I was gonna put this AN, in the last chap, but, when Stan asks Sophia if she has a twin, and she answers him no. I find that part just heartbreaking, don´t you?

I could hear my heart pounding in my chest. It felt like a cold hand had gotten around my lungs and pressed them, I could not breathe. I squatted down next to the wall, I tried to breathe, when the door knocked and Mike came in.

"Sophia," he rushed across the floor and squatted down next to me.

"I… can´t… breathe."

"Hey, hey, look at me," Mike looked me in the eyes. "Sophia, you´re having a panic attack, try to breathe slowly... Come here," Mike embraced me, held me in his arms. Usually, I would push him away from me, but I didn´t want to, it felt quite good sitting like that, and slowly, the cold grip around my lungs began to ease. I pulled away Mike´s arms from me, and stood up.

"I´m sorry," I mumbled.

"No, no don´t say you´re sorry. Sophia," Mike laid his hands on my arms, and bent down to look me in the eyes. "What´s going on?"

"Nothing," I lied.

"I can see there´s something," I sighed, bent down to the floor and picked up the map, I let Mike take a look at it.

"The handwriting outside the parcel is Luce´s," I almost whispered. "This map laid on top of it all when I opened it. I think it means that he´s gonna come here."

"But… isn´t that good?"

"Have you even looked at the map?" I asked him. "Do you understand how dangerous this road is, he´s crossing the land- border from Gota to China over the mountains, then he´s travelling through China, without a visa. If he gets caught he´s never gonna get here, and there´s a good chance he´ll get killed, I´d say he´s not safe until he reaches Finland. But if he gets caught… I don´t even wanna think what could happen to him if he did."

"Sophia… Shouldn´t we hope for the best?" I could see clearly that Mike did not quite know what to say.

"Maybe... I should probably check through the rest of the box… Maybe it´s got a letter in it."

"Yeah.. ehrm," Mike scratched his head. "Ehrm, I´ll tell Johnny, Tyler and Joe to move your bed over here. But maybe you should come take the other stuff yourself!"

"Yeah, probably," I laid the map in the box again, and hid it in the wardrobe. Then I walked over to Tee´s room.

"Ehrm, Tee, I´ve put some of my things in this box." I held up the plastic box I´d hid under my bed with a drawing and the clothes I had worn when I came here.

"No," Tee said. "You can have it."

"Thank you." I carried the box over to my new room, on the way I passed the boys who was trying to carry my bed together over to the new room. I placed the box too in my wardrobe until I had the bed to put it under. I did not want the boys to have some idea to go through my stuff. Then I went back to Tee´s room to get my clothes. I took them all at once and then I started folding them, and putting them in the drawers at my bureau. When the boys had carried the bed into my new room, Mike came in with the sheets.

"You…" he gave me the sheets. "You know that you can paint this room however you want right?"

"Yeah, I know," I answered. "But.. can I have some time to think about how I want it first…"

"Yes of course, just tell me or Gina if you wanna go to the shop and pic out some colour or something else."

"Okay," I nodded. "Ehrm, could you leave me alone now?"

"Yeah, of course." I closed the door after Mike, and I pulled out the plastic box from the wardrobe, I placed it under the bed, that stood in a corner of the room, and then I pulled out the parcel I had got from Luce, I placed it on the bed, and opened it. The map I laid to the side, and then I pulled out the next thing. A tape, I thought I knew what was on it. But I decided to wait a moment with listening to it, there was also a videotape, but I really didn´t wanna look at that… not yet… and I hesitated of the fact that I´d ever be ready enough to watch it. I opened one of the drawers of my bureau, and hid the video tape under a T- shirt.

The next thing I pulled out of the box was thee bracelets, Each of them had a cross, and the rest of it was leather. One of them was mine, the other had belonged to Sophie, and the third had belonged to mum. I could see which one was who´s at the colors mine was purple Sophia´s was blue and mum´s was white. I knew that there was three more bracelets, I guessed that Luce had those, his was green, dad´s black, and Aaron´s was yellow. I pulled mine over my hand, and pulled the laces so it would suit my thin wrist. I pulled out three bracelets more, all with letter- pearls on. One of them created my name, another said "Aaron" and the third, "Luca." The next thing I pulled out a small leather- bag, and I placed all the bracelets in it. And hid it in the back of the lowest drawer on the bureau, that was empty so long. I now had both of my bracelets hanging from my wrist, and the rest of them hidden.

The next thing I pulled out was a rope, I and Sophie had used as a jumping rope. I hesitated on if I should hid that one too, but decided not to. And I laid it to the side, and pulled out the last thing that laid in the box, an envelope. I pulled out two photos, one with Luce holding me and Sophie as new borned- Luce was eleven years old at the photo, and he had a huge smile on his face.

The other photo was a photo of me, Sophie, Luce and Aaron, when Aaron was three- I and Sophie nine, and Luce twenty.

There were also a letter in the envelope, I sat down on the edge of the bed and read it

Hi Sophia

I cannot tell you how devastated I became when I heard the news about you, Sophie, and dad. How it must feel to you, that I can´t even imagine.
But Sophia, please, stay strong, I´m coming for you. Though, if you hate me, and never wanna see me again, I can really understand.
I´ve got the rest of the bracelets, I´ve also got the ashes.
But however you feel, and whatever you do, I love you, with all of my heart. Now, and for always

Luce

That was it, and I guess he had really tried hard, not too write something that could get him caught in the letter.

"I´ve also got the ashes," I whispered to myself, "What does that even mean?" Then a thought hit me, maybe dad, mum, Aaron and Sophie had been cremated, maybe those were the ashes Luce was talking about. I sighed, then held the rope in front of me. I took it and walked over to toy- cupboard, I tied one of the ends of the rope in the roof, and made a snare in the other end.

"If Luce dies," I whispered to myself. "I´m gonna go in here… and hang myself." I sighed, and hid the snare on the highest shelf. Then I walked out of the cupboard, and closed it behind me.

So… Luce is on the run through China without a visa… no good.
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