But you guys went through a lot of crappy shit that first year and that brought you closer together." Teddy said.

"So are you saying this baby thing is pushing us apart? Because it's not." Arizona said. She felt the same for her wife as she did on their wedding day and even though they were fighting, it didn't change how they felt for each other.

"I'm not saying that and you know it." Teddy said, playfully pushing her friend on the shoulder. "She loves you and you love her, none of the rest matters."

"You're right." Arizona smiled, thinking of her wife. "I'd rather be fighting with her about this then anyone else in the world."

"Why don't you go on home and relax. We don't have anymore patients scheduled. Go and enjoy a hot bath with a glass of wine or take the dogs to the park."

"No. I'm fine, Teds. Thanks for talking to me though." Arizona's said, leaning her head on her friends shoulder.

"Hey what can I say, I'm an awesome friend." The darker blonde laughed. "And I know you're thinking about sticking around here after work to talk to her because she working late. Am I right?"

"I've thought about it." She laughed, Teddy always knew her every move before she even made them.

"Go home, she's not going to have time to chit chat anyway, she's got back to back surgeries right now." Teddy said, hopping off the table, seeing that it was almost time to close up the clinic for the day. "Hey.. Henry and I are going to Joes after I get off, why don't you join us?"

"Rain check?" She asked, not feeling like being in a group setting right now. Receiving a nod. "Anything needing signed off on before I head home?" She asked, standing up.

"Yeah, there's a few papers on your office desk that needs your John Hancock." Teddy said, collecting the supplies she gathered.

"Will do. I'll leave them on your desk." Arizona said, walking out of the supply room. Thinking a hot bath and a glass of wine sounded fantastic at the moment.

"Hey Zo?" Teddy caught her friend as she was about to leave the clinic through the main door. Since Callie's attack last year if they had to leave separately they'd always leave through the main entrance of the building.

"Yeah?" She asked, turning around as she pulled on her coat.

"You're okay, right?" Her friend asked.

"I'm fine, Teddy." Arizona gave her a half smile. "I'll see ya in the morning, kay."

"You know, if you still want to talk.. I can come over and we can have a girls night.. Pizza and wine?" Teddy offered.

"No, you have plans with Henry. I don't want you to cancel on him because Callie's pissed at me. I'm good, Teddy, but maybe soon we'll have our girls night? I just want to go home and take a hot bath and then go to bed."

Nodding, "Just talk to her, Arizona."

"We'll see. Goodnight Teds." Arizona told her best friend.

"Goodnight."

Walking out of her last patients room, Callie sighed to herself when she saw it was well past nine at night as she quickly made it to her office to change out of her scrubs. Looking at her phone hoping to see something... anything from her wife, seeing she didn't have anything except a text from Teddy asking here if she wanted to meet for a drink at Joes after she was finished for the night. Assuming her wife was with her best friend, Callie accepted her offer even though she was slightly disappointed she didn't get the invite from a different blonde. Callie had plenty of time during her last surgeries to think about Arizona's gesture earlier in the day. She knew her wife's heart was in the right place when she had purchased the plane tickets, but she couldn't understand why Arizona couldn't accept that she just wasn't ready to go. And don't get her started on yet another baby accusation. She didn't understand, with the many of things they had been through, why was this the hardest for them to talk to each other about? Maybe it was because they both wanted it so bad they were afraid they were pressuring the other into wanting it when they weren't ready. To say she felt terrible for accusing her wife of lying would be an understatement. She felt like pure shit for saying what she said to her wife and she wish she could take it back, but she couldn't. Making her slow trek to Joes down the street, Callie entered the bar immediately looking for her wife so they could talk. Seeing Teddy seated at the counter with Henry, she made her way to the bar and say down beside the dark haired blonde.

"Red wine, Joe?" She said, taking a seat on the stool.

"Callie... you made it." Teddy said, taking a drink of her beer.

"I did. Where's Arizona?" She asked, looking around for her wife.

"I don't know.. home I guess, I tried to get her to come out but she said she was just wanted to go home and go to bed." She shrugged. "Something wrong with her?" She asked, seeing if Callie would talk about what had happened earlier.

"Oh, I thought she'd be here with you." Callie said, brushing off the other question while taking a large drink of her wine, facing forward and not looking at her friends glare.

"She was fine and chipper all morning, but the next thing I know.. she was just.. I don't know.. down on herself, I guess you could say!" Teddy shrugged, trying to get Callie talking.

"Teddy.." Callie sighed, "I know she's already talked to you about it, so just ask."

"You know she's only looking out for you right?"

"It doesn't feel like that, it just feels like she's going behind my back and doing something against my wishes." Callie said, swirling her wine.

"That's exactly what she did, because she's looking out for you and wants what's best for you." Teddy said, taking a swig of her beer.

"How is this what's best for me?" Callie laughed. "Going and seeing my family isn't what's best for me, having my wife not going behind my back and do things I didn't want is what's best for me."

"You almost lost your grandma, Cal."

"You don't have to remind me. I'm well aware of that." Callie rolled her eyes. "I know that she did it out of love and I do.. I really appreciate her gesture, but I don't want to go yet Teddy. I don't understand why she doesn't get it."

"She does. She gets it one hundred percent." Teddy reiterated.

"So why did she buy tickets for tomorrow, if she gets it?"

"Because she knows what it feels like to not say goodbye to someone. She knows what it's like to live with that.. we both do." Teddy replied. "And you have more time now, time that you didn't think you were going to have. She just wants you to spend some time with her."

"I just don't want to see my nana like that Teds." Callie said, resting her head in her hands.

"Awe, Cal. I know you don't sweetie." Teddy said, rubbing her friends back to sooth her. "No one wants to see their loved one like that."

"I was hateful with her earlier." Callie said, wiping her wet eyes and recollecting herself. "She canceled our appointment with Addison tomorrow. And I said some things I probably shouldn't have."

"She gets why you're upset with her for buying the tickets. She was afraid you'd get mad, but she said she still had to do it." The dark blonde said. "But this whole baby thing.." She shook her head. "..you both keep hurting the other one over it and she's getting tired of it Cal. She told me she was at the point of not wanting it anymore because it keeps causing fights."

"I know we do." She sighed. "But I want this.. you know I do."

"I do know, and you know she does too. But she's at the point of not wanting it because she said anytime you guys talk about it, it's a fight."

"It didn't cause one at Christmas or anytime after, until today." Callie whispered.

"Because you said she was backing out." Teddy said.

"I know. I was just mad when she told me she bought the tickets. I didn't really mean it, Teddy. I swear."

"Did you hurt her because your hurting?"

"Seriously Callie asked, "You think I'd do that? I love her. You don't set out to hurt the person you love, no matter what Teddy."

"I'm just asking, Cal. Don't get all defensive. I'm trying to understand where your each coming from." Teddy said, motioning to Joe to bring another round.

"I was such an ass to her, when she was only trying to help." Callie said, finishing off her glass of wine. "God why didn't I see that." Noticing it was after ten at night. "I should go home and face the music huh?" She said, trying to decide if she was ready to face things or not.

"It's a start." Teddy said, watching her friend stand from her seat. "Just talk to her about everything."

"I will. Will you take care of my schedule for the rest of the week?" Callie asked.

"Yea, I'll push your appointments."

"Thanks Teddy." The brunette said, throwing a ten down to cover her drink.

Walking into her dark house, Callie threw her keys on the table in the foyer. The whole drive home she had been thinking about what she needed to do, finally making a decision when she pulled her keep into the drive. "Arizona?" She said, walking into the living room with a fire roaring in the fire place. "Arizona." Callie said, walking further into the room. Seeing her wife cuddled up asleep by the fire with Charlie snuggled in her arms as River laid flush against the blondes back. Smiling to herself at the cuteness, Callie pulled her phone out of her pocket and quickly snapped a picture of her wife and dogs. Posting the picture to her Facebook page with the caption 'My Whole World.'

Taking the throw off the back of the couch that their friends had bought them the christmas before last, Callie laid it over her wife so she wouldn't get cold before she made her way upstairs into their bedroom. Pulling her suitcase from their closet, the brunette packed a few outfits and some toiletries before she decided to take a quick shower to wash the day off her. After getting herself cleaned, Callie finished up her packing and made her way downstairs with her bag in hand. Deciding to sleep down stairs near her wife, she knew that there was no use in trying to sleep in their bed without her. And she didn't want to wake the blonde either because she knew Arizona had trouble sometimes going back to sleep after she's been woke up in the middle of the night unless it was for a little love'n from her wife. Grabbing an extra cover in the closet, Callie laid down behind River who was still snuggled up to her wife.

After getting home from work that evening, Arizona went straight for a hot bath and a glass of wine to relax her body. Not spending too much time in the soothing water, she decided on lying near the warm fire with her dogs as she waited up on her wife to get home, not meaning to fall asleep to the lull cracklings of the wood.

"Callie?" Arizona husked, raising her head when she heard a shuffling behind her. Looking up at the clock, she noticed that she had been asleep for more than two hours waiting on her wife's return home.

"I'm here, go back to sleep." Callie said, from behind her trying to get comfy as she could on the floor.

Rolling over, Arizona pushed River out of the way to be closer to her wife. "I'm sorry, Callie." She broke, scooting into the brunettes front.

"I know, me too.. me too." Callie said, wrapping a arm around the blonde. "I'm sorry for leaving things the way I did, but I had to head to surgery. I shouldn't have gotten mad like I did either. You were just trying to protect me."

"I was. I don't want you to ever feel like I do." Arizona said, not wanting her wife to ever have to live with the regret of not being able to tell someone she loved goodbye when she had the chance.

"I know." Callie whispered. "Go back to sleep. We'll talk about it tomorrow before I leave."

"Where?" Arizona propped herself up on her elbow. "Where are you going?"

"I am going to Miami for a few days. I need to face things just like you said." The brunette answered.

"I'm going with you."

"No, Arizona." She shook her head. "There is no use in shutting the clinic down for me. Avery's away and someone needs to stay and work. I won't be but a day or two and then I'll be back." Callie said.

"But I want to go with you. I want to be with you." Arizona retorted.

"I know." Callie said, stroking her wife's hair. "But I think I should do this alone."

"But you don't have to do it alone, I'll be there." Arizona tried.

"I know, but the clinic is more important. My grandma is getting better, it would be different if she wasn't. I'll be okay, sweetie."

"Are you sure, because the clinic doesn't matter." The blonde asked her wife.

"I am." Callie said, holding her wife tighter.

"Okay." The blonde gave in even though she wanted to be with her wife. "Are you... made at me?" She asked, burying her head into her wife's chest while holding onto the brunettes waist.

"It's more like, are you made at me?" Callie whispered. "I'm the one who got mad and bent out of shape and I shouldn't have. I'm sorry."

"Why do we keep doing this, Callie?" Arizona began to cry on her wife a few minutes later. "Why do we keep hurting each other over having a baby?"

Closing her eyes at her wife's statement to keep her tears at bay, Callie held onto her wife as she cried. "I don't know baby." She said, kissing the top of her head. "But I promise, we'll figure it out. Don't you worry."

"I don't want to do it any more if this is what keeps happening." Arizona sniffed. "I don't want to fight with you, Callie."

"I don't either. We'll sit down and talk about it when I get back. Okay? We'll both say how we feel about it, without getting mad or upset cause I know we both want this, Arizona." Callie said, caressing her wife's back.

"I'd be lying if I let you believe what you said earlier didn't hurt." Arizona mumbled into her chest.

Sighing, "I know. And no matter how much I want too, I can't take back what I said. It was out of my mouth before I thought about it. I didn't mean to but I still said it and I'm sorry. I didn't mean it hurt you honey." Callie soothed her crying wife. "I'm sorry, Arizona." Pulling back to look at her wife. "I promise okay, we'll work this out." She said cupping her wife's face.

Nodding, Arizona didn't say a word. "Lets talk about it later though, right now I just want to lay here and hold each other before I have to spend a few days away from you." Callie said, leaning in to lightly peck pink lips as the blonde held on to her while the even breath sounds from the brunette lulled her back to sleep after a few minutes.

Happy New Year Everyone!