To be honest, she's confused.
She thought that the minute she was out of Melanie's body that her feelings for Jared would vanish - they were Melanie's feelings after all.
But they hadn't.
Instead it's just like before, loving Ian, but having some kind of connection to Jared, one that she can't explain.
And she doesn't like it - she knows exactly how much Melanie loves Jared and how much she loves Ian.
So why can't she get over him?
She doesn't know and she doesn't like it.
How is she supposed to look any of them in the eye feeling like this?