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Chapter 65
Looking down into the chocolate eyes of her wife seeing nothing but truth and love in her face, she couldn't keep her tears at bay any longer. When they started this talk, Arizona didn't seen it end very well. But after Callie had finally been open and honest with her, she couldn't keep her emotions in any longer. "I thought... you said you just wanted it to be... us for a while?" She asked, drying the tears in the corners of her eyes.
"I did.. I still do." Callie said, drying her wife's face with her sleeve. "We've been married for over three months now and it will still be at least three months before we even try to get pregnant and another nine if it works the first try and realistically the odds of it taking the first try are aren't the best. So we have at least another year or more of just us."
"So you.." She said, taking a ragged breath. "You really want this? No more throwing it up on each other's faces?"
"I still feel I won't be a great mom, but I think every woman feels that from time to time, right?"
"Yeah." Arizona agreed. "I know I have, I think it's natural." She said, brushing stray brown hair behind her wife's ear. "But I think you'd be an amazing mommy."
Nodding, "I know with out a doubt that I'll love this baby with all I have. Just like I love you, I want this, sweetie." Callie truthfully replied. "I promise, no more hurting." She said, as tears streamed down her wife's face, causing her own tears to run down. "And if one of us is having doubts about something we'll talk about it. No putting it off or brushing it to the side, okay?"
"O... okay..." Arizona nodded before burying her head in her wife's chest and sobbing. She could feel that this was finally going to go right for them and she couldn't be any more elated.
"Shh..." Callie soothed, as she silently cried too. They both say they silently, letting their talk sink in for several minutes. "You.. gonna leave me having like that?" Callie teased, after both their tears died down.
"Like what." Arizona raises up, and dried her face with her sleeve.
"You agreed to talking about our doubts, but you didn't answer my first question." She smiled.
Smiling through her tears, "Yes, Calliope, yes." She said, throwing her arms around her wife's neck. "I want so much to have a baby with you." She said, kissing the side of the brunettes head.
Feeling her wife wrap her arms around her, Callie held her tight. "We're having a baby!" She mumbled into her neck.
"We're having a baby." Arizona pulled back and smiled. "I love you, baby."
"I love you, too honey." Callie said, leaning in for a kiss. "Umm.." She said, looking back to the ocean as Arizona continued to sit on her lap. "This brings me to the real reason Addie called."
"I thought you said she called to check on Maria?"
"She did.. but that's not the main reason she called me.. well.. she actually called you first but you didn't answer."
"Well what did she want?" Arizona questioned.
"She said she had a cancelation and wanted to know if we wanted it." Callie said, looking back up to her wife. "She needs to know now. Because if we don't, she needs to call someone else."
"When?"
"Tomorrow at six."
"Tomorrow.. tomorrow?" Arizona furrowed her brows.
"Yes." Callie laughed. "Tomorrow, tomorrow. If you want to keep our appointment for next month we'll wait or if you want.. we'll go home in the morning."
"But... we have plans, with Aria and James tomorrow." Arizona said.
"If we want to go home, they'll understand."
Callie shrugged. "We'll just tell them we have some issues that came up at the practice that needs to be handled."
"You don't, care to leave? I mean.. you were going to spend some time with your Nana."
"I'll spend some time with her in the morning. I'm sure she'll understand. Besides she wouldn't want us to put this off because of her." Callie said as Arizona stuck her hands in her sweatshirt pocket and pulled out her phone.
Hitting the redial number, Arizona never took her eyes off her wife. "Hey, Addie?" She said, "We'll see you tomorrow." Hanging up she threw her wife's phone down in the sand beside them. "No turning back."
"No turning back." Callie smiled and kissed her wife's lips one more time. "Let me up." Callie said, patting the blondes butt.
"What are you doing?" Arizona asked, standing up and dusting the sand off her butt.
"I'll be right.. back." Callie said quickly kissing her lips again before turning to leave. "No.. Wait.." She said turning back around for one more small kiss. "I. Can't. Get. Enough. Of. Your. Kisses." She said between pecks. "Okay.. wait right here."
Running back to her parents house, Callie grabbed a few things she needed for the night and headed back towards the beach to spend the rest of the night with her wife. "What are you doing?" She asked when she returned.
"Well, I figured if I had to wait here, we would be spending a little more time down here so I figured we could use a fire. The winds a little chilly." Arizona said, shutting the lid on the box where Carlos kept fire wood for occasions like this.
"Well, it is January you know." Callie laughed, sitting her items down in the sand.
"Alright, smart ass. It is Miami you know."
"I know.." She smiled. "That's why I thought maybe we could sleep out here." Callie said spreading out a blanket.
"Oh yeah?" Arizona smiled, as she lit the fire.
"Yep." Callie said, sitting down on the blanket and throwing the pillow she brought behind her back. "Come warm up." She said patting the cover in front of her.
"I love this." She said, sitting down between her wife's legs as Callie wrapped herself around her.
"Me too." Callie said resting her chin on her wife's shoulder. "I wish Seattle was warm like this all season."
"No way, I love the snow." She said leaning her head against her wife's.
Slipping her hands under Arizona's sweatshirt, Callie caressed her bare skin feeling her wife flinch at her touch. "I brought us some drinks if your thirsty?"
"Mmm.. Wine?" She asked as she leaned back into her wife's embrace.
"No, I figured that seeing one of us was going to have to stop before long we could practice." The brunette laughed into her wife's neck when she whined.
"What did you bring?"
"I brought water and orange mango juice." Callie said, grabbing the two bottles. "Thirsty?"
"Yes, juice please." She said, taking the bottle from her wife.
"So.."
"So.." Arizona said, taking a small drink of her juice.
"Tomorrow's our appointment." Callie said, slipping her hands back under her wife's shirt and resting them flat against her stomach. "And we've not discussed which one of us is going to be the houser of our soon to be little blob?" She whispered.
"Do you want to do it?" Arizona asked, turning to meet her wife's gaze. "I think you would be absolutely breathtaking and so beautiful with a baby bump." She smiled, resting her forehead against the side of her wife's face.
"I'll do it.. If that's what you want, but I can't picture our first baby without your blue eyes or your magical dimples." Callie said, kissing each one.
"So you were serious, you really want me to carry?" Arizona asked. She was so excited to see Callie pregnant, she hadn't gave anything else a thought lately.
"Yeah." She replied shyly. "I want to take care of you and spoil you and our little blob."
"Why do you keep calling it that?" Arizona laughed.
"Because that's what it will look like at first." She laughed into her wife's ear.
"I think.. baby sounds best." Arizona said, running her hands up and down her wife's thighs. "Ooo or tiny human." She laughed.
"But you're already my baby." Callie said, placing a kiss her on the cheek as she continued to caress her wife's stomach that could be an incubator for their baby in a matter of a few months.
"And you'll always be mine, no matter what Maria says." She chuckled.
"So.. you'll do it?" Callie asked hopeful. It wasn't that she didn't want to carry a baby herself, because she did. But since having that dream in the hospital when she was attacked, she couldn't imagine not seeing her wife pregnant first.
"If you're sure that's what you want.." Arizona said, biting her lip. "I'll have your baby."
"Really?" She asked, showing her biggest grin.
"On one condition." The blonde said, holding up her index finger. "You have to agree to do this..."
"I'll do anything!" Callie said waiting on her wife's request.
"You have to rub coco butter on my belly everyday."
"That's all?" Callie asked. "You'll have my baby if I rub lotion all over you.. Seems like the best deal ever." She laughed, slipping her hand in the waist band of Arizona's sweats.
"Twice a day.. morning... and night.." Arizona breathed as her wife's hands softly caressed her skin under her belly button. "Oooh.. And my boobs too, I want to avoid stretch marks at all costs."
"Mmm twice a day.. even better.." She said kissing her wife below the ear. "And the stretch marks by the way... wouldn't be a bad thing, just battle scars of carrying my baby."
"You may say that now but it would be a different story if I told you, you had one right right here." Arizona said, pointing at the side of her wife's hip.
"I do not.." Callie protested. "Do I?" She said, dropping her hands from her wife's stomach and pulling down the waist of her sweats to look. "Arizona do I?" She asked, checking her hip out. "I can't see.. it's too dark."
"Relax Calliope." Arizona laughed, swatting her wife's hands away from her hip. "Does it even matter?"
"Yes!" Callie exclaimed.
"Really Callie? You just told me it wouldn't matter."
"But on you it wouldn't. Me on the other hand, I've not had a baby." She said, still trying to look at her hip in the dark. "It just means I'm..."
"Stop!" Arizona cut her off. "Don't you dare say it. You are beautiful so stop looking. It doesn't matter if you have some or not."
"Some? I have more?"
"Stop, Calliope. No you don't have any. Besides, I didn't marry you for your flawless skin." She said giving it a second thought. "Okay maybe I did a little." She giggled as Callie squeezed her sides. "And I don't care what it looks like, even when you get old and saggy, I'll still think you're stunning."
"Not helping." The brunette pouted.
"I'm just making a point. They're not a bad thing, I.. just want to avoid them if I can... Plus it's a reason for you to give me a good rub down twice a day." The blonde laughed.
"You're lucky I believe you... if someone else pointed out that I had some, I'd be crying right now." Callie said, wrapping herself around her wife again.
"Why would you be crying?" Arizona asked softly.
"Because, I.."Callie sighed. "I had a lot of body issues growing up. And I fought with it up until I met you."
"Really?" She asked shocked. She couldn't remember a time Callie had shied away from her when they first got together. "Because you never struck me as someone insecure, you've always seemed so at ease with your body. What made you stop?"
"You did." The brunette answered truthfully.
"I did?"
"Yes, you. From the first day.. you've always told me how beautiful I was, no one had ever said that to me." Callie said, resting her chin on her wife's shoulder again. "From that day forward you have made me feel beautiful and pretty."
"You are, Calliope. You are absolutely the most beautiful person I have ever seen, and I'm not just saying that." She said, turning towards her wife.
"I know you're not, you make me feel pretty every day."
"Good, you deserve to feel and be told every day."
"You do." Callie said, leaning on for a kiss. "If I ever have doubts, all I have to do it go back to your very first journal entry."
"Why?" Arizona questioned, trying to remember what she wrote back then.
"Let's see.. I think your words were 'Holy shit, I just met the face of God... if God was a woman, a gorgeous Latin Goddess to be exact.'" Callie laughed.
"You remember that, word for word?"
"I do." The brunette smiled. "I had the big head after I read that on our honeymoon and I basically all but seduced you in your sleep after I read it."
"That was the sensitizer cream morning huh?" Arizona smiles, remembering that particular morning.
"Yep."
"Ya know, you're not the only one who had some issues growing up." Arizona said, turning around just enough to slide her arm behind her wife's back to cuddle into her.
"I find that hard to believe, you're perfect." Callie leaned in got a kiss.
"To you maybe, but I did. I used to get teased all the time in high school. They labeled me as Tiny Tits in gym class."
"That's why Teddy called you that one day." Callie said, receiving a nod from the blonde. "I'm sorry, baby." She said, kissing her forehead. "I'll have them know.. they're anything but tiny. Mmm.. and could you imagine what they'll look like when you get pregnant. I won't be able to take my eyes off them." She beamed, kissing her wife's clothes chest.
"Is my boobs all you ever think about?" Arizona asked as Callie hugged her.
"No, but I could get wet just thinking about how big they will get." She laughed. "I think about other things too."
"Oh yeah? Like what?" Arizona whispered.
"I think about mine too and how they feel against yours."
"Lord, I swear I think Mark is rubbing off on you too much sometimes." The blonde chuckled. Nudging her face against the brunettes, she skimmed her lips lightly over her wife's. "I love you." She said, finally kissing red lips.
"Me too, baby." Callie smiled into the kiss. "Can I... love you?" She asked, dipping her hands just inside her wife's waistband of her sweats hoping the blonde would get the hint.
Hearing that Callie wanted her right now sent a bolt of pleasure straight to her core. Looking around making sure they didn't have any unsuspected visitors, Arizona nodded her head giving her wife permission.
"Take this off." Callie said, pulling up the hem of Arizona's sweatshirt, revealing her white tank underneath. Cupping the bottom of her wife's left breast and giving it a good massage. "See.. perfect." She said leaning down and kissing her clothes breast. "I love you so much, Arizona." She said, raising back up to look into dark blue eyes.
Cupping her wife's face, "You are my endless love, Calliope Robbins." Arizona whispered, kissing red lips. Depending the kiss when she felt the brunettes hot tongue ghost over her lips seeking access.
Pulling back breathlessly from the kiss, "I don't think that name will ever get old." Callie mumbled, placing a kiss on her wife's shoulder, then slowly pressing a trail of soft kisses up to the blondes ear before sucking the lob into her mouth as her hand gently roamed her wife's smooth skin over her torso.
Feeling Callie's hand roam her body set her nerve endings on fire. Wanting to just bask in the feel of her wife, Arizona let her do as she please without hurry or want. "Mmm.." A low moan escaped her throat as the brunette softly caressed her stomach while she sucked on her pulse point.
Hearing her wife's pleasureful moans, Callie started kissing her way up to pink lips as her right hand dipped into the blondes pants. She felt goosebumps prick the blondes body when she lightly skimming her fingertips along her pelvic bone. "Feel good baby?" She asked, pulling out of the heated kiss.
"Mmhmm.." Arizona hummed, resting her head against Callie's as she massaged the brunettes boobs.
Dipping her fingers inside the blondes white cotton panties, Callie smiled when she felt the heat radiating off her wife. "I love making you feel good." She said, running her fingers through her wife's curls. "It's one of my favorite things to do. Knowing I'm the only one on this earth that can put this look on your face... It's intoxicating." She husked.
"I love you." She moaned as she felt her wife dip her finger through her folds. "So good baby.."
"You like that?" The brunette asked as she collected her wife's arousal in her finger.
"Yes." Arizona said, sucking her her bottom lip into her mouth and biting down as she felt Callie begin to circle her clit.
"You're so wet."
"You're so beautiful." Arizona countered.
Laughing at her wife's comeback, "You are literally dripping, Arizona." Callie said cupping the blondes center as her arousal dripped onto her palm. Collecting more pleasure from her core, Callie spread it through her wife's folds and over her clit, making for easy teasing. "I bet I could make you squirt like you make me." She whispered to her wife. She had became more comfortable with her body's reactions under her wife's hands after their talk on their honeymoon.
"You're so sure of yourself... aren't ya?" She winked, with a huge grin as Callie had her way with her.
"When it comes to your body I am. And just so you know, you're ruining my favorite pair of panties you have." She purred into her wife's neck.
"You say.. that about every pair." She laughed. "Plus... Mmm that feels good." She whispered as Callie rolled her clit between her fingers. "I'm not ruining them... you are." She whimpered as her wife added more pressure to her center.
"I can't help that you can make every pair look sexy." Callie said, gliding through her folds again.
"It's true, I do that all by myself." Arizona laughed. "Mmm..you feel so good." She mumbled as Callie teased her opening.
"You make everything look sexy." She said, kissing under her wife's chin. "May I?" The brunette asked, wanting permission to enter her wife.
"Do you.. Mmm.. have to even ask." Arizona said grabbing the brunettes face. "I want you in me, Calliope." She purred into her wife's lips as Callie sank her fingers inside her wife's wet core. "Yes.. righ... right there baby." She hissed causing Callie to pick up her pace. "Damn it."
"What?" Callie said, stopping her movements. "Did I hurt you?"
"No.. Continue.. Please." She begged her wife. "It's just that.. Mmm.." She said, licking her lips as Callie started her thrusts again. "I will miss our tequila sex."
"Mmm.. tequila sex is pretty spectacular." Shen chuckled as she ran her thumb over her wife's clit. "I could run and get us..."
"No.. No." Arizona said, grabbing her wife's wrist. "Don't stop. don't ever stop." She pleaded. "God yes..."
"I'll never stop loving you." Callie said, kissing her wife's lips. "I'll make sure you get your fill of tequila sex before your pregnant baby, deal?" She asked, curling. Her fingers deep inside of her wife.
"Mmhmm..." The blonde whimpered as she felt her orgasm begin to show. "Oh fuck, Callie."
Slowing her pace, "You want to come baby?" She whispered as she ghosted her thumb over her wife's throbbing nub.
"Yes..." Arizona husked, bucking her hips into her wife's hand. "Make me come, Callie. I need it."
"Mmm.. How do you want it love?" She asked as she curled her fingers inside her again.
"Here." She whimpered as she pulled her wife out of her and brought her fingers to her clit. "I need you here... Ahh.. so close baby."
Circling her wife's clit, Callie sped up her rhythm as she hear her wife's pleads letting her know she was about to explode. "Correté para mi". (Come for me, baby.)
Hearing her wife speak Spanish sent Arizona over the edge. "Oh god.." She gasped. "Faster baby.." She moaned as her orgasm shot through her body like a lightening bolt. "Cal.. Callieeee..." She breathed, reaching for her wife's wrist as she slowed down her ministrations on her core. "Oh god." She whimpered out of breath, laying her head on her wife's shoulder.
"Eres tan bella cuando te vienes" (You're so beautiful when you come.) Callie said, slowly circling her wife's clit as she came down from her high. Finally when the blondes body went completely limp against her, she pulled her fingers out and brought them to her mouth sucking Arizona's arousal off before collapsing back on the pillow behind her as The blonde flopped down with her. "God, I love to love you." She smiled licking her last finger clean.
Still panting from her blissful state, "I love.. that you love to love me." She laughed between breaths. "'Cause I love to love you too." She said, rolling off the brunette.
"No.. don't. Lay here." Callie said, stopping her from rolling off her. "I want to feel you." She said, wrapping her arms around the small of her wife's back. "When we get pregnant, we won't be able to lay like this anymore."
"Damn... that and tequila sex? Maybe we didn't think this through." Arizona huffed. "Totally worth is though right?" She grinned down at her wife.
"Totally." Callie smiled. "BĂ©same." (Kiss me) She said, leaning up to kiss pink lips.
"Can I ask you a question?" She asked, laying her head on her wife's chest.
"Anything." Callie replied, running her fingers through blonde hair.
"You said before, that you were afraid I was just rushing into having a baby and not thinking it through."
"I did." She admitted. "I know that before me, you never pictured kids in your future. I knew that from the beginning and somewhere along the way you changed your mind."
"I did." Arizona answered. "But you didn't believe me when I told you I was ready in Paris? Later you said it was because you wanted to give me time to make sure this was what I wanted this. If I told you I was ready, why did you doubt me?"
"Honestly, I was scared if we jumped into this so soon after getting married you'd resent me later on." She said as Arizona rested her chin on her chest and looked down at her. "I thought it would be me having to convince you to have a baby. And it was the opposite." She let out a laugh. "And I was scared that maybe you just wanted to keep me happy and that you knew having a baby would do that. So I just wanted some time to show you that I was already happy."
"I would never resent you, I wouldn't have said I wanted this if I hadn't thought about it. I knew you were happy, we both were.. are." The blonde stated.
"I was just being stupid." She said closing her eyes and shaking her head. "The whole thing was stupid. I should have just believed you and been over the moon excited. But of course I always have to take the more complicated route."
"Yeah, you should have." Arizona plainly stated, making Callie nervous that she was getting mad again. "We could have avoided some major arguments."
"I know." She whispered sadly. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay." Arizona said, running the pad of her thumb over her wife's caramel cheek. "It's all in the past now, over and done with. But I do have one more question."
"Okay?"
"You said you thought I was just rushing into this right?" She asked seeing the brunette nod. "What happened that convinced you otherwise?"
"What made me see that you were serious and not just jumping head first?" Callie asked, getting a nod in response. "Well seeing you with Robbin the day she was born.. I saw it in your face. You just... you lit the room up with your smile and I was certain then. And I had a lot of talks with Teddy after." She laughed. "She told me to make you sweat it out until Christmas."
"That bitch knew?" Arizona raised her head. "Wait.. the night we met everyone at Joes right before Christmas.. She knew then that you were going to surprise me on Christmas?
"Yep."
"And yet, you were still saying you wanted it to just be us for a while.."
"Yeah. I had to keep it up even though I knew you were getting upset. I didn't want to ruin the surprise, I wanted to shout it from the rooftops but I played it cool and with Nana being sick it wasn't that hard." Callie admitted.
"But in your office..."
"Don't.. okay. It was just me being stupid.. please don't think it was anything else." She said as a tear slipped out of her eye. She couldn't stand the way she acted that day and when she thought about the way she talked to her wife she felt ashamed.
"Okay." Arizona said, wiping her wife's face. She knew her wife was telling the truth so there was no use to keep harping on that day. "I love you." She said kissing her wife's red lips.
"I love you too." Callie said wrapping her arms back around her wife for a tight hug.
"We're okay, right?"
"We're more than okay, Arizona. We're going to have a baby." She smiled up at her wife. "And nothing else matters."
"Well, right now.. there is one thing that matters." The blonde said.
"What's that?"
"You." She said, rolling half way off her wife. "I let you love me, now I want to love you." She said kissing her neck. "Is that okay with you?"
"More than okay." Callie hummed as Arizona bit down in the skin she found.
"Stop fidgeting." Callie said, placing her hand on her wife's knee.
"What? I'm not." Arizona said, bouncing her other leg.
"Babe, why are you so nervous?"
"This is a big step in our lives, I just want the tests to turn out good. What if something's wrong with me and I can't carry?" She said softly.
"What makes you think that honey?" Callie asked her wife. They were sitting in Addison's office waiting on the red head to return with Arizona's test results. They had woken up early from their night spent on the beach so Callie could spend some extra time with her grandmother this morning before catching a flight back to Seattle for this appointment. Maria being slightly disappointed that they were leaving early but extremely excited for the girls, making them promise she would be the first they would tell when they had good news.
"Well." The blonde shrugged. "I had those cysts on my ovaries last year."
"Arizona, we've both have had checkups regularly, if something was wrong Addison would have told us already. And if by some chance something is wrong, we'll handle it okay?"
"Yeah, you're right." The blondes nodded. "I love you." she reached down and grabbed her wife's, giving it a squeeze before she turned to her and smiled.
"Love you too." Callie leaned over and pecked her lips as the door opened.
I've been sick, but I pushed through and finished this chapter. Hope you enjoyed.
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