It was probably about time for me to write more for this, even if I'm sure nobody's reading this anyway lol. Well, I promised myself I would update all my fics that need to be updated last weekend but... I didn't even start writing for them. So here I am.
The thing is I'm always nervous about writing with Yaoi, because everything must come from your imagination since sexuality is not a regular thing on the cannon show. I don't want to make it look forced (Like, I don't want to make them gay just because I ship them with each other, you know?) but then again I'm not the best writer. I even thought about deleting this because of that.
But let's give this a try. I really need to take a break from writing Big Hero 6 fan fiction anyway. Nevertheless, I hope you enjoy!
After a few seconds of silence, James and Kendall let go of each other's hand and smiled. Before the silence could last long enough to make the situation awkward, Kendall cleaned his throat and James took a quick breath, rubbing his hands together.
"So..." Kendall started.
"So... I suppose we just keep on asking now?" James asked as he reached out for his flashlight that had fallen on the floor and adjusted it to make it brighter.
"Yeah, I guess so. Unless you want to stop playing. That would be fine by me."
"Hum, I want to carry on. Don't tell Logan I said this, but this is being kind of fun if you ask me." James smiled, pointing his flashlight to his face.
"Same." Kendall giggled. "It's your turn, by the way. You know, since I was the one who asked the last question."
"Ok, then. Let's see." James pointed his flashlight to the sheet in his hands. His eyes went from side to side until he found the right question, but his smile quickly turned into a frown when he finished reading it. Kendall raised an eyebrow, but before he could ask anything, James started to read. "'Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common'."
"Wait, really?" Kendall asked, taking the sheet from James' hand to read it himself.
"That's like, not even a question."
"I don't think it matters if it's a question itself or not. What worries me is that I don't really think we have three things in common." He bit his lip and tapped his foot, thoughtful. "Do we even have something in common at all?"
"Oh, come on, there must be something... We've known each other for years." James turned his flashlight on and off several times as he thought. "Hey, we both want to be like each other. Doesn't that count? It doesn't say it has to be physical or about the personality."
"I'm not sure… But, yeah, I think that we both can say 'I want to be like you' to each other…" Kendall pointed his flashlight to his feet to cover the slight shade of red that was taking over his cheeks, but then shrugged. "I guess that's something. But we still need to find two more things."
"Yeah, we do." James tapped his fingers on his knee as he looked around. After a while his head shot up and he snapped his fingers. "Hey, we're both bisexual! That's something we have in common, right?"
Kendall's eyes widened as his hand instinctively flew to James' mouth as he dropped his flashlight. "Shh! Are you crazy?" He looked to the door, nervous. His attention only came back to James when the latter poked him, looking at him in the eye with a confused look. He tried to say something, but his words were muffled by Kendall's hand.
Kendall's eyes grew wild when realization came to him to what he was doing. He quickly took his hand off his friend's mouth and wiped it on his shirt as he cleaned his throat and blushed again. "Sorry." He said as he sat back on his spot on the couch and clumsy grabbed his flashlight.
"What was that just now?" James asked, backing away a little from Kendall with a concerned look on his face.
"You can't say something like that so loudly! Carlos and Logan could have heard you!" Kendall whispered a little loudly.
"Hum, I don't think they would have heard me, Kendall. The rain is still falling outside and more, they may not even be outside anymore. They probably fell asleep when we started this thing." He smiled, but then he tilted his head. "And… What if they heard us? Why would that be a problem?"
Kendall looked appalled. "I don't want them to know! If I wanted them to know I would have told them by now! I didn't even want you to know, I just told you because of this game."
"Hum, Kendall… Can I ask you something that it's not part of the game?"
"Sure, what is it?" Kendall said as he moved a strand of hair away from his eyes.
"What would you do if you fell in love with another boy?"
Kendall let out a shriek after he accidentally pulled the strand of hair in between his fingers down and gasped because of James' question. As he rubbed the top of his head, he looked to James in disbelief.
"What? Why are you even asking that?"
"I just mean… If you fell in love with a boy and went out with him. That could happen, right? What would you do? Hide it from us forever or give up on the relationship or what? I mean, you wouldn't be able to hide it forever. We would find out eventually. So… What would you do?"
Kendall opened his mouth to answer, but then he closed it and looked at James with a blank expression on his face. He sighed and looked down. "I don't think you're allowed to ask anything other than these questions. So I can't answer that. By the way, we both like to sing. That's a third thing we have in common. We're done, next question."
"Kendall…"
"I ask now." He said as he picked the sheet up. "What do you value most in a friendship?"
"Honesty." James said, harshly. Kendall narrowed his eyes at him and scowled, shaking his head.
"Ok, what I value the most is respect. Next question, shall we?"
James rolled his eyes at the obvious tension. He shook his head and reached out. "I'm sorry. I… I don't really get what you feel, but I suppose that doesn't give me the right to force you to answer me if you don't want you to. I just really wanted to know." He said, shrugging.
"I… I'm sorry too. I'm sorry. I just… I don't know what I would do. But that's not a problem since I'm not in love with anyone at the moment."
"Hey." James said, putting a hand in Kendall's shoulder. "Whatever happens, or better saying, with whomever it happens, I'll be here for you. It's not like I would be surprised anyway."
"Thank… Thank you, James."
"No problem. I'm sorry if I crossed the line when I asked that, by the way."
"No, you didn't. I just…" Kendall crossed his arms and shrugged. "I just don't want to tell people and I don't want to think about telling them, you know? It scares me a little…"
"Why?"
"Because I don't know how they would react if I told them. I mean, what if they stopped treating me like they do because of that?" Kendall said as he frowned and scratched his arm, embarrassed.
"Why would they stop?"
Kendall sighed. "You don't get it, James. Some people don't respect homosexual people. Or bisexual, whatever. There are some people who think that people like me shouldn't even exist, and… I don't know, ok? I just don't want them to mistreat me or anything."
"Hey, first of all, it's 'people like us'. We're in this together, remember? We're both bisexual. And more, if you don't want to tell them, you don't have to. But if you ever feel like coming out, well, we can come out together."
Kendall sniffed and looked at James again. "Really?"
"Yeah, I don't see why not. That's what friends are for." James said, showing his fist. Kendall gave a shy smile and showed his fist as well, touching James' with his. After a moment of silence, they sighed in relief together.
"Next question?" James asked.
"I guess so." Kendall smiled. "It's your turn to ask, by the way."
"Okay. Let's see… Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time. Again, that's not a question." James rolled his eyes. "So, would you like to start or what?"
Kendall's eyes widened as he blushed. "Hum… You can go first."
"Okay. Let me think, what do I like about you?" He pointed his flashlight to Kendall and moved it up and down. "Does it have to be about your personality or can it be about your body and anything?"
"I… I don't know." Kendall said, looking to his feet and shaking his head. "I think it can be about anything, since the question didn't say it had to be about a certain aspect. But why…"
"Ok, so… I like it that you are always extremely calm about the most awkward situations, like I said before; I like it that you are always there to help your friends when they need you and I like your green eyes."
Kendall blinked in response. "What?"
"Now it's your turn." James said, smiling. "What do you like about me?"
Shaking his head, Kendall held his hands out. "Wait, wait, wait. You… What the…"
"Hum, are you ok?"
"How can you answer that so… So boldly? I mean, weren't you embarrassed about it? Also, you like my eyes? I mean, seriously, what?"
"Why would I be embarrassed about that? It's not like I was confessing my love for you or anything. Also, I have to be honest and I honestly like those things about you." He smiled and felt his face warm a little at what he was about to say. "And I told you… I didn't know I was bisexual but I looked at some boys. And I looked at you sometimes." James' cheeks started to get a deeper shade of red. "I love your eyes. When we look at you, they're the first thing we see. I love them."
Kendall felt his cheeks go red too as he tried to contain the smile that was starting to sprout on his face. He giggled a little and coughed. "Seriously? Nobody had ever complimented my eyes like that before. Not even Jo. Thank you, I guess." Then his eyes widened. "What do you mean, 'you looked at me'?"
"Hey, I didn't mean it in a creepy way. I just find you beautiful, nothing else. More than Logan and Carlos, that's for sure." James smiled as he tried not to laugh a little at Kendall's expression. "Now you have to tell me three things you like about me."
"Ok…" Kendall said, slowly going to another spot on the couch to increase the distance there was between them. "I… I like the way you always have a smile on your face. I think it helps me to relax. And… I like…" He tapped his foot as his silence lasted longer and longer.
"Wow, I'm sorry if there's nothing else about me you like." James said, pretending to be offended as he put a hand on his chest for a dramatic effect.
"No, it's not that." Kendall smiled. "I… I just need to think. It's not that easy to speak about my feelings, you know?"
"What feelings?" James raised an eyebrow. "You just have to tell me three things you like about me. It's not like you were going to confess you're in love with me or anything. You don't have to be ashamed or embarrassed about that."
Kendall gave a smile. "You know… That's something I like about you. You never overthink anything like I do. I don't know how, but you make things easier to me by being like that. Actually… I really, really like that."
"Thank you." James said with a proud smile that made Kendall laugh a little. "But you still have to say one more thing you like about me. Three things, remember?"
"Okay…" Kendall bit his lip and took a deep breath. "Wanna know, since you said you like my eyes, well… I like the way you look. I… I honestly think you're beautiful, James." Kendall looked to his flashlight to avoid James' gaze.
James blinked and then smiled, noticing how Kendall was starting to blush. "That's the good thing about being bisexual, hum? We can say things like that and we don't mind if someone calls us gay."
Kendall let out a nervous laugh. "I guess." He finally lifted his eyes from his flashlight to look at James and smiled when he saw his friend was doing so.
"Next question?" James asked as he rubbed his friend's back.
"Next question." Kendall smiled.
This took a while to be done. I started it around a month ago or so and only now finished it. Well, I enjoyed writing it, but let me know what you think. I may no delete this after all.
Thanks for reading! See you next chapter.
