So. Here we are again. This is chapter forty, it feels like yesterday I started this story. And now I'm trying to update as much as possible because there is not too much left in the story. It will end sometime in the beginning of September (In the story, not reality) and you're going to find out if Luce makes it or not. So well… onto the chapter

Oh and btw, I finally found a cla for Sophia- and Sophie then of course. Jodelle Ferland.

Joe POV

"JOE" Just after Stan had left to open the door his voice echoed through the hallway and the tone in it made my insides feel like ice. Okay- there was definitely something going on. And Stan was definitely angry… I knew that voice!

"IS THERE SOMETHING YOU FORGOT ABOUT TELLING ME?"

The thought hit me right away, because apart from one thing Stan knew everything about me, and even if there had been something he didn't know about me there was one single thing that could make his voice sound so angry and chocked as it did right now and that only meant one thing.

My boyfriend had- when I didn't tell him where I lived, taken matters into his own hands, found out where I lived. Come here, Stan had opened and of course since I hadn't told Zachariah anything about my family or where I lived Zachariah thought that Stan was me and had greeted Stan like he would have greeted me.

I had counted that out already before Stan came walking into the living room his hand tightly holding onto Zachariah's hoodie pulling him after. Zachariah looked confused and somewhat scared and his hand hung down holding onto a bunch of roses instead of holding onto them tightly up like he used to when I met him.

"Zachariah I…" I didn't really know how to explain it so I silent, but decided to just say it right out. "Zachariah, this is my twin brother Stan. Stan, this is my boyfriend Zachariah. Everyone this is Zachariah, Zachariah meet everyone." I made a gesture and pointed to no one and every one in one move.

"Come on you two." I forced Stan to let go of Zachariah. "There is no reason to take this in front of everyone, let's go up to our room yeah?" I moved my hand down to take Zachariah's but he shook it away and I sighed helplessly. Oh boy!

People would usually believe Stan was the trouble maker- but the thing was I had an at least as good talent to end up in trouble as Stan, only a whole other kind of trouble than what Stan would end up in since Stan caused conflicts and I would just try my best to keep them away and get myself out of them.

"Listen… Stan" I showed Zachariah to sit down on my bed and Stan sat down by him. I was too nervous to sit down and stayed standing up twisting my hands around each other and then took a deep breath and started explaining.

I had known for quite a long time before actually came out to Stan that I liked boys in the way I maybe should have liked girls. I had never been comfortable with it but, so I came to Newcastle and started the school here and so I met Zachariah. The cute boy with the tousled hair and the brown eyes that made me feel all weak in the knees when they met mine.

And he had been open with it. And when people laughed about it he just shrugged it off and at last they'd get tired of it and eventually stop. And so… I had at last been alone with him one day and suddenly I had told him everything- knowing that at least he wouldn't leave my side and quit being my friend because of not liking it.

Then I had told Stan and he had not been comfortable with it, knowing that Zachariah would understand what I was going through I just walked out one afternoon. I and Zachariah had been good friends earlier so I had hoped that it wouldn't seem weird that I just showed up on his doorstep one evening- even though his little sister Samantha hadn't recognized me when she came to open the door.

And I and Zachariah had been sitting on his bed and I had been crying and told him what happened- not about that I had a twin brother but about a brother that didn't accept it and then… just like that we had… I guess we had just known that we were something special and… that we weren't meant to be just friends- if we had ever been!

And things had solved themselves, and Stan had slowly started accepting that I was who I was and who I had always been. But I had not wanted to tell him that I had a boyfriend yet because I was just not sure that he'd been accepting about that now when he finally was accepting that I was gay and… that there was yet another thing different in between us.¨

On the other hand, I hadn't told Zachariah about my family. Because if I told him about Stan then I would tell him about everything with Stan- and then I would have to tell him about my parents and then I would have had to tell him about living in care and it wasn't at all that I was ashamed of being a kid in care.

I was just afraid that he would be ashamed of being together with a kid in care.

"So that's the whole story" I said at last, my own voice sounding weirdly distant. "Stan, I understand if you hate me. But I hope that you can forgive me. Zachariah, I understand if you hate me. But I hope you can forgive me because I love you two guys more than anything else and you're too important to me and I really don't want to lose you."

The room fell all silent for a bit and then Stan stood up and clapped my shoulder. "You're still my bro man. I'm always going to be there for you…. I'll leave you two to talk alone." Stan went out the door and I silently sat down next to him, he had his empty hand lying on his lap open but I didn't dare to reach out and take it, after everything he probably never wanted to see me again.

The silence was just hanging in the air, someone could have dropped a feather and you would have heard it falling onto the floor. I wanted to reach out and take Zachariah's hand again, make what I had damaged whole again and tell him that I loved him. But as the coward as I was I didn't have the guts to say anything else.

"Joe…" Zachariah leaned forward and stroke his fringe away from his forehead. "What part of I love you don't you understand?" I didn't know what to answer to that. "And that you have a brother that have got strong opinions and likes to decide for others or that you live in a place like this isn't going to change that!" Zachariah reached out and took my hand in his. "I love you. Now as much as I ever did and I'm not angry at you."

I looked up, hoping that Zachariah wouldn't see that I was almost crying by this point.

"I'm just hurt that you didn't trust me enough to tell me from the start… And wondering why I didn't see you two in school and counted it out myself" I explained to him that they had put us in different parts of the school. "Oh that's' why. Well… Listen Joe, I don't care if you live here or on the street or with your parents or your brother or with all of these people. You are still you and I love you."

"I love you too." I whispered. And then it was silent again. "I would tell you about what happened with my parents but that might be too much to take in on one day. So how about going downstairs and greeting the others. They're sometimes really a pain in the ass but… they're good people." Zachariah nodded and smiled. "Let's go then."

Still holding onto each other's hands I and Zachariah walked out of the room and down the hallway and downstairs to the living room. "So… As I said… EVERYBODY" Everyone turned to look at me. "This is my boyfriend Zachariah, and Zachariah this is Sophia, those three I don't know they don't live here, Carmen, Jody…" I went through them all.

"It's very nice to meet you all" Zachariah smiled at them all. "Sorry Joe but I've got to go now. I've got to baby- sit my sister." I nodded and followed him outside to the parking lot to get to talk to him myself for a little while.

"So are you sure you're okay with all of this and all I said?" I asked coming out to the parking lot and I stopped and reached for Zachariah's other hand as well with my empty hand. "I mean… if you would never want to talk to me again after all of this because after all I told you some major lies to cover up for everything."

"I mean it Joe. It's okay. And I love you." I couldn't help but smile and looked down slightly and could see that Zachariah took a small step closer to me. "And…" I looked up again to see that his face was just a tiny little bit away from mine. "There is something I'd like to do to show you that I do since obviously telling you it's not enough."

Slowly Zachariah leaned even closer and closer to me until his lips met mine and… then I wasn't actually aware of what was happening until we pulled away from each other again and at the same time as it felt like only a split second had passed at the same time as it felt as years must have passed since everything was changed.

I hadn't noticed that the others had followed us, but I wasn't surprised when I heard them cheering and laughing from the porch steps. I sighed and then waited until they had gone inside again when I gestured to them until I turned to Zachariah again.

"People are always sneaky of what you're doing!" I said at first. "Welcome to the dumping ground!"

Sophia POV

I, Faiz, Magdolna and Alvaro walked up to my room after Joe had introduced everyone. And even though everything that was going on I couldn't help to feel kind of happy that Joe had found someone that he loved very much and very specially.

I'm not sure how long we were talking, only that a few hours later when Gina came up to my room and asked them if they wanted to eat dinner here Faiz stood up, told her that it was nice asking but no thanks. And then we said our goodbyes and then they walked home, but we all promised that now we wouldn't lose contact again.

I walked to the kitchen and sat down at the edge of the table as I usually did. On everybody's lips were Joe and Zachariah and everyone were asking Joe questions. I was quite grateful for it since otherwise there might have been more questions for me about Gota and Faiz and Magdolna and Alvaro and I didn't really feel like answering them now.

"Everyone." Mike had taken a call in the office and now came back. "There are two new kids arriving tonight, in a couple of hours. I'm not sure what their names are, I wasn't told that but they came into the care system only this morning so I want everyone to be at their best behavior when they come. They're brother and sister, and we will work out who shares with who when they arrive."

"Why do they have to come here?" Stan asked. "I mean you hear it yourself. All rooms here are taken."

"STAN" Everyone shouted at the same time scolding. Stan- who seemed to be in a bad mood again turned back to his curry chicken and didn't say anything else. I think he realized he was wrong and there was no way that Mike would turn down on children that needed somewhere to stay.

"Sophia." Mike came sitting down next to me. "Since I know that you were so good with Molli and everything I have been thinking that maybe we'll let that girl stay in your room. I don't know too much about her but I think she's about four, five years old. She's the younger of the siblings and she seems like a very sweet girl."

"Of course Mike. I wouldn't have anything against sharing with anyone." I smiled at him, he smiled back and nodded. I ate up and then went upstairs and started cleaning out with the few things that lied on the bed and on the floor and made the bed. Then I took the new things we had bought today- a zippered fleece shirt, a shoulder strap bag and a purple plastic lunch box with a plaid purple strap around it and put it where it was supposed to go.

We had also bought a purple beanie and new purple sneakers, the beanie I pulled on and then I switched shoes and put the old ones in the bottom drawer in my dresser where I also had the clothes from Gota and the jumping rope Shawn almost hung himself in amongst with a few other things I didn't want people to find.

At last I took a big shirt that we had bought and that was knitted in orange, yellow, green and blue and pulled it on instead of Lily's old hoodie. Then at last I took my pencils and the paper block and started drawing.

I was drawing a horse, he was black and standing proud on the edge of a cliff- he looked like Milo- the horse we had had at home and that I had learned to ride on and that always had been there when I didn't really feel like talking to people.

I didn't go downstairs again until I heard the knock on the door and new that those siblings were arriving and when I came downstairs a pair of children that looked very much alike came. The girl I already knew was four, five and she looked very tired and leaned against her brother who in jeans, T- shirt and an opened button up stood and glared to everyone that had gathered in the hallway.

"Heya losers!" The boy said at last- he might have been ten, twelve years old. "I'm Elias Patzer, this is my sister Ivy. But there's not really a point with knowing that since our parents will come and get us soon."

So… Elias and Ivy Patzer are portrayed by Drew and Millie Davis who are siblings in real life. They do have polyvores that I've made and more about them will turn out in the next chapter. Please don't forget to review and see you next time.