Chapter 4

It had been three years and it was almost time to choose what branch of the military we wanted. The postings on who was in the top ten came out and I was number one beating Mikasa by only a bit. Mikasa had been my only rival throughout all three years.

I still hadn't made up my mind about Reiner even though he bugs me about it every day non-stop. Today the entire squad were going out to use our 3Dmg's just for a little refresher. I was standing just outside the forest with the other cadets when Reiner put his arm over my shoulder and nuzzled my neck.

"Hey there gorgeous" He whispered.

I laughed and a slight blush dusted my pale white skin. He caught it and grinned happily. Annie stared with a small smile on her face when Bertholt did the same to her and her face blazed red. I laughed at her reaction and patted her shoulder. Shadis came out and told us we could begin. We had only two hours to zip around. I instantly took off without hearing the rest of what he had to say. Flying through the trees was so invigorating and energizing. I couldn't help but smile while doing this. My smiles scared most of the other cadets because I never show any emotion. This though this made me grin like a child with a new toy.

While we were in the trees I heard a large crash and heard screaming. Then I realized that Bertholt and Reiner had been talking about taking down wall Sina to cause some ruckus among the humans. I hadn't believed they were serious though. I headed quickly for the wall and just as I expected the wall was broken and titans were pouring through. I almost transformed when someone put their hand on mine. I turned to see who it was and saw that it was Reiner.

"The only thing we can do now is to help our squad kill the titans" He spoke quietly.

I nodded solemnly and took off to help the others. Reiner just stood there and looked sadly at me. He knew that I was forgetting about our home. I found Jean and the other's and landed next to them. They all looked defeated, their faces crestfallen and dreary. Many were crying and some were throwing up.

"You all need to get up and fight!" I yelled.

"How? There are so many of them!" Jean screamed back at me.

"Fine then stay here and wait for your deaths" and I took off.

I headed for a titan who had his hand on a recruit. I realized that the recruit was Marco. I screamed at the top of my lungs when the titan moved Marco towards its mouth. I wasn't going to make it and just like that the titan bit Marco in half. I jumped onto the titans back and killed it in one hit. I then stood while the titan fell and I walked over to Marco. It had eaten only the bottom half of him but all the same his intestines were laying sprawled out on the concrete. I knelt beside him and took him into my arms. I wept thick heavy and hot tears for this boy. He was the first human to be kind to me even though I intimidated him. I felt his shallow breaths and stared at his bloody face.

"Kat I'm glad I wasn't alone in my last moments" He whispered his breathing becoming ragged.

"Oh Marco I'm sorry I couldn't get here in time" I sobbed.

"It's fine Kat I'm happy it was you though, I wanted to tell you for a long time Kat…I love you" He pushed out.

This made me cry even more and I laid his head on my shoulder. I kissed the top of his head and heard him sigh. Then he was gone, the nicest person I had ever met was gone. He didn't deserve this, no not at all. I fixed his hair and wiped the blood off of his freckled face. I placed one more kiss to his forehead before I left enraged at the attacking titans.

I sprinted to every titan I could see or catch and killed them all. When one got a hold of me I cut its fingers off and killed it quickly. I found I was surrounded at one point by five of them. I heard Reiner and Annie screaming at me to get out of there. Reiner began to run for me but before he could a titan picked me up and swallowed me whole. I transformed inside the titan and ripped it in half. The titan gore flung everywhere, even onto the other titans. I stood many meters taller that the titans. I took them all out in two hits. Then I screamed. I let out all of my sorrow and screamed as loudly as I could. it caused all of the surrounding titans to run towards me. By this point Eren had already changed and was helping Mikasa and Armin take back HQ so everyone could get their gas refilled. I was surrounded again by at least twenty titans. I let my anger go out at full force right then. I ripped their heads off and bit some in half. Most I could just stomp on and they would explode like a mosquito. Blood splattering every which way.

When I had come down off of my adrenaline rush I understood that I had to leave wall Sina before I turned back. So I placed my hand on top of the wall and leapt over it. I was being chased of course but I got away and found a forested area to quickly change back in. My gear was miraculously still intact and I made my ascent up the wall again. When I made it back to my friends Annie punched me full force in the face and I took it. Reiner flung me down onto the ground and my head hit the tiles on the roof with a resounding crack. He then straddled me and wailed on my face. I regenerated each time though and each time he would punch me. Until he couldn't handle it anymore and leaned down to kiss me. I was shocked but the thought of kisses made me begin to cry again thinking about poor Marco. Reiner held my face in his hands and wiped my tears away with his thumbs.

"Y-you're such an idiot Katherine Ward" He said.

I sobbed and nodded "I know." Tears rolled down my face faster than Reiner could wipe.

"Marco is gone. He's gone, I could have saved him but he's gone! I held him while he died! He didn't deserve that! He didn't-" I wailed out.

Annie and Reiner both had sorrowful looks on their faces. They looked down and way from me.

"He told me he loved me right before he died! Did you know that?! The beautiful sweet boy loved me and all I could do was let him die in my arms!"

Reiner looked back up at me, his eyes wet. I hugged him to me and cried into his shoulder. I felt him start to shake as I noticed wetness seep through my shirt.

After awhile we all decided to head towards the others. Bertholt sprinted towards us three with a huge grin on his face. "I did it guys!" He yelled out. My normal emotionless face was put back on and I shoved past him. He watched my back as I walked away. Then he looked back to the others and noticed their upset faces.

"Guys?" Bertholt questioned.

Annie followed after me without even glancing at Bertholt. He felt wounded by this but let her go. Reiner walked up to Bertholt at put his hand on his shoulder.

"Marco died in Kats arms" He told Bertholt.

Bertholts face contorted into sorrow. He turned again and watched me as I walked. It hit him that his childhood friends were becoming soft and starting to care for the humans. It wasn't like he didn't like Marco but humans couldn't be allowed to live. 'Kat of all people should know that' he thought. Reiner and him began their walk back.