*So sorry for taking so long to update. I have been ridiculously busy and exhausted, but here is the next chapter. I hope you enjoy it. I kind of struggled with the love scene, but I hope you all like it.
She looked at her watch, it was 11:00. She should really try to get some sleep if they were planning on leaving at 8:00. But she couldn't shut her brain off. She couldn't stop thinking about Chibs and how he was making her feel. The feelings she had for him was an exciting new development for her. The thought of anything happening between her and Chibs excited her and terrified her all at the same time. She knew he was a very experienced man, where she had only given herself to one man. She had only ever been with Opie.
She got up off the couch and went to the bathroom to take some Tylenol for her headache and then she quickly dabbed on some lip gloss. She wanted to talk to Chibs, but she really didn't know how to approach him on this one. Lately, he had been leaving her speechless.
She opened the door to her room and there stood Chibs.
"Going somewhere?" he asked her with an eyebrow raised.
"Um…I was…" she stammered. She was not expecting him to be there. "I was coming to see you," she said quietly.
His lip raised in a small smile. She could swear her heart was going to pound out of her chest. She smiled back at him shyly and her hands began to sweat. She couldn't believe how nervous she was feeling right now.
"Do you want to come in?" she asked him quietly, "The kids are in the bedroom sleeping."
"Sure," he replied, "If you don't mind."
She shook her head and she opened the door wider for him to come in. Now that he was here in her hotel room, she had no idea what to say to him. She had it all planned out in her head and now with him here, standing in front of her, her mind was blank. She looked down at her hands.
"Tania," she heard him say quietly, "Are you ok love?"
She looked at him all of a sudden feeling incredibly nervous and shy. He was wearing his jeans and a white t-shirt. He looked incredibly sexy.
"I'm ok," Tania replied as she continued to look down at her hands, "It was so quiet and I was lonely. I was coming to talk to you, but I guess you had the same idea."
As she moved past him to grab him a beer from the small fridge in the room she noticed the close proximity of him next to her. Good Lord, she thought as goose bumps broke out over her arms. This time there was nothing hiding them from his view. He moved so he was standing in front of her, blocking her way. He looked into her eyes and she couldn't look away. She got lost in his eyes. Where did these feelings come from, she asked herself.
"What is it you wanted to talk about?" he asked her softly.
She continued to look into his eyes and she took a deep breath. It was now or never.
"About earlier, on the way here," she replied quietly, "I don't know what you're feeling Chibs. I don't know what you're thinking, but the way you look at me, the way you are around me. It's confusing the hell out of me."
He stood there and continued to stare at her. She knew she had put it out there and it had surprised him.
"I don't know sweetheart," he replied, knowing that that was a pitiful response, "You kind of surprised me with that one. I thought I had plenty of time to figure out what I was feeling for you."
"Just tell me Filip," Tania said. He looked at her differently when she said his real name. It was a fiery look, a look of pure desire and passion. "Just lay it all out for me. How long have you felt this way?" Tania asked.
"These feelings returned when we came to help you move," Chibs replied, moving closer to her and putting his hands on her arms, "I felt this way back before you moved away and I managed to get over it when you left, but the feelings came flooding back."
"Why didn't you say anything?" Tania questioned, looking curiously at him.
"You're kidding right?" he scoffed, "You had just lost your husband and you certainly didn't have the same feelings I had for you. You thought of me as a father figure. And up until this afternoon, I thought you still felt that way. When did your feelings change?"
"The second you walked through my door in Arizona," she answered quickly, "There was something different about you. I no longer saw the man that basically helped raise me. I saw you. An incredibly strong and attractive man. Someone I know would keep me safe no matter what."
He smile at her again and began running his hands up and down her arms. It felt so good to feel his hands on her skin.
"What do we do Chibs?" Tania whispered.
"For once love, how about trying not to think," Chibs replied, "Just be in the moment. Lose yourself and then take it one step at a time from there."
Be in the moment, she thought to herself, looking down at her hands.
"Sweetheart, you're doin it again," he whispered.
"Doing what?" she said quietly.
"Thinking," he replied, his lip curling into a one sided grin.
She smiled back at him and giggled and then it got quiet. She looked up into his eyes and slowly moved her hand up and wrapped her hand around his arm, which was still holding her shoulders. She could feel the muscles in his arms and she so badly wanted to feel them wrapped around her.
She didn't break eye contact with him as she began running her fingers through the hair at the base of his neck. As she did this, he moved his hands down so they were resting on her hips and he slowly and gently pulled her close to him. She took a deep breath in once she was pressed against him. His body was strong and warm and she just wanted to sink into his arms and stay there forever.
"What's wrong love?" he asked quietly, breathing heavily. He put his hand under her chin and lifted her face up to look at her.
"I'm scared and nervous." Tania replied, smiling up at him shyly.
"Why?" he asked her, "It's just me. I'm not going to hurt you Tania."
"I know that," Tania said, "It's just that… well… Opie was my first everything Chibs. He was my first kiss and the only one I've kissed. And he was the only one I've ever had sex with. So I'm nervous."
"Do you want to be with me?" he asked.
"Of course I do," she whispered, "I've haven't felt like this in a long time Chibs. I'm just scared that I won't be good at it."
"Don't say that Tania," he said, moving in closer to her, which she didn't think was possible, "You are beautiful and sexy and I don't think it's possible for you to be bad at it. I don't want to push you Tania. I will go at your pace."
He didn't allow her to say anything else before he leaned down and gently pressed his lips against hers. His lips were warm and felt so soft against hers. She wrapped her arms around his neck and he lifted her up into his arms, her legs unconsciously wrapping around his waist, and he carried her over to the couch. He sat down with her straddling his lap and she opened her mouth to allow him access. His tongue moved against hers in such a passionate and sexy way that she moaned into his mouth. She could feel him hard against her as the kiss grew hungry and gently grinded herself against him.
"Jesus Christ," he mumbled against her lips, his hands moving their way down her body to her hips to hold her still, "You're gonna kill me love."
He bunched his hands in her hair after a moment and pulled gently as they continued to kiss each other with almost a desperation and need. She whimpered against his lips quietly and then reached down and pulled his white shirt over his head. He leaned down again and began kissing her neck. She let her head fall back as she felt his tongue move along her collar bone. He swiftly pulled her tank tap over her head and threw it on the floor before he continued his trail from her neck down to her chest. He kissed along the lace of her bra and then reached behind and unhooked her bra in one quick movement. He kissed her softly and licked at her nipples, causing her to moan in pleasure.
"You are beautiful Tania," he whispered, "More beautiful than I imagined."
He laid her down on the couch and undid her jeans. She nodded her head for him to keep going, she didn't want to stop now. It had been so long since she had made love to anyone and she wanted so badly. She wanted Chibs so much and she wanted him now.
"Keep going," she whispered, looking up at him, "Don't stop."
He pulled her jeans and panties off and she watched him as he admired her. He leaned down and kissed her deeply, pressing himself against her, making her grind her hips against him. He took that as a sign. He quickly undid his jeans and pushed them down and looked into her eyes and he slid into her.
"Oh my god," she moaned quietly as he filled her completely.
She reached out and grabbed him by the shoulders, pulling him down to her and wrapped her legs around his waist, pushing him as deep as she thought he could go. He began thrusting into her at an excrutiatingly slow pace, allowing her to get used to him. She closed her eyes and began to move with him, moaning every time he thrust into her. It felt so good, feeling him inside her and feeling how deep he was going. He kissed her lips, nose, forehead and then made his way back down to her neck as he kept thrusting. Her body felt like it was on fire and she wanted to cry out, but knew she couldn't for fear of waking the kids. Their lips met in a fiery kiss and she ran her fingers down his back as he began thrusting harder. Their bodies fit perfectly together and never in a million years did she every imagine this happening with him. She didn't want to stop making love to him. She always pegged him for a good lover, but she really had no idea until now, how good.
He sped up with his thrusting as they approached the edge together. He reached between them and began rubbing her clit as he continued to thrust inside her. She closed her eyes and whimpered, pushing herself against his hand. Within a matter of seconds she reached her climax, which caused him to orgasm shortly after her. He collapsed on top of her and they were both breathing heavily.
He pulled back a little and ran his hand through her hair while he looked into her eyes. She saw something that wasn't there before and she really hoped that they would be able to make this work.
"Beautiful," he said quietly, "Absolutely beautiful."