"Please promise me you won't do this to yourself again Lanes." His voice was hoarse. She didn't know what to say, she had finally found her release, and there was no way in hell she was about to give it up; it helped her to escape from the pain of reality. As much as she wanted to make that promise, she knew she couldn't do it without lying to him. She bit her lip as her thoughts raced, she couldn't lie to him, couldn't hurt him even more.
"Don't you dare lie to me Laney." He said as if he had heard her thoughts.
She sighed, "well then what do you want me to do? You want me to tell you that I won't do this anymore, and you also want me not to lie... I can't do that." Her words were honest, and unsettling to her friend.
"Then tell me you won't do it again, and mean it." She sighed and finally pulled her hand free.
"You don't get it Core, it's not that easy." She pulled her sleeve back down to cover her wrist.
"Then talk to me, you know you can tell me anything."
"Anything," She scoffed walking towards her bag, 'I wish you knew just how wrong you are.'
"Lanes, I already told you that you're not going anywhere tonight." He took her hand carefully, and pulled her behind him.
"I appreciate it, but you don't need to worry about me Corey."
"Yes I do need to worry about you, I want you to be safe from everything, and that includes from yourself. I'm not going to take no for an answer, so you'll just have to accept it; besides my parents are out of town too, so there's no need to worry."
She sighed and begrudgingly agreed to stay with him, it would only be for a days after all.
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She followed Corey into his house, pulling at her sleeve making sure to keep the cuts hidden from his view. "I don't want to intrude, I really shouldn't stay here without your parents permissions Core."
"And I already told you that they're out of town too, they took Trina vacation again, I stayed here for the band." He spoke, leading her up the stairs.
"Hey... do you maybe have something I could change into, and would it be cool if I shower?" She wouldn't usually be so shy at his house, but because of his relationship, she felt even worse; if she was Corey's girlfriend, she'd hate to have him invite another woman to stay with him.
"Sure." He opened the door to his room, walking to his closet and pulling out one of his old white t-shirts and a pair of sweatpants. "Do you have anything that could hurt you?" He asked holding the clothes while he stood in front of her. Laney hesitated, her knife sitting in her pants pocket. "Give it to me Lanes." He said sternly, "I don't want you to get hurt."
She shook her head, "no... You'll just have to trust me because I'm not going to give it to you."
He glared at her thinking for a moment before speaking, "if you aren't out here in 15 minutes I'm going to come in." He said handing her the clothes. "You know where you're going?" She nodded, turning and walking down the hall towards the bathroom.
She knew he would come in if she wasn't out, he'd stick to his word, so she hurried; turning the shower on and striping herself down. Laney stepped into the shower, the hot water burning against the cuts on her sides but the stinging sensation was welcomed as it traveled throughout her body. As she scrubbed her skin she took her time letting the water soothe her as it ran through her hair and down her back, her muscles relaxing finally; the suds from the body wash and shampoo drained from the tub and she turned the shower off, quickly drying herself off and dressing herself in Corey's clothing; Trina must have taken all of hers to college with her.
His shirt fit loosely, swallowing her petite frame the only part of her that was visible was the swell of her breasts, and the pants were way too large, she drew the drawstring, and rolled them down on her waist, and up on her shins. She tied her hair up on her head, before taking her knife from her pants pockets and hiding it in her bra knowing very well that Corey was going to search for it.
Sighing she exited the bathroom as she pulled her hoodie back on to cover her cuts and made her way back to Corey's room where he was waiting for her.
"Thanks again." She said, putting her worn clothes in her bag, she felt his eyes on her as she moved around the room. "I didn't do anything Core, I promise."
He nodded, "come on, let's go watch a movie or something."
So I know it isn't the best chapter, but it is what it is, I hope you like it. Please Review I love to hear your thoughts. I'll probably have the next chapter up tonight, so just wait for it, and yes it will be better.
I don't want to make anyone upset with this topic, but I feel like it's something that needs to be approached differently in our society, and it shouldn't be something that we aren't able to talk about but something that we are able to, so stick with me.